Chapter 179 Yan Yu recalled everything.

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After Yan Yu finished his stay in the snow mountain, he returned to his grandmother's house.

As soon as Yan Yu got home, he saw that there were quite a few people at his house. Somewhat puzzled, Yan Yu parked his bicycle and went inside.

The old lady was having a lively conversation with those people.

As soon as she saw Yan Yu, the old lady waved to him and said, "Come here, Yan Yu."

Yan Yu walked over and smiled slightly: "Grandma, we have guests today."

"Yes, yes." The old lady nodded with a smile.

At this moment, several women nearby turned to look at Yan Yu in unison, their faces bearing meaningful smiles.

Yan Yu frowned slightly, completely bewildered.

"Young man, look at you, at your age, and so handsome, you've reached the age to get married. I've come here today to talk to you about this. Why don't you marry my daughter? My daughter likes you too, so I won't ask you to pay a dowry," a woman said to Yan Yu with a bright smile.

Yan Yu was immediately stunned.

Upon seeing Yan Yu's expression, the women all burst into laughter.

"How about it, young man? Would you like to consider it? My daughter is wonderful."

"Yeah, yeah, let's think about it."

Yan Yu realized what was happening, shook his head solemnly, and bowed to the woman.

"I'm sorry, I won't be considering this matter for the time being," Yan Yu said in a deep voice.

After saying that, Yan Yu turned around and ran away.

It took the women a while to react, and they hurriedly tried to chase after him: "Hey, what are you doing? Why are you running?"

When the group arrived at Yan Yu's room, Yan Yu had already closed the door.

The old lady came over too: "It seems he doesn't want to, and there's nothing we can do about it."

The women turned around and smiled at the old woman.

"Yes, in that case, let's forget about it and go back." The woman smiled and said.

Then, the group left in a grand procession.

Yan Yu, who had been hiding inside the house, only opened the door and went out after confirming that they had left.

As soon as Yan Yu stepped outside, he saw the old lady and Xiao Qing smiling at him.

"Actually, her daughter is quite nice. You haven't even met her, how do you know you don't like her?" The old lady smiled meaningfully.

Yan Yu lowered his head, pursed his lips, and remained silent.

The old lady smiled again, stepped forward and patted Yan Yu on the shoulder: "You're getting old, it's not good to delay too long."

After saying that, the old lady left, and Yan Yu didn't say anything.

Since then, people have been coming to Yan Yu's house all the time. Whenever Yan Yu sees someone coming, he immediately hides in his room and refuses to come out, no matter how much they call him from outside.

This is the third wave already.

Yan Yu waited until everyone had left before going out for a walk to clear his head. To avoid having people come to his house again later, Yan Yu went straight out.

Walking down the street, Yan Yu finally breathed a slight sigh of relief and relaxed a bit.

Yan Yu walked slowly, looking down at the wildflowers and weeds by the roadside, feeling a sense of loss.

"Yan Yu!" someone suddenly called out to Yan Yu.

Yan Yu paused for a moment, then stopped and turned around. He saw a girl approaching with a bunch of freshly picked wildflowers.

"I originally wanted to go to your house, but I didn't expect to run into you here. I like you, can you..." The girl handed the flowers in her hand to Yan Yu, revealing a pair of cute dimples when she smiled.

"No." Before the girl could finish speaking, Yan Yu interrupted her.

The girl's smile froze instantly, and her hand holding the flowers trembled slightly.

Yan Yu looked at the girl with a troubled expression.

He seemed to have been rejected by Shen Jin with those three words before, so he could understand how heartbroken the girl was right now.

But he had no other choice but to decisively reject her. If he gave her an ambiguous answer, it would only give her unrealistic fantasies that she still had a chance, which would only harm her.

So he had no other choice.

The girl stared blankly at Yan Yu, her eyes instantly reddening, her voice trembling slightly: "Why?"

