Among a group of high school graduates who were playing around and gradually letting go, someone finally suggested playing a confession game.

Wan Qiu quietly sent a message to Zhou Peiyu.

Wan Qiu: They said that they asked all students to say which member of the opposite sex they care about most in the class, and everyone had to say it.

Zhou Peiyu: That's right, this is what a graduation party should be! This is the last chance to confess.

Wan Qiu looked eagerly at the people present as they spoke one by one about the person of the opposite sex they had a crush on.

Wan Qiu: Several female classmates said it was Yigui.

Zhou Peiyu: So how do you feel?

Wan Qiu was stunned.

Wan Qiu: Why are you asking me?

Zhou Peiyu: Didn’t you feel anything when you heard someone confess to Chu Yigui?

How do you feel?

Wan Qiu raised his eyes and saw a female classmate holding the microphone in her hand with some embarrassment, and looked up at Chu Yigui.

Under the dim light that was not very bright, the shy female student with her head down still looked like a green bud about to bloom, small and cute.

She said Chu Yigui's name.

Everyone started to say that Chu Yigui was about to win over all the girls in the class.

"It's just out of gratitude for the help. I'm very grateful for everyone's kindness to me." Chu Yigui just quietly refuted some of the jokes with a bad taste.

When Wan Qiu looked up at Chu Yigui, he never saw Chu Yigui looking happy.

He just smiled, but his eyes seemed a little cold under the dim light that was deliberately suppressed by the environment.

Wan Qiu: I feel like Yigui doesn’t seem very happy.

Zhou Peiyu: Huh? He was the one being confessed to, why is he not happy?

Wan Qiu: Is this a confession? Doesn’t a confession require a response?

Zhou Peiyu: How about we wait and see if anyone will call Chu Yigui away alone.

Wan Qiu thought about it and replied: But Yigui will not leave me.

Zhou Peiyu: …

Zhou Peiyu: ...I was careless.

Wan Qiu felt that there must be a reason why Zhou Peiyu asked him to attend the party.

Wan Qiu: Is there anything you want to know? Is it because there is a boy you like in Chu Yigui's class?

Zhou Peiyu: Keep your brain focused and stop letting your thoughts wander.

Zhou Peiyu: I just want to know if you will be jealous because Chu Yigui confessed to you.

Wan Qiu's fingers paused in mid-air.

Is he jealous of Chu Yigui?

But Wan Qiu couldn't think of any possibility that Chu Yigui would accept someone else's confession.

The certainty in his heart made it impossible for him to find such a possibility even by his imagination.

Finally, after everyone finished speaking, the microphone for this game was handed to Chu Yigui.

At this moment, the graduates who were originally noisy held their breath.

Wan Qiu looked down and saw Zhou Peiyu's message: Who did Chu Yigui say he liked in the class? Didn't he say he had to choose from the girls in the class?

At this moment, Wan Qiu's head turned pale for an instant for some reason.

Wan Qiu raised his head and looked at Chu Yigui's profile.

Chu Yigui didn't look at him. When those beautiful, slender fingers held the black microphone, the clear black and white seemed to separate the two emotions of reason and passion.

"I like Wanqiu." Chu Yigui said.

"No, no, you have to pick one from the girls in the class, no need to play around!"

"That's right, let's see which girl the class monitor likes! Even a little affection is fine!"

Everyone was looking forward to it and urging us to do it.

Wan Qiu somehow sent a message to Zhou Peiyu.

Wan Qiu: I’m a little scared.

Zhou Peiyu: What are you afraid of?

Wan Qiu: I don’t know.

Zhou Peiyu: Are you still afraid that Chu Yigui will say that he likes someone else?

At the moment this sentence came out, Chu Yigui's voice came from Wan Qiu's side: "I only like Wan Qiu, please don't embarrass me."

Wan Qiu's mood suddenly paused. He raised his eyes and looked at Chu Yigui.

Chu Yigui was very calm. He didn't seem to think that breaking the rules would bring any consequences.

Everyone seemed a little disappointed.

"You're too cunning, squad leader, using others as a shield!" someone said.

"That's right, squad leader. Then tell me who you like besides Wan Qiu?"

"Except Wan Qiu, I don't have any good feelings towards anyone else." Chu Yigui's voice was clearly transmitted from the microphone to the loudspeaker and spread.

