Chapter 56: Crisis of Trust Qi Yu seems...really doesn't want him...

His arms suddenly felt empty. Feng Ji was stunned for a moment. When he looked up at Qi Yu again, a look of confusion appeared on his face.

"Wife...?"

The hand that was withdrawn still carried the residual warmth of the man's body, and was tightly grasped by Qi Yu. He breathed rapidly again and again, and his chest hidden under the heavy down jacket rose and fell violently. The expression on his face was no longer calm.

"Answer me honestly, is there anything else you are hiding from me?"

Facing the scrutinizing gaze of his lover, Feng Ji finally realized that the person who had originally opened her belly completely to him and rubbed it at will, now looked like a hedgehog with its spikes erected.

There was still love in those eyes, but more than that, there was a sense of wariness that made him feel unfamiliar.

He was just taking a shower in the bathroom, why did it turn out like this in just a dozen minutes?

Feng Ji didn't know what was going on, but the unknown was more frightening. His tone suddenly became extremely panicked, "What's wrong, honey? What happened?"

"Don't ask me back." Qi Yu stared at him. "Just answer me, are you hiding something from me? Don't lie!"

This was the first time Qi Yu had spoken to him in such a harsh and cold tone. An uncontrollable panic washed over Feng Ji, and he almost blurted out, "No, why would I hide anything from you?"

However, Qi Yu's expression did not soften because of his answer. His obsidian-like eyes finally turned completely cold the moment he finished speaking.

"Are you still lying to me?"

Qi Yu's voice turned cold. "I'm asking you, why is it that every time I go out with my friends, you always call me on time to leave?"

"I didn't tell you anything when I went to the bar that night. Why did you suddenly appear there?"

"At that Kyoto University event, you found me at the entrance of the Student Activity Center and later explained to me that you happened to run into me while attending the event. But your name wasn't even on the list of Kyoto University entrepreneurs in attendance! Was it really a coincidence? And how did you know my whereabouts?"

"Also...my roommate and I had a birthday party. You said you were coming to pick me up just a few minutes ago, but the next second you showed up at the mall. Did you really drive here from home properly, or were you following me from the beginning?"

The phone screen was switched to the album page, and a photo showing the WIFI number and name was displayed in front of the man.

Qi Yu said, "This is the signal that the technician who was checking the surveillance just now found. Following the signal, we found two micro surveillance cameras at the front and back doors."

"You installed the surveillance system, right? Do you still have a tracking device on me? You never told me the truth, right?"

With every question Qi Yu uttered, Feng Ji's face turned paler. The man opened and closed his lips, but he could not utter a word of explanation.

Qi Yu discovered it.

The secret he wanted to keep to himself was discovered by Qi Yu.

A huge panic enveloped him at this moment. He wanted to explain himself, but when he met Qi Yu's cold eyes, it seemed that any words were pale.

He could not conceal a fact that had already been discovered.

Feng Ji's expression almost showed his agreement.

Seeing him like this, Qi Yu felt a sense of relief. He closed his phone and asked, "Why do you do this?"

"Wife, I...I..." The man's voice was dry and beads of sweat appeared on his forehead.

Qi Yu: "Why are you so hesitant even to explain? You promised me last time that you would never lie to me again, and it's only been a short time, and you've already forgotten everything."

"Feng Ji, I'm your boyfriend, not a tool for you to control. We've been together for so long, and you've been lying to me. Do you really like me? Is there a single word of truth in your mouth?"

"Of course I like you, I love you!"

Feng Ji suddenly grabbed Qi Yu's hand and almost roared out these words.

Of all the questions waiting to be answered, this was the only one he answered most decisively and without any hesitation, with love gleaming in his eyes, brighter than the incandescent light hanging above his head.

Qi Yu believed that he probably really loved her, but this love was mixed with stalking and control, and a desire for control that made him shudder.

Qi Yu needed him to be honest, to be honest about the origin of his desire for control, inside and out, completely honest.

"I want to hear your explanation. Why did you do this?"

Why would you do this?

Feng Ji seemed to be choking, his eyes were dark, his back teeth were clenched tightly, and his tense jaw muscles were shaking constantly.

The woman's screams, the man's roars, the young boy was knocked to the ground, the knife light was illuminated by the incandescent light of the old house, the ground was covered with blood and the cries for help were weaker and weaker, at the moment this question was asked, they came towards him like snowflakes in a storm.

