Chapter 52 It seems I've fallen for him.

The barely suppressed joy that Xie Li had been showing on her fair and handsome face vanished the moment Yan Yu uttered the word "Chen Jin".

Instead, a gloomy atmosphere settled over him, his eyes filled with deep hatred and insane jealousy that he could not control.

Even he found it hard to accept the reality before him. Staring blankly at the man who had loved him for so many years, he suddenly felt like a stranger to him, and he awkwardly managed to squeeze out two words: "What..."

What is this...? Yan Yu was actually muttering someone else's name while pushing him onto the bed?!

For Xie Li, this was an utter disgrace! The disappointment and sadness he felt far outweighed the profound damage to his dignity! To be mistaken for that guy surnamed Chen!

Damn it, damn it, damn it! What on earth does that person have that can compare to him? Just comparing him to Shen Jin makes him feel inferior, let alone the fact that he was calling out Yan Yu's name while being pushed down by Yan Yu?

Yan Yu was drunk and had a terrible headache, so he couldn't make sense of many things. Therefore, he couldn't feel Xie Li's almost frantic jealousy and rage. He just smiled and stroked Xie Li's face, repeating, "I said, I want you..."

If Yan Yu had said those words before uttering the word "sinking ashes," he would have been overjoyed and would have offered himself to him without hesitation, willingly succumbing to the sea of ​​desire in their lovemaking.

But now... how could he pretend nothing had happened? Impossible!

Unable to push Yan Yu away, he could only take a deep breath, grit his teeth, stare into Yan Yu's unfocused eyes, and squeeze out a sentence: "Call my name... I want you to call my name, and I'll give myself to you."

Yan Yu chuckled, seemingly puzzled as to why he was so fixated on a name. He reached out and lightly flicked the man's smooth forehead, laughing drunkenly, "Didn't I just call him that? Why are you being so willful?"

A red streak crept into Xie Li's eyes as he struggled to control his raging emotions, his voice trembling as if he had suffered a great shock: "It's not called Shen Jin! I'm telling you to call me! Call me by my name! My name isn't Shen Jin! And it's impossible for me to be Shen Jin!"

The red veins in his eyes grew even redder as his emotions intensified, filled with malevolence and intense resentment—all directed at Shen Jin, a desire to tear him apart.

Only Xie Li himself knew how terrible he felt and how devastated he was at this moment. He knew that the man who had loved him for so many years had once treated him like a treasure and cherished him with utmost care.

Now, he wanted to give himself to this man, but he had to resort to tricks to get him to push him onto the bed, and at the crucial moment, this man was calling out someone else's name. This was extremely ironic for him, and he couldn't calm down at all.

"Why are you so angry?" Yan Yu was still smiling, his fingertips gently tracing the contours of his face, every smile and frown exuding an indescribable tenderness. "You said your name isn't Shen Jin, so what is it?"

Xie Li couldn't utter a single word. She could only stare wide-eyed, bloodshot eyes, trembling with rage. Her blood seemed to boil over in an instant, an uncontrollable surge of anger.

The man on top of him, oblivious to everything, was completely drunk and disoriented. He frowned slightly and coaxed in a soft voice, "Chen Jin, please stop making a fuss. I know I upset you a while ago..."

At this moment, Xie Li was too lazy to pretend to be frightened or play hard to get, because he knew that Yan Yu was really not sober at this time. After all, he had added drugs to the wine, which would really make him confused. When he woke up, he probably wouldn't remember what happened last night.

He glared angrily at the man who kept calling him Chen Jin, and gritted his teeth, saying, "I've already told you I'm not him, don't call me that name! Don't call me that again!"

"Hmm?" Yan Yu smiled in confusion, but the throbbing in his head made him frown. He said with a hint of dissatisfaction, "Shen Jin, you usually have the best temper. I'm usually happy just by coaxing you. Why are you so hard to coax today?"

