Chapter 25

Mr. Shi asked me to speak frankly, so I didn't bother to be polite with him.

Because I was angry, I pressed the phone keyboard frantically:

"First of all, never having been in a relationship doesn't mean you don't understand. Haven't you seen pigs run before? From your words, you may not mean that, but have you noticed that you've said it many times: 'You're still young, you've never been in a relationship, you don't understand my pain.'"

"Honestly, I really don't understand. I feel like you've trapped yourself in the pain of a past relationship, yet you've decided to find a new girlfriend. At the same time, you're using that pain, either explicitly or implicitly, to tell the female friends you're looking for a relationship with. Are you trying to show that you can't forget the one from the past? Or are you hoping the one in front of you will have some pity on you?"

"Of course, maybe you don't have either of those, but others might think you're either stuck with your ex or acting like a bitch (maybe your past looks gave you that confidence?)"

"Secondly, when you said earlier, 'I can especially relate to the uncontrollable emotions you feel when you're in love with someone,' were you referring to the time before we added each other on WeChat, when I just looked at your profile picture and liked you, and then I frequently asked about your stories, which inspired you to express your feelings?"

"So based on this sentence, I really want to ask you a question: Since you understand my feelings, because you have experienced it, then why don't you respond? I remember I said on Qingteng before: If you feel it is not appropriate, but you will not refuse, just send a blessing and I will understand."

"Third, you said, 'If I weren't in school for the sake of studying, I'd be a sea king.' Actually, I really want to say that the word 'sea king' isn't a compliment. Can I change your sentence to: 'If I weren't in school for the sake of studying, I'd be a sea king?'"

"Fourth, you said, 'Men and women should be equal in relationships.' Based on the context of our conversation, do you know what kind of person in a novel would typically say that? A male protagonist implicitly rejecting a female supporting character who likes him but can't directly reject him."

"Finally, I don't deny that you used to be very good-looking, but like you said, you're old now and your looks are gone (I'm sorry, this is a bit hurtful, but I'm just relaying your words. If it hurts, please forgive me)."

"There are many good-looking people in this world, and I don't deny that I'm a bit obsessed with looks, but I'm also very clear-headed. I know very well that life is just about the daily necessities of life. Things like music, chess, calligraphy, painting, poetry, wine, and tea only exist in novels or on campus."

"And after seeing your unedited photos, I still wanted to add you on WeChat and chat, which was a well-considered decision. I'm not disgusted by you on the one hand, and I feel it's a good fit and we can continue to interact. You might think this acquaintance is purposeful. Isn't it true that everyone who goes to Qingteng goes with the hope of finding a suitable partner?"

"Like you said, you're not young anymore, and I'm 28 in lunar age, 26 in real age. I don't know why you think I'm still young, but maybe you haven't been out and about. Many people won't tell you their real age, only their lunar age. So for a 28-year-old girl, if she's not a DINK or a non-marriage advocate, then these two years are the deadline for her to find a partner (if she doesn't want to be a stepmother or find someone who's remarried, she might not want to, but in the eyes of outsiders, she'll be