Chapter 124 The Final Deal

"sacrifice……"

Thanatos seemed to have heard something funny. "From what I know, you've been living well these years. That can't really be considered a sacrifice, right?"

"The crime you committed is extremely heinous in my eyes, not to mention in the eyes of humans. In my world, you would be sentenced to be punished in Tartarus for eternity."

In this world, there is no one who knows the crimes of the organization who does not think it deserves death. The blood, tears, grievances, pain and struggles of the victims are all drowned in the cry of this giant crow, and there is no place to tell.

Their originally bright and brilliant lives became dark because a crow feather covered the sky.

Even if Thanatos is not moved by human emotions, he will still feel sympathy and compassion. He has the memories of many people, and those memories related to the organization are like a dark room where no light can shine.

Those who stay inside have no hope, no light, and may even gradually lose themselves.

If we tell him now that Karasuma Renya claims to be righteous, he would feel sorry for these innocent souls.

However, Karasuma Renya's way of thinking is different from that of ordinary people, or in other words, in his mind, he has formed his own complete set of logic that is not affected by any external interference.

"A heinous crime? No, the reason why I am considered a sin by the world is not because I want to become a god or kill gods, nor because I want to save the world, but because I am incompetent."

“I can’t solve problems by myself. I don’t even know how to solve problems, so I need to constantly sacrifice others to achieve my goals.”

"Just as I know that the dead will never come back, I am powerless to stop others from dying. I cannot prevent accidents and disputes, nor can I stop the natural law of birth, aging, sickness and death."

"I want to extend human lifespan. If I can't prevent death, I will make death come less frequently and more slowly. I hope to slow down the pace of their death. Is my idea wrong? Is it evil? I don't think so."

Karasuma Renye laughed softly, his expression was gentle and sad. Compared to Thanatos, perhaps he was more like the god who had compassion for the world.

"But the problem is that I am too stupid and incompetent. I have the desire but not the method, and I have the goal but not the ability. So I have to do a lot of experiments and sacrifice a lot of people to achieve my goal."

"I know that many people died in the experiment. There are special files for each experimenter, and I remember every one of them. If you only look at the experiment, I am undoubtedly guilty. But my purpose is just to reduce the number of deaths in this world, preferably no one should die."

"But if I were a god, I would just sit high on the throne and wave my hand to spread my blessings, so that people would live forever and have eternal health."

"At this time, no one will suffer because of my wish, and no one will accuse me of sin. They will even praise my mercy and kindness."

"My Lord God, do you understand? I sacrificed them not because I wanted to, nor because I am evil by nature, but because I am incompetent."

"But when I have the power to change everything, I will no longer be evil, but justice."

"And you, Lord God, you clearly have the power to change everything. You could easily save them without having to sacrifice so many people like I did, but you refused to save them. Between us, who is the real evil?"

Kindness has always been a gift from the superior to the inferior. If he wanted to challenge the gods in human form, he would not be able to care about kindness. But the gods who are truly superior chose to stand by and watch.

So, should we condemn his desire to survive as a weak person, or should we condemn Thanatos' indifference as a powerful person?

But Thanatos didn't feel the slightest bit of being scolded. He looked at Karasuma Renye calmly and said, "But I am not a human being. I have no obligation to save humans. Humans are just food to me. If food is scarce, you would choose to plant more seeds and apply more fertilizer instead of killing yourself and burying yourself in the ground."

"But you are right. To the gods, there is no right or wrong, good or evil in the world. As long as you have the ability to change this world, everything you say is true."

"But you are a human, Karasuma Renya. Morality has always been a shackle that humans must carry on their path to reproduction. If you break through the shackles, you will naturally be considered evil. The killing of your own kind will not change because of your goal."

"I understand what you want to say. Morality is only meant to constrain humans who lack power. But your goal is to be on par with gods, so human morality should not constrain your behavior."

"But I can tell you that morality is a kind of restriction and a kind of protection, and rules are also a kind of restriction and protection. If you want to break through the morality and rules of being a human being, you will have to pay the corresponding price."

"Are you sure you want to do this?"

Thanatos has already understood Karasuma Renye's intention, and He has no intention of stopping him.

Karasuma Renya seemed to have misunderstood the relationship between him and the Stone of Original Sin. He thought that by killing himself, he could end the cycle of this world.

After all, from Karasuma Renya's perspective, it is because of the appearance of Thanatos that this world continues to cycle and human souls continue to decrease.

He believed that everything was due to the coming of Thanatos and was His fault.

And if he could kill God, then everything would change.

Karasuma Renya sensed that Thanatos was afraid of retrieving the remains, and believed that retrieving the remains would lead to the death of the god, so he tried to trick Thanatos into accessing his heart.

He had no idea what had worked, and he could only superficially throw the whole thing into the trap.

Unfortunately, Thanatos discovered something unusual and did not follow his heart to retrieve his heart. After all, Karasuma Renya's power was time, so his heart must have been infected with original sin.

For Karasuma Renya, since the only method he could think of to kill a god had failed, he was forced to take the second path - becoming a god.

After becoming a god, he will reverse time and turn the world back to the day when Thanatos had never arrived.