Xie Li was somewhat frantic, scratching his hair violently with both hands until it was a mess. Even that couldn't calm him down; he felt as if there was a ball of anger burning in his chest, and if he didn't let it out, it would make him sick.

He already had a weak heart and couldn't handle any stimulation or get angry easily. Now, after being stimulated like this, he felt as if he was suffocating. His breathing became difficult, and his body trembled slightly on the bed. He instinctively curled up into a ball.

Yan Yu could see sweat beading on his forehead, his delicate face was deathly pale, and he was breathing heavily, seemingly in great pain. He quickly asked, "What... what's wrong?"

Xie Li didn't reply, but the hatred in his eyes intensified. Then, he ruthlessly pushed Yan Yu off him and, before Yan Yu could react, knocked him unconscious onto the bed.

"Phew..." After knocking Yan Yu unconscious, Xie Li finally breathed a sigh of relief. He hurriedly struggled to get out of bed and muttered a curse under his breath, "Damn it!"

He'll remember this debt! One day he'll pay Shen Jin back twofold!

Knowing his physical condition, he was so angry that he almost fainted. He could only hurriedly fumble for the medicine the doctor had given him, swallow it quickly, and then sat on the ground, feeling weak and panting.

"Calm down, calm down..." He bit his pale, thin lips, repeatedly telling himself to calm down. He wiped the sweat from his forehead, and when his breathing gradually returned to normal, he took a deep look at the unconscious Yan Yu.

The drug he gave Yan Yu wasn't an aphrodisiac, because he worried that if Yan Yu really took it, he might become too lustful for him and he might not be able to handle it. So he cleverly added some drugs that would make him lose his senses for a short time, and with him getting drunk, that was more than enough.

But he never expected that Yan Yu would mistake him for someone like Shen Jin at this moment...

"Damn it!" He gritted his teeth in anger, and unable to control himself, he punched the wall. The pain from the punch calmed him down a bit.

But the thought of his plans falling through again made him want to drag Shen Jin out of the hospital and skin him alive, otherwise it would be impossible to quell the hatred in his heart!

He was so angry about Shen Jin a while ago that he was sent to the emergency room again. Now he is in a similar situation, which makes him feel that if he doesn't deal with Shen Jin soon, he will be driven to death by anger one day.

He sat on the ground for a long time until he gradually recovered. Then he quietly walked back to the bedside, looked at the unconscious Yan Yu, narrowed his eyes, and suddenly changed his mind.

Since he has already fallen into a deep sleep and can't do it, he probably won't remember anything when he wakes up tomorrow. So whatever he says will be the same, and the result will be the same anyway.

"Ah Yu, don't blame me..." Xie Li murmured softly, then steeled himself and took off Yan Yu's shirt and pants, leaving him only in his underwear. He stared at Yan Yu's well-defined abs for a while, his throat bobbing slightly.

He lowered his head and deliberately left some bite marks on Yan Yu's neck, collarbone, and lower abdomen. Then he took off his own clothes, twisted and pinched them with his hands to create some bruises and red marks, and then threw their clothes on the ground in a mess.

In this way, the effect of this "one night of indulgence" is achieved.

"Perfect..." Xie Li curled his lips slightly, very satisfied with his actions. He picked up his phone again and took a few photos as a "souvenir," which might come in handy when dealing with Chen Jin in the future.

After doing all this, he carefully lay down beside Yan Yu, sharing the same quilt with him, and thought to himself: A Yu, after tomorrow, you will belong to me... As for Shen Jin, he is not worthy! He has no right to!

The hospital was quiet at night; there was no sound in the corridors, and silence outside the window. Therefore, Shen Jin could only blink and gaze at the bright stars outside the window.

Bai Yujin told him that once tonight was over, he could leave this hospital he didn't like, which made him very happy. But for some reason, when he was alone, he felt very sad, as if something was missing...

