Chapter 55 I'm not going home tonight [8,000 words]

Although Shen Jin did not understand what he was saying, a sense of fear inexplicably arose from his bones, as if he had experienced something before, and his soul trembled.

So he grinned foolishly, his face pale, but he still reached out and pushed against Yan Yu's chest, not wanting him to be so close: "You...you're too close to me..."

He was still somewhat afraid of Yan Yu, because he didn't know if this person would suddenly get angry and treat him badly, which made him uneasy. Therefore, he spoke with extra caution.

But Yan Yu was already blinded by lust and didn't think much about it. Or rather, sometimes he didn't care what the other person was thinking; as long as the other person obediently complied...

So he didn't let go of him. Instead, he found his current appearance quite cute, which aroused his even stronger desire to conquer him. After all, he was soft and gentle, which was quite nice.

"How can I teach you if I'm not too close to you?" Yan Yu moved closer to him, his peach blossom eyes narrowed as he looked at his face, which was turning pale and red in turns. He wasn't sure if he was shy, but he just smiled and said, "You'll be captivated by that feeling..."

Before he could hear a word from him, Shen Jin's face paled even more, but Yan Yu seemed not to notice. He kissed down along Shen Jin's ear, and then gently bit his fair neck.

"Ouch..." Shen Jin felt a bit pain from his bite, unsure of what he was doing, yet sensing it might be another form of punishment, he could only look at him helplessly and stammer, "I...I didn't...make you angry..."

He's always been very careful and obedient, never making a fuss or causing trouble. He's been so well-behaved, so why is he being treated like this...?

Yan Yu paused, his brows furrowing slightly as he met his innocent yet somewhat bewildered eyes. After a long while, he said, "Did I say you made me angry?"

“If not…” Shen Jin’s body instinctively tried to move to the other side, attempting to keep his distance from him, and he asked in a low voice, “If not… why are you doing this to me…”

Yan Yu instantly understood. He thought that since he had become like this, he had not even experienced any romantic affairs. He was afraid that Yan Yu thought he was doing something bad to him. So he said, "Shen Jin, listen to me, this is not a bad thing."

To everyone's surprise, Shen Jin blinked and said seriously, "But I think... that's it..."

He spent some time with Da Bai Bai, and the other party never forced him to do anything that would make him unhappy. He basically went along with him and would occasionally bring his sister over to play with him.

Unlike the person in front of me...

"Forget it, you wouldn't understand even if I explained." Yan Yu sighed helplessly, pulled the person sitting on his lap closer to his chest, then lowered his head and bit his lips, a half-smile on his face, "You used to love it when I treated you like that..."

Shen Jin had no concept of the so-called "past," but seeing his ambiguous smile and hearing his words felt like a thorn had unexpectedly pierced the softest spot in his heart...

It hurts a lot.

The pain that surged from the depths of his heart made Shen Jin temporarily ignore what the person in front of him was about to do. He simply lowered his eyes, rubbed his heart a few times, and muttered softly, "How strange..."

Yan Yu, who was about to undress him, stopped when he heard his muttering. He glanced at his facial expression, not understanding what was wrong with him, and could only ask, "What's wrong? What's strange?"

A faint smile appeared on Shen Jin's pale face, inexplicably pitiful. He pursed his thin lips pitifully, rubbed his chest, and forced a smile at Yan Yu: "It hurts so much here..."

Yan Yu glanced down at the spot where he was rubbing his heart, frowned slightly, and after a moment of thought, asked him slowly, "You were healthy before, and your heart didn't have any problems. Did you injure it recently?"

Shen Jin is different from Xie Li. Although Shen Jin's life is plain and hard, he is healthy, while Xie Li has a heart condition that occasionally flares up, causing him great pain in his chest. But Shen Jin is perfectly fine.

"Huh?" Shen Jin was taken aback, blinked blankly, thought for a moment following his words, and then shook his head decisively, "No, I've been fine lately... I haven't been injured, and I've been having a great time..."

