Chapter 46

Chen Mo finally couldn't stand it anymore, so he grabbed Xi Siyan's wrist, took a step closer, and used the dim light around him to see his features clearly, and said with certainty: "You are drunk."

Xi Siyan did not withdraw his words and insisted, "No."

"Bullshit." Chen Mo cursed, then subconsciously lowered his voice, even gritting his teeth: "Didn't you say you don't like men? Why did you kiss me?"

Xi Siyan raised his eyes: "That's because I've never liked anyone else, so my self-awareness is incomplete."

“You…”

Chen Mo scoffed at this explanation, but he soon realized another layer of meaning in these words and was shocked: "You mean you like... me?"

Xi Siyan pointed at him and said, "Otherwise? Do you think I would kiss people when I'm drunk?"

Chen Mo complained speechlessly: "At this time, can you not be so venomous?"

He took two deep breaths and felt that he needed to slow down.

Let's not talk about the fact that he just felt something soft touching him. He also recalled the past year, from strangers to familiarity, from Xi Siyan becoming his deskmate and tutoring him upon request. The more he thought about it, the more he felt that Xi Siyan was crazy.

Although he had taken himself to the hospital more than once.

I found a Chinese medicine doctor for him, accompanied him during treatment, let myself sleep in his bed, brought him meals, went shopping with him, and witnessed him fight.

But what did he like about himself?

Do you like his cigarettes with black tea?

Ever given a speech under the national flag?

One leg is half crippled, starting from scratch?

Chen Mo confessed: "I was wrong. I shouldn't have spoken so recklessly in front of you."

She said she was gay, joked in the shower that she wouldn't do anything to his face, and said in a game that she was pregnant with his child.

Chen Mo attributed all these reasons for Xi Siyan's going astray to this.

Seeing that he was still trying to find excuses for himself at this time, Xi Siyan gritted his teeth.

I was so angry that I laughed.

"you……"

"Don't talk yet!"

Chen Mo suddenly covered Xi Siyan's mouth with his hand and pushed him into the dark part of the passage.

He turned around and waited for the few people he had just talked to outside to re-enter from the other side before he breathed a sigh of relief. When he looked back, he realized that he had not let go of his hand, so he quickly took two steps back.

Chen Mo thought about it and said directly: "Let's just pretend that this conversation tonight never happened."

"Can you really pretend nothing happened?" Xi Siyan raised his eyebrows.

Chen Mo was about to say that a kiss wouldn't be a big deal, he wasn't so innocent that he felt the other person had to take responsibility for a kiss and demand an explanation. In fact, Chen Mo knew very well in his heart that he just needed a firm reason to avoid her so that he could redefine and sort out their relationship.

Before he could say anything, Qi Lin and the others saw that the two of them had not gone in for a long time and came out to look for them.

"Did you two have a fight?" Qi Lin asked in a low voice as he walked beside Xi Siyan.

Xi Siyan looked at him and asked, "Why do you say that?"

"I think you two are weird." Qi Lin looked at Chen Mo who was reunited with Lao Gou and his friends in front of him, and said, "And I just called him, but he ignored me. Tell me what happened tonight. Did Chen Mo really live such a life before..."

Qi Lin didn’t finish the rest of his words.

Xi Siyan had already regained his usual calm demeanor. He put one hand in his pocket and hummed, confirming the news.

Qi Lin cursed.

The evening ended several hours earlier than expected.

Chen Mo's phone was turned off when he received the third call from an unfamiliar number.

Didn't go back to school either.

"Come in." Xi Siyan turned around and said to Chen Mo behind him as he pushed open the door of the top-floor suite of the luxury hotel.

Chen Mo stood at the door and hesitated: "I can find a place to live by myself."

"Where are you staying?" Xi Siyan didn't take his words to heart, and leaned against the door and said, "You will definitely not go back to the Yang family for the time being. You should also take a leave from school for the next two days and don't show up. This is the room that the Xi family has reserved in this hotel 365 days a year. You can check in by showing your identity. You can stay here safely and wait until the storm is over."

Chen Mo hesitated for two seconds. In fact, if it weren't for the impulsive incident in the bar, he should have felt more at ease. But after all, he was not as unscrupulous as before, so Chen Mo still had concerns.

Xi Siyan looked at him for two seconds, "Are you afraid of me?"

"What bullshit are you talking about?" Chen Mo rolled his eyes at him. "I feel like I've led you astray."

Xi Siyan put his hand on the back of his neck and pulled him into the room.

After closing the door, he said calmly, "You overestimate yourself. Even if someone I don't like begs me on their knees, it won't affect my choices or ideas."

Chen Mo believes this.

He asked, "Can't you find someone else to like?"

"No." Xi Siyan looked at him and said, "Even though I've revealed my cards, you don't have to worry about what I'll do to you, so don't let me hear such words again."

Chen Mo was puzzled, "Why didn't I realize you were so difficult to deal with before?"

It's hard to get used to it, and people are not allowed to speak.

Xi Siyan turned a deaf ear to such complaints.