No matter how everyone tried to provoke Chu Yigui, Chu Yigui remained unmoved.

There is only one person he likes.

He only likes Wan Qiu.

When everyone thought Chu Yigui was avoiding the game, only Wan Qiu could hear the seriousness in Chu Yigui's words.

Every word he said, every character he expressed, and every expression of "I like you" were more serious than the confessions of all the classmates present.

Among those eyes filled with a hint of longing, among those students who hoped to confess their love before graduating from high school and going their separate ways, the most authentic voice Wan Qiu heard was Chu Yigui's.

Wan Qiu sent a message to Zhou Peiyu: Chu Yigui said that he only likes me and won’t tell anyone else.

Zhou Peiyu: To be able to reach this point, I can say that he is very tenacious.

Zhou Peiyu: Even if you start a relationship in the future, I think it’s normal.

Wan Qiu: But Chu Yigui doesn’t want to date me.

Zhou Peiyu: ???

Zhou Peiyu: What did you say? Have you discussed this matter?

Wan Qiu: Yeah.

Zhou Peiyu: What's going on? How did you discuss it? You didn't explain it to me clearly?

Wan Qiu: I asked Yigui if he liked me, and he said yes.

Zhou Peiyu: Hasn't he always said that? How does it have to do with love?

Wan Qiu: I asked Yigui if it was love, and he said yes.

For a long time, Zhou Peiyu did not reply to him.

Wan Qiu watched as the phone screen went dark.

Wan Qiu raised his eyes and saw that everyone had returned to playing other things.

Sure enough, someone tried to ask Chu Yigui to go out alone, but Chu Yigui refused.

Chu Yigui said that he wanted to stay with Wan Qiu.

Some brave girls tried to grab Chu Yigui's hand and be more forceful, but were stopped by Chu Yigui.

In this indulgent banquet, Chu Yigui was so calm that he seemed completely unable to be aroused by the atmosphere.

He was like this in his previous school.

Only when everyone is about to get excited, this calmness fully demonstrates Chu Yigui's difference.

This one is different.

It was gradually discovered by classmates.

This is called indifference, also called alienation.

Before leaving, Wan Qiu saw Zhou Peiyu's message: Does that mean he likes you but doesn't want to date you?

Zhou Peiyu: Wan Qiu, do you dislike Chu Yigui? Chu Yigui feels that he is in unrequited love so he doesn't want to fall in love?

Zhou Peiyu: Don’t you usually listen to Chu Yigui? Doesn’t Chu Yigui feel insecure? Is your love for Chu Yigui a romantic love?

Wan Qiu read these messages several times.

Isn’t his love for Chu Yigui romantic?

Could this be the reason?

Wan Qiu remembered that Chu Yigui once said that as long as you look at it, you will know that it is love.

They left the noisy place and walked in the lighted night. Before Chu Yigui contacted a vehicle to look for him, Wan Qiu took the initiative to ask to take a walk together.

On a quiet night, Wan Qiu tried hard to see Chu Yigui.

Wan Qiu knew that he liked Chu Yigui.

But is it love?

Wan Qiu stopped and looked up.

Chu Yigui also stopped and turned his head to look at Wan Qiu.

The stars in the city are not as bright as those in the villa, and seem to be hidden behind a black curtain.

Wan Qiu felt that Chu Yigui was just like these stars, bright and dazzling, but always blocked.

"Yigui." Wan Qiu grabbed Chu Yigui's clothes, "Can we kiss?"

How can I tell whether I like Chu Yigui?

Are you jealous?

Wan Qiu felt that he couldn't be jealous. He couldn't imagine Chu Yigui doing something that would make him jealous.

Chu Yigui gave him such a great sense of security, so much so that Wan Qiu could not imagine how Chu Yigui would ever leave him.

"Let's kiss. I want to know if I like you." Wan Qiu said.

If it is really as Zhou Peiyu said, Chu Yigui doesn't want to fall in love because he doesn't like her.

Then could he fall in love with Chu Yigui? The kind of love.

Wan Qiu couldn't describe Chu Yigui's expression at the moment.

Just like the pitch-black night, his vision was unable to see anything in the darkness.

Wan Qiu was led forward by Chu Yigui's hand.

They headed for a more secluded location.