"Maybe it's because I don't remember anything..." Shen Jin muttered to himself, feeling a dull pain in his chest. So he gently rubbed his heart and comforted himself, "It doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't hurt anymore, even if it hurts, it'll fly away!"

But this comforting gesture didn't seem to work. His chest still ached slightly, making him feel uncomfortable and sad. He didn't know why he was sad, so he could only hug himself tightly in frustration.

Just then, he seemed to hear a sound outside the door, like the sound of a wheelchair being pushed. He looked out a few times, puzzled, and muttered to himself, "Is that the nurse?"

He had just finished muttering to himself when the footsteps grew closer and closer to his door, and then he heard a very soft knock.

Shen Jin paused, blinked, and asked, somewhat puzzled, "Who is it?"

The doctor said he would come to change his dressing in the morning, so he closed the door from the inside, planning to wait until the doctor knocked on the door when he came to change the dressing the next day before opening the door, so that he could feel more at ease.

The person outside the door said, "I'm a doctor, I've come to change your dressing."

Shen Jin couldn't hear clearly, only recognizing it as a man's voice, which sounded unfamiliar. He didn't know the man and therefore didn't intend to get up. He simply said, "Speak louder, I can't hear you."

The people outside the door suddenly fell silent.

After a while, the man raised his voice slightly, and said in a low voice, "Listen to me, I'm your doctor, I'm here to change your dressing. Open the door."

As if to be more convincing, the man peeked out from under the door, wearing a white mask. Shen Jin couldn't see his face clearly, only a pair of dark, sinister eyes. For some reason, this made Shen Jin instinctively tremble and shrink back.

Logically, given Shen Jin's current state, he shouldn't be able to distinguish many things, but the person outside the door made him tremble all over, and he shouted in a hoarse voice, "Get away! Get away! Get away from me!!"

His sudden roar caused the person outside the door to turn cold instantly. They gave him a deep look, filled with an indescribable chill, and then vanished from the doorway in the next instant.

Even when the nurse rushed over, Shen Jin was still trembling, clutching his head and shaking uncontrollably. Sweat streamed down his face as he muttered intermittently, "Bad people, bad people... they're all bad people..."

He didn't know any of them, he had no recollection of them, yet deep down he had a sense of familiarity that made him vaguely aware that those people would hurt him...

Several hospital staff members still on duty rushed over, patted him on the shoulder, and comforted him, saying, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, it's alright, it's alright!"

But these words of comfort were of no use to Shen Jin at this moment. They only made him feel a headache, as if some fragment of memory flashed through his mind, but he couldn't grasp it. Before he could even take a look, it disappeared.

After Bai Yujin learned about this, he rushed over that very night and stayed by his side, comforting him for a while until he calmed down a bit. Finally, he fell asleep under the covers like a child.

Bai Yujin tucked the blanket around him and was about to go investigate what had happened when Shen Jin suddenly grabbed his sleeve, bit his lower lip, and said weakly, "Don't leave... I'm scared..."

Bai Yujin paused for a moment, then smiled, gently placed his hand back under the covers, and coaxed him softly, "Okay, don't worry, I won't leave. Just sleep well, everything's fine."

Fearing that he might be scared, Bai Yujin had no choice but to stay with him in the ward, sitting on a chair beside him and falling asleep immediately.

The next morning, Bai Yujin got up early, squinted at the sunlight outside, and then struggled to get up from the chair to stretch his stiff body.

Seeing that Shen Jin was still sleeping soundly, he gently pushed open the door and went out to find the person in charge of the hospital, intending to investigate what exactly happened last night.

The camera showed a man dressed in a white coat, wearing a mask and hat, deliberately avoiding the cameras so his face was not visible. He was pushing a cart to Shen Jin's door and then hurriedly left without leaving any trace.

“That’s strange…” Bai Yujin frowned, unable to figure out what was going on, but he remembered that Shen Jin was very scared yesterday. Could it be related to his past memories?

After thinking it over and over without any clues, he had no choice but to temporarily give up and hand the video to his assistant to help investigate. Then he went downstairs to buy breakfast for Shen Jin.