This memory is like a foul-smelling swamp, and the two people who are particularly hideous in the memory are the water plants in the swamp, the poisonous snakes with bared fangs, and the huge net woven by vines.

Violence, indifference, anger, repression, and loss of control have created this invisible control freak, and have created Feng Ji who projects his dirty desires onto Qi Yu.

Now that Qi Yu knew the secret he wanted to hide the most, Feng Ji's throat felt like it was sewn up with needle and thread, and he could no longer speak about the past.

He had been avoiding this humiliating experience for more than ten years, but now he was even more afraid that Qi Yu would find out about this rotten experience.

Feng Ji could only hold Qi Yu's cold hand tightly, and murmured as if he had grasped the last straw, "I just love you too much, like you too much, I wish I could be with you every moment, so I can't tolerate you leaving my sight. I know it's wrong for me to do this, honey, I will change, I will remove the surveillance, and I will destroy the locator, can you forgive me again?"

Still lying.

Even now, Feng Ji is still lying.

Qi Yu pulled his hand back tremblingly, and said in a trembling voice: "Every time you lied to me before, I believed you, so now you are still lying to me... Feng Ji, it's fun to see me being fooled by you, right?"

Feng Ji looked at the hands that pulled away again, and his heart felt like it was thrown into the raging cold wind outside the window, and it was filled with coldness.

"No, wife...I just..."

Qi Yu knew that he probably wouldn't be able to get anything out of him today. He didn't understand why Feng Ji was unwilling to even give him an honest explanation after doing such a thing.

The horror and confusion when discovering the surveillance video turned into disappointment in the lies of the person in front of him at this moment.

Qi Yu stood up and asked coldly in the man's panicked gaze, "Where is the locator?"

Feng Ji suppressed his panic and tentatively reached for his phone. "The phone case...under the volume button."

Qi Yu didn't give him any chance to get close to her. He just reached out and took off the phone case and threw it into the trash can.

"I don't want to see you now. I'm going back to sleep tonight. You are not allowed to follow me, otherwise it will be over between us."

The last sentence completely calmed down the man who wanted to rush up to keep him. Qi Yu stuffed the bare phone without the case into the pocket of his down jacket, turned around and left Feng Ji's house directly.

As the door closed, the man who had been standing there, not daring to move, suddenly seemed to have all his strength drained away. His tall body staggered, and he held on to the armrest of the sofa with one hand to prevent himself from falling.

His usual calm and composed demeanor was gone, his heart was pounding like thunder, his head was buzzing, and it was so noisy that he couldn't think.

The living room, which was as warm as spring, seemed to be covered by wind and snow after Qi Yu left, and people were shivering with cold.

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When he got home, Qi Yu didn't even turn on the heating. He locked the door and walked to the bed with his eyes downcast. When his sight fell on the pillow outside that belonged to Feng Ji, he suddenly raised his hand to pick it up and wanted to throw it to the floor in anger.

But just when he raised his hand halfway, he felt that the pillow was innocent and should not bear his anger.

In the end, he just threw the pillow into the closet, out of sight, out of mind.

The emotions raging in his chest still hadn't calmed down. Qi Yu kicked off his slippers and curled up at the head of the bed, staring blankly at a point in front of him.

He remembered the trepidation on Feng Ji's face when he confessed his love to him, the love that could drown someone in Feng Ji's eyes when they kissed, and the determination in his voice when he promised not to lie to him again...

All of this was shattered in the fear and disappointment of tonight.

He really liked Feng Ji, and the surveillance and tracking practices did scare him, but the love and cherishment he received were by no means fake.

Qi Yu knew that there must be a reason why a man like Feng Ji couldn't control himself and did all this, so he insisted on getting to the bottom of it instead of blindly accepting a series of explanations that were also mixed with lies.

The room was quiet for a long time, even the breathing seemed to have stopped, full of depression and silence.

It wasn't until a sudden ring of a cell phone broke everything.

Qi Yu briefly came back to his senses from his daydreaming state, took out his cell phone from his down jacket pocket, and found that the call was from Fang Kaize.

He hesitated for a moment. Although he thought it was difficult for him to communicate normally with the other party in his current mood, he was afraid that it was something important, so he pressed the answer button.