Yan Yu lowered the expression in his eyes, leaving only a cold look, and quietly looked at the girl.

"I'm sorry, we're not a good match." Yan Yu remained silent for a moment before refusing in a deep voice.

The girl threw away the flowers in her hand, and the colorful flowers fell to the ground, scattering everywhere. Yan Yu glanced at them but did not react.

"How do you know it's not suitable if you haven't even tried it?" The girl looked up at Yan Yu, her voice trembling with tears.

Yan Yu clenched his fist slightly in his pocket, frowned, and without saying a word, turned and left.

When the girl saw that Yan Yu was about to leave, she quickly reached out and grabbed him.

"Why are you leaving? Answer me!" the girl shouted at Yan Yu, unwilling to give up.

Yan Yu sighed heavily, turned around and looked at the girl. The girl was stunned for a moment and subconsciously took a step back.

"Do you really need me to tell you the truth before you'll be satisfied?" Yan Yu said in a deep voice.

"What?" The girl was stunned.

"I'm rejecting you for no other reason than because I look down on you, is that enough?" Yan Yu rejected her with the harshest words.

After saying that, Yan Yu didn't linger and turned to leave. The girl stood there, stunned, her face filled with shock.

She couldn't believe that Yan Yu was that kind of person.

Yan Yu walked with his head down, pursing his lips. Actually, that girl was really nice, but he had long since lost the ability to feel anything.

When Yan Yu got home, he found Xiao Qing standing at the door of his room.

Yan Yu was slightly taken aback, then asked, "Xiao Qing, what are you doing here?"

Upon hearing Yan Yu's voice, Xiao Qing turned around and looked at him.

"You're back! I've been waiting for you for so long. I'd like to chat with you, is that alright?" Xiaoqing asked with a smile.

Yan Yu nodded: "Okay, let's go inside and talk."

After saying that, Yan Yu pushed open the door and let Xiao Qing in, then went in himself.

The two sat on the edge of the bed in silence for a while before Xiaoqing spoke up: "Brother Yanyu, so many people want to marry you lately, don't you really feel anything at all?"

After saying that, Xiaoqing turned to look at Yan Yu.

Yan Yu glanced at Xiao Qing, then chuckled, looked away, and gazed ahead, as if he were thinking of someone.

"No." After a moment, Yan Yu answered calmly.

Xiaoqing nodded, hesitated for a moment, and then asked, "Are you still waiting for Brother Chenjin?"

Upon hearing Xiaoqing's words, Yan Yu's back stiffened, and his fingers trembled violently.

Seeing Yan Yu's reaction, Xiao Qing knew the answer.

"Yes, I'm waiting for him." Yan Yu did not evade the question and answered it frankly.

Xiaoqing smiled but didn't say anything.

Although Shen Jin is long gone, he probably lives on in Yan Yu's heart.

"So... what do you want to do in the future? Do you have any plans or goals?" Xiaoqing asked after a moment of silence.

Yan Yu paused for a moment, frowned slightly, and looked confused.

After a long while, Yan Yu answered in a low voice, "I don't know either."

Xiaoqing wasn't too surprised by Yan Yu's answer; she simply nodded.

Then, Xiaoqing stood up and said, "Let's stop here for now. I have something to do, so I'll be leaving now."

After saying that, Xiaoqing left, leaving Yan Yu alone in the room.

Yan Yu remained in the same position as before.

His future plans? His goals? He really didn't know. He didn't even know what he should do next. He just felt lost and helpless.

Since Shen Jin left, he has had no goals left.

Moreover, he didn't believe that Shen Jin would just leave like that.

Yan Yu remained silent for a long time, then took out the box containing the specimens from the bedside. He opened the box and stared blankly at the butterfly specimens inside.

“Shen Jin… what should I do next?” Yan Yu asked blankly.

He had never known the answer to this question.

Yan Yu's condition has been poor, and he has no memory of his past, so he has remained in the small village.