But after you suddenly appeared, I wasn't happy anymore; I felt depressed, and my heart ached...

He only dared to think these things to himself, and naturally he wouldn't be foolish enough to say them out loud in front of Yan Yu and upset him.

Yan Yu gently rubbed his hand, then leaned down and kissed him on the cheek, comforting him, "It's nothing, just a small thing. You've probably been busy lately, it'll be fine in a while."

Shen Jin lowered his eyes, tears welling up for a moment before he quickly hid them back inside: "Oh..."

He felt that they weren't the same...

While he was puzzled and confused, Yan Yu had already taken off his clothes, and his smooth and delicate skin was instantly exposed to the air. It was fair with a rosy glow, and his curves were distinct, making him exceptionally attractive.

The air conditioning was still on inside. Shen Jin, suddenly having his clothes removed, inevitably felt a chill. He rubbed his arms and then gently hugged himself, saying, "Why did you take my clothes off... I'm cold..."

Yan Yu lowered his head and planted rows of kisses on his delicate skin, then gently bit down with his teeth, leaving his teeth marks, before smiling softly and saying, "It's okay, you won't be cold in a bit."

Shen Jin did not relax at all because of his words of comfort. Instead, his heart clenched tightly, the pain so intense it felt like he was suffocating. The light in his eyes seemed to be dying away, turning dark and lifeless...

This scene seemed familiar; he felt as if he had been powerless before, unable to resist. All his struggles were futile, not only ineffective but also provoking more cruel treatment from the other party, leaving him no choice but to let the other do as he pleased, without any restraint...

Now, it feels the same again.

Images flashed through Shen Jin's mind in an instant, then vanished just as quickly. His usually lifeless eyes, which had been filled with the acceptance of everything, suddenly stirred with emotion. He forcefully pushed Yan Yu away and shouted angrily, "I...no! I don't want to!"

Yan Yu was originally holding him while sitting on the sofa, but now he was suddenly pushed hard by him, and his body was leaning back against the sofa. Shen Jin jumped off his lap in an instant, staggered back a few steps, looked at him warily, and was covered in cold sweat.

Yan Yu frowned, a little impatiently: "What's wrong with you now? Even if you're going to throw a tantrum, don't do it now. Listen to me and come here."

He reached out to Shen Jin, beckoning him to come to his side. However, this gesture deeply stung Shen Jin's eyes, which instantly turned bloodshot: "Get out! I don't want to! I'm not going over there! Get away from me!"

Although the room was well soundproofed, Yan Yu still didn't like him shouting like that, lest he disturb the people in the other rooms, which would be troublesome.

Yan Yu said, "You're injured, so you won't recover in a short time and you've forgotten a lot of things. But once you're better, you'll understand. That's the kind of relationship we have."

To be honest, he didn't know when Shen Jin would recover, but with technology so advanced these days, he figured it was just a temporary dementia and he would recover soon.

To make up for the accident he caused, he transferred one million to Shen Jin's bank account as compensation while Shen Jin was hospitalized. However, Shen Jin woke up in such a mentally impaired state that he probably didn't know about the one million.

Once he's fully recovered, he'll probably be quite happy to see that million, since he's short of money.

If Shen Jin is willing to listen to him and continue to support him, then money is not a problem; he can even give him more, provided that Shen Jin is obedient and doesn't anger him at the drop of a hat.

Although he was throwing a tantrum, Yan Yu felt guilty because he knew he had his own reasons for it. He couldn't help but soften his voice and coaxed him gently, "Shen Jin, will you listen to me? Please stop making a fuss?"

"I...I..." Shen Jin shook his head, and as he saw Yan Yu approaching, he backed away step by step. He didn't know why, but the gentler Yan Yu was, the more frightened he became. "You...don't come any closer..."

Yan Yu frowned, his expression darkening further.

He has never lacked bed partners, but since meeting Shen Jin, his only bed partner has been Shen Jin... However, due to too many things happening recently, the two of them have not had sex for almost a month.

Now that the die is cast, there's no turning back. But Shen Jin's act of being afraid to reject him only deeply annoys him.