As soon as the call was connected, Fang Kaize's voice came from the other end, "Yuzi, I was laid off today. The company gave me N+1 compensation. It just so happens that my family's orchard is short of manpower. When my parents found out, they told me to go back home and rest for a while. Don't be so anxious to find a job. I called you to ask where you are going to celebrate the New Year this year. Do you want to go back with me? My mom has been talking about wanting to see you."

Fang Kaize's unique chattering surrounded his ears. Qi Yu's eyes became sore and his throat seemed to be choked. He tried to answer, but as soon as he opened his mouth, tears fell.

The crying was very soft and suppressed, but Fang Kaize on the other end still keenly sensed that something was wrong and immediately shouted, "What's wrong, Yuzi?! Are you crying? What happened? Is someone bullying you?!"

After asking for a long time but Qi Yu didn't say anything, Fang Kaize suddenly became more anxious, "Which bastard bullied you! Are you home? I'll come find you now. I'll call Chuanzi Dazhou and the others too. It'll be quick by taxi!"

Qi Yu quickly said, "Don't!... No one is bullying me, there's no need to come over."

The tone of voice was filled with a pitiful nasal sound, which made Fang Kaize furious at the person who made Qi Yu cry. "No one bullied you, why are you crying? I've known you for so long and I've never seen you cry. Tell me what happened. There is strength in numbers. Let's solve it together!"

Qi Yu got up from the bed, walked into the bathroom, turned on the faucet and washed his face. The cold water made him shiver. He looked up at his slightly red eyes in the mirror. Qi Yu sniffed hard and briefly explained to Fang Kaize what happened tonight.

If he had to find someone to talk to, apart from Feng Ji, who had lost his credibility with him, the person closest to him was Fang Kaize.

Because Qi Yu trusted him enough, he didn't hold back when recounting the whole story. After he told Fang Kaize the whole story, his brain seemed to freeze. It took him a long time to grasp the key point and said, "So, not only did he install a surveillance camera at your door, he also put a tracking device on you. After you found out, he was so audacious that he refused to tell you the truth and continued to lie to you?!"

Qi Yu hummed sullenly.

Fang Kaize didn't expect that something like this that only happened in movies and TV dramas would actually happen to him. Even though he was eloquent, he didn't know how to comfort him at this moment.

Feng Ji's behavior is not that of a scumbag, but it is extremely perverted. If you call the police, he can be arrested directly.

When encountering such a person, Fang Kaize actually wanted Qi Yu to run away quickly, but Qi Yu obviously liked the other person very much, and this love was difficult to give up in a short period of time. Fang Kaize understood better than anyone how unforgettable first love was.

Besides, none of them knew the real reason why Feng Ji became like this... He hesitated and tried to hide the truth, as if he had some great difficulty in doing so.

After much deliberation, Fang Kaize said, "Yuzai, if you want to break up, I fully support you. If you're willing to give him a chance, ask him again tomorrow. In short, as long as you put yourself first, I'll support you in whatever decision you make!"

"I understand. Thank you, Kaize." After confiding in Fang Kaize, Qi Yu's emotions were still confused, but much better than before.

He took a deep breath, turned on the floor heating in the room, took off his down jacket, and snuggled into the quilt.

Perhaps Feng Ji was really frightened by his words, so he didn't dare to send a single message.

Qi Yu stared at the disgusting note in the pinned bar, said nothing, turned off his phone and closed his eyes.

He slept extremely painfully the whole night, having difficulty falling asleep and feeling half asleep and half awake. Qi Yu woke up at six o'clock the next day.

I was extremely nervous the whole night. Although I was awake, my head hurt so much that it felt like it was going to explode.

Qi Yu’s first reaction was to ask Feng Ji to give him a head massage.

However, as soon as the word "seal" came out of his mouth, he came back to his senses as if waking from a dream.

He is at home now, so there is no need to worry about Feng Ji.

After washing up in silence, Qi Yu opened the door and was startled by the cold air in the living room.

——In the past, Feng Ji would turn on the floor heating in the living room before he got up, so Qi Yu was used to going out directly in his short-sleeved pajamas.

He exhaled a breath of hot air, turned back and put on the down jacket again.

At this point, Feng Ji has probably woken up.

Qi Yu thought about it, raised his hand and pushed open the door. Just as he was about to bend down to get his shoes, he was startled by the figure sitting at the door.

"Why are you here?!"

