Chapter 52 Do Whatever You Want

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I don’t know what words irritated him, but Nakahara Chuuya suddenly exploded into a red tomato.

Under the gaze of Hayana Takanashi, he stood up quickly!

His eyes suddenly became busy, looking in all directions except the dark-haired woman sitting behind the desk.

Just when Hayana Takanashi thought he would get angry and leave shyly, he suddenly became calm again and continued to sit on the sofa with a bit of frustration.

"Does what I said bother you?" he asked.

"No." Kotori Hayato shook her head and said, "Rather than putting me in a difficult position, it's you who's putting yourself in a difficult position."

"I didn't accept your confession, yet you said you were willing to agree to an inappropriate relationship. Ultimately, it's all due to my own thinking. In one word, I can sum it up as a scumbag."

Being in love, especially with Chuuya, is too troublesome and too dangerous.

With a romantic relationship in the air, everything becomes complicated.

The relationship between the two, their interests, their stances, and Mori Ogai...

It would be fine if we didn’t break up, but if we broke up or were forced to break up, I’m afraid we would never see each other again in our lives, right?

Even if they meet, all that is left for both parties is silence, pain and regret.

Love is the most complicated.

The better the relationship, the less it can withstand the wear and tear of love.

Once a crack occurs, it will be a lifelong scar.

When friends meet again after separation, they can easily put aside their past grudges, such as when Dazai Osamu met her and Chuuya again some time ago after he left.

It’s different when lovers part ways, and they can’t be as open-minded when they meet again.

I can date anyone except Chuuya and Dazai.

This is the wise saying that Hayana Kotori now believes in.

Nakahara Chuuya's cobalt blue eyes turned to Takanashi Hayana. He was perceptive and noticed her twisted attitude. "Can I understand that you have feelings for me, but for some reason, you can't accept my confession?"

"The card given to Dazai was not just a simple bank card, but proof of a special relationship."

"But Hayana, you never thought about having sex with Dazai. No matter what kind of physical contact, you will never have it with him."

"Since you want to find a lover but don't plan to have a relationship with him, why?"

"From what I can imagine, you just want to help him financially." Nakahara Chuuya spoke clearly, each word full of pressure: "It's like a child playing house, not wanting to be at a disadvantage, playing with the name."

Hayana Takanashi: "..."

She didn't expect him to be so perceptive, and she couldn't find any words to refute him.

In the end, she was the one who escaped.

…

"You're really in a mess." In the misty hot spring bath, Ozaki Kouye looked at the woman lying on the edge of the pool with a charming look, gently shaking the porcelain cup in her hand: "You actually scared me with just one sentence."

This is the cadre building where Ozaki Koyo is stationed.

There are artificial hot springs on the upper floors.

Half of her body was submerged in the hot water. Hayana Kotori sighed, "Who knew Chuuya would suddenly evolve into the famous detective Chuuya?"

"Sister Hongye, you didn't see what happened. I was like a criminal with nowhere to hide in front of Chuuya. It was so terrifying!"

"This is the first time I feel like he sees through me."

Ozaki Kouye's red lips curled slightly: "I am a pure love party."

Hayana Kotori spread her hands: "I also want to be a pure love, but - I still don't understand the concept of love."

Dazai and Chuuya both knew exactly what they wanted.

And she just wants to go back to the life she had four years ago.

That kind of relationship is what she wants most.

Her fingers, painted red, were slender and white. The unfinished wine flowed from the corner of her lips to her collarbone, finally sinking into the water. As one of the five cadres, she exuded a mature charm. She sighed with a sense of understanding: "You are too stubborn."

Then he gave a suggestion: "Instead of being embarrassed between those two people, why not try to have a relationship? Maybe it will make things clearer."

"Huh?" Hayana Kotori retorted with a look of "What are you talking about?" "If that happens, my boyfriend will be killed by me."

"Let's forget about hurting innocent people."

She knows herself well enough.

I also know those two people well enough.

Zhong Ye is very easy to talk to, will not take action, and will even force himself to hold back his blessings.

But Dazai... maybe her boyfriend got fucked on the second day after she got him.

Involved in crimes such as tax evasion, murder, theft of company funds, or being a traitor in the police force.

No matter what industry her boyfriend is in, there will be charges of crimes in the related industry waiting for him.

"We are the mafia, Sister Momiji." After taking a sip of sake, Hayana Kotori sank into the water.

The hearts of the mafia are black.