Therefore, all the comforting words and words of advice that were meant to be spoken turned into a low, somewhat cold statement: "I don't like it when others go against me."

Shen Jin's face turned deathly pale. Although he didn't quite understand what he was saying, he was still instinctively terrified. He was forced back into the corner by the man, trembling all over. He wanted to cry but couldn't make a sound, and could only choke out, "Why...why did it have to be me..."

Yan Yu paused for a moment, looking at the tears welling up in his eyes and his trembling body, his heart ached again, and he felt a little reluctant to part with him.

At the same time, Shen Jin's words flashed through his mind again: Why him?

Yan Yu couldn't understand why either...

Mingming Shenjin had angered him many times, disobeyed him, acted insubordinately, and repeatedly violated his dignity... He should have thrown him aside long ago and stopped paying attention to him.

But why do I still can't help but come to his side, even wanting to keep him by my side...?

"You...don't cry anymore..." Yan Yu frowned, his tone a little stiff. He wanted to comfort him, but he didn't know where to start, especially since the other person looked afraid of him.

Yan Yu couldn't help but ask, "What exactly are you afraid of about me?"

Shen Jin, his face deathly pale, leaned against the doorframe, shook his head, and bit his lower lip. He didn't know what to say, and could only stammer, "I...I...don't know, but...it's just..."

Before he could finish speaking, tears streamed down his face uncontrollably.

"Stop crying, will you?!" Yan Yu gritted his teeth, looking annoyed, and strode over to him. He clicked his tongue impatiently, reached out and wiped away his tears, saying as he did so, "What are you crying about? What's there to cry about? You cry all the time!"

Shen Jin sniffed. His state of mind was different from usual. He couldn't hold back the tears he used to have, so how could he hold them back now? They just kept flowing down his face, and he was too scared to make a sound.

Yan Yu clicked his tongue: "When are you going to stop crying?"

He wiped away his tears with his hands, but they seemed endless, so he simply lowered his head, gently placed his lips on the corner of his eye, and softly kissed away his tears, unusually gentle in his voice, "Be good, okay? Don't cry anymore?"

Shen Jin felt his face, which had been kissed by him, was slightly burning. His nose was still red, as were his eyes. He looked at him with a mixture of fear and helplessness, unable to understand how this person could change so much.

Yan Yu was good at offering a few perfunctory words of comfort now and then, but when someone was genuinely crying in front of him with tears streaming down their face, he didn't know how to console them.

Yan Yu could only stare at him for a while, his heart softening more and more, and he felt inexplicably sorry for him and reluctant to let him go. So he could only sigh deeply, then bend down and pick him up, who was about to burst into tears. He rubbed him a few times and said helplessly, "What can I do to stop your tears?"

This was the first time Yan Yu had ever known that crying could be so complicated. The tears seemed endless; they flowed easily, but stopping them was extremely difficult.

Shen Jin didn't speak, and continued to sob intermittently.

"All you do is cry!" Yan Yu said irritably, then couldn't help but lift the person in his arms higher, kiss away his tears, and carry him to the bed.

He didn't let go of him, but instead they lay down on the bed together. He held Chen Jin in his arms, wrapped one arm around his waist, rubbed him a few times, and then reached out to wipe away his tears: "Fine, I won't do it anymore! Why are you still crying!"

"Waaah..." However, when he was so fierce, Shen Jin's tears, which she had managed to stop a little, surged out again. Her little face was scrunched up, and she looked really pitiful.

"Tsk, damn it." Yan Yu closed his eyes with a headache, gritted his teeth, and couldn't figure out if he was made of tears or not, otherwise how could he have so many tears.

Not knowing how to comfort him, Yan Yu simply gave up, patted him on the back, and said in a self-deprecating tone, "Fine, fine, go ahead and cry, cry your fill first, don't keep crying on and off until later!"

Shen Jin had been holding back for a while, and now that he heard him say that, it was as if he had been granted permission. He could no longer hold back his tears and opened his mouth to cry out, "Waaaaaah! Cry if you want! Waaaaaah..."

