11. Don't remember this painful feeling.

She has the right to choose.

Yan Sui froze, neither speaking nor turning around.

The man twisted her shoulders, forcing her to turn around. Yan Sui lowered her eyes, her face still wet with tears, her originally slender and thick eyelashes now clumped together from the tears.

Jian Liyun couldn't get the words she wanted to say out.

And even in her condition, Yan Sui's first words were still—

"sorry."

Chien Li-yun is an actress who can perfectly portray the joys and sorrows of those characters.

She also knows that the body reacts differently depending on the emotions one is in.

But now, she felt as if her heart was being gripped tightly by an invisible hand, unable to leap, her chest felt tight, and she would unconsciously hold her breath.

Her chest felt tight, and her nose felt faintly sore. It seemed that if she let her emotions continue like this, her eyes would also become warm and red.

A multitude of emotions threatened to overwhelm her at that moment: regret, sadness, bitterness, resentment...

All emotions ultimately boil down to two words:

I feel sorry for you.

This was the first time her emotions controlled her, rather than her actively manipulating emotions to act.

Jian Liyun thought that Yan Sui knew nothing and was the most innocent, so why should she take her anger out on her?

I am the most useless and most deserving of death.

But the more this happened, the less Jian Liyun knew how to sincerely apologize to the other party.

She could only gaze at him with her dark eyes, a thousand words unspoken within them.

Yan Sui didn't meet her gaze. She tilted her head slightly and said in a barely audible voice, "Let's pack up and leave after I finish washing the dishes."

Jian Liyun frowned slightly, "But didn't you say three days..."

"I'm sorry, it was my own fault. I thought it would be good for you, and it took up your precious rest time." Yan Sui's voice was light and airy. "Why don't we go back earlier and give you some real rest time?"

Jian Liyun's voice was dry. "No, that's not what I meant... Life here is great."

Yan Sui paused for a moment, then said, "Go upstairs and pack your luggage."

Jian Liyun knew she should do something, but she didn't know how. She could only stubbornly continue to hold onto the other person's shoulders, maintaining a silent standoff.

Yan Sui sighed, her voice betraying her exhaustion, "Let go."

Jian Liyun pursed her lips tightly. For a moment, she wanted to tell the person in front of her the whole truth.

But no, she couldn't let Yan Sui fall into the mire and struggle along with her.

It might have taken three seconds, or it might have taken a minute.

Jian Liyun finally spoke, and she put on the calm expression that Yan Sui was most familiar with.

"What happened just now was my fault, Sui Sui. Let's stay here, I really like it here—"

I also really enjoy living with you.

"I will act well in the future and I won't let you down."

Yan Sui still didn't look at her, and gave a soft "hmm".

Jian Liyun finally let go, and the moment she did, Yan Sui turned around and turned on the tap to continue washing the dishes.

Yan Sui was washing the dishes, and Jian Liyun stayed by her side watching.

Even after Yan Sui finished washing the dishes, Jian Liyun remained standing beside her like a statue.

Yan Sui's voice was a little hoarse: "I'm going upstairs for a nap."

Jian Liyun looked at the other person and said, "...Okay."

Yan Sui went upstairs expressionlessly.

Her expressionless face was different from Jian Liyun's; it lacked coldness, only numbness.

How could Jian Liyun not notice the change in the other person? She just knew that no matter how she tried to make amends, it would be useless.

Yan Sui returned to her bedroom and closed the door.

She leaned against the cold wall, calling out to the system in her heart.

"system."

[I'm here, host. Don't be angry, the female supporting character is just blinded by the male lead right now, but in the future...]

"I don't want to do this mission anymore."

【Host, don't be discouraged, this is only temporary.】

The system's comforting words had no effect, and Yan Sui continued to herself, "She said she was going to save the female supporting character, but maybe she doesn't need my help at all."

"In this novel, Lu Shutian and He Chenyu are the main characters of this world. So, there is not much information about Jian Liyun in the book, and I have no way of knowing it."

Yan Sui felt her body go limp, and that familiar feeling of losing control of her body washed over her again.

She slumped down, kneeling against the wall, utterly exhausted, her hands hanging limply at her sides.

She didn't even have the strength to hug herself.

[Host, what's wrong? Waaah, don't scare me. If you're not feeling well, go ask the female supporting character for help. I can't help you right now...]

Yan Sui completely ignored the system and continued, "After I came to this world, I realized that everyone here is a living, breathing human being, and everyone acts according to logic. So there must be a reason why Jian Liyun is so dependent on and ingratiating towards the male lead, but it's not mentioned in the novel."

"From the novel's perspective, the male protagonist did indeed let her down. But perhaps in ways we don't know, he did do her a favor, or perhaps he possesses qualities that she admires and loves, which is why she was willing to do anything to help him."

The system wanted to explain further, but it heard Yan Sui's sigh.

