Chapter 28 Not Worth It

The car stopped at the entrance of the community.

The air in the car was heavy, and Jiang Jibai couldn't wait to open the door and create a way to vent.

She said thank you and turned to get out of the car and leave.

She had just stepped out of the car when she unexpectedly saw Gu Moyang opening the door from the other side and getting out as well.

Seeing him walk a few steps towards her, the tall sycamore tree behind him rustled in the autumn wind.

The shadow of the tree on the ground swayed like a monster with bared fangs and claws.

There was an unconcealable desolation in his eyes, and even the small mole under his right eyelash revealed a coldness.

Jiang Jibai thought he was coming over to say something to her. After all, he had sent her home, and it didn't seem right for him to just leave.

She was standing by the car. The moment Gu Moyang walked in front of her, an autumn breeze blew over. The autumn breeze in Beijing and Huaihai in mid-October was already chilly. Jiang Jibai subconsciously hugged her body and shrank back.

Seeing her reflexive action when he approached her, Gu Moyang's eyebrows and heart skipped a beat, and his eyes were dark and bottomless.

"Don't think too much. I won't touch you." The coldness in his eyes and voice went straight to her heart. "Is there anything on your body that's worth me touching?"

Gu Moyang turned around and a gust of bleak autumn wind blew up. Jiang Jibai's body trembled in the autumn wind, and the scene of Gu Moyang getting on the passenger seat in front of him became blurry.

Yes, it was her fault, she didn't deserve it.

Amid the roar of the wheels rolling over the road, her tears flowed without warning.

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Tick, tick, tick.

"Let's break up, Jiang Jibai."

"Why? What did I do wrong?"

"Because you're not worth it."

"Gu Moyang, have you ever loved me?"

"It's just a joke. Isn't it too much to say love?"

"Bang!"

A small car was knocked several meters away by a large truck.

The female driver fell in a pool of blood.

It was Mom. Jiang Jibai rushed over, crying, "Mom! Can you please not leave? Please, can you please not leave? Don't leave me, don't leave me alone."

"The patient lost too much blood and rescue efforts were ineffective. Please accept my condolences."

"Nuannuan, this is your Aunt Qin. We have already obtained the marriage certificate."

"Jiang Jibai, do you know how many women have thrown themselves at me? Is there anything on your body that's worth me touching right now?!"

The ticking stopped.

Jiang Jibai suddenly opened his eyes. In the pure white environment, the sunlight coming in from the window was a little dazzling.

The depressing feeling from those fragments in his mind was still lingering in his heart. Jiang Jibai clutched the corner of his clothes and took a deep breath to relieve the discomfort.

A blonde woman looked at the beautiful woman sitting opposite her with a hint of pity in her eyes.

"Ms. Jiang, your condition seems to be more serious than a year ago."

Amanda is Jiang Jibai's psychotherapist.

Amanda remembered that Jiang Jibai last came here a year ago. After the last treatment a year ago, her condition was basically stable.

Her condition now seems to have returned to when she first came here, or even worse than before.

Jiang Jibai said nothing. She hugged her knees and stared at the sycamore tree outside the window that was swaying in the wind. Her eyes were distracted and desolate.

Amanda coaxed her patiently: "This time, Miss Jiang seems to have seen something new."

"Yeah." Jiang Jibai nodded, his eyelashes drooped, and a look of pain appeared in his eyes.

Amanda continued to probe, "Is it because of him?"

People with PTSD often actively avoid people, feelings, and conversations related to the trauma.

But this is often not conducive to treatment. If many things are kept in your heart and not resolved fundamentally, they will cause illness.

Amanda's mission is to slowly help these patients face their pain and let them know that those memories, although painful, are not dangerous.

This will help you slowly untie the knot in your heart and get out of the pain of the past.

Amanda knows her past and what her problems are. Psychological treatment is a long process, and when it comes to people and things from the past, the symptoms can easily relapse.