After walking around the suite and making sure there was nothing wrong, he took the room card and said, "You rest first. I'll go buy some food."

Chen Mo didn't struggle with the idea of living here.

After all, he would not be returning to school in the next few days, and he could not stay in any regular hotel outside, so he might be visited by reporters.

Because he doesn't go online, turn on the TV, or read newspapers, Chen Mo was not affected by this wave of exposure.

When Xi Siyan came back with dinner, he had already taken a short nap on the sofa.

It was only when he realized that someone had covered him with a thin blanket that Chen Mo said dazedly, "Ada, help me close the door when you leave."

"Who is Ada?" The deep male voice suddenly woke Chen Mo up.

He just felt like he was living in his previous life. Ada was his secretary and assistant, and often came in and out of his house.

It was only when he opened his eyes and saw Xi Siyan's enlarged face that he explained casually: "Ada... yes, it was a rural cat from the village next door in the countryside. I raised it."

Xi Siyan stepped back and sneered, "Your cat is quite fashionable. Not only does it have an English name, but it can also close the door for you. It's smart."

However, Xi Siyan did not delve into it and said, "Get up and eat something when you wake up."

Only then did Chen Mo realize that he had just turned off the main lights in the suite's living room, leaving only a few small yellow night lights, which now enveloped the entire living room in a hazy light.

Xi Siyan didn't step back far, but turned around and sat down on the sofa in front of Chen Mo where he was sleeping.

Chen Mo watched him open the package and asked, "What did you buy?"

"Millet porridge and a few side dishes. It's too late, so just eat a simple meal."

Chen Mo turned sideways, but did not get up immediately.

He rested his head on his hand and, in the dim light, looked at Xi Sixian unscrupulously.

In fact, there is not much difference between Xi Siyan at the age of seventeen and Xi Siyan at the age of twenty-seven. At most, his features are sharper and his temperament is deeper.

Maybe there are some other changes, but Chen Mo doesn’t know about them. After all, they were not very familiar with each other in their previous life.

So when they were sitting and lying together in such a quiet night, and they didn't feel awkward even though they had just been intimate a few hours ago, Chen Mo found it a little magical.

Why?

Chen Mo asked himself this.

In the end, he concluded that his trust in a certain squad leader exceeded his expectations.

At least in his subconscious, he felt that this person was safe and reliable, safer than the Yang family and safer than Lao Gou, who had been his friend for many years in his previous life, and he was more willing to let him choose to stop at this time.

This is a dangerous signal.

For Chen Mo, who has made many choices based on his intuition over the years, this is not a good phenomenon.

Dependence on anything means weakness.

Chen Mo in the past was not qualified, but Chen Mo today still holds this concept deep in his bones.

"Does it look good?" Xi Siyan asked.

He didn't even turn around, but he knew Chen Mo was staring at him.

Chen Mo was not hypocritical: "It looks good."

“How beautiful is it?” This time Xi Siyan turned around.

Chen Mo remained lying on his side, his eyes tracing Xi Siyan's eyes, straight nose, and beautiful lips, and said, "It's a recognized fact that she's so beautiful."

Xi Siyan propped himself up on the sofa, moved a few inches closer, looked back, and said in a low voice that sounded like bewitching, "Since it's so beautiful, why don't you want to keep looking at it?"

"This class monitor." Chen Mo glanced at his lips and said, "You are going to graduate soon. Have you ever considered seducing a minor?"

Xi Siyan's gaze swept across Chen Mo's collarbone, which was exposed when he lay on his side, his thin and tough waistline and long legs after he lifted the blanket, and finally returned to his face.

"Who seduced whom?" he asked.

Chen Mo suddenly reached out and hooked his hands around Xi Siyan's neck, using the force to stand up.

After finding a comfortable position on the sofa, Chen Mo imitated Xi Siyan's action of rubbing his earlobe before, brushed his earlobe, smiled and moved closer: "Brother Yan, people are always prone to making mistakes late at night, and you've been drinking tonight, I won't take your previous words seriously. But..." Chen Mo deliberately paused here, put his whole body around Xi Siyan's shoulders, leaned forward, and said: "Do you feel it? I don't mind telling anyone that I'm gay, and naturally I don't mind getting close to someone I have feelings for, but I won't fall in love. It's not that I said before that I won't fall in love too early, it's that I don't plan to talk to anyone at all."

After Chen Mo finished speaking, he quickly stepped back.

It was as if the Chen Mo who had just revealed his truest thoughts from the bottom of his heart had never appeared.

At that moment, Chen Mo was not like a teenager. He was cruel, sober, and calm. He was like those scumbags in the bar who always sought the excitement of one-night stands, but would not admit it the next day when they put on their pants.

It's a pity that Chen Mo underestimated Xi Siyan.

None of the questioning and retreating he expected occurred.

Xi Siyan just calmly put the spoon into his hand: "I didn't ask you to talk to me."

Chen Mo couldn't keep up with this routine, "What do you mean?"

Xi Siyan raised his eyebrows: "If I say I like you, does it have to have a result? Stay together till death or be together?"