By nine o'clock in the morning, the sun was already high in the sky.

The curtains weren't closed last night, and the sunlight streaming in this morning was so bright that Yan Yu frowned. The moment he opened his eyes, he saw Xie Li lying naked beside him.

Yan Yu: "?!!"

Startled, Yan Yu nearly fell off the bed, waking Xie Li, who was "sleeping" beside him. Xie Li groggily opened his eyes and exclaimed, "Ah... Yu? You... what happened!"

"You...you!" Yan Yu gritted his teeth, raised his hand to his forehead, looked at the mess of clothes on the ground, and then at the marks on the two of them. They were lying on the same bed again. What exactly happened was self-evident.

Seeing him standing on the ground rubbing his temples in distress, Xie Li's eyes flashed with a sly smile. He lowered his head and pretended to stammer as he explained, "This...this was just an accident...Ayu, you don't need to worry about it. We were both drunk last night..."

By saying this, he was subtly admitting what had "happened" between the two of them the previous night.

Yan Yu was somewhat frantic. He couldn't remember what happened last night, only that he had drunk too much and woke up to this scene, which he couldn't accept for a moment. He gritted his teeth and said, "Get out of here!"

Xie Li's face turned deathly pale. He hadn't expected that Yan Yu's first words to him, after mistakenly believing that the two of them had had a relationship, would be to tell him to leave!

Is this any different from telling him to just get lost?! What do they take him for?!

After saying that, Yan Yu ignored Xie Li's reaction, grabbed his clothes, and went into the bathroom. He turned on the shower and poured water over himself, getting completely soaked and shivering.

After taking a thorough shower, Yan Yu patted his face. Looking at his disheveled reflection in the mirror, and then at the hickeys still on his body... for a moment, he felt a little disgusted.

"Damn it," Yan Yu gritted his teeth, shaking his head violently, unable to recall anything from last night, and at the same time feeling somewhat unable to accept it, "How could I possibly..."

Xie Li was someone he had longed for but could never reach for many years. Now, without his knowledge, he had slept with Xie Li. Instead of feeling any joy, Xie Li left him with a lingering resentment.

However, Xie Li seemed to deliberately forget about what happened last night in order to avoid making things awkward between the two of them. She acted as usual, only occasionally glancing in his direction with a hint of embarrassment.

Yan Yu felt like he was being driven crazy by this feeling, and he couldn't vent it. He could only keep it inside, unable to find a way out. But Xie Li was "understanding" and said to him, "Ayu, you don't have to feel awkward. Just pretend nothing happened..."

Although she said that, Xie Li understood perfectly well that she couldn't possibly pretend nothing had happened. Regardless of whether Yan Yu could accept it or not, it would leave a knot in his heart, knowing that the two of them had already established a "bedroom relationship".

Therefore, if Xie Li works a little harder and transcends this identity, he will probably truly become another master of this family. At that time, he doesn't believe Yan Yu will easily believe the nonsense Shen Jin spouts...

Yan Yu was on the verge of a breakdown and had no time to pay attention to him. He sat on the sofa in the living room, rubbing his head hard. Xie Li didn't bother him anymore and quietly walked out.

"Where are you going?" Yan Yu asked from behind.

Xie Li seemed a little embarrassed when asked the question. He touched the bridge of his nose, his eyes darting around, and he stammered, "I...I'm going out to buy something...I'll be back in a bit."

Yan Yu took a breath, trying his best not to think about what happened last night, and said in a deep voice, "Just have the servants buy whatever you want, there's no need to go to all that trouble."

"This...this might be...inconvenient..." Xie Li forced a smile, glanced around to make sure there were no servants nearby, then lowered her head and whispered, "I...am a little sore..."

Yan Yu was stunned. He almost ground his teeth to dust, regretting asking the question. He wished he could turn back time and go back to last night to punch himself a few times to wake himself up.