Time flies, yet it also seems to drag on; before we knew it, summer was here.

Xiaoqing took the herbs-gathering tools and said to Yan Yu, "Yan Yu, I'm going up the mountain to gather herbs today. Will you come with me?"

"Okay." Yan Yu nodded in response and took the tools from Xiao Qing's hands.

Over time, Yan Yu had become accustomed to gathering herbs, and was even more skilled than Xiao Qing. So he would accompany Xiao Qing to the mountain to gather herbs every time, and he would go to the places that Xiao Qing couldn't climb.

The two of them went up the mountain together, and just as they arrived at the place where they were going to gather herbs, it suddenly started to rain.

"Why is it raining?" Xiaoqing frowned and looked at the sky in confusion.

"It's raining, let's find somewhere to take shelter," Yan Yu said to Xiao Qing, glancing at the sky.

Xiaoqing glanced at the rain; it was just a light drizzle, nothing to worry about.

"It's okay, it's just a little rain, it'll be fine," Xiaoqing said nonchalantly.

However, no sooner had he finished speaking than the rain suddenly intensified, and the raindrops began to pelt down.

"They said the rain wasn't heavy, let's quickly find somewhere to take shelter," Yan Yu said hastily.

Xiaoqing quickly agreed and turned to leave.

Yan Yu took a step and accidentally stepped on a moss-covered stone. Combined with the slippery surface from the rain, Yan Yu, not paying attention, slipped and fell.

Xiaoqing was startled and quickly reached out to grab him: "Brother Yan Yu!!"

However, it was too late.

Yan Yu fell straight down, crashing heavily to the bottom. It was a valley with a very steep slope, and as soon as Yan Yu hit the ground, he rolled down the slope.

Yan Yu couldn't stop, and tried to cover his head to avoid injury, but it was of little use; the back of his head still slammed into a rock.

"Bang--"

"Uh..." Yan Yu groaned, his vision went white, and a warm sensation spread across the back of his head.

For a moment, Yan Yu's mind went blank... Then, memories flooded his mind like a tidal wave, and he remembered everything that had happened before he arrived here...

Scenes from the past gradually surfaced in Yan Yu's mind, one frame after another rushing past his eyes.

"Ugh..." Yan Yu pressed his head in pain.

A flood of memories surged into his mind, jumbled together and pieced back together to form a complete memory.

After remembering everything, Yan Yu's expression changed immediately. He opened his lips, wanting to speak, but couldn't utter a word.

He felt as if his head was about to explode, and the pain was unbearable.

Finally, the scene before my eyes froze on Chen Jin's smiling face.

"Yan Yu." Shen Jin called Yan Yu's name with a gentle smile. His eyes were clear and transparent, his voice was soft and clear, and his eyes seemed to hold stars.

It was so beautiful that I don't know how to describe it.

"Shen Jin..." Yan Yu finally managed to utter a sound, calling out Shen Jin's name.

The sound was so faint that it was completely inaudible.

Then, the light in Yan Yu's pupils gradually faded, and finally, everything went black before his eyes, his head lolled to the side, and he collapsed to the ground.

The rain was pouring down, hitting Yan Yu's face hard, soaking his hair and making it stick to his face.

"Yan Yu!" Xiao Qing exclaimed in surprise as she looked up at Yan Yu.

She called out several more times, but Yan Yu didn't respond. Xiao Qing knew he had fainted, and her expression immediately changed.

Xiaoqing quickly grabbed a tree and started to climb down. To avoid falling like Yan Yu, she had to walk carefully, and it was not easy for her to reach the bottom of the valley.

"Yan Yu, Brother Yan Yu, can you hear me?" Xiao Qing came to Yan Yu's side and gently shook him twice.

After waiting for a while, Yan Yu still didn't react, and Xiao Qing became anxious.

The rain was still pattering down, and both of them were soaked to the bone.

