Chapter 90, Part 1 "Okay, don't regret it."

When Qin Lang encountered conflict with outsiders, he always chose to let it go. To avoid conflict, Qin Lang always pretended to be withdrawn and dull, not making friends, and not engaging in deep emotional exchanges.

When he was a child, he often fought for Qin Lang.

Haha, he often worried that Qin Lang was bullied, but Qin Lang didn't appreciate it!

("Let's go play together."

"No."

"It's none of your business. Go!"

"Don't pull me...let go!")

(“If I don’t call you, will you not contact me?”

"Um."

"Ah? You're still huh?! Forget it, let me tell you, today..."

(“Can we choose the same university?”

"not good."

"Ah? You've gone too far! I'm really angry this time!")

It would be fine if she didn't appreciate it, but he was always the one who took the initiative to ask Qin Lang out to play and reached out to hold Qin Lang's hand.

Although Qin Lang would stop and let him hold his hand when he reached out, Qin Lang never took the initiative to contact him!

So he decided not to contact Qin Lang again.

"Hello? Are you there? Don't give the materials away to others. Give them to me! I can also make the equipment you want."

("Come with me to fight the boss.")

(“This pain number is too painful! Help, help, help! Help me broadcast it live!”)

("Come and do the quest, freshly baked legendary quest!")

("Here's your account and password, help me clear the dungeon. Give me your account and password, and I'll help you clear the storyline.")

(“Hello, hello? Are you online or offline?”)…

Xia Xifeng slowly raised his hands to cover his face, feeling angry and embarrassed.

He was tired of always taking the initiative to contact Qin Lang. So after going to college, he vowed never to contact Qin Lang again.

The tools you contact in games are not included!

He really didn't talk about life with Qin Lang again, nor did he take the initiative to ask Qin Lang to play. He just needed a tool person to help him collect materials and defeat bosses.

Finding other friends would be too much of a hassle, and hiring a professional booster would be expensive and less skilled than Qin Lang. Qin Lang had a leisurely undergraduate life, but things only got busier after graduate school, so he naturally chose to exploit Qin Lang.

He didn't think anything of it at first, but these things played out before his eyes, making him feel like... like...

Xia Xifeng put his hand down in despair and said angrily, "Ah, yes, yes, I just say one thing and mean another. I can't really break up with you!"

He just couldn't let Qin Lang go. He felt that if he let go, Qin Lang would really disappear and no one would be able to find him.

He knew that Qin Lang had a good relationship with his parents and was very respectful to his teachers. Although his interpersonal relationships were weak, he had a good reputation among outsiders. He was like an ordinary person who just didn't like to socialize.

But Xia Xifeng had this illusion.

There were also many fragments of memories without Xia Xifeng appearing in the distance.

The fragments of Xia Xifeng's memories appeared and were attracted to Xia Xifeng, floating around Xia Xifeng, appearing and shattering one by one.

Countless soap bubbles surrounded Xia Xifeng.

The gray-black tentacles climbed up Xia Xifeng's legs again. Xia Xifeng's mind, which had just cleared up, became chaotic again.

The equipment he was wearing seemed to be non-existent, and the tentacles climbed up his legs and wrapped around his limbs again.

He could feel the spiritual tentacles caressing every inch of his skin, penetrating into his soul, so cold that it made him shiver.

Although they are tentacles formed by the spirit, they seem to be sculptures made of ice that has not melted for thousands of years.

The skin being caressed feels itchy, its temperature rises, and it turns pink.

But no matter how warm his body was, it couldn't warm the coldness that clung to him. The higher his body temperature, the colder he shivered.

Wisps of divinity flowed through his spiritual tentacles, seducing Xia Xifeng's hidden thoughts, thoughts that he himself might not even be aware of.

Many negative emotions that had been suppressed by morality and law in the past burst out from his heart, and selfish thoughts emerged one by one.

What is the absolute self? It is selfishness.

Xia Xifeng regained consciousness for a moment and realized that the collapse of Qin Lang's sea of ​​consciousness was due to the divinity of the God of Self.

How could the divinity of the God of Self be present in Qin Lang's sea of ​​consciousness?!