"Damn it!" Yan Yu stood up from the sofa with a sullen face, not even looking at Xie Li's reaction, and directly grabbed his car keys and went out the door.

At this moment, he just wanted to get away from Xie Li and calm himself down, so that the more he looked at Xie Li's face, the more irritated he would become.

He then went into a store, bought some medicine, threw it back into the car, and angrily punched the car roundabout, cursing, "Damn it!"

He drove to the villa after venting his anger outside. After what happened with Xie Li, he temporarily forgot that he hadn't gone to see Chen Jin yet and didn't know how he was doing.

However, for some reason, thinking of Chen Jin made his head ache even more. If Chen Jin knew what happened between him and Xie Li last night, what would he think...?

"No, why should I worry about this?" Yan Yu paused, then gritted his teeth. He didn't know why he felt uneasy.

Moreover, only he and Xie Li knew this, and if neither of them told anyone, Shen Jin would never know...

The moment this thought crossed Yan Yu's mind, he almost wanted to bang his head against the wall. He simply couldn't understand why he, the dignified CEO Yan, would be afraid of such a small thing. It made it seem like he was having an affair!

The more he thought about it, the more he wanted to see Chen Jin. So when he came to his senses, the car that was originally going to turn back ended up at the hospital.

When the nurse saw him arrive, she greeted him with a smile as always: "Hello, Mr. Yan, you're here again."

"Hmm." Yan Yu nodded reluctantly and strode towards Chen Jin's ward. He couldn't understand why he felt more and more anxious as he got closer to the ward, and at the same time, he was also a little impatient.

He saw that Shen Jin's hospital room was open, and the thought that he would be able to see it in just a few more steps made him a little impatient, and the corners of his lips curved up slightly.

Just then, a nurse came out of Chen Jin's ward and saw him coming over with a smile on his lips. She was slightly taken aback, turned her head to look at the ward, then looked at him, and then smiled and said, "Good afternoon, Mr. Yan. Did you forget something?"

"No." Yan Yu didn't understand why she asked that question, but he had no time to think about anything else right now. He just wanted to see Shen Jin as soon as possible, to hear him speak, to see how he was doing, and how much he had recovered...

The nurse was a little puzzled, but seeing that he didn't seem inclined to talk to her, she didn't ask any further questions and simply pushed the cart away.

Yan Yu didn't want to appear too excited, so he forced down the corners of his lips and went to Chen Jin's door, saying, "I heard you've woken up. How's your recovery going..."

Before he could finish speaking, Yan Yu froze, his expression instantly hardening as he stared blankly at the empty hospital room where Shen Jin was staying, not a soul in sight…

The table was cleaned up, with no fruit or flowers left, and the sheets and blankets on the hospital bed were all new and neatly folded, showing no signs that anyone had just been there.

"Did I go to the wrong room?" Yan Yu was stunned. He could only leave the ward to check the room number, but the room number was the same. He had been here before, but the person who should be here was nowhere to be seen.

However, Yan Yu didn't think too much about it. He felt that since Shen Jin had already woken up, it wouldn't hurt to change his ward. Maybe he would be moved to another ward to investigate.

Yan Yu waved to a passing nurse, signaling her to come over, then pointed to the empty ward and asked softly, "Where have the patients here been transferred to?"

"Huh? A patient here?" The nurse, who had been called out to, was taken aback. She glanced at the empty bed and said with a smile, "He didn't go anywhere else. He just left today."

Yan Yu was taken aback: "What?"

The nurse didn't notice the sudden embarrassment on his face, and just smiled and told him, "Mr. Bai was discharged yesterday, and left with his entourage this morning. As for where he took them, we don't know."

Yan Yu's face paled even more, and his heart sank for some reason. He could only grit his teeth and tell himself that it was just a hospital discharge, and he had nothing to worry about.

At the same time, he was also a little annoyed. Bai Yujin had taken Shen Jin away from the hospital without his consent and hadn't even informed him. Who did he think Shen Jin was?