This is a pretty crazy plan, and the success rate is close to zero. Even if Karasuma Renye's body has been affected by His Heart for hundreds of years, his body will never be able to withstand the impact of becoming a god.

But Thanatos had no intention of stopping her. Since Karasuma Renye had made her choice, he would never interfere with her choice.

only……

Karasuma Renya looked at the god in surprise, and there was a trace of confusion and sympathy in his eyes. It seemed that the other party was puzzled as to why his choice was so wrong, and pitied that his result was so tragic.

"It seems that you already know what I want to do, and you know that this will not end well," Karasuma Renye pondered for a moment, "I will die?"

"No... it's worse than death"

The result of becoming a god with the authority of time is the same as that of space: being eaten away bit by bit by the world line, and then clearly watching oneself being dismembered and killed.

Thanatos thought for a moment and described it in a way that humans could understand: "It's like putting you in an iron barrel and putting a mouse in it. When the mouse is hungry, it gnaws your muscles; when it's thirsty, it drinks your blood; when it wants to play, it uses its claws to dig out your internal organs."

"You can feel the rat's broken teeth biting your skin, your blood flowing through your body. You can feel the rat's dirty claws scratching your muscles, and the furry rat head buried in your internal organs."

"You clearly know that you are waiting to die, but during this period, you can only stay awake and there is no way you can even fall into a coma."

"Your head will not fall into the bucket until all your bones are eaten away. You can see the rat, which has become fat because of you, and it is looking at where to eat you next. You will gradually lose consciousness and thinking in the process."

"But this is good news, because you can finally die."

"Unfortunately, this is not a torture that humans can endure. Humans often use the phrase 'cutting into pieces' to describe the horror of a punishment, but compared to this, cutting into pieces is just a piece of cake. Mr. Karasuma Renya, you may not be able to bear it and have a mental breakdown the moment you are put into the barrel. But by then, you will no longer have the right to regret."

"And you have misunderstood something. The Wuornos you mentioned is indeed just a concentration of power and energy. Strictly speaking, it will not kill me, but will only make me stronger. What really killed me was that I usurped the rule of the sky."

"And the reason why I don't want to take back the power is very simple. I have experienced it once, so I don't want to experience it a second time."

"If you think you are willing to sacrifice yourself and can endure this torture that will never end, then go ahead."

Karasuma Renya's expression did not change. He raised his head slightly and looked at the sky which he could not see in the basement. "I have killed 26,793 people in total. If killing one person requires ten years in prison, I will need to serve 267,930 years. Will I live that long?"

Thanatos chuckled mockingly, as if mocking Karasuma Renya's ignorance, "I don't know, after gaining the authority of time, the human time scale cannot measure your time. If you are lucky, it will only feel like a moment, but if you are unlucky, it may be eternity."

"If you can understand the meaning of this sentence and are still willing to sacrifice for it, I also agree to hand over all my current authority to you to help you walk and fulfill God's way."

"Um?"

Karasuma Renya frowned slightly, his eyes full of doubt, "You obviously don't want to die, and you don't want to sacrifice for humanity. Why are you suddenly willing to help me?"

"Help?" Thanatos shook his head with amusement. "No... I don't want to die, but if the world line just needs a god to fill His hole with his life, and you are willing to be the one to fill the hole, why shouldn't I lend a hand? Once you fill the hole, He won't keep staring at me to kill me."

"I have been a god for a long time, and this position is not as good as humans imagine. There are things that humans are powerless to do, and gods are powerless to do the same. If I can still be a god after everything is over, I will naturally be happy. If I can't, and the world line chooses to take away all the authority in my hands, I don't mind."

"There's nothing wrong with being a human. I might even be able to be a chef and make delicious pastries."

"But you, Karasuma Renya, there is no end for you. You will be trapped in eternal despair, a despair that is much more desperate than anything you are experiencing now. Are you really mentally prepared for this?"

Karasuma Renya was silent, not because he was afraid, but because everything was different from what he imagined. He thought that at the end of the story, he would either trick the gods into killing him, or he would force himself to become a god, and then be killed by the gods like crushing a bug.

He may end up as a despicable villain or a ridiculous clown.

In his plan, he never thought that he could actually become a god.

But now, he felt like a lone hero saving the world, which was somewhat funny.

"I never thought that humans could really change the world... but now I am that human being, and it feels amazing. If my sacrifice can bring everything to an end, there is no reason not to try."

"I will become a god and turn back time to the beginning of everything."

"I will end this endless cycle of nightmare."

The more Karasuma Renya spoke, the calmer he became. He had already prepared himself mentally.

Seeing this, Thanatos' eyes flashed with helplessness and sympathy. Humans can only speculate about unknown things based on existing knowledge, and they cannot imagine things they have never seen. Therefore, Karasuma Renya did not know what he was facing.

But as Karasuma Renya himself said, he killed 26,793 people. If killing one person requires ten years in prison, he will need to serve 267,930 years. In reality, he will not live that long, so his so-called sacrifice cannot even atone for his killing.

"In that case, let's go back and retrieve all the remains. I will help you become a god."