He understood this, but he didn't know how to wake Qin Lang. Even his own consciousness was entangled in the divinity of the God of Self, as if his soul was caught in a net, dragging him deeper and deeper into Qin Lang's sea of ​​consciousness.

Xia Xifeng saw more memories about Qin Lang that he didn't know about.

For example, in order to help him level up the Pain Account, Qin Lang privately opened a Pain Account with all professions and trained silently for a long time before he could successfully level up every time.

Huh? Didn't Qin Lang say it wasn't a problem?

Xia Xifeng frowned slightly.

At first he just "saw" it, and later he directly "experienced" it.

He realized how Qin Lang's "self" was entangled, bound and suppressed by Qin Lang's own "rules of reality".

Qin Lang never kills (except mosquitoes)...

Qin Lang never takes revenge on others afterwards...

Qin Lang never takes the initiative to contact me...

(“I can’t become a psychopath.”)

What bullshit! You're not a psychopath! Even if you did all this, you wouldn't become one! How could you become a psychopath that easily? And how could someone contacting you turn you into a psychopath? This is too weird!

Just as Xia Xifeng was cursing Qin Lang with the little bit of consciousness he had left, he felt the freezing cold penetrate his body, and his consciousness also merged into Qin Lang's consciousness.

He seemed to want to merge into Qin Lang's sea of ​​consciousness, become completely one with Qin Lang, and be completely swallowed up by the spirit mixed with divinity.

He had a feeling that his own memories were also being looked through.

"Gurgle...cough cough cough!"

Xia Xifeng came back to his senses.

His waist was entangled by a mist tentacle and he was suddenly pulled out of the "water".

The crystal wall had shattered. Qin Lang, still bound by spikes and chains, was staring at him face to face.

He had no expression on his face, but Xia Xifeng knew him so well that he could see at a glance that Qin Lang's violently fluctuating eyes revealed embarrassment and depression.

Well, it's just that I saw some of your memories, so why should I be embarrassed? Don't we know enough about each other's dark history?

Xia Xifeng hugged the thick tentacles and shivered: "I'm almost freezing to death!"

Qin Lang's eyes flickered slightly.

The tentacles wrapped around Xia Xifeng's waist slowly warmed up, and Xia Xifeng's pale face regained color.

"Alive, alive." Xia Xifeng continued to hold the tentacle with one hand and stretched out the other hand to Qin Lang, "Don't stand there, come closer, I can't touch you."

【What if you bump into me? 】

Qin Lang's lips did not move, but the voice appeared directly in Xia Xifeng's mind.

Xia Xifeng stretched out his arms as hard as he could: "Of course, I'm going to find a way to remove your seal. You're already awake, what else do you need a seal for? Hurry up! If you don't want to take me there, put me down and I'll walk over by myself."

Qin Lang didn't answer immediately.

Xia Xifeng said sourly, "I'm used to it anyway. Put me down and I'll walk on my own."

Qin Lang moved his fingers, the chains rubbed against each other, and blood stains appeared on the spikes.

Xia Xifeng was shocked: "Don't move! Wait for me to come over!"

"Click."

The chains broke and the spikes snapped. Qin Lang staggered and half-knelt on the ground.

Xia Xifeng shuddered and felt as if his whole body was in pain.

He tried hard to pull out the mist from his waist: "Let go, let go! Let me pass!"

Qin Lang took a deep breath, stood up unsteadily, took a step forward, and grabbed Xia Xifeng's hand.

He pulled with his hand, and the tentacles that were restraining Xia Xifeng's waist melted into a ball of mist. Xia Xifeng fell forward and landed in his arms.

Xia Xifeng instinctively hugged Qin Lang, then let go with a snort: "Did it touch your wound?"

"Don't move." Qin Lang's arms tightly held Xia Xifeng and dragged Xia Xifeng to the center of the platform.

For some reason, the mist began to boil again, this time attempting to submerge the platform.

But when they approached the platform, they could no longer get any closer. The mist transformed into a surging tide, crashing against the platform again and again. The platform stood like a solitary cliff amidst the tide.

Xia Xifeng carefully put her arms around Qin Lang's neck to avoid touching his wound: "Isn't that your sea of ​​consciousness? Why doesn't it listen to you?"

