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The meal ended with Yan Feiyu daydreaming, and the result of his daydreaming was that he had all kinds of strange dreams all night long.

He couldn't turn back into a man, but that was the least of his worries. He even dreamed of giving birth in the hospital. Awakened by this strange dream, he sat up groggily, hugging the quilt, until his stomach began to ache again.

No wonder the pain in the dream was so real... Yan Feiyu sighed and fell back into the bed with his head covered.

The heating pad stuck on his pajamas had already cooled down, and the hot water bottle had been kicked under his feet. The room without air conditioning was a bit stuffy, but when he moved, he felt cold sweat all over his body.

He lay paralyzed for a while, but the sticky feeling on his body made it impossible for him to lie down any longer, so he endured the stomachache and went to take a shower.

When Xun Guang opened the door and came in, he saw Yan Feiyu walking out of the bathroom step by step with a towel covering his head.

"Have you taken a shower?"

"Well, it's too uncomfortable if I don't wash. I'm all sweaty." Yan Feiyu moved to the sofa and lay down. He felt weak all over. He didn't want to move his hands or wipe his hair.

Xun Guang heard this and warned: "Be more careful and dry your hair quickly. Be careful not to catch a cold."

Yesterday he looked up a lot of things that girls need to pay attention to during their menstrual period. It said that girls' immunity will be reduced during this period, and they will easily catch a cold if they are not careful.

Yan Feiyu waved his hands: "I'm not that delicate."

"I remember you sneezed yesterday."

"That's because the air conditioner was turned on too low yesterday. If I don't turn it on today, I won't catch a cold in this weather."

After hearing what Yan Feiyu said, Xun Guang didn't say anything more. He knew that Yan Feiyu was afraid of heat, and not turning on the air conditioner in this hot summer was already his biggest concession.

Putting the vegetables he bought into the kitchen, Xun Guang leaned out of the kitchen and said, "I didn't expect you to get up so early. I'll make something for you. If you're hungry, why not have some fruit first?"

Then he thought of something and said, "Let's eat together after I finish cooking. The fruits in the refrigerator are too cold."

"Are you going to change your job and become a househusband?" Yan Feiyu said jokingly while looking at the kitchen from the side. "Why don't you just order takeout? Why do you get up so early in the morning to buy groceries? Isn't that too much trouble?"

"The takeout nearby is either spicy or fried. Do you want to have a stomachache?" After saying that, Xun Guang went straight into the kitchen and started cooking.

Yan Feiyu was lying on his side on the sofa. From this angle, he could just see a corner of the kitchen. He blinked and saw Xun Guang walk to the corner where he could see him to get the dishes. He bent sideways and opened the cabinet, then turned his head and glanced towards the living room as if he had realized something.

Yan Feiyu almost subconsciously pulled the towel off his head to cover his face.

In the darkness, he could hear his own heartbeat clearly. After a moment, he pulled back the towel and looked over again, but Xun Guangren was no longer in that corner.

He slowly got up from the sofa, picked up his phone, and absentmindedly refreshed the video website.

In fact, there was a time when he could not accept the homosexual community. He even felt physically uncomfortable when someone mentioned it. If I had to describe it in one word, it would probably be "homophobia."

In fact, their family has always been very open and tolerant, especially his mother, who taught him not to bully the weak and not to discriminate against others. It stands to reason that growing up in such an environment, he would not have too much rejection of this group even if he was not one of them.

But he met a person between his third year in junior high school and his first year in high school, who immediately gave him a bad impression of the entire gay community.

Although Yan Feiyu is the only child in the family, he has a cousin with whom he has a particularly good relationship since childhood. She started dating a boyfriend who was their college classmate. Less than a year after they started dating, his sister brought the boyfriend home and introduced him to his family.

When they first met, the family had a good impression of this boy, especially Yan Feiyu. In fact, since my cousin went to college, the two of them had less common language. After all, they were of different genders and had different hobbies. This time, my cousin brought a "brother-in-law" back. Yan Feiyu was particularly friendly to this man because he loved him. In addition, this man could talk to him about games and basketball stars, so his relationship with this "brother-in-law" was getting better and better.

Although this family is not local, they live in the county town under their city, so the two of them stayed in his sister's own house during the holidays. Seeing that her boyfriend and Yan Feiyu have a good relationship, his sister came to their house more frequently.

