Song Ruyuan knew what she was referring to without even looking, because he had just read it not long ago.

He had a mocking smile on his cold face, "Song Ruyi, this has nothing to do with you, don't commit suicide."

Song Ruyi blinked innocently, "Why do you think of me like that? I just wanted to say that this kid is pretty amazing."

"But brother," Song Ruyi looked up at him eagerly, "If I can make friends with this kid, will Mu Lianshen look at me more?"

"Will it be..."

"No," Song Ruyuan suddenly said, his tone full of icy coldness and his eyes as cold as ice.

"Stop daydreaming. He doesn't even know you."

Song Ruyi paused and said calmly: "But he saved me."

"He has saved thousands of people,"

Song Ruyi said calmly: "I just want to be good to him."

Song Ruyuan gritted his teeth, not knowing whether it was pain or regret, "Ruyi, he doesn't need your kindness, can you just live your own life well?"

"Xinxin is already this old, don't bring your paranoia to him, just let yourself go."

He now regrets that he didn't care enough about Song Ruyi back then.

At that time, their parents were not with them, and they could not rely on the Song family.

He didn't know how to take care of the little girl, so he asked someone else to take care of her.

She was well treated in terms of food, clothing, housing and transportation, but she didn't know when she started to care about Mu Lianshen.

He said he had saved her, but when he asked Mu Lianshen about it, he didn't remember it at all.

When Mu Lianshen was single, he tried to bring the two of them together, but Mu Lianshen had no interest in her at all.

Just rejected it directly.

Later, she found a poor boy, got married, and gave birth to a child.

But later, for some reason, she started asking for a divorce again.

If you really can't live together, then just leave.

It's a foregone conclusion, what can we do?

The child took her surname, Song.

Just treat this child well and live a good life in the future.

But she actually treated the child the same way that Old Master Song treated them.

Unbelievably harsh.

Although he occasionally takes care of it, he is very busy after all and cannot keep an eye on it all the time.

He also thought about bringing the child up with him, but Song Ruyi disagreed.

She said she couldn't live without him, but she didn't treat him well.

I don't know when she realized that she still hadn't let go of Mu Lianshen.

Only then did he suddenly realize that his sister's admiration for Mu Lianshen was not just a woman's.

But he was a little obsessed and crazy.

Although she had never hurt outsiders, she had never come forward to disturb him.

But she couldn't let it go.

Song Ruyi lowered her eyes, a bitter smile appeared on her lips, "I just want to ask, I have never bothered him, and he is still single now, why can't I give it a try?"

Song Ruyuan calmly broke her fantasy, "He doesn't like you,"

"Brother," Song Ruyi smiled sadly, "I just want to give it a try, can you please stop caring about it?"

"If I'm rejected again, I promise I won't bother him again."

Song Ruyuan's expression was still difficult to discern, but a hint of powerlessness and confusion slowly emerged in his previously cold eyes.

Mu Lianshen, that evildoer, does that face of his really have such power?

He was the one who made his sister think about him for nearly twenty years...

But what Song Ruyuen didn't know was that Song Ruyi liked him not because of his face.

But at that time, when she was in danger, Mu Lianshen's appearance was like a god descending to the earth.

Save her from danger.

In countless nightmare-like lives, his figure always appeared in her mind.

She had found a man who looked a little like him.

She thought it would be nice to just live with that man forever.

Just treat that godly man as a dream and keep it deep in your heart.

But this man only loves her money and the status of the Song family.

In their later interactions, she discovered that looking for the shadow of Mu Lianshen in someone like him was simply an insult to him.

As for the children.

She also wanted to be good to him, but this was her first time being a mother and no one taught her how to do it.

She could only do what she had understood since she was a child.

Although her brother said that it was wrong, she was used to it.

The child is the only thing she has now, so of course she can't let her brother take him away.

She lived with her child as the child grew older.

She began to tell her children her troubles.

Including the man in her heart, she will tell him.

This child is the person closest to her.

As a teenager, he was smart.

He loves her too, they are blood relatives and he can't live without her.

Of course, she couldn't leave her child, because with him around, she was no longer alone.

She is most afraid of being alone.

As for Mu Lianshen.

The light in her heart...

She really wanted to try again.

He used to be able to find a nominal Mrs. Mu to help take care of the children.

Now this child is born by his beloved, so can she stay with him because of this child?

She didn't ask for much, not even his love or a little bit of affection, she just hoped to stay by his side.

Song Ruyi's heart was filled with loneliness. She was afraid of this world and afraid of being alone.

I really want to catch that light. I don’t ask for possession of it, I just want to stay where the light can shine.

Although Song Ruyuan protected the entire family.

But he was not a good brother, he never protected her.

Without him knowing, she was having a really hard time.

He thought he was being nice to her by giving her enough money.

But, brother.

How good can an outsider be to a person?

Those people from the Song family come over to cause trouble from time to time.

They didn't dare to look for her brother and just bullied her.

But Song Ruyi knew that her brother could not defeat them for the time being.

My brother is having a hard time...

I can't cause trouble for my brother.

So I have been holding back...

She had stumbled her way to where she is today, relying entirely on the shadow of Mu Lianshen in her mind.

Her father never gave her paternal love since she was a child. Her mother did write a few letters, but what could that little bit of maternal love do?

There is only warmth, but no sense of security at all.

As a result, she had no basis for giving any affection to her child.

She doesn't know how to be nice to someone.

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