When Bai Yujin received Yan Yu's call, he had already brought Shen Jin to a new place. It was a quiet place by the sea, with a large area and beautiful scenery, which was very suitable for him to recuperate. There were also doctors who would give him regular check-ups, which was much better than the hospital.

When he received Yan Yu's call, the first thing Yan Yu said was furious: "Chen Jin has been discharged from the hospital? You let him out? Where did you take him? Where is he now? Why didn't you tell me?"

Bai Yujin found it somewhat amusing: "Why should I inform you?"

Yan Yu was already angry because he couldn't see Shen Jin and learned that he had been taken away by Bai Yujin. Now, hearing Bai Yujin's matter-of-fact statement, his anger flared up instantly. He gritted his teeth and said coldly, "Bai Yujin, I'm not going to waste my breath on you. Now let Shen Jin answer the phone. I want to talk to him!"

Bai Yujin chuckled: "Talk to him on the phone, and then what? What should we say?"

"I said I'm not going to waste my breath on you!" Yan Yu's voice grew even colder, and he gripped the phone tighter. The uncertainty of not seeing Shen Jin was making him uneasy, and he said firmly, "I want to see Shen Jin! Let him talk to me!"

Bai Yujin said with a hint of sarcasm, "Why are you doing this now? When he needed you, you wouldn't see him, but now that he doesn't need you anymore, you're so eager to see him?"

“You didn’t see him yesterday when he first woke up and was in the hospital, but now that he’s been discharged, you’re chasing after him to see him. You’re such a strange person.”

Yan Yu's face suddenly turned deathly pale. He gritted his teeth, not knowing which part of Bai Yujin's calm words had stung him, but his heart ached slightly. With a hint of irony, he said angrily, "Bai Yujin!"

Bai Yujin ignored his anger and calmly said, "It was Shen Jin who didn't want to stay in the hospital, and he also didn't want to see you. Anyway, you didn't like him before, so now it's fine, he doesn't need to get in your way anymore."

Bai Yujin recalled a sentence Shen Jin had uttered while struggling in his unconscious state, and found it extremely jarring. He spoke calmly, "And I certainly won't... make you feel disgusted..."

"I..." Yan Yu's pupils suddenly contracted, and he gripped the phone with increased force, as if he wanted to crush it. His face was bloodless, and he looked somewhat bewildered. He blinked.

He didn't react until Bai Yujin hung up the phone. It wasn't until a passing nurse greeted him with a smile that he finally snapped out of it. But all his strength seemed to have been drained away, and he staggered back a few steps, bracing himself against the wall.

Is that why, after Shen Jin regained consciousness, he didn't want to see him and directly had Bai Yujin handle the discharge procedures and leave?

"What's this..." After an unknown amount of time, Yan Yu muttered to himself, rubbing his dejected face, forcing a nonchalant smile to hide his disappointment. "If he won't see me, so be it. I don't necessarily need to see him..."

He kept telling himself that it was nothing. He and Shen Jin weren't that close. They had had a falling out before, and then Shen Jin treated him like that in the dilapidated house.

Later, he accidentally hurt him again at the hospital, causing him to stay there for so many days. It's understandable that Shen Jin didn't want to see him...

But why did his chest still ache so badly, and why was it so difficult to breathe, as if something was blocking his heart, making it hard for him to breathe?

Just then, Xie Li called him and asked softly, "Ayu, where are you?"

"Nowhere, hurry back." Yan Yu's tone was flat, like a robot. After replying simply, he hung up the phone and walked out of the hospital in a daze.

The sunlight outside was a bit dazzling. Yan Yu was immediately blinded when he came out and could only squint. He vaguely recalled the place where Shen Jin lived, where the sun was very bright and he and Shen Jin had swung on a swing under a big tree for a while.

