Chapter 34 Mother's Tears Are Pearls

"Xingxing, don't go out." Xingxing curled up into a small ball, holding the teething biscuits that his mother stuffed into his hands. His tears stopped falling, but his eyes were still red, and he looked like a poor little kid who had been bullied.

Liang Jinyu reached out and hugged Xingxing in her arms, her eyes red with guilt, and she apologized repeatedly into his neck.

"Mom didn't mean it. Don't be afraid, baby. Mom was too stupid to think of it."

"Mom is a big fool with an empty head. Not only did she not remember the doctor's instructions, she also forgot that the doctor would be afraid of being eaten. It's all mom's fault. From now on, mom will never eat mushrooms again, okay?"

"Don't be afraid, baby. From now on, mommy will protect Doctor Mushroom and no one can hurt him."

Tears welled up in Liang Jinyu's eyes. She really regretted that she was so slow to think. The doctor had just reminded her two days ago not to let the baby be frightened, but she broke the taboo today. Not only did she scare Xingxing, but she also made Xingxing, who had finally been willing to react to the outside world, shrink back into her shell again.

Guilt and self-blame almost overwhelmed her completely. She didn't care whether she was recording a live broadcast program or not. She raised her hand and slowly patted and stroked Xingxing's thin back, saying words of apology again and again.

She didn't expect any extra reaction from the frightened baby. She just wanted to tell the baby that what mom did was wrong and she would never do that again.

She just hoped that her apology and assurance could reduce the baby's panic a little.

Even a little bit would be fine.

Xingxing lay in her arms, listening to the sobs in her voice, the self-blame and helpless cries in her heart, then she looked down at the sweet-smelling teething biscuits in her hands, took a light bite with tears in her eyes.

No teeth grinding at all.

It breaks with a light bite, and the crispy biscuit falls into your mouth, quickly filling your mouth with a sweet taste.

A tear fell down her eyelashes, and Xingxing buried herself in her mother's arms, which were overwhelmed by guilt. She listened to her apology, felt her touch and pat, and finished the teething stick bit by bit like a little hamster.

Then, with his little hands covered with cookie crumbs, he gently hugged his crying human mother.

Xingxing raised her head, and two pairs of very similar eyes, equally filled with tears, looked at each other, one was quiet and clear, the other was heartbroken and guilty, and a huge sadness silently lingered around the embracing mother and son.

In the live broadcast room, the barrage of comments that had been constantly flashing gradually slowed down.

In front of the camera, Xingxing held her mother's tear-soaked face, slowly moved closer, stood on tiptoe and kissed her trembling, wet eyes.

"Mom, don't cry~"

After saying that, he lowered his head again, put his wet right eye close to his mother's lips and gently pressed it against hers, then smiled slightly and comforted himself: "Xingxing, don't cry either~"

The child's smile was very small, the kiss was very light, and the words to coax her were very soft and obedient, but they made Liang Jinyu's tears burst out again.

"Baby, Mommy always does it wrong..."

Liang Jinyu hugged Xingxing and broke down in tears, completely ignoring the camera.

She didn't know that she was standing on the edge of a deep abyss, and she didn't know that the stars were standing beside her, trying to stretch out their little hands to pull her back.

She didn't know that she was seriously ill, and she didn't know why fate was always so harsh on her. During this long and painful time, she lost everything she had. Her life and future were all dark, leaving only the tiny, faint starlight in her arms.

She just felt so tired, so exhausted. She wanted to cry loudly, to accuse all the injustices and conspiracies that had befallen her, to completely tear apart the glamorous appearance of some people...

But she is as timid as a mouse.

In the end, all the “I want…” became the only certain “I just want…”

She just wants the stars to be safe, healthy and grow up well.

Even if you are just a little mushroom that doesn't want to see the sun, that's good too.

But while she was thinking this, she unreasonably hurt Xingxing by using her closest identity.

And her stars?

The stars that were hurt by her, the stars that should have hidden themselves away again, were shining even harder in her arms.

It was originally a dim star, so dim that only the faint light of a firefly was left, but now it was shining desperately in her arms.

From a little firefly to real starlight.

From dark to bright.

He even tried to become warm, so warm that she felt her own arms were starting to get hot.

But the more Xingxing did this, the more panicked she became.

The better the stars became, the more scared she became.

She was afraid that she was ripening a seed that was already defective.

She was afraid that her paranoia would be passed on to her only child.

She was afraid that the brightness and warmth of the stars were all disguises forced out by her, just like a candle that could only illuminate by burning its life.

She was extremely scared, happy and terrified at the same time. She couldn't help but want to ask the stars not to change, not to become better, just to stay like before, stable and silent.

The fear surging in her heart almost destroyed Liang Jinyu, but she held the warm and bright stars in her arms, and her tears fell into the starlight, without creating any broken holes in this false starlight.

The stars caught all her tears and emotions, and in the warm and bright starlight, they turned into slowly spreading ripples, circle after circle, and finally all turned into gentle kisses falling on her eyes.

The bright starlight melted into her dim eyes.

Xingxing held her mother's tear-stained face, and gently wiped away the tears flowing from her eyes again and again. Finally, as her mother stared in astonishment, she leaned forward and kissed her mother's eyes.