Wan Qiu didn't know where or which corner of the unfamiliar park this quiet, remote, unlit path they had come to was.

At this moment, it was so quiet that even the sound of mosquitoes could not be heard.

The black shadow in front of Wan Qiu was only vaguely outlined by the black sky.

The fingers touched Wan Qiu's forehead, touched Wan Qiu's cheek, and finally stopped on Wan Qiu's lips.

When darkness enveloped Wanqiu and softness replaced the fingers that fell, all consciousness was taken away.

Wan Qiu seemed to hear the flow of blood and the sound of the wind, but more importantly, the warmth and touch brought by life.

What does a kiss feel like?

This was Wan Qiu's first kiss.

What it brings to Wanqiu is a sense of security.

After parting on a hot summer day, the evening breeze brought a cool feeling to the lips.

Wan Qiu looked at Chu Yigui. Under the dim light, Chu Yigui's eyes were always on Wan Qiu.

But Wan Qiu still couldn't tell Chu Yigui's feelings.

It was as if it was deliberately targeting him and was hidden.

Is it too dark? Wan Qiu thought.

He stretched out his hand and traced Chu Yigui's face, trying to find Chu Yigui's emotions with his fingertips, but it was meaningless.

Until the end, Wan Qiu was unable to say anything.

It was as if I had been deprived of sound in the dead of night.

——

For a long time, Wan Qiu couldn't tell what the kiss could prove.

Chu Yigui accepted his proposal as always and just gave him a kiss.

There is no other meaning besides this.

But this sudden request made by Wan Qiu made Wan Qiu unable to calm down.

Wan Qiu has received kisses from Chu Yigui many times.

They would occasionally kiss each other on the forehead. Wan Qiu had been kissed on the hair, occasionally on the temples, and even on the fingers when they were playing.

Kissing was not uncommon between them.

Such occasional intimacy would also make Wanqiu happy.

So Wan Qiu thought that kissing the lips didn't seem to bring any other feelings.

This was indeed the case. Wan Qiu did not feel disgusted at the time, nor did he feel anything different from usual.

It seems that such closeness is normal.

Unlike all the works I have seen, there is no detailed description in words; unlike the movies I have seen, there is no lyrical background music.

The kiss didn't seem to be anything spectacular.

Even the heartbeat was steady.

only……

Occasionally recalling that night whose memory was not very clear, Wan Qiu gradually began to have some different thoughts.

On many quiet nights, I recalled the time when I was in the silent and deserted park.

In the darkness where there is no light.

The scent of green grass in the air, the familiar scent of Chu Yigui, a temperature hotter than a scorching summer night, and the coolness left on the lips by the wind after he left.

Everything seemed to be clearly engraved in Wan Qiu's mind.

As such memories became more and more numerous, Wan Qiu also realized how different things were from the past.

Is this a romantic relationship?

Wan Qiu couldn't tell the difference at all.

Wan Qiu was also a little concerned about what it felt like to recall the past.

Unlike me, when he clearly knows that his love is romantic love, how does he feel about this kiss?

Wan Qiu missed the opportunity to ask.

Thinking back to that day, Wan Qiu realized belatedly that he was not as calm as he had imagined.

Otherwise he wouldn't have remained silent after the kiss.

Chu Yigui held his hand and led him back to the brightly lit road.

Leaving all the darkness and secrets behind.

He could see Chu Yigui's calm gaze as he looked ahead.

And Chu Yigui didn't speak to him again that day.

Since that day, Wan Qiu never mentioned this matter to Chu Yigui again.

It’s like I’ve done something willful and feel guilty afterwards.

Chu Yigui was no different from usual, as if that brief verification didn't even exist in his life.

Zhou Peiyu later asked Wan Qiu many times about the relationship between Wan Qiu and Chu Yigui, but Wan Qiu didn't know why he didn't tell Zhou Peiyu.

It’s not that I don’t want to talk about it, nor that I don’t want to discuss it with someone.

But Wan Qiu himself even knew what adjectives and words he should use to express the complexity of his current mood.

One night, Wan Qiu suddenly couldn't sleep.

"What does Chu Yigui feel like?" Wan Qiu pondered this question over and over in his mind.

Why didn't Chu Yigui talk to him at that time?

What was Chu Yigui thinking when he heard him ask for a kiss?