At that moment, Shen Jin smiled happily, her bright eyes and white teeth shining through, and said with a slightly embarrassed smile, "It feels a bit like lovers... I guess this is how other lovers get along, right?"

Yan Yu didn't take it seriously at the time, just thinking that this person was really innocent. So he just smiled and stared at him, making Shen Jin feel embarrassed. He could only look away, touch his nose, and then laugh foolishly again.

"Tsk," Yan Yu closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and raised the corners of his lips in a self-deprecating smile, "Why am I thinking about these things? I never took them seriously before, why am I starting to overthink things now..."

He got into his car, drove away from the hospital without looking back, and when he got home, he threw the medicine he had bought at Xie Li, went upstairs without saying a word, locked himself in his room, and took a nap.

When Yan Yu woke up, it was already evening. After taking a shower, he went downstairs to eat and saw Xie Li sitting at the table with a faint smile on her face. She said softly, "If you don't come down soon, the food will get cold."

For some reason, this person he had liked for so many years now made Yan Yu feel an eyesore for the first time.

Another day passed just like that. The next day, Yan Yu buried himself in his work, focusing all his energy on it. Only in this way could he avoid thinking about other things, avoid feeling empty inside, and avoid experiencing that sense of loss...

I don't want to admit that I'm actually feeling lost and sad because I can't see Chen Jin...

In a daze, a few days passed in the blink of an eye.

"That concludes today's meeting. Meeting adjourned." Yan Yu said this expressionlessly before leaving the meeting room. As he walked to the tea room to pour himself a cup of tea, he staggered a few steps before managing to steady himself.

The other employees were startled and hurriedly asked, "President Yan, are you alright?"

"It's nothing." Yan Yu forced a smile, drank the tea he had just poured in one gulp, and then returned to his office. He sat down in his office chair, looking somewhat tired, and rubbed his temples.

He couldn't figure out what was wrong with him...

When he was leaving get off work, he was supposed to go home, but by the time he realized it, the car had already arrived at the east end and stopped in front of Chen Jin's dilapidated house.

"Pfft..." Yan Yu couldn't help but laugh out loud. As he laughed, he slammed his fist into the turntable, veins popping out on his forehead. "What am I doing here!"

After he finished yelling, he should have turned around and gone back immediately, but for some reason, his hands just wouldn't obey him. Instead of turning around and leaving, he got up from the car.

The place is still as dilapidated as before, but the trees are lush and cast a cool, refreshing shade.

Yan Yu stood outside the door and looked around. He knew that since Shen Jin had been taken away by Bai Yujin, he would definitely not be here anymore. Therefore, he used the key that Shen Jin had given him to open the door.

The furnishings inside remained the same: the old tables, chairs, television, sofa... nothing had changed, but because Shen Jin hadn't lived there for a while, it had started to accumulate dust and lacked a sense of human presence.

"Will he... come back to live here again in the future..." Yan Yu muttered to himself, his fingers lightly tracing over the old tables and chairs, picking up a thin layer of dust.

He pushed open the door to Shen Jin's bedroom and stood there blankly, looking at the scene. Memories flooded back like a tide, leaving him feeling dazed.

He seemed to see himself in this bedroom, where he and Shen Jin had many intimate encounters. After the passion subsided, Shen Jin would always be weak and limp. At those times, he loved to hold him in his arms; the touch felt wonderful.

Looking back now, my hands are empty, there's nothing there. The person who used to hold me in his arms is nowhere to be found...

"Am I crazy...?" Yan Yu said self-deprecatingly, gently closing his eyes, as if that way he could no longer see those past memories, and thus wouldn't feel that emptiness, as if something was missing...

He touched his heart, shook his head, staggered to Chen Jin's bed, lay down directly, stared blankly at the ceiling, his eyes somewhat vacant.

After staring at the ceiling for a while, his beautiful, almond-shaped eyes lowered slightly, and he couldn't help but whisper, "Why don't you want to see me anymore..."

