039 Qi Jiaojiao's Thoughts

When Qi Jiaojiao returned home, her husband had not yet returned from the school, and her son was still in school. Looking at her listless and sleepy little daughter, she felt heartbroken.

Such a young child actually contracted the most difficult to treat disease. The prescription given by my eldest cousin two years ago was very effective at the time and indeed controlled the disease.

But since last month, the medicine has gradually lost its effect. My daughter fainted twice in one month. Although she woke up quickly under the treatment of my second cousin, it was only a temporary solution and not a cure.

My eldest cousin will come in a few days, but what will happen when he comes?

This is a heart disease.

I heard that even the imperial physician couldn’t do anything about it.

Qi Jiaojiao felt helpless. She had a bad life. She fell in love with her eldest cousin at an early age, but her eldest cousin never looked at her directly and got married and had children at the age of seventeen.

Her father said that her second cousin would be a more suitable husband, and she agreed.

No matter how beautiful the imagination is, it is useless. The cousin's aunt also wanted to help him, but that Ma Ling was so shameless that she seduced the second cousin away.

The Qi family was better than the smaller families, but after all, they were just ordinary drug dealers with a little money. They could not marry into the wealthy and powerful families. After choosing and choosing again, they finally chose the Chen family.

His father and brother were not very satisfied with the second son of a county magistrate, but she was attracted by the fact that he was a 17-year-old scholar with a promising future.

The marriage was done.

It doesn't matter if I'm poor. My father and brothers have promised to give me a larger dowry. I can endure for three to five years and pass the imperial examination.

At the age of 25, she would be satisfied if she could enter the official career even before 30.

But how can I wait until I’m thirty?

In the second year after her marriage, she became pregnant. Her mother died early, so she didn't understand many things. No matter how good her father and brother were, they were still men, not to mention they lived far away from her. Her father-in-law didn't care about anything, and her mother-in-law was just a vampire.

When her husband hurriedly found a midwife to look for her, the baby was born healthy, but she was injured and her husband fell ill due to excessive shock.

In desperation, she took her husband and children back to her parents' home and found her eldest and second cousins. Her husband's illness was cured, and so was her own.

But her cousin told her that it would be better for her not to have children in this life, as her body was badly injured. Even if she did, it would probably take five to ten years, and it would all depend on her future recovery.

Now that she has a son, she doesn't take this matter to heart and just wants to wait a few years.

Unfortunately, people with unlucky lives will get food stuck in their teeth even when they drink water.

But within a year, her husband had an accident and died, and her heart was broken into pieces.

In just a few months, her life in the Chen family became more and more difficult.

First, my father-in-law became more and more silent, and my mother-in-law kept scolding her as a jinx, and even called her one-year-old grandson her nemesis.

This was unbearable for her.

Her husband treated her well when he was alive, but so what?

The dead could not protect her and her son.

I had to ask my father and brother for help again.

The father and brother came to negotiate, but were scolded and left. Then they came again and negotiated again.

Time and time again, the person finally gained freedom, but the price she paid was more than half of her dowry, which added up to at least 10,000 taels of silver.

She said it was compensation for her husband's illegitimate son, and that someone was carrying on her husband's incense on behalf of her son.

Haha, so much silver would be given to that bastard? She didn’t believe it.

But what can she do if she doesn't believe it? Her father didn't want her to take her son back to her parents' home, saying that it would be bad for her son.

Is it okay to stay? Is it okay to be alone?

With a mother-in-law like that and a husband's family like that, how could she dare to leave her helpless son behind?

This amount of silver could support thirty ordinary families for a lifetime, but it was given to the vampire mother-in-law and bought freedom for herself and her son. It was worth it.

Her father and brother secretly gave her two thousand taels of silver, and with the remaining money, she had six or seven thousand taels, which was enough for her to live on.

Unexpectedly, on the way back, because of her temporary change of route, she met her current husband, a man who made her heart beat faster at the first sight of him.

He was so young and so handsome, and she was willing to save him at first sight.

It seemed as if God took pity on her. She was saved and cured, but she had lost her previous memory and remembered nothing but the knowledge from books.

But her father and brother didn't want her to marry him, saying that they hadn't seen his pass or any identity documents.

For a person whose origin is unknown, who knows what kind of family he has? Is he married and has children?

But she insisted that he was a gift from God out of pity for her.

It is difficult for a widow with a son to marry such a good man again, even if she is not short of money.

From then on, her father gradually became cold-hearted, stopped doting on her, and tried not to see her as much as possible.

My brother still treats her well as always, but my sister-in-law is...

The marriage was arranged, she had a husband, her son had a father, and they all had a home.

She secretly embroidered the word "Wu" on her husband's old clothes, just because Wu was her mother's surname.

My husband still thinks that is his own surname. Since he can't remember his own name, he named himself Wu Min, which means nameless.

She felt guilty about this matter but she did not regret it. How could a widow with a son marry into a good family for the second time?

Her father and brother originally wanted to bring her back with them, but how could they abandon the son she had given birth to with so much difficulty, when she might not even have another child in the future?

Now my husband has started everything from scratch. He has found someone to settle the household registration, bought a house, and got married.

My husband has also re-tested for the position of Tongsheng and Xiucai, and is planning to take the provincial examination this year. The provincial examination is not easy, so what?

They are not short of money now, and it's good for my husband to study. At worst, he can come back in three years. In three years, my husband will only be 29 years old.

The only thing she didn't expect was that she really wouldn't be able to have a child soon.

Ping'er was born in the second year after marriage. From then on, life became gloomy and fearful.

Apart from her daughter, her deepest fear was that one day her husband would regain his memory and remember his home.

Over the years, she has been controlling herself and not inquiring about his original family, whether he has ever been married, or whether his parents are still alive.

She didn't want to ask or know anything. She just hoped that the elderly man had other children and would not be left alone in his old age.

I only wish that my husband had never been married and had no wife or children.

No one knew that when my husband was found, he had a pass in his arms, carefully wrapped in oil paper. Although it was damaged, it was not so clear that it could not be seen clearly.

But the pass only contained my husband's name, age, and address, nothing else.

In the past two years, she even wanted to ask her second cousin to prescribe some medicine for her so that her husband would never think about the past.

But is there really such a medicine in the world?

She didn't dare, nor was she willing to do so. All medicines are poisonous. How could her husband, a well-educated man, take those medicines so casually?

Furthermore, she couldn't say it out loud. If she really told her second cousin such a request, what would he think of her?

Now I just hope that my husband will never think of me again, and if he really does think of me, it will be after ten or eight years.

Even if he had a wife at that time, he would have remarried and had children. No one would want to be a widow for the rest of their life at such a young age.

The son is sensible. The nine-year-old is well-mannered, studious, and admires his father wholeheartedly.

Maybe it’s because of their blood relationship, the father and son are very loving and filial, but they lack a natural closeness, which makes her feel helpless.

The daughter was named Ping'er, which means peace and safety. However, the reality went against her wishes and she had no trace of peace and safety.

The husband also felt sorry for his daughter, and when she deliberately concealed the truth, he didn't know that the disease had no cure.

She didn't dare to think about what would happen in the future if her daughter died one day and she could no longer give birth to a child for her husband.

Or, what if her husband regained his memory after a few years and thought of his home, what if he once had a wife and children, what would she do? What would it matter?

Qi Jiaojiao burst into tears.

That was a result she could not imagine.

Qi Jiaojiao glanced at the child and staggered towards her room.