Wan Qiu experienced the feeling of insomnia for the first time.

It turns out that when people are thinking about a lot of things, they really can't sleep.

Wan Qiu opened the window and went from the air-conditioned room to the stuffy outdoors, but he couldn't calm down.

Wan Qiu left the bedroom and wandered aimlessly in the huge villa.

I have lived here for a long time, but some places are still unfamiliar to me, as if I have never been here before.

But no matter how unfamiliar they were, Wan Qiu could still recall the memories of being with Chu Yigui.

Wan Qiu vaguely noticed that it seemed that Chu Yigui had more memories of being by his side than anyone else.

More than Wan Xiaohua, more than Ning Qiaozhen, more than Yang Xiaoyu and Chu Jianshu.

Wan Qiu rode his tricycle in circles in the garden at night.

It is a hot and humid summer night, but it seems slightly cooler because of the breeze.

Wan Qiu stopped when he came to the orchard.

This orchard, which had once been recultivated, was a garden that belonged entirely to Wanqiu. Compared to the fragrance of flowers, Wanqiu seemed to prefer the smell of fruits that triggered his taste buds.

The fruit farmers who maintain the area said that the varieties transplanted here were carefully selected, so they all taste very good.

It's a sign that he's loved.

He has so much love. Is it because there are too many that he can't tell them apart?

Wan Qiu sat on a chair on the path in the orchard.

There were no lights here, but the lights from the distant road shone dimly, just like that night.

But the stars here are very bright and clearly hanging in the sky, very beautiful.

Wan Qiu's fingers gently touched his lips.

I pressed it unconsciously.

The fruity scent that has been lingering in my nose seems to be replaced by another scent.

All thoughts were taken away by this breath of non-existence.

It seemed that a voice suddenly came into Wan Qiu's mind.

It was a 'click' sound.

At this moment, Wan Qiu suddenly realized something.

Because of the inexplicable thoughts running through his mind, Wan Qiu paid little attention to his surroundings.

But now he is alone in a place with few people around, and it is pitch dark all around, a good place for haunting.

Wan Qiu, who had always been afraid of ghosts, realized belatedly that he should not be here so late at night.

Standing up, Wan Qiu wanted to go down to the bright light, but his legs were shaking because he was too scared.

Fear made Wan Qiu stammer and want to cry.

Until a familiar voice came from not far away: "Wan Qiu."

Wan Qiu suddenly looked in the direction where the sound came from.

It was a tall man standing under the light beyond the outskirts of the distant dark woods.

He is someone Wan Qiu is familiar with, and he is also the one who has always made Wan Qiu a little confused.

"Recalling home." Wan Qiu murmured.

"I'm over there." Chu Yigui seemed to be afraid of Wan Qiu's timidity so his words were not an affirmative statement but a request for advice.

"I'll come over to your place." Wan Qiu prefers being under bright lights rather than in the dark.

Because Chu Yigui was nearby, Wan Qiu picked up his shattered courage.

As Wan Qiu gradually approached the light, Chu Yigui's figure became clearer and clearer.

Looking at the person in the light from the shadows, Wan Qiu suddenly realized that Chu Yigui seemed to have really grown up.

More mature and handsome, the face that seemed a little immature in my memory has also exuded a mature and handsome charm.

The light shone from top to bottom, making Chu Yigui's hair bright, as if it had been coated with a layer of yellow.

"Can't sleep?" Chu Yigui asked.

Wan Qiu nodded.

"Come."

Chu Yigui stretched out his hand towards Wan Qiu.

Wan Qiu grabbed Chu Yigui's hand, but was pulled towards him by Chu Yigui's strength.

"Have you been bitten by mosquitoes?" Chu Yigui checked Wan Qiu's exposed skin, looking for any bites.

"No, Butler Bai said that we'll be spraying insecticide every week recently." Wan Qiu said.

"Did you pick the fruit and eat it?"

"No, if you want to eat it, you must wash it. We can pick it in the greenhouse. There is running water in the greenhouse." Wan Qiu said. He thought Chu Yigui wanted to eat the fruit. "Do you want to eat it?"

"Why can't you sleep?" Chu Yigui did not respond to Wan Qiu's words.

"Because I was thinking about something." Wan Qiu said.

Chu Yigui asked, "What's the matter?"