Yan Yu: "..."

Yan Yu took a deep breath and thought to himself, "Forget it. He's not the same as before. There's no need for me to argue with him so much. I'll just go along with him once in a while."

After thinking it over, he hugged the person who was crying with tears streaming down his face and looked aggrieved, letting him bury his head in his chest and let him cry it out. He then ruffled the person's hair and rubbed it against the person's soft hair a few times.

When Shen Jin buried her face in Yan Yu's chest, she felt a sense of familiarity mixed with strangeness. Being held like this made her even more unable to control her emotions. She burst into tears, snot and tears streaming down her face, and kept rubbing her face against Yan Yu's clothes, crying out, "I don't know why I'm scared, waaaaah..."

"Can't I be afraid if I don't know? Waaaaah! And you're always yelling at me and getting angry, why can't I be afraid? Waaaaah..."

Before long, Yan Yu felt that his shirt, which cost tens of thousands of yuan, had become a piece of burlap, sticky and uncomfortable after he used it to wipe his nose and tears.

"I know, I know." Yan Yu didn't know how to comfort him, so he could only go along with him, hugging and rubbing him. Perhaps it was because they hadn't been together for a while, but now holding him in his arms made him feel especially nostalgic.

And her body was thin and soft, so it was very comfortable to hold her, and he didn't want to let go.

After Shen Jin had cried enough, Yan Yu finally let go of him and got out of bed. Shen Jin choked out, "Where are you going?"

Yan Yu looked down at the sticky patch on his chest, frowned, tugged at his clothes, and said with some disgust, "I took a shower, and you got me all covered in your snot and tears. It's filthy."

Shen Jin sniffed, his eyes a little red and swollen. He knew that he had just wiped a lot of snot and tears on him, and it was indeed quite dirty, so he didn't say anything more.

But... he just wanted to smear his snot and tears all over him, to really annoy him...

After entering the bathroom, Yan Yu frowned as he unbuttoned his shirt, revealing his well-defined skin and sexy abs. He then unbuckled his belt, removing his trousers and leaving only his boxer shorts, which concealed a bulging bulge…

Shen Jin lay on the bed, sniffing, grabbed a cushion, and rubbed it against his chest. He kept glancing towards the bathroom, muttering somewhat irritably, "Why is it so quiet when this person takes a shower..."

When Chen Jin usually takes a shower, he likes to leave the water running and spray it everywhere, laughing and having a great time. So he really doesn't understand why there hasn't been any sound of water coming from inside for a while.

After a while, Shen Jin carefully heard a series of rapid, heavy breathing sounds coming from the bathroom...

The heavy breathing startled Chen Jin, who quickly sat up in bed, tilted his head to peek into the bathroom, blinked, and muttered softly, "W-what's wrong?"

Not only could they hear some strange breathing sounds, but they could also hear Yan Yu uttering a few strange, muffled words...

It sounds like it's going to be a bit difficult and painful?

"Could something have happened to him inside?" Shen Jin was taken aback. Although the other person's temper was unpredictable, sometimes good and sometimes bad, if something really had happened...

Thinking about this made him uneasy, so he quickly put down his pillow, tiptoed out of bed, and carefully went to the bathroom. To his surprise, he found that although the bathroom door looked closed, it was not actually closed from the inside. It could be opened with just a push.

Still worried, Shen Jin reached out and pushed open the door, curiously peeking his little head inside: "What are you doing—"

Yan Yu was standing with his back to him, his body stiffening. His face, which had been flushed with lust, instantly turned ugly and embarrassed. He turned around through gritted teeth, almost about to explode in anger again: "Get out!"

Shen Jin blinked, puzzled, and scanned down the other man's dark face. When he saw the man's physique, his ears turned slightly red. When he saw the man's actions, he was stunned again.

He stared at Yan Yu with some confusion, his eyes still a little red, like an innocent child, and asked him innocently, "Why did you touch that place?"

