Bai Jingmo often feels that this world is unreal.

He forgot where he came from and why he was here.

Although my memory is blank, I can often recall some strange and painful scenes.

He also knew that he was different from other people in some ways.

He had an extreme thirst for blood and wanted to kill everyone. Such cruel and violent thoughts popped up from time to time and he could hardly control them.

In fact, he deliberately indulged this idea on several occasions.

But this is not normal.

There was always a voice in his head reminding him that he must not be discovered in this state by anyone, because if discovered, he would be hated and abandoned.

The voice even told him that his condition was called a monster.

Bai Jingmo didn’t understand how monsters were defined, but in fact, he didn’t care what they thought.

He seemed to be just used to pretending in front of outsiders.

Get used to this unchanging and regular life, get used to locking yourself in a dark room.

I originally thought that moving to a new place would not change much in my life.

Until that day, the nurse's voice suddenly came from the corridor.

"Yu Li, why did you come out?"

It was very strange. It was the first time he heard this name, but Bai Jingmo was inexplicably stunned.

Moreover, he also felt a pair of eyes falling on him.

Just like that evening, even if he closed his eyes, he could still feel a strange gaze coming from outside the door.

As if possessed by some mysterious force, Bai Jingmo slowly turned his head to look.

The next second, he was suddenly met with a pair of indescribably beautiful fox eyes.

The woman had a small and delicate face, regular features, loose black hair, and slightly upturned fox eyes with a lazy smile in them.

...so beautiful.

At that moment, Bai Jingmo had only one thought in his mind.

He stared blankly at the strange woman who suddenly appeared, unable to react at all.

The other party seemed to be surprised by his sudden turn of head. Surprise flashed in his fox eyes, and then he slightly curved his eyes.

Bai Jingmo saw love and interest in her eyes.

Because of these emotions, he has also seen them in other people's eyes.

But this time, he didn't feel disgusted.

Instead, a panicked yet sweet emotion instantly filled my whole body, like dense drum beats, hitting my chest again and again.

In the silent and dim room, a dull "dong dong" sound suddenly rang out. The source could not be found, but it seemed to be everywhere.

Bai Jingmo was stunned and his eyelids drooped blankly.

After a moment's silence, he hesitantly raised his hand to cover his heart.

In an instant, the chaotic heartbeat hit the eardrum forcefully.

——It turned out that was the sound of his own heartbeat.

…

In fact, Bai Jingmo heard everything that Yu Li and Dr. He talked about that day.

He heard the woman laughing and talking around in circles with Dr. He, and he also heard what she said - "Of course I'm going after him."

In an instant, Bai Jingmo's eyelashes trembled in panic, but the corners of his mouth rose slightly unconsciously, and he couldn't hide the joy in his heart at all.

Yu Li...

Her name turned out to be Yu Li.

Bai Jingmo actually knew that Yu Li liked him only because this face was attractive to her.

Bai Jingmo lowered his eyes and looked at the book in his hand, his mind filled with the amazement in the girls' eyes.

Once this stunning feeling fades, will you no longer want to pursue him?

Because she just likes her disguised appearance.

what to do……

But he didn't want this.

He wanted Yu Li's eyes to stay on him forever.

So he wanted Yu Li to really fall in love with him.

Bai Jingmo thought so, but when the girl came closer, his breath was filled with the charming fragrance of the girl.

He then realized that he couldn't resist at all.

He wanted to kiss her.

I'm going crazy thinking about it.

The man looked stunned, as if he had thought of something.

Crazy...seems like a good reason too.

From then on, Bai Jingmo's illness was no longer caused by those violent thoughts, but by his suppressed desire for Yu Li.

He seemed to have really split into two personalities. On one hand, he maintained the personality that women loved the most, while on the other hand, he used the excuse of being ill to unscrupulously satisfy his own dirty greed.

Fortunately, Yu Li is not annoying either.

She liked his face, but at the same time she didn't reject his closeness.

If this situation can be maintained, Bai Jingmo doesn't mind continuing to act.

The performance made Yu Li fall completely in love with him and couldn't leave him.

Until later, things suddenly took a turn and he seemed to have made her angry.

Yu Li didn't look for him anymore.

Why.

Is his face no longer attractive? Does Yu Li only like physical contact with him now?

Bai Jingmo didn’t know, he only knew that after seeing Yu Li smiling at others, his illness seemed to relapse again.

Just like the first time it happened.

Only then would Yu Li come to see him.

Bai Jingmo used all despicable methods just to see Yu Li.

As long as she likes me, that's enough.

But later, the woman smiled and said softly that it didn't matter.

She said she liked him just the way he was.

She said she would tolerate everything about him.

A huge surprise came over him in an instant, and Bai Jingmo didn't even dare to dream of such a thing.

He really owned Yu Li completely.

Even later, Yu Li said she wanted to take him away and bring him to the outside world.

She actually took him out of the mental hospital.

Bai Jingmo originally thought that he could continue to live a happy and ordinary life like this.

And just three years after he and Yu Li had been together, the system came knocking on his door.

That dusty memory has completely returned.

Bai Jingmo was like a criminal on probation, and at this moment he received his own death sentence.

He was not afraid of death, but he couldn't bear to leave Yu Li.

If he were left with Yu Li, he would really go crazy.

Yu Li may never know this in her lifetime.

That night, after she fell into a deep sleep, the man knelt on the ground, held her hand and gently placed it on his face.

Hot tears slid down onto the bed sheets, and he said sorry over and over again with red eyes.

By the end of his speech, his voice was choked and hoarse.

"Please...Lili."

"You can blame me or hate me...please don't abandon me, okay."

But it turned out that Yu Li not only did not abandon him, but also brought him out of that world.

Just like once, she took him away from the mental hospital.

And this time, she brought him out of this painful cycle.

Bai Jingmo's desperate pleas were finally heard by the gods who loved him.

The god he believed in madly never thought of abandoning him.