"I was thinking about the kiss I proposed last time. How did you feel about it? Did you like it?"

Wan Qiu never thought about hiding his thoughts. He always expressed his doubts so easily.

And Chu Yigui always gives him the truthful answer.

"like."

Wan Qiu could see Chu Yigui's expression clearly under the light. As always, Chu Yigui had never lied to him.

He always has a serious expression on his face.

Wan Qiu didn't understand why he didn't see Chu Yigui's happiness even though he said he liked her.

Are you unhappy now, or were you unhappy the last time you kissed?

Was it because it was too dark that day that he didn't know Chu Yigui's expression?

If it were now.

Can he see clearly in the bright light?

"Do you want to kiss me again?" Wan Qiu asked.

Chu Yigui did not answer.

Wan Qiu realized that this did not seem to be an order, but a question.

Different from last time.

Wan Qiu thought about the question he asked last time and said, "Shall we kiss?"

Wan Qiu's request was fulfilled again.

Chu Yigui did not hesitate at all after receiving Wan Qiu's proposal.

Chu Yigui's hands did not touch Wan Qiu like last time.

He just bent down slightly to match Wan Qiu's height.

The breaths gradually get closer, intertwine, and blend.

They kissed quietly.

There was no hugging, just the distance between the two of them, cuddling each other with kisses.

Wan Qiu tried hard to open his eyes, not to experience the kiss, but to pay attention to Chu Yigui's expression.

But Wan Qiu felt that he probably shouldn't do this.

He couldn't tell Chu Yigui's emotions at all.

But what he saw was more complicated, incomprehensible, and even made him feel inexplicably blocked in his heart.

It was like a flower that had bloomed to its fullest, about to fall into dust, rotting in the ground, mixing with the soil and emitting its final fragrance.

Wan Qiu suddenly felt that perhaps the kiss had a more complicated meaning to Chu Yigui that he could not understand.

Chu Yigui seemed to be trapped in this complicated quagmire, struggling and unable to extricate himself.

At this moment, Wan Qiu knew that he actually wanted to see Chu Yigui's response to the kiss.

But at the same time, Wan Qiu felt that he didn't want to see such a response at the moment.

Wan Qiu took a step back and broke away from the kiss.

It's obviously lingering.

But Wan Qiu couldn't be intoxicated.

"Do you like it this time too?" Wan Qiu asked carefully.

"Yes." Chu Yigui responded to him.

"Then why are you unhappy?" Wan Qiu didn't understand.

Doesn’t something you like make you happy?

Chu Yigui lowered his eyes and looked at Wan Qiu.

Perhaps it was because his dense eyelashes covered his eyes, so that more subtle emotions were hidden in the shadows of his eyes.

"Do you really like me?" Wan Qiu continued to ask when he couldn't get an answer from Chu Yigui.

"like."

"What kind of love is it?" Wan Qiu asked. Is it the love of a lover?

"It's the love of my relatives."

Wan Qiu's eyes slowly widened, but this was not the end.

"It's my friend's favorite."

"It's the favor of my benefactor."

"It's a guilty pleasure."

"It's a pillar..."

"It's a sustenance..."

"yes……"

"It's the love of love."

Wan Qiu stood there, his mind filled with confusion.

Chu Yigui said a lot, and he didn’t seem to think about it too much. He just said whatever he thought of.

It was as if Chu Yigui had given all the love he could think of to Wan Qiu.

Wan Qiu seemed to be holding a pile of fragrant fruits, mixed with fresh air, which constantly confused Wan Qiu's judgment.

There are so many that Wanqiu can hardly take them all.

"It's not just kissing. You like everything I do, right?" Wan Qiu suddenly felt that he seemed to have become smarter.

"yes."

"Then why are you unhappy?"

This is the question that Wan Qiu is most curious about.

Liking something should make you happy.

If Chu Yigui is unhappy, Wan Qiu will not be happy either.

In the silence, the leaping joy gradually settled under my feet.

Wan Qiu finally got Chu Yigui's answer.

"I have nothing more to give you."

Chu Yigui gave everything to Wan Qiu.

While he was receiving a steady supply of nutrients from Wanqiu, he was no longer able to give anything in return.

He and Wan Qiu cannot be equal.

Unable to respond, and lost the courage to accept.