The person sitting by the door was Feng Ji. The elevator hall was very cold. He didn't know how long he had been waiting there. Even his coat was wrinkled. Hearing the movement beside him, the man propped up his frozen legs and staggered to his feet.

"Wife... I'm afraid of disturbing your rest, and I'm also afraid that I'll miss you if you go out, so I've been waiting here..."

He had indeed waited here for a long time as he said.

His lips were frozen white, and his eyes were still dark blue from not having slept well. He carried the biting chill of a cold February morning in Beijing, but the look he gave Qi Yu was full of flattery and uneasiness.

"I've already removed the surveillance system and uninstalled the location software. I won't do these things again. Honey... let's not have a cold war. If you're angry, you can hit me or scold me, but don't ignore me, okay?"

Looking at Feng Ji like this, a sour feeling rushed to Qi Yu's nose, and he almost softened his heart and agreed.

But after a night, the calming of emotions did not mean that the crisis of trust had also disappeared. Feng Ji's lies were still etched in Qi Yu's heart, forming a long chasm between the two of them.

A layer of mist appeared in Qi Yu's eyes. Through that mist, he looked at Feng Ji steadily and asked the question again: "Can you answer today, why did you do this?"

The elevator hall fell into silence.

When their eyes met, Qi Yu already knew his answer.

Removing surveillance cameras and throwing away locators does not seem to be a proper solution to this crisis.

Feng Ji was locked outside by the door again, but he knew that there seemed to be more than just one door between him and Qi Yu.

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Qi Yu brought the booklet to Liu Qingyun when he went to work on Monday. After entering the office, he did not say a single word to Feng Ji except for the necessary work discussions the whole day.

This atmosphere lasted for several days, and even other people in the secretariat noticed something was wrong.

It seems that Special Assistant Qi and President Feng had an argument.

It’s not quite right to say they had a quarrel, because it was obvious that President Feng really wanted to reconcile with Special Assistant Qi, but Special Assistant Qi didn’t even glance at President Feng.

The secretariat has been silent during their recent break time. Besides working diligently, they are observing the progress of the reconciliation between the two.

But the cold war has lasted for nearly a week, and the progress of reconciliation has remained at zero.

The employees in the secretarial department just felt like a frightened child at home after their parents had a quarrel and went into a cold war. Their biggest role was to ensure that they were obedient and quiet, for fear that any big movement would reignite the war and the family would break up.

Among them, Andy Lau, as Qi Yu's assistant, felt it most directly.

She has a very strong learning ability and has completely taken over the business left by Liang Nanxing after his resignation, and even does a better job than him.

But the work that Qi Yu gave her before was all within the scope of what an assistant could handle. But after Andy Lau officially became a full-time employee this week, he gradually discovered that Qi Yu had begun to teach her more core work content.

It felt like...he wasn't treating her as an assistant, but rather training her as a successor.

This realization made Andy Lau a little flustered. Although Qi Yu was her superior in position, she learned a lot from Qi Yu and always regarded Qi Yu as her master in the workplace and respected him very much.

But now, Liu Qingyun feels that he is about to lose this master...

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"Yuzi, are you sure you've made up your mind? Do you really want to resign?"

Inside the coffee shop, Fang Kaize held up his large cup of whipped coconut latte, his tone filled with surprise and regret. "I don't mind if you want to break up, but I find it a shame if you want to quit. It's such a good job... If you're really upset and don't want to quit, you can go back to your previous non-interfering superior-subordinate relationship."

Without even looking up from his resignation email, Qi Yu replied, "When we were still superiors, he installed a surveillance camera at my door."

Fang Kaize: "..."

Fang Kaize: "Okay, I support your resignation. Let's make a deal, then. Come to my hometown for Chinese New Year this year. I don't have much else there, but I have plenty of fruit. My mom can cook Dezhou braised chicken, braised pork belly, huoshao, pot stickers... You can just wait to eat until you're full!"

"Okay, I also want to try Auntie's cooking."

Qi Yu answered, typed the last word, confirmed that the entire article was correct, and then sent the resignation email.

During this period, Feng Ji often found opportunities to ask for reconciliation with Qi Yu, but as soon as Qi Yu asked that question, he would immediately become silent, and the cycle would repeat itself the next time.

Perhaps it was Qi Yu's forgiveness in the past that gave Feng Ji the illusion that as long as he kept pestering her, Qi Yu would one day relent and reconcile with him.

