Chapter 321 I Only Have Feelings for You

To be honest, Qu Jingyou only knew that Lu Zuofan was a handsome man.

But she has too many handsome men around her.

When she was little, her father, her grandfather, and when she grew a little older, her older brother and her relatives' brothers were all good-looking.

Later came Pei Muyi, Yan Chengyu...

They're all very charming men anyway.

Lu Zuofan is good-looking, and Qu Jingyou is conscious of it.

But she never actually looked at Lu Zuofan's facial features.

What do the eyes look like? What does the nose look like?

He leaned closer, and Qu Jingyou actually went to look.

For a man, Lu Zuofan's skin was smooth and firm, not very fair, but it looked healthy.

Her facial features are also very beautiful.

Especially those eyes, they look at everyone with deep affection.

Nose, lips, chin, Adam's apple...

Lu Zuofan's Adam's apple bobbed, and he asked her, "Where are you looking?"

His Adam's apple was prominent and angular.

Qu Jingyou couldn't resist wanting to touch it.

Sometimes when she watches videos, she comes across men like this: in a scene of light and shadow, only their Adam's apple is moving.

I wonder what it feels like to touch.

She hasn't touched it yet.

She asked, "May I touch your Adam's apple?"

Lu Zuofan found it strange that Qu Jingyou was looking at his face, but her attention was drawn to his Adam's apple.

Hearing that she wanted to touch him, he moved again, his Adam's apple bobbing up and down.

Qu Jingyou became even more curious: "It looks like a lot of fun."

"This isn't fun." Lu Zuofan grabbed her outstretched hand: "You can't just touch this place."

Qu Jingyou withdrew her hand: "Fine, don't touch me then, you stingy person."

Lu Zuofan said, "Jingjing, don't ask men these kinds of questions in the future."

"What? Is it okay to touch his Adam's apple?"

"right."

"I'm not going to ask anyone else."

"Are you only going to ask me what I mean?"

Qu Jingyou said, "I got carried away with the conversation and didn't mean anything by it. I've seen the video, and it said something about how Adam's apple is a killer or something, basically it's a sensitive topic."

Aren't you afraid I'll be overly sensitive?

"Is it really that sensitive?" Qu Jingyou asked curiously. "How could this place be sensitive? That's strange."

"Don't ask anymore." Lu Zuofan turned his face away: "Jingjing, this topic is not suitable for us."

After he finished speaking, he picked up the teacup and drank a cup.

The fruit tea is a little cold, which is just right.

"What's inappropriate about it? We're all adults. Don't think I don't understand."

Lu Zuofan couldn't help but look at her: "What do you know? Do you know what it means for you to talk to me about this topic?"

"I understand everything," Qu Jingyou said. "Even kids these days understand, right? You won't overthink it if I talk to you about this, will you?"

"I'm a man, and a man who likes you. Do you think I'll overthink things?"

"Are you being too sensitive about something as trivial as talking about Adam's apples?"

“If you were the one talking to me about these things, then I’m definitely being overly sensitive,” Lu Zuofan said. “Jingjing, you shouldn’t trust me so much.”

"You can't possibly let your animalistic instincts run wild, can you?"

"uncertain."

Qu Jingyou looked at him as if he were a monster: "Lu Zuofan, what do you want to do?"

“I won’t do anything,” Lu Zuofan said, “but if you keep talking, I can’t guarantee anything.”

"I don't believe you. What could you possibly do in a place like this?"

Qu Jingyou was really curious.

No one around her would tell her these things.

Girls wouldn't do it, and boys wouldn't dare.

Lu Zuofan looked at her without saying a word.

Qu Jingyou looked at him and asked, "Lu Zuofan, what does kissing feel like?"

"Qu Jingyou".

He called her by her full name for the first time.

Qu Jingyou was very unhappy: "What's with that expression! What, you've kissed someone, so what!"

Qu Jingyou had no idea how much turmoil her casual words had stirred in Lu Zuofan's heart.

He couldn't think of anything else now; his mind was filled with Qu Jingyou's red lips.

He wanted to kiss her.

He had this thought countless times.

In the dead of night, I call her name to release my physical desires.

But when you see him during the day, he suppresses those emotions.

I was afraid of disrespecting her.

But today, she actually brought up this topic.

Lu Zuofan drank another cup of fruit tea.

Qu Jingyou wanted to say something more, but Lu Zuofan said, "Don't say anything."

"I'll tell you anyway!" Qu Jingyou said angrily. "You've definitely kissed a lot of people, right? What's wrong with telling me? I didn't ask anything else. Can't I even talk about kissing?"

"I don't want to talk about it."

"You're so stingy."

“I’m not…” Lu Zuofan looked at her: “Jingjing, don’t you really understand?”

"Understand what?"

"You want me to talk about my experiences kissing other women in front of you? Jingjing, I like you, and you treat me as a friend, but I won't. In my heart, you're the girl I like, and I'd want to do all sorts of inappropriate things to you..."

"What?" Qu Jingyou was very surprised: "What do you want to do to me?"

You wouldn't want to know.

"I knew it!" Qu Jingyou snorted. "So all these days, you've been acting all serious, it was all an act!"

"Yes, I was faking it." Lu Zuofan couldn't help but say, "I wanted to hug you, I wanted to kiss you, I wanted to do something to you..."

He turned his face away, his Adam's apple bobbing again: "You have no idea."

"What don't I know?" Qu Jingyou said. "It's just that kind of thing."

Lu Zuofan looked at her sharply: "What kind of attitude is this?"

"What, you won't let me say it?" Qu Jingyou said, "You've slept with so many women, are you still shy? This kind of thing is normal, but I've always felt that you can only do it with someone you love. Does that mean you've loved many people before?"

“I didn’t…” Lu Zuofan didn’t want to say it, but he had to explain clearly: “Before, it was just a physical need, I didn’t love them.”

"But how could you do such a thing with someone you don't love?"

"Can we please stop talking about this?"

“Since you’ve brought it up, just say it clearly,” Qu Jingyou said. “I don’t think it’s necessary for you to be so secretive.”

Lu Zuofan remained silent.

Qu Jingyou said, "Could it be that you just want to sleep with me, and don't actually love me that much?"

“No,” Lu Zuofan said. “I don’t know how to explain it to you, but after falling in love with you, I have no desire for anyone else.”

"This isn't something you can just say you don't have, it's not something you can just dismiss."

Lu Zuofan found it difficult to speak.

Qu Jingyou said, "So, I feel that you..."

“No.” Lu Zuofan denied it again: “I can prove that my needs for other people are just physical, but not for you.”

"This proves it?"

Lu Zuofan gritted his teeth and said, "Ever since I fell in love with you, I... I haven't been able to get an erection."

Qu Jingyou was taken aback, and it took her a while to understand what Lu Zuofan meant.

She asked, "You...you can't do it anymore?"

Lu Zuofan said, "It's because I'm not good at dealing with others."

He stared at her: "Qu Jingyou, I only have feelings for you right now."

Qu Jingyou leaned back, covering her chest with her hands: "What, what do you mean?"

Lu Zuofan gave a wry smile: "Are you still afraid? What have I done to you?"