Then, Xiaoqing squatted down, reached out and grabbed Yan Yu's arm to carry him on her back. However, Xiaoqing couldn't lift Yan Yu at all. Even with all her strength, she couldn't pull him up. At most, she could only move his body a little.

"Phew... what should I do..." Xiaoqing gasped for breath, wiping the rain off her face as she spoke softly.

After saying that, Xiaoqing tried again, but still failed.

Just then, Xiaoqing heard a series of hurried footsteps. She paused for a moment, then looked up and saw a man rushing down the mountain, seemingly also heading to take shelter from the rain.

"Uncle! Can you help me?" Xiaoqing shouted to the man quickly, afraid that he wouldn't hear her.

The person was stunned when he heard Xiaoqing's words. He looked down and saw two people below, and he was immediately dumbfounded.

"What's wrong? What happened?" The man was startled and quickly asked.

"Uncle, he fell down and fainted. I can't carry him. Can you come and help me?" Xiaoqing said anxiously.

After saying that, Xiaoqing helped Yan Yu up again, and just happened to touch the back of Yan Yu's head. At this moment, Xiaoqing touched a wet patch and was immediately frightened.

Looking down, she saw thick, fresh blood on Xiaoqing's palm, which was then washed away by the rain.

The moment Xiaoqing saw the bloodstains, she was terrified.

"Hurry, uncle, he's bleeding!" Xiaoqing was so frightened that her face turned pale, and she quickly looked up at the uncle and said.

The uncle quickly realized what was happening, hurriedly responded, and came downstairs.

Then, the uncle quickly carried Yan Yu back to the old lady's house.

"Grandma, Brother Yan Yu bumped his head," Xiao Qing said to her grandmother, panting.

Seeing Yan Yu's condition, the old lady frowned deeply and quickly asked Xiao Qing to help Yan Yu inside and bandage his head.

They originally thought Yan Yu would wake up in a day, but a whole day has passed and there is no sign that Yan Yu will wake up at all.

"Grandma, what happened? Didn't you say he would wake up in a day?" Xiaoqing asked, looking at the unconscious Yan Yu.

"I'm not too sure about that either, there might be other reasons." The old lady was also a little puzzled, but not too worried.

This wound wasn't too serious for Yan Yu; compared to the injury he sustained in the snow last time, it was really a minor one.

As for not waking up yet, it shouldn't be anything serious.

As Yan Yu slept, scenes from the past played out in his mind.

He thought back to the first time he met Shen Jin, and all the things that had happened in the past. He remembered that Shen Jin was an excellent cook, and the food was delicious. He also remembered how innocent and pure Shen Jin was back then...

But later, he was too foolish, too obsessed with his feelings for Xie Li that had long since changed, which destroyed the beautiful relationship between them and hurt Shen Jin time and time again...

"I'm sorry, Chen Jin..."

These were the words he repeated countless times in his heart after he realized his mistake, even though he understood that he could not undo the damage he had caused to Shen Jin, which was stark and undeniable.

All my memories from before I came here came flooding back...

Yan Yu woke up again three days later.

He opened his eyes, lying motionless on the bed like a wooden statue, his gaze unfocused and bloodshot. He suddenly murmured, "Shen Jin..."

Unfortunately, no one responded to him; his lost embers had long been gone.

His eyes were terribly red, and he suddenly reached out to cover them, laughing self-deprecatingly.

He remembered everything clearly, including falling off the cliff with Shen Jin, arriving in this village, and Shen Jin's attitude towards him after he lost his memory.

I remembered everything.

He just didn't know how things had gotten to this point...

He longed to sink into ashes, whether before or now when he lost his memory; he longed for it desperately, yet he could never see it...

Silent tears suddenly streamed down his face. He didn't wipe them away; he just stared blankly into space.

He didn't know how much time had passed before he finally snapped out of the overwhelming sadness and heaviness of his fading memories and sat up in bed.