Even if Dazai left the Port Mafia, he was still black.

His current cheerfulness, humor, and gentle face when looking at people are just his disguise. He just doesn't care if his bottom line is not touched. But when he really gets angry and takes off the mask - you will find out what a dangerous abyss is on the other side.

Ozaki Kouye was slightly taken aback. "So it's okay to be right. Is it Dazai who really scares you?"

"Aren't you willing to break up with them for your boyfriend?"

Hayana Kotori felt a headache: "I haven't met a lover who would risk everything for him."

It wasn't something that happened in reality, it was just a hypothetical situation—she couldn't even imagine it.

"So we have to choose quickly."

"I don't want to choose. The most taboo thing for a three-person team is for two of them to be together, isolating the other one."

"Where's your lover?" Ozaki Kouyo jokingly asked, "Don't you often go to A's place? You must have lost count of your lovers."

Hayana Takanashi: "..."

Hayana Takanashi: "I'm actually quite cautious about things like this."

She often talks about being her lover or the first man, but in fact, Hayato Takanashi has never even held a man's hand, let alone kissed him.

"Excuse me." A small and calm female voice came.

Hayana Kotori looked up and saw a girl in a white yukata for hot springs walking in, untying the belt around her waist, and walking down the steps barefoot into the water.

Her back was against the smooth masonry of the wall, and there was no expression on her lovely, pretty face.

As hollow as a doll.

"I'm about to go on a mission, so I came here to wash up," she said.

"Mirror Flower!"

Hayato Takanashi fluttered over in surprise, her black hair forming soft arcs in the water like algae, forming a sharp contrast with her snow-white skin underwater.

She hugged Izumi Kyoka and said happily, "It's been a long time since we last met!"

"I haven't seen you lately. Is your mission schedule so tight? It's so tiring, you've lost weight!"

"Ms. Kotori," the girl said in a muffled voice, her voice still calm, "I can't breathe."

Ozaki Kouyo smiled dangerously: "Kyokakai will be bored to death by you, Hayana."

"Exposure to a mature and attractive female body at such an early age is likely to have an impact on the child's psychological development."

"Eh?" Hayana Kotori let go of the girl, whose face was flushed from holding back her anger, and said with a smile, "Are you afraid that Jinghua will like me?"

"No." Izumi Kyoka responded to the joking words in an unusually serious manner.

Ozaki Kouye covered her lips and chuckled: "You were rejected mercilessly, Hayana."

Although it was not a confession, but just a joke following Ozaki Kouyo's words, but looking at the empty and dull eyes of the girl in front of her, Hayana Takanashi suddenly felt that she was crying unhappily?

Seeing the woman in front of her staring at her in silence, Izumi Kyoka looked at Ozaki Kouyo with her impersonal, childish and cute face and explained, "I was trained as a killer, so I won't fall in love with anyone."

The steaming indoor hot spring suddenly became silent.

After a while, Ozaki Kouye smiled with satisfaction: "If you don't fall in love with someone, you won't get hurt."

Hayana Kotori looked into Izumi Kyoka's eyes and told her seriously: "It's okay if you don't like people. It's good enough if you can distinguish between happiness and unhappiness."

Looking at the hair floating in the water, Izumi Kyoka pursed her lips and asked, "What's the difference?"

Kotori Hayana thought for a moment and said, "Not for you right now. But no matter how little you have the right to choose, you must know what is happy and what is unhappy, what you want to do and what you hate to do."

"Don't let that Akutagawa guy turn you into a puppet of the Port Mafia who only knows how to kill people."

"I only know how to kill people."

"What a coincidence! When I was little, I only knew how to fight, and now I only know how to kill."

"Why?" asked the girl.

Hayana Kotori was stunned for a moment: "What?"

"If you can only kill people, why are you so happy?" asked Izumi Kyoka.

A stubborn light suddenly appeared in her empty eyes.

I don’t understand the smiles and the unbridled happiness that often appear on the faces of the women in front of me.

She took the initiative to move forward, getting closer to her, staring at her without blinking, eager to know the answer.

"because……"

Because she has Dazai and Chuuya by her side.

Suddenly, Hayana Takanashi's throat was dry and she couldn't speak.

When she first joined the Port Mafia, she was with Dazai and Chuuya.

Going on missions together, facing all kinds of dangerous situations, and never backing down once during the three years of being together, it's hard to say what kind of emotion that was.

She has a back, and she is also the back of the other two.