The little child, wearing goose yellow plush pajamas, held his mother's face and smiled at her with his eyes curved.

"Mother's tears are pearls, don't cry."

"It will be taken away by bad guys."

Mom's tears wet the sleeves of Xingxing's plush pajamas. The fur on the cuffs was wet in wisps, and when Xingxing touched it with her fingers, it felt cold.

But my mother is warm.

Mom will always be warm.

Xingxing picked up a new teething biscuit and stuffed it into her mother's mouth, whose eyes were red.

"Mom, is it delicious?" Xingxing asked her with her head tilted and smiling eyes.

Liang Jinyu took a bite, and a smile similar to Xing Xing appeared on her tear-stained face. She said in a hoarse voice, "Well, it tastes good, but it doesn't taste like a teething biscuit."

So Xingxing stuffed another one into his mouth with satisfaction, and sat opposite his mother on the carpet like a little mouse, each holding a teething stick and chewing it very attentively.

[…Xingxing baby is so cute and can soothe himself?]

[Not only did he comfort himself, but he also made his crying mother happy.]

[Wuwuwuwuwu, my tears are worthless. I clearly don’t know why they are crying, but I just stayed in the live broadcast room for half a day to accompany them in crying. They cried, and I cried too. Now that they are laughing, I still can’t stop crying. Wuwuwuwuwuwu…]

[Damn it, can't I just skip the man owning such a star? Or should I squat downstairs of Liang Jinyu and wait for her to go out with the star in her arms, and then rush over with a sack and take it away?]

[Stop it, the guy in front! You'll scare the stars like this!!]

[I hope Xingxing will get better and better. I apologize to the baby for my previous malicious speculation. It turns out that the baby is not a normal and healthy child, but the baby will definitely get healthier and healthier in the future!]

[Damn it, why can Liang Jinyu have such a good baby like Xingxing? Why can't he be my baby? God, please come out and let's settle the score!!]

[I am dying of laughter. When the whole internet was blackening me, I didn’t dare to speak out because I was afraid of being criticized by the extreme fans. Now I still can’t help but ask: In the interviews, the fact that Xingxing is an autistic child was publicized and known to the whole internet. Xiao Yongyan, as Xingxing’s father, what did you think?]

[Take our brother away without a date! Isn’t this the truth? Our brother also loves the child very much, he is just telling the truth. Is it wrong to tell the truth in this era?]

[Our brother has been in such a miserable state, and now there are still people who can't stand it and want to throw dirty water on our family, right? Then I can only wish that you and the rest of you will talk about Liang Jinyu, a domestic violence girl, and have such unhealthy children in the future!]

[Fuck, I was just a passerby, but now I can't help myself when I see some brainless and vicious comments. Those who said the same thing before, aren't you guys really your brother's reverse-dressing haters? Are you deliberately saying the opposite to make passersby hate him? All the other idiots should come to you to learn from you! ]

[If I can really give birth to a star, I won't have to do it myself! I just like stars, so what? You are the unhealthy child. Our baby is healthy. He can eat, drink, play, sleep, and comfort himself and his mother. He is a thousand times better than those damn naughty children!]

"The quarrel started again." reported the staff member who monitored the real-time traffic.

The director smiled so hard that his teeth were exposed: "Let's quarrel. The more fierce the quarrel, the better. It would be best if it becomes a hot topic on the search. This will bring traffic. We made the right decision to invite Liang Jinyu to this program! Her son is simply the lucky star of our program team!"

The staff on the other side reported: "There's a quarrel here too, but there should be some support from the Internet trolls. The direction of the rhythm in the comments has begun to change on a large scale."

The director tilted his head to glance at the live broadcast room, smiled noncommittally, and said calmly: "It's okay, hiring Internet trolls is also to bring us traffic and popularity. It's just that people are really incomparable. Often this comparison can reveal some cruel differences."

He spoke mysteriously and shook his head, as if he was expressing emotion about something.

At the same time, the child's tender voice rang through the screen and rang in everyone's ears:

"Dad, can you please stop lying down? The delivery man is almost here to deliver the food!"

Lin Xiyue put her hands on her hips and glared angrily and helplessly at the young man who was slumped on the sofa. Her eyes were full of disappointment as if she was looking at a salted fish that had been dried for a long time.

Lin Mofeng covered his ears, sat up lazily, hugged the little girl in front of him and rubbed her hair until it was covered with lumps. Then he sighed, "Little Moon, do you know that people will not starve to death if they don't eat a meal?"

So don't push me as it's like asking for my life.

Lin Xiyue took a deep breath, and finally couldn't bear it anymore. She lowered her head and rushed into his arms like a bull, threatening fiercely: "Dad! If you don't eat, I'm going to starve to death!!"

Lin Mofeng: "...Okay, okay, little ancestor, can you take it easy? I'll go get you takeout now, okay?"

He rubbed the place where he was hit, stood up, walked to the door, and when he opened the door, the corners of his lips curled up silently.

Entertainment industry?

The whole network is black?

As a reader of the original novel, he knows too well the protagonist Xiao Yongyan's "road to rise".

But this time, Xiao Yongyan's stepping stones should become his own stepping stones.