Xiaoqing was busy with something outside when she heard the door open. She was stunned for a moment, turned around and looked at Yan Yu. When she saw Yan Yu standing at the door, she immediately smiled.

"You're awake?" Xiaoqing put down what she was holding and came over to talk to the medicine. "Does anything feel uncomfortable?"

"Hmm." Yan Yu's gaze was somewhat sad and heavy.

Xiaoqing suddenly paused, slowing her pace. For some reason, she felt that Yan Yu seemed different.

She couldn't pinpoint exactly what was different.

Seeing her reaction, Yan Yu knew what she was thinking. He took a deep breath, rubbed his still aching temples, and said in a low voice, "I... I've regained my memories. I remember everything."

"Huh?" Xiaoqing was stunned.

"What did you say? You..." Xiaoqing's mouth dropped open, her face filled with disbelief.

Yan Yu hesitated for a moment. He knew that when he lived here, he was always in a silly state after losing his memory. Now that he had recovered, even he himself felt a little awkward and uncomfortable.

However, he still pursed his lips and said, "I've regained my memories, including everything before I came here."

The people here are all very kind to him, and Xiaoqing and the old lady take especially good care of him, so he has no need to hide it from them.

"I see..." Xiaoqing blinked, unsure of what to say for a moment, "Then..."

She was quite happy that Yan Yu was able to regain his memories. After all, if Yan Yu remembered his past, he would remember his identity, and then he could do whatever he wanted in the future.

The old lady soon found out about it too.

"Your memory has returned?" The old woman approached Yan Yu, smiled, and asked, "How are you feeling?"

She was somewhat surprised by this. The damage from her previous amnesia was quite severe, and it should have been difficult to recover. She never expected that it could be recovered.

"It's alright..." Yan Yu nodded in response. Although he felt a little heavy-hearted, he still managed a weak smile. "It's just that my head hurts quite a bit, and I'm not quite used to it yet."

“Then let’s go inside and I’ll take a look at you,” the old lady said again.

Yan Yu responded and turned to go inside.

Afterwards, Yan Yu sat on the bed, and the old lady took his pulse for a while. She then examined him in various rather unusual ways and finally said with a smile, "Congratulations, you're not stupid anymore."

Yan Yu pursed his lips and smiled.

The old lady patted Yan Yu's hand and said earnestly, "Now that you've regained your memory, you must have a plan for the future. No matter what, we will support you. Just think it over carefully."

Yan Yu nodded without saying anything, and the old lady left directly.

Afterwards, Xiaoqing chatted with Yan Yu for a while and asked him some questions. However, Xiaoqing knew that many things involved Yan Yu's personal privacy, so she only asked some unimportant questions and did not delve into them.

After chatting for a while, Xiaoqing left first, leaving Yan Yu alone in his room.

Yan Yu sat on the bed, thinking about many things, wondering what he should do next and what his next move should be.

After thinking for a long time, Yan Yu still couldn't come up with a solution, and could only sigh in the end.

Then, Yan Yu picked up the box from his bedside and opened it again to look at the two butterfly specimens.

“Chen Jin…” Yan Yu looked at him for a long time, then murmured, calling out Chen Jin’s name.

Recalling Shen Jin's attitude towards him, Yan Yu twitched the corners of his mouth, feeling somewhat bitter.

"Shen Jin, what should I do?" Yan Yu stretched out a finger and gently touched one of the butterflies, a hint of sorrow in his eyes.

If he had known, he wouldn't have treated Shen Jin that way before. If he had known, he would have faced his feelings for Shen Jin squarely...

But there's no such thing as knowing beforehand; it was his mistake, and he should bear the consequences.

If he could do it all over again, if he could have multiple chances, he would definitely make it up to Shen Jin. This time, he would try his best to do his best, never hurt him again, and never let him get hurt again...

But there's no going back...

"But..." Yan Yu closed his eyes in despair. His heart felt empty; he didn't know if the person he longed for had truly left him...