Jiang Jibai said that her recent symptoms such as frequent dreams, insomnia, headaches, loss of appetite, and low mood are all signs of the disease.

She needs encouragement to talk about the uncomfortable things that are kept in her heart.

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After waiting for so long, Lin Shanshan finally got a promotion and treated us to a dinner.

We had to treat everyone to a dinner, and even the busy Liu Yanan came.

The meal was set at a beautiful restaurant that girls love to go to, the kind that is a must-have for posting on WeChat Moments.

Cheng Lu could only watch them eat through her phone, "I'm so envious that you can eat together."

Lin Shanshan joked, "Why not just lure you and Wang Hao to Jinghuai so the four of us can get together more often."

Cheng Lu smiled brightly on the phone: "He's right next to us, why don't you ask him?"

Lin Shanshan and Liu Yanan both stopped what they were doing and looked at their phones.

"Where is Wang Hao? Why can't we see him?"

Cheng Lu: "He's lying on my lap."

Lin Shanshan's voice immediately rose eight degrees: "Get lost, woman!"

He was about to end the video call with her, but Cheng Lu refused. The three of them laughed for a long time. Jiang Jibai watched from the side with a slight smile on his face.

After enough of the fuss, Cheng Lu suddenly said, "We are planning to get married early next year."

Although Cheng Lu and Wang Hao's relationship has always been stable and marriage is a natural thing, just a matter of time, everyone was still excited when they heard the news.

Love finally gets married. When they heard that their bestie's long-distance relationship was coming to an end, they were all very happy and laughed and chatted for a long time. They talked about where they planned to go to Suzhou and what style of bridesmaid dresses they would prepare.

Jiang Jibai was happy for Cheng Lu and also envied her. She stirred the matcha milk pudding in the small bowl with a spoon, but after being happy, she felt empty in her heart.

After hanging up the phone with Cheng Lu, Lin Shanshan talked to them about her experiences on her last business trip.

Lin Shanshan was very excited. "A man approached me on the high-speed train and asked me, 'Do you know what I believe in?' Can you guess what he said?"

Liu Yanan rolled up a piece of pasta and put it into his mouth. "What?"

Jiang Jibai: "Your WeChat."

Lin Shanshan's eyes widened instantly: "Baozi, how did you know?!"

Jiang Jibai choked for a moment, then lowered his eyes and smiled: "I saw it on the Internet."

"Baby, what a mess you see every day." Lin Shanshan picked up a grilled lamb chop. "I was going to say I believe it! But when he said those four words, I wanted to slap him twice. Even that damn gutter oil is fresher than that!"

Liu Yanan, who has a low sense of humor, laughed so hard that the noodles in his mouth almost spit out.

Jiang Jibai curled his lips and didn't continue the topic.

After eating for a while, Lin Shanshan suddenly narrowed her eyes and looked Jiang Jibai up and down, "Bao, why do I feel like something's wrong with you today?"

Liu Yanan also stopped what he was saying and looked at her.

Jiang Jibai was slightly stunned. She didn't expect Lin Shanshan's sixth sense to be so accurate.

She hadn't told them about her interactions with Gu Moyang during this period or about going back to psychotherapy.

She was afraid that they would worry so she didn't dare to tell them, nor did she dare to open her wounds again.

"No, maybe I'm a little tired from work lately." Jiang Jibai scooped a spoonful of matcha pudding into his mouth and made up an excuse to cover it up.

Lin Shanshan nodded without thinking too much.

"Then eat more of this." Lin Shanshan pushed a plate of dessert in front of her. "I ordered brownies especially for you. Don't you like them? Eating more sweets will make you feel better."

Jiang Jibai paused.

It was brownie again. He had ordered it the last time he went out to eat with Gu Moyang, and he pushed it in front of him in the same way.

Jiang Jibai felt upset when he thought of that person.

Seeing that she didn't move, Lin Shanshan said worriedly, "Why do you seem to have lost weight again? If you lose any more weight, it will affect your beauty, baby."