Yan Yu paused, his face turning even more ashen, so black it seemed as if drops of ink could drip from it at any moment. He grinded his teeth to dust and roared furiously, "Get out!"

"Huh?" Shen Jin was taken aback, sniffed, and didn't understand why he had suddenly become so angry again. Not long ago, he had been willing to hold him in his arms. "I was just curious, that's why I asked..."

"Bang--!"

Before Shen Jin could finish speaking, Yan Yu slammed the door shut, shutting him out. Completely bewildered, Shen Jin blinked innocently before quietly continuing, "I was just curious, that's why I asked..."

After muttering to himself, Shen Jin couldn't help but look down at his crotch again, recalling what he had just seen.

Yan Yu could see the figure outside the bathroom from inside. Listening to his muttering, his expression became even more unpleasant. After all, no one would be happy to be seen doing something like this, especially when the other person asked him with an innocent look on their face.

Seeing that he still hadn't done so, Yan Yu was both angry and annoyed, and had no choice but to say, "Stop standing there like an idiot and go back to bed!"

"Oh..." Shen Jin nodded, thinking that since he couldn't figure it out anyway, he might as well stop thinking about it. He obediently went back to the soft bed and lay down, bouncing on it a few times like a child.

Just then, Shen Jin felt a vibration next to the soft bed. Curious, he turned around and found it was a cell phone; someone was calling.

"It seems like this..." He remembered that Da Bai Bai told him that this was called making a phone call, and that you could usually connect the call by simply swiping your hand like this. So he tried it and it connected.

Then Shen Jin heard a gentle voice from his phone: "A Yu, it's late, aren't you back yet?"

Ah Yu? Are you talking about that scoundrel who doesn't make a sound when he takes a shower?

Shen Jin thought for a moment, unsure how to reply, but it seemed rather impolite to remain silent. So, after staring at his phone for a while, he said, "Ah, Ah Yu is taking a shower, so I can't talk to you."

Xie Li, who had just taken a shower and was wearing a bathrobe in the villa, suddenly turned pale. He first looked down at the number to make sure he hadn't dialed the wrong number, and then recalled the voice from just now, which seemed somewhat familiar.

Not knowing the situation, Xie Li didn't dare to act rashly, so he had to control himself and forced a smile, saying, "Is that so? Then where is he? And who are you?"

Shen Jin stared intently at his phone. His voice was slightly distorted from crying not long ago, and he said with a nasal tone, "Him? That big bad guy jumped over the wall into my house and bullied me! In my house! Come and get him!"

Xie Li's forehead veins throbbed violently, a flash of anger crossed his eyes, and he tightened his grip on the phone, trying to remain calm: "And you, who are you?"

Shen Jin snorted a couple of times, clearly dissatisfied, and then told him, "I'm just a poor little thing being bullied by bad guys!"

Xie Li resisted the urge to swear, biting his lip hard. The pain helped him calm down, and he forced a smile, saying, "Really? Well, you must have had a hard time. What did you guys do? Where's A-Yu? Could you let him answer the phone?"

His intuition told him that the person speaking to him was Shen Jin, but he was unwilling to believe it.

Shen Jin nodded vigorously: "Yeah, I'm so tired! And so pitiful. He gets angry all the time, he yells at me and makes me cry on the bed, then he hugs me and comforts me. Now he's all sticky, so he's going to take a shower. He can't talk to you."

Xie Li's face turned deathly pale instantly, and he gasped for breath: "??!!"

After a long while, Xie Li managed to find his voice, but he couldn't control his emotions and shouted angrily, "You, you... what did you say?!"

"Huh?" Shen Jin put his ear closer to the microphone, then suddenly realized, and raised his voice a little, "So you're deaf too! You can't hear me!"

"You, you, you—!" Xie Li was so angry she almost bit her tongue. Her eyes widened in disbelief as she roared, "What did you say! Who did you say is deaf?!"

Shen Jin innocently repeated, "Listen, listen! You can't hear me clearly again, even worse than me! I just said you're deaf! If you can't hear me, I'll move closer and say you're deaf!"