Qin Lang's voice was weak. "I was tricked by the God of Self and the God of Death. They mixed the God of Self's godhood with the godhood of the Outer Gods, and then came up with something and stuffed it into me. Even the system couldn't stop it."

"Maybe He just wants to give you his own godhood, and adding the external godhood is just to break through the protection of the Heavenly Father on us." Xia Xifeng analyzed while throwing red and blue pills on Qin Lang's unlocked status bar.

"Why can't my health and mana add up? They're still locked at '1'." Xia Xifeng was so anxious that she started crying. "What should I do...what should I do..."

Qin Lang's body stiffened when he heard Xia Xifeng crying.

He hesitated and moved his arm, gently stroking Xia Xifeng's back: "I'm fine, don't cry."

"I didn't cry!" Xia Xifeng lowered his head and rubbed his eyes hard with Qin Lang's shoulder. "I'll try again!"

No matter what kind of enhancing medicine it was, Xia Xifeng smashed them one by one.

Nothing. All of it.

Qin Lang's status bar seems to be unlocked, but it is actually still locked. Not to mention adding blood and mana, no status can be added.

Xia Xifeng could only watch Qin Lang's health bar and blue bar remain at "1", as if they would disappear if he blew on them.

He buried his shoulders in Qin Lang's shoulders, and his body trembled more and more violently.

Qin Lang felt the wetness on his neck and was at a loss for what to do. He could only continue to stroke Xia Xifeng's back.

"I don't believe that there is nothing I can do!" Xia Xifeng rubbed Qin Lang's shoulders twice again and said gritting his teeth.

Listening to Xia Xifeng's rejuvenated voice, Qin Lang felt like laughing.

It was always like this. Xia Xifeng would always quickly get out of his low mood, no matter if it worked or not, he would just try his best.

An optimistic fool and a spiritual halfling.

Xia Xifeng put his hands on Qin Lang's shoulders and pushed Qin Lang away who was hugging him.

Qin Lang: “?”

Xia Xifeng patted Qin Lang's shoulder and said confidently, although without any reason, "Since your sea of ​​consciousness is overflowing, you might win if you swallow it! Now that you can't swallow it, it must be because you lack a medium. I see that your sea of ​​consciousness is always chasing me, maybe I am that medium! Huh? What's that look in your eyes? Believe me! There is no other way anyway, why not give it a try!"

Qin Lang put away his suspicious look: "It's very dangerous."

Xia Xifeng patted Qin Lang's shoulder again: "It's not dangerous, I trust you! Even if it's out of control, your sea of ​​consciousness is still your own consciousness, and it will definitely not hurt me!"

Qin Lang again: "..."

It's always like this. When facing Xia Xifeng, he always has a lot of trouble in his heart that he can't express.

He doesn't even believe in himself, so why should Xia Xifeng believe in him?

Qin Lang raised his eyebrows, and the corners of his mouth curled up as if in sarcasm, as if in self-mockery: "You have already seen my memories, and you still say such words?"

Xia Xifeng was confused: "I have seen it, so why? Why not?"

Qin Lang: “…”

He was silent for a moment. In order to prevent Xia Xifeng from rushing out, he was seriously injured and couldn't stop him. He said with difficulty: "Do you remember why I never contacted you?"

Xia Xifeng became furious when he heard this: "Because you are sick!"

Before Qin Lang could react, Xia Xifeng continued, "You said you were sick! You contacted me and I'm sick! I think you're sick! Even if you hurt me, so what? How can I be angry with you?"

Qin Lang: “???”

He was always worried that he would become mentally ill, disrupt his peaceful life, and hurt the people he cared about.

I definitely haven't become a psychopath yet, but Xia Xifeng is really a psychopath.

What do you mean by "How can I be mad at you?" Listen to this, isn't it crazy?

Xia Xifeng continued to hold Qin Lang's shoulders with one hand to prevent him from retreating, and patted his chest fiercely with the other hand: "Don't worry. You will never hurt me!"

Qin Lang was really powerless.

So I don’t even trust myself. Where on earth do you get so much trust in me?

"Okay, don't regret it." Qin Lang didn't know what his subconscious mind, which was aroused by his own self and the divinity of the outer gods, would do.

Just like he didn't know what he would do if he took the initiative to approach Xia Xifeng.