If he's angry because of the punch he threw at him in the hospital that injured him, then he could apologize...

"Forget it, what am I thinking..." Yan Yu found it hilarious to have such thoughts. After laughing, he put his hand on his forehead, and a faint sadness and disappointment appeared in his peach blossom eyes.

He couldn't help but look back at the other bed. In the past, Shen Jin would sleep next to him, but now when he turned around, it was empty, with nothing there. Yan Yu felt as if he was suffocating, and every minute and every second became difficult.

Yan Yu picked up Chen Jin's pillow and hugged it to his chest. The scent of shampoo still lingered in Chen Jin's hair, which smelled very nice. Yan Yu couldn't help but snuggle against him and unknowingly fell asleep on his bed.

He had a dream, a dream filled with ashes. When he woke up, his eyes were a little wet.

He touched it and felt it was a little cool. Then, with his eyes downcast, he got out of bed, gave a self-deprecating laugh, said nothing, lowered his head, walked out, and drove away.

After he left, a head peeked out from the corner, staring in the direction he'd gone. The head blinked in confusion, then muttered dejectedly, "That guy's so weird, he can even cry in his sleep..."

Shen Jin had been living a carefree life these past few days. Today, Bai Yujin had some free time, so he took him back to his old place to take a look. However, he didn't have much of an impression of it, only knowing that it was his home. Therefore, before Bai Yujin arrived, he wandered in on his own.

He then encountered a good-looking person sleeping in bed, hugging a pillow and murmuring the name "Chen Jin" several times, which startled him so much that he quickly ran out to secretly watch.

As the car disappeared from sight, Shen Jin couldn't help but touch his heart again. He didn't know why, but it hurt terribly, especially when he saw that person's eyes were wet. He really wanted to hug him and comfort him...

But he was afraid, so he could only watch from the sidelines.

When Bai Yujin arrived, he saw him staring blankly in one direction, so he smiled and ruffled his hair: "What's wrong?"

"I don't know," Shen Jin told him truthfully, then, remembering the person he had just seen, he pursed his lips and whispered, "But I'm so sad..."

Xie Li has been much quieter these past few days because he has noticed that Yan Yu is acting strangely and doesn't want to become his punching bag at this time. He can only observe slowly. In addition, Bai Yujin taking Shen Jin away has also put him at ease.

"Ah Yu, you're back?" He smiled and said when he saw Yan Yu return from outside. "Are you hungry? If you are, let's eat first."

"I'm not hungry, you don't need to worry about me." Yan Yu said simply, then turned and went to the wine cellar, took out several bottles of his treasured wines, went upstairs, and locked himself in his study.

Yan Yu felt that he might be going crazy, or maybe he had contracted some kind of illness, but he couldn't find the source of the illness. He just felt that each day was getting harder and harder.

Late at night, he finished many bottles of wine, lying drunk on the floor with the bottles, his face flushed, his eyes somewhat unfocused, and his voice hoarse as he murmured, "Shen Jin..."

He called out again and again, but no one answered. He could only laugh bitterly, then hugged the empty bottle to his chest and mumbled drunkenly, "I know I was wrong, I did think about apologizing... but why won't you listen to anything I say..."

Pride was at play, preventing him from lowering his haughty head, leaving him only to endure the torment.

Her head felt as heavy as if it were filled with water; she was so drunk she couldn't distinguish anything. In a daze, she grabbed her phone, dialed Bai Yujin's number, and hiccuped, "Chen Jin, Chen Jin...where is he? I want to see him..."

"What's wrong with you in the middle of the night?" Bai Yujin was still a little annoyed when he received his call. He couldn't understand why he suddenly wanted to see him after ignoring him for so long.

Having drunk too much, Yan Yu was completely drunk and didn't care about his image anymore. He slurred, "It's the middle of the night, perfect for going crazy, hahaha, I don't care... I just want to see Shen Jin... Tell him for me... I miss him..."

And... what should I do? I think I've fallen for him...