Veins bulged on Xie Li's handsome face, his cheeks flushed with anger, and he roared in uncontrollable fury, "Shen Jin?!"

"Huh," Shen Jin was a little surprised, not expecting this person to know his name, and immediately laughed, "You know my name? Do you know me? But I don't remember you at all."

Xie Li was furious, but when he heard his joyful voice coming from the receiver, his eyes rolled back, and he staggered to the sofa next to him, resisting the urge to smash his phone, and kept taking deep breaths: "You you you you—!"

Yan Yu, who was in the bathroom, heard Shen Jin's voice, but he couldn't hear it very clearly, so he didn't take it seriously. He figured it was probably just the little fool talking to himself again, so he just let him be.

After taking a shower, Yan Yu realized he didn't have any clean clothes, so he simply grabbed a towel, tied it around his waist, and left the bathroom. His hair was still wet, dripping down his neck.

As soon as he pushed open the door and went out, he saw Shen Jin lying on the bed with his head down, occasionally putting his ear close to the screen, muttering something to himself, and he seemed to be having a lot of fun, with a smile on his face.

Yan Yu patted his hair haphazardly, walked over step by step, and asked from behind, "What are you doing?"

When Xie Li heard that voice, his heart instantly turned to ice, and he couldn't utter a single word for a long time.

He couldn't understand why, even now, Yan Yu would still be willing to go and find that foolish Shen Jin...

Why?

What exactly is it about him that makes him inferior to Shen Jin? They treated him like a precious gem back then, so why did everything change after Shen Jin appeared?

Could it be that this relationship has lasted too long... and Yan Yu has grown tired of it?

When Shen Jin heard Yan Yu's voice, he paused for a moment, turned around, and told him, "Someone called and asked what you were doing, so I told him!"

Yan Yu's expression changed instantly. Although he didn't know whose call it was, he knew that given Shen Jin's current state, even if he answered, it wouldn't be anything good!

"Give it to me!" He strode to the bedside, snatched the phone back from his hand, glanced at the caller ID, and his expression instantly became complicated, unsure whether to answer or not.

While he was caught in a dilemma, Xie Li had already controlled his emotions and softly called out, "A-Yu..."

"Hmm..." Yan Yu responded in a low voice, not knowing what Shen Jin had said to him, especially since he was currently in Shen Jin's room, and the person on the phone was someone he had liked for many years...

And he even took advantage of him when he was drunk.

Although Xie Li didn't mention the incident much afterward, Yan Yu couldn't pretend nothing had happened. He didn't know if Xie Li had agreed to it or if he had forced him while drunk...

I felt genuinely guilty and remorseful towards him.

After a moment of silence, Xie Li chuckled and said, "It's very late now. Aren't you coming back tonight?"

"Tonight..." Yan Yu paused, glanced at Shen Jin who was staring blankly at him on the bed, and couldn't help but smile at him. His tone became inexplicably gentle. "I won't be going back tonight."

"I see..." Xie Li pursed his pale lips, his face as still as a pool of dead water, motionless and lifeless, his dark eyes staring at the desk lamp in front of him.

Yan Yu wasn't by his side, so he couldn't see his expression at that moment. He just felt a little worried and said, "It's late. You're not feeling well, so don't stay up late. Get some rest."

Xie Li's expression remained unchanged. Sitting alone in the empty room, she hugged her knees and replied to him in a flat tone, "Okay."

The phone call ended, and there was no more sound; the room was deathly silent.

After a long pause, Xie Li chuckled absently, lowered his head, and tapped the leather sofa with his fingers, muttering something unintelligible: "I see..."

What belonged to him was so easily taken away. The person who claimed to like him could so easily become infatuated with someone else and then forget him.

"I'm a little envious." Xie Li smiled gently, his voice soft, but his eyes held no joy. Instead, he continued to tap the sofa, murmuring in a voice only he could hear, "Shen Jin, oh Shen Jin..."

"Why...why don't you just die..."