Chapter 150 has been found.

"I……"

Shen Shuangmiao opened her mouth, but for a moment she was speechless.

After a long while, she closed her eyes in anguish, her voice choked with sobs.

"If I tell him that if I use this child to bind him, even if he survives, it won't be because he wants to live, but because of responsibility and guilt. Am I going to use this child to hold his life hostage?"

"And then there's myself..."

Shen Shuangmiao opened her eyes, her mind in turmoil. "If I give birth to this child, then I will truly never be able to completely separate from Zhu Jin for the rest of my life. I will use my own strength and..."