“Jian Liyun is very clear-headed. She has her reasons for doing this, but she doesn't want to tell me, and I don't need to force her. We're just putting on a show of being superior, using the guise of saving her, while actually forcing her to do things she doesn't want to do…”

Yan Sui closed her eyes.

"That's outrageous."

A deep sense of self-blame and sorrow welled up inside Yan Sui, but she couldn't shed a single tear.

“I used to hate and despise people like this the most, but I never thought that one day I would become one of them.”

【Host……】

Sitting made Yan Sui feel so tired that she simply lay down on the floor, her cheek pressed against the cool floor, which inexplicably made her feel very comfortable.

The system felt it had something to do.

[Host, the male lead wasn't originally a good match for the female supporting character; what we're doing is saving her...]

"But Jian Liyun still has the right to choose. Regardless of whether the male lead chooses her or not, she has the right to choose to run towards him."

"I cannot and will not deprive her of this right."

[But host, if you don't stop the female supporting character from getting close to the male lead, she will still die in the end, your mission will fail, you won't be able to return to your original world, and you won't be able to find out what that sentence meant.]

Yan Sui opened her eyes, her gaze blank.

"If the mission fails, it fails. I really want to know that sentence, but I can't do it by depriving innocent people of their happiness."

She felt herself sigh again.

“I won’t stop Jian Liyun from pursuing the male lead. But before that, I will have a psychologist examine her, take her for regular check-ups, and introduce her to directors and good scripts.”

"If she remains steadfast in her choice to follow the male lead, even when she is in good physical and mental health and her career is thriving, I..."

A sudden knock on the door interrupted Yan Sui's thoughts.

Through the wooden door, Jian Liyun's voice, as cold as ice and snow, became somewhat muffled.

"Sui Sui, are you asleep?"

Yan Sui's pink lips parted slightly, but only a soft sound came out.

She was so tired that she couldn't even make a sound.

So she simply gave up and continued lying on the ground without saying a word.

Anyway, since Jian Liyun didn't respond, she'll probably leave.

The system then asked at the opportune moment: "Host, how much longer are you planning to lie on the ground? Don't catch a cold."

Yan Sui responded in her mind, "I don't have the strength right now, I need to rest for a while."

She was all too familiar with this feeling she had experienced during her previous episodes, but precisely because it was so familiar, she knew she could pull through even if she was the last one standing.

creak—

[Oh my god, why did this female supporting character just walk in like that? Host, get up quickly!]

Yan Sui's pupils constricted, but her stiff body prevented her from making any movement.

Jian Liyun pushed open the door and her eyes immediately locked onto the large bed, but the bed was empty.

In the corner of my eye, there seemed to be something curled up in the corner.

She turned her head and saw Yan Sui lying on the ground.

Before her brain could respond, Jian Liyun's body acted even faster.

She immediately went over and knelt down on both knees, quickly and gently putting her arm around the other person's shoulders, letting Yan Sui lie in her arms.

Where does it hurt?

Yan Sui's voice was almost forced out of her throat, "I'm fine."

Jian Liyun's voice trembled, and her eyes were slightly red, but she still tried to remain calm.

"I'll call an ambulance right away."

Yan Sui sat up from Jian Liyun's arms, her hands supporting her on the ground, her slender wrists trembling incessantly.

Forcing oneself out of this near-rigid state is truly painful, but fortunately, Yan Sui is very good at burying her pain deep inside.

She looked down at the ground, took several deep breaths, and broke out in a cold sweat before slowly raising her head.

"I'm really fine. Just now... I felt the floor was cool and it was comfortable to lie on."

Yan Sui's reasoning was so flimsy that Jian Liyun had no intention of believing it.

"Can you still stand up?" Jian Liyun asked.

Before Yan Sui could answer, the other person picked her up and put her on the bed.

"You take a nap, and we'll go back once you've rested."

Yan Sui thought Jian Liyun didn't want to stay here, so she paused for a moment, then nodded, "Okay."

Jian Liyun lifted the blanket to cover Yan Sui, then drew the blackout curtains tightly, making the room much darker.

The aloof beauty sat down on the edge of the bed, her voice incredibly gentle, "Go to sleep."

After the stress response subsides, all that remains is endless exhaustion.

Yan Sui's eyelids were drooping, but she still managed to stick her hand out from under the covers.

A cold hand quickly grasped hers, and Jian Liyun leaned closer, asking, "What's wrong? Do you want some water?"

As drowsiness overcame her, Yan Sui spoke indistinctly, "I'm really sorry about what happened just now."

Yan Sui had her eyes closed, so she couldn't see the expression on Jian Liyun's face as she looked at her—

Struggle and pain.

If she could go back in time, Jian Liyun swore she would never have been so harsh on Yan Sui.

She scratched Yan Sui's palm. "I don't mind at all, Sui Sui."

I only ask that you don't hate me because of this.

[Author's Note]

Two very kind-hearted girls [pity][please][please][heart emoji]