They protect each other.

Even after Dazai knew her true identity, he found a way to create a perfect cover for her undercover identity without her knowledge, deceiving the leader and hiding it from everyone in the organization.

His actions can be regarded as a betrayal of the port mafia.

But for Kagamika, she had no choice but to copy Ryunosuke Akutagawa, who had the inhumane teaching methods of Dazai Osamu, and instilled ruthless instructions into her, making her a puppet who was not allowed to resist orders.

No companions, all alone.

Even worse than Akutagawa was when he was under Dazai.

The one who was happier than her was that Akutagawa had Gin at that time.

Maybe Akutagawa would confide his troubles to Gin when encountering setbacks, but what about Kyoka?

Hayana Takanashi suddenly noticed that behind the girl, in the changing area separated by a layer of transparent glass, a mobile phone with a cute rabbit decoration was placed on the neatly folded white yukata.

"Because I'm not a good person." She touched Izumi Kyoka's head with a gentle touch: "But Kyoka, you have..."

"Haasana!"

--Bang!

Along with the high-pitched voice of Ozaki Kouyo's rebuke, there was the sound of the golden Yasha's blade breaking through the air. When it intersected with the transparent straight line, it made people's scalps tingle and their ears tinnitus, and it wailed like a broken string!

Then, a figurative sword-wielding woman wearing a kimono and twice the size of an ordinary person was hit by so many invisible threads. The powerful impact of the attack sent her flying into the corner of the indoor hot spring.

The water rippled, and the smoke and dust produced by the shattering and falling bricks dissipated. The golden Yaksha was nailed to the ground, and the nailed fingers trembled and struggled.

Without looking at the situation behind her, nor at Ozaki Kouyo's unpleasant expression, Kotori Hayana said to Izumi Kyoka, who was not paying attention to what had just happened and only wanted to know the answer -

"Jinghua has a kind heart, a heart that would feel pain and shed tears if it killed someone."

Izumi Kyoka can tell the difference between what she likes and what she hates.

But here, in this dark place, she had no power to say no.

She placed her fingers on the spot where her heart was beating on her chest, and her heartbeat was still steady and slow. Izumi Kyoka didn't know whether she was happy or disappointed with the answer she heard, she just felt uncomfortable and depressed.

Something wants to break out.

But no one reached out to her.

The people in the Port Mafia are all the same, no matter which class they are in, they all do the same thing in the end.

Their expressionless faces and cold, callous hearts contrasted sharply with the terrified faces of those who died at their hands.

"It doesn't matter." Izumi Kyoka's eyelashes trembled slightly, "It seems like it doesn't matter."

"Whether it's a cold heart or a heart that feels pain, one must wield the knife and complete the mission. No one wants to see the heart of an assassin."

So - it doesn't matter.

Hayana Kotori frowned: "Kyoka, you see things so clearly."

This kind of transparent heart, unable to make decisive judgments in the situation, standing on a position that is not suitable for her, can only bring her endless pain.

Izumi Kyoka stood up, her expressionless face sweeping over Ozaki Kouye, who was standing at the edge of the hot spring, holding a porcelain cup with a complicated expression, and then looked at the woman in front of her—

He nodded slightly at them: "I'm done, I'm leaving first."

After releasing the control of the supernatural power over Golden Yasha, Hayana Kotori turned around and said to Ozaki Kouye, "Sister Kouye, she seems to be unhappy all the time, right?"

"Mirror flowers belong to darkness, and only in darkness can they survive better." Ozaki Koyo insisted on her opinion.

When she saw the mirror flower, she seemed to see herself when she was younger.

If you want to leave the Port Mafia, you will be hurt.

The best protection is not to leave and to merge yourself with the darkness.

Hayana Kotori doesn't understand: "To protect someone, you have to be good to her, treat her with all your heart, protect her, make her happy, then you can feel happy."

"Instead of watching her suffer and worrying and suffering yourself."

"It's like self-torture." She complained, "Sister Hongye, being Jinghua's guardian is really stressful for her."

Being provoked, Ozaki Kouye was quite annoyed, but she still retorted in an elegant voice: "You should deal with the problems of your own three-person team first, and then lecture me."

Hayana Takanashi stood up and brushed aside the wet hair that was stuck to her face. "I learned something from Kyoka."

"What?" Ozaki Kouyo was curious.

"Transparent."

"Transparent?"

“Just do whatever you want to do.”

"Looking ahead and behind only brings pain."