But the passage of time did not make Qi Yu soften his heart, he just felt very tired.

This incident had a greater impact on him than Qi Yu had imagined. He had trouble falling asleep at night, woke up early in the morning, and frequently lost focus at work. His spirit and emotions had been stretched to the limit, and a slight pull would cause everything to collapse.

Qi Yu knew that he couldn't go on like this, so he decided to let himself go, resign, and go to a place where he couldn't see Feng Ji.

He had made this decision with great determination, and the moment he handed in his resignation letter, he felt an indescribable sense of relief. But after the brief relief, there was even greater sadness.

He didn't want to go this far, but he had given Feng Ji too much time, and with the disappointments piling up, he no longer expected the other party to tell him the truth.

Qi Yu and Fang Kaize agreed that as soon as their resignation applications were approved, they would immediately rush to buy tickets back.

The two had dinner outside and parted ways at the restaurant door. Qi Yu took a taxi back to Yulong Bay. As the elevator went up to the 12th floor, a "ding dong" sound was heard, indicating arrival, and the voice-controlled lights in the elevator hall also turned on.

The elevator door slowly opened, and a ghost-like figure appeared outside the elevator, grabbed his wrist hard, and dragged him out of the elevator.

The speed was so fast that Qi Yu had no time to react. He was directly crashed into an icy embrace by the force.

Feng Ji didn't know how long he had been waiting here. When he saw him, his voice trembled as he spoke. "Why did you resign? Qi Yu, why did you resign? Are you breaking up with me?"

"Let me go first... Feng Ji...! Let me go!"

Qi Yu tried hard to push him away, but the man was incredibly strong. No matter how he struggled, he could not escape from the other's arms.

Feng Ji seemed to be possessed by a demon. He held him tighter and tighter, repeating over and over again, "Please don't quit your job, okay? I know I was wrong... Don't quit your job, don't break up with me... Qi Yu, baby... Don't be so cruel, don't do this to me..."

Qi Yu couldn't break free, so she simply let him hold her like that, and loudly scolded him, "I've given you so many chances! You've always turned a blind eye. You know exactly what I want, but is it so hard for you to tell the truth?!"

"I'm so exhausted every day now. When I see you, I can't help but have wild thoughts and can't even sleep well. I'm the one who's been hurt and can't get an explanation. I'm the one who's been tortured!"

"If you don't want to talk about it, I don't want to force you anymore. I'll let you go and let myself go. Please don't force me anymore, okay?"

As he spoke, his voice was choked with sobs.

It was this choking sob that awakened the man's last bit of rationality. The hand around his waist gradually loosened. Feng Ji's eyes were red and his voice was dry. "Does it hurt you so much to see me?"

Qi Yu's eyes were filled with tears, which finally fell in big drops. "We are lovers. I want you to respond to me honestly, instead of turning a blind eye to my requests and using one lie to cover up another."

If he easily forgave Feng Ji this time and condoned his lies, who knows whether there would be a second or third locator next time or the next time.

Anyway, Feng Ji was sure that he was soft-hearted. If he could deceive him once, he would deceive him a second and third time. Qi Yu didn't want to live in worry for the rest of his life.

Warm tears rolled down the back of the man's hand. Feng Ji held Qi Yu's face distressedly and said in a hoarse voice, "Wife, can you give me some more time?"

"Not good." Qi Yu turned his face away, wiped his tears away, then took a step back, and his voice returned to its previous calmness.

"I have handed over all the work to Qingyun, and it will not affect the operation of the project. You can hire a new assistant, or recruit a few new people for the secretariat. I would like to ask President Feng to approve my resignation as soon as possible."

After he finished speaking, he avoided the touch of the person in front of him, unlocked his door and walked quickly into the house.

Boom——!

Behind me, I heard the sound of a door closing.

Feng Ji stood there like a wooden stake for a long time. When he lowered his head and looked at the tear on the back of his hand that belonged to Qi Yu but had turned cold, an idea in his mind became particularly clear at this moment.

This time is completely different from the past.

It seemed like Qi Yu...really didn't want him anymore.

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The author has something to say: I found that I rarely write about young couples quarreling, it’s completely unfamiliar [covering my face with laughter and tears]

Mr. Feng had a very serious childhood trauma. He couldn't explain it and was a bit stubborn. But from 77's perspective, he was under surveillance and couldn't get a single word of truth, so he ran away in anger.

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