At that time, whenever my cousin and that man came to his house, my cousin would pull his mother to the living room downstairs to talk, and that man would either go out to play ball with him or go to his room to play games with him. Although the physical contact between the two was sometimes too intimate, he thought it was just a normal touch to express a good relationship.

More than half a year passed like this. Yan Feiyu was promoted to high school and needed to live in a boarding school. One time when he returned home, he overheard his mother say that his cousin seemed to have some problems in her relationship. He was very surprised and thought of asking that person when he had time.

Before he could go look for her, she appeared in front of him.

That night, Yan Feiyu and his roommates sneaked out of school to go to the Internet cafe to play games. Before they reached the Internet cafe, they saw two people pulling each other into an alley not far away.

Others didn't notice, but he recognized the man at a glance. He was still very naive at the time, and seeing this situation, he was afraid that his "brother-in-law" would have a conflict with others and suffer a loss in a fight, so he hesitated for less than two seconds and ran over.

As a result, as soon as he reached the entrance of the alley, he saw two people entangled like wild beasts in the dim alley. One was his "brother-in-law" with whom he had a good relationship, and the other was a handsome man.

When the people who came with him pulled him back, he suddenly came to his senses. He looked at the man he had knocked to the ground, then looked at his own hands. He pushed away Xun Guang who was pulling him, squatted in the corner and vomited.

Later he asked the other person who was shocked by him, and that person said that his "brother-in-law" was actually gay and had been in an affair with him for two years. His family also knew about his situation, but still required him to get married and have children to carry on the family line, and his sister was the one chosen to carry on the family line.

The man also said that his 'brother-in-law' was actually a habitual cheater who liked to hook up with younger-looking boys, but he was good at sweet-talking and was proactive in admitting his mistakes, which was why he had never broken up with him.

Yan Feiyu thought about the few times he had been with him. He felt so nauseous that he couldn't eat for several days and lost several pounds.

Afterwards, his sister naturally broke up with the man, but she did not tell her family about what happened and only told Xun Guang.

From then on, he developed an aversion to the gay community. Although this feeling has dissipated a lot after a few years, he did not expect that Xun Guang, whom he had regarded as a brother since junior high school, was also a member of the community.

But Xun Guang said that he just liked him as a person, so Xun Guang was probably not gay. And if you think about it carefully, Xun Guang had never done anything out of line around him. Compared with his previous 'brother-in-law' who always liked to make advances, if Xun Guang had not confessed his feelings to him after drinking too much that day, he might never have realized Xun Guang's feelings for him in his life.

Put yourself in Xun Guang's shoes and think about it. Not only is the person he has always liked same-sex, but this person is also homophobic. What a tragedy this is.

All sorts of messy thoughts were running through his mind, but Yan Feiyu's hands didn't stop moving, and he accidentally clicked on a video.

I looked down and saw the title of the video was - Daily life of a couple, cooking, eating, and reading comments.

Without headphones at hand, Yan Feiyu turned down the volume as if he was guilty. Xun Guang was cooking in the kitchen and certainly couldn't hear it, so he clicked on the video to continue playing.

The video begins with two boys introducing themselves to the camera. While one is speaking, the other one is watching and smiling beside him with a particularly doting look in his eyes. The barrage of comments that flashed across the video were all "KO".

Then the two men entered the kitchen. The taller one looked like he could cook and was very skilled in washing and cutting vegetables. The shorter one was not as good as him. He was more of a nuisance than a help.

But looking at the video, the show effect is maximized, with comments like "it's too sweet" and "too heartwarming".

Yan Feiyu looked at the scene on the screen and couldn't help but put himself in the situation in his mind. If it was Xun Guang, the food he cooked would definitely be better than the one in the video. If he was helping out, he wouldn't be in a hurry given the tacit understanding between him and Xun Guang.

The video was post-edited, and soon the two people brought the dishes to the table, eating while reading fans' comments.

At this time, the sound of cooking in the kitchen stopped, but Yan Feiyu didn't pay attention to it. When Xun Guang brought out the dishes and called him, he was suddenly awakened. He tried to pause the video in a hurry, but his hand slipped and turned the volume to the maximum.

"... Next question, who's on top?" The shorter boy in the video said with a smile, "Of course it's me, I'm Da Meng 1!"

Yan Feiyu: “…” Let him die where he is!