Chen Mo asked: "So what are we doing now?"

Xi Siyan said: "It depends on how you define it."

Chen Mo: "Is it possible that we could become friends with benefits in the future?"

Xi Siyan closed his eyes, clearly enduring it.

"Don't mess with me," he warned.

Chen Mo: "How did this provoke you?"

Xi Siyan's eyes from head to toe almost stripped Chen Mo's clothes clean. He said solemnly: "The prerequisite for a sex partner is sexual attraction. Can you afford it?"

Chen Mo's words were decisive, but he did not achieve his goal of making Xi Siyan retreat. But when it came to practical experience, Chen Mo had to admit that he actually had no practical experience.

In two lifetimes, he has never been in a relationship, never had a one-night stand, and never had any long-term sex partners.

In this life, he had no desires and no emotions or pressures that needed to be vented. It was only at this moment that he realized for the first time that he had not even used his right hand for such a long time, and he had never thought about it.

He subconsciously looked between his legs.

I wonder if there is something wrong with me.

Xi Siyan noticed his movements and asked in a deep voice, "What are you looking at?"

"I'm checking to see if I've drunk too much Qinghuo Tea." Chen Mo was outspoken again, "After all, even if I want to play, I have to make sure I'm healthy before I can do it."

Xi Siyan: “…”

After dinner, when Xi Siyan proposed to leave, the atmosphere in the room was indescribably strange.

When Chen Mo looked at the time, it was almost midnight.

He said, "Stay here tonight. The sofa is so big, it's not like you can't sleep on it."

After they discussed a series of strange issues, the retention seemed to be more obvious.

Xi Siyan just glanced at him and agreed directly, which made Chen Mo breathe a sigh of relief.

He thought that the conversation tonight was completely ruined and they might never have any further contact with each other.

Facts have proved that it was not only Chen Mo, an "adult", who habitually covered up the truth. When Xi Siyan woke up early the next morning, he did not make any move. He drank the wine and acted as if the person he was last night no longer existed. He did not mention anything about what they had said to each other.

"Good morning." Xi Siyan came out of the bathroom after washing up and greeted Chen Mo who was about to go in.

Chen Mo said sleepily, "Morning."

Everything is fine.

It was only eight o'clock in the morning when Qi Lin and Lao Gou came all the way here.

It also brought Chen Mo the latest developments of the matter.

Qi Lin: "I heard that the Yang family has been busy with public relations. I guess they are in a state of panic right now. It seems that they are going to file a new lawsuit. I wonder what they did earlier."

Lao Gou: "I have already asked for leave from school for you, just listen to Brother Yan's arrangements and don't worry."

While brushing his teeth, Chen Mo told Lao Gou, "I bought a notebook online. Remember to sign for it for me later."

"Okay." Lao Gou leaned against the door and looked at him.

Curious, I asked, "I thought you would be unable to sleep all night. I was worried about you all night, but I see that your face is so rosy. How come you look like you have something happy?"

"Good news?" Chen Mo touched his face subconsciously and looked down again.

He finally started caring about his own desires again. Is this a good thing?

Chen Mo looked back.

I just happened to see Xi Siyan sitting in front of the computer, and Qi Lin was sitting on the armrest of the sofa next to him. I don't know if he heard the conversation, but Xi Siyan looked up.

Chen Mo naturally withdrew his gaze and replied to Lao Gou: "There is no happy news. Can you be happy when your past is exposed?"

Chen Mo was holding a newly turned on mobile phone in his hand.

All the messages made his phone vibrate for a long time before it stopped.

Most of the Yang family members were asking where he was?

There are also classmates from school, some people I knew before, and neighbors.

Even the owner of the restaurant where Chen Mo washed dishes in the second year of junior high school sent him a message, saying, "Chen Mo, I'm sorry, I really didn't expect the matter to become so serious. I think the Yang family didn't expose it before because they wanted to protect you. I'm really sorry."

Chen Mo smiled sarcastically.

Protection? He replied: "Don't worry, it's fine."

When I scrolled down, I found news about Yang Shule.

It’s still voice.

Chen Mo placed his phone on the sink, turned it on, and listened to what he said while looking at himself brushing his teeth in the mirror.

Yang Shule: "Chen Mo, where are you? Your parents are looking for you like crazy, do you know that?"

The second post that automatically plays: "I've always known that you were unhappy with your family's decision to drop the lawsuit for me and the company. Even if you have complaints, you should have discussed the solution with your family. Now that you've made it public so rashly, have you ever thought about how much trouble it will bring to your family?"

The third one is, "Please reply as soon as possible. We are all waiting for you."

Lao Gou was so angry that he walked up and started to curse at people with his cell phone.

Chen Mo picked it up first and pressed the voice button, but within two seconds, it was taken away.

It was Xi Siyan who came over at some point in time.

He replied with two sentences.

"The evidence of your contact with the reporter has been sent to your adoptive parents and your eldest brother."

"If you send me a message again, don't blame me for being rude."