Gu Junzhou laughed, "It's mainly because your look is so rare. If I don't take a look, I'm afraid I won't have a chance in the future..."

Fu Hong knocked on the door, pushed it open a crack, and poked his head in, "Uncle...it's time to eat..."

Fu Xiao also poked his head out from under him, "Dad, my mom must be hungry too..."

Mu Lianshen glanced out the window, stood up, pushed Gu Junzhou away, opened the door and walked out.

Fu Shaoyu, who was standing at the door, glanced at him with a teasing smile in his eyes.

Mu Lianshen walked to Fu Jingshu's door, straightened his clothes, and knocked on the door lightly.

After pushing the door open, he walked to the bed, squatted down and just looked at Fu Jingshu.

When I saw her eyelashes were slightly wet, I knew she had been crying secretly in her bed.

Mu Lianshen felt sad and raised his hand to smooth her frown. As soon as he touched her, Fu Jingshu opened her eyes.

With tears in her eyes, she whispered: "Mu Lianshen... How should I treat you well?"

He trembled in response: "It's all right...Shushu, you can be good to me, just don't leave me."

Fu Jingshu tilted her head slightly, buried her face in the pillow, and sobbed softly.

Mu Lianshen reached out and pulled her out from the pillow, holding her tightly in his arms.

Her tears flowed down, her hands grabbed Mu Lianshen's clothes, her eyelashes trembled, and she tried hard to suppress her sobs, "I... I don't want you anymore..."

Mu Lianshen lowered his head and finally shed tears, tears of fear meandering down his cheeks like a prayer.

He called her carefully: "Shu Shu..."

His whole body was shaking, and the look he gave her was shattered.

"You can't leave me, Shushu. It's been more than 20 years. I lost you and have been alone in this world for so long. Living... is worse than death. I really can't live without you. Without you... I really can't bear it..."

Mu Lianshen's eyes were red. He held her in his arms and called her name over and over again, "Shushu...Shushu..."

Seeing his painful expression, the sound of his emotional collapse could not be clearer than in her ears. His intermittent trembling voice sounded particularly sad in this room.

Fu Jingshu closed her eyes, holding back the bitterness, and said softly: "I can't figure it out..."

She looked at him, her eyes full of confusion and puzzlement: "Even if you thought I was gone and were deeply shocked, but in the past ten years, you really didn't think about visiting my parents. As long as you come, you can see our An An..."

"Am I really important to you? This is basic morality, Mu Lianshen. If you really love me, why didn't you come to the Fu family again...at least once?"

Mu Lianshen's throat was dry. He took a breath and said palely, "No one has ever told me that the child left to me by Jingshi was not yours..."

"Dad told me at the time that you would die if you gave birth to a daughter. No one told me what happened to you... I thought Dad really hated me and didn't want the daughter you gave birth to..."

"Shushu... without you by my side, I was like a wandering soul, and I could no longer be considered a normal person. I found someone to take care of Mu Nianshu at that time, and I went to the northwest. At that time, there was constant fighting on the border... I kept wandering between the northwest and the border, and returned to Beijing when Mu Nianshu was three years old."

He stared at her and smiled bitterly: "I want to see if she looks like you."

"But she doesn't look like you. Later, I seldom returned to Beijing and was always away. A few years later, I was appointed commander. When I returned to Beijing to report on my work, I took another look at her. She still didn't look like you... Shushu, I thought you hated me, so you didn't even give me a thought..."

"It wasn't until our An An came to me that I realized how wrong I was. It turned out that so much had been kept from me. It turned out that I had lost the daughter I had been waiting for for so long."

"You're right. Under normal circumstances, I should go to Shanghai more often to visit my parents. Even if my father drives me away, I should be thick-skinned like before we got married. But Shushu, I'm not normal anymore," Mu Lianshen held her shoulders, his throat choked with sobs, his heart aching. "How can someone who is ready to sacrifice himself to be with you remember to visit relatives?"

"Even for my father and mother in Jing City, it was Brother Ze who helped me to fulfill my filial duties. Shushu, if I were still the little bully Mu in Jing City, I would definitely notice what Mu Wanlan did. But I am giving up on myself. Why should I care about these things?"

It was precisely because he didn't care about anything at that time that he never cared about the Mu family's connections and power.

That's why Mu Wanlan is so bold.

He didn't even want this commander position, but later...

Fu Jingshu's throat choked and tears flowed uncontrollably.

Mu Lianshen reached out his hand to wipe away the tears from her eyes. "I am not able to bear it. The pain is too painful. I really can't bear it. When you left, you just thought that I was behind you and you didn't need to worry about the children and parents. Did you really not think that I would not be able to accept this reality and go with you?"

Hearing this, her nose felt sore and her eyes were filled with tears again, which fell down in big drops.

Fu Jingshu thought about it, but didn’t she leave her daughter to him?

"You think if you leave your daughter to me, I won't let her go and will not let myself become decadent, right?"

Mu Lianshen smiled bitterly and shook his head, "Even if I have been watching An An grow up, but Shu Shu, I love you."

"We loved each other deeply, and we made a vow to grow old together. But when I loved you the most, you were gone... You didn't even leave me a word. What should I do if I'm left in this world? You're buried in the abyss, with your bones cut off by the mud, while I'm living in the world with my head covered in snow?"

"Shushu, this is difficult. The one I care about most is no longer here. If I don't fight hard... I can't go on."

"After An An was born, I forced myself to move on, at least to make up for the years I missed in my daughter's life. I tried to move forward, but Shu Shu, looking into An An's eyes, I missed you more and more..."

He held her face gently, "Wife, please don't be so cruel to me... I know I've disappointed you, you can beat me or scold me, as long as you can vent your anger, anything is fine, just don't leave me..."