Chapter 115: Cherish Her and Love Her More

As these words fell.

Xie Chen's ears were buzzing constantly, and his chest felt like it was being pricked by countless needles. The endless pain spread throughout his body.

Destroy her?

Kill her?

How could he do this to her?

At this moment, Xie Chen only felt deeply powerless.

"I will not abolish you, nor will I kill you."

Pei Tingyue was panicked, her lower lip bitten again, leaving a bright red blood bead. She collapsed on the ground in embarrassment, grabbing the hem of Xie Chen's clothes.

"Your Majesty, please give me a quick death, and stop torturing me, okay? I don't want to listen to their ridicule and harassment every day, nor do I want to be framed by them. I am really afraid of this kind of terrified life. Your Majesty, can't you really let me go?"

She broke down and started crying again.

Xie Chen's eyes were red.

Every breath was extremely painful.

She has been lying all along.

In the past, he had asked her if she was afraid of being favored. What did she say then?

She said that as long as he was around, she wasn't afraid.

So, he thought she was really not afraid.

But now it seems that he was wrong. She was so timid, how could she not be afraid?

He had clearly seen it.

On the day when Concubine Shu had a miscarriage, she knelt in the center of the palace, looking at herself for help. And then there was the incident with Concubine Liang's burn ointment, and her aggrieved look.

He ignored that she was always afraid.

The emperor, who was high above everyone else, tasted regret for the first time in his life.

He suddenly thought, if only there had been no such calculations between them from the beginning, it would have been better if they had simply loved each other.

But the fact is, these calculations and schemes do exist, and they were created by him. They are deeply ingrained between them, and they cannot be overcome or escaped.

Xie Chen lowered his scarlet eyes.

He resisted the urge to help her up and said in a hoarse voice, "The ground is cold, get up."

Pei Tingyue didn't dare to get up. She looked up at him with her tear-stained face, hoping that he would let her go.

Xie Chen understood what she meant.

He curled his fingers and laughed to himself.

"You fainted yesterday and your miscarriage has already occurred. Now, even for the sake of the child, you should get up first."

Pei Tingyue then stood up.

But she didn't sit on the bed, she just stood aside.

Xie Chen looked at the indifference, alienation and defensiveness on her face, and his heart ached to the point of numbness.

"I will not abolish you, I will not kill you, and I will not use you as a pawn."

Pei Tingyue raised her eyes carefully.

Xie Chen looked back and steadied his trembling voice. "I've thought about it and it's not appropriate to raise this child anywhere. It's better for you, the biological mother, to take care of him. When you give birth to the child, I will give you a position as one of the Nine Concubines. You can raise the child carefully in the palace. I and the six concubines will not disturb you and your child."

He wanted to explain.

He wanted to tell her that what he said before, that she was in his heart, was never a lie.

But the initial plan of exploitation was indeed true, and she had a mental breakdown and even wanted to die.

What if she still can't accept it and has another miscarriage?

Xie Chen didn't dare to think about how things would develop. Maybe he would regret it for the rest of his life.

This was the only way he could steady her. He knew she cared about the child.

Pei Tingyue asked in a trembling voice: "Really?"

Xie Chen's pale lips were pressed into a straight line, and he said against his will, "Really."

*

Xie Chen stood by the window, watching the mahogany sedan slowly go away.

He never imagined that they would become like this overnight.

He stood there for a long time, hiding the pain in his eyes, and called Liang Yao, "Go and find out how Shen knew that I gave Concubine Pei a cold medicine."

Liang Yao agreed.

Xie Chen instructed again, "Go tell the Queen that Concubine Pei is pregnant. I exempt Concubine Pei from her daily greetings. Also, tell her to rest assured and take care of her pregnancy in Changle Palace. Ask the concubines in the six palaces not to disturb her."

"I obey your order."

After everyone left, the palace fell into desolation again. Xie Chen still stood in front of the window, staring blankly at the place where the sedan disappeared.

The gloomy sunlight shone on him through the diamond-shaped window, making him look even more lonely.

*

After Pei Tingyue returned to the palace, she went straight back to her bedroom and quietly told Yun Shu, "Bring me some medicine."

Yun Shu found it out quickly.

Pei Tingyue sat in front of the dressing table and applied ointment on her lips.

She had a hard time acting for the past two days. Not only were her lips bruised, but her calves were also bumped. You could tell they were bruised without even looking.

Although it was quite hard, the emperor's painful expression was worth it.

Pei Tingyue sneered.

Do you regret it?

What were you doing so far?

Anyone who dares to treat her like this should never have thought that this day would come.

You deserve it.

She had planned her future life well. She was so sad that she stayed indoors. She didn't believe that the emperor would let her go. Since he wouldn't, the initiative was still in her hands.

She wanted to torture the emperor.

Although I can't make him feel so miserable that he wants to die, I have to make him regret it and cherish her even more.

However, this matter also needs to be done in moderation and properly grasped to achieve good results.

While Pei Tingyue was thinking, he suddenly heard a notification from the door.

Immediately, she went to lie down on the couch.

"How are you..."

Concubine Song's hesitant voice came from in front of the couch.

Pei Tingyue sat up halfway and opened his hands in grievance.

Only three people in the palace know her true identity: Yun Shu, Yun Zheng, and Liang An.

In fact, she trusts the imperial concubine very much. Unlike the master-servant relationship of the three, she and the imperial concubine have an unusual friendship.

Logically speaking, there is nothing wrong with telling the imperial concubine, but unfortunately, the imperial concubine is extremely loyal to the emperor. The two are not only wise rulers and loyal ministers, but also friends for life and death.

Pei Tingyue didn't dare to gamble, so he could only continue acting with an apologetic attitude.

Concubine Song was heartbroken. Seeing this, she took a few steps forward and hugged the person.

"Why are your eyes so swollen from crying?"

Pei Tingyue muttered in her arms, "Because I am very useless."

Concubine Song sighed.

She wanted to say a few words of comfort, but she didn't understand these love affairs, nor did she know what was going on between the two of them.

You could say he was taking advantage of her, but the look in his eyes didn't seem fake when he met the emperor in the back hall these few times.

Even if she wasn't being used, the person in her arms was the emperor's pawn from the beginning. Otherwise, the queen wouldn't have stuffed her into Changle Palace and asked her to take care of her out of guilt and compensation.

"What a bad fate!"

Pei Tingyue held her for a long time before letting her go.

Concubine Song thought for a long time with a sad face, and then she said, "Don't take men so seriously. In fact, there are better things in this palace than love."

Pei Tingyue asked: "What is it?"

Concubine Song lowered her voice, "The position of Empress Dowager. When the child is born, you must teach him well. If the child is smart and capable of great use, then... then you will become Empress Dowager. You have the right not to tell others, you can secretly raise a few..."

She spoke stealthily, and her actions were extremely funny. She made a gesture of wiping her neck, and rolled her eyes with a grin.

Pei Tingyue agreed in her heart, but she couldn't say it out loud. She was about to cry again, "I don't want to be the queen mother. I just want the emperor to like me, but he doesn't have me in his heart at all."

Concubine Song urgently changed the subject: "Okay, okay, let's not talk about this, these sad things. Let's talk about the child. Do you think this child is a boy or a girl..."

She comforted Pei Tingyue for a long time. When she was about to leave, she cleared her throat and said, "Good Tingyue, let's just talk about these things in private. Don't spread them out. I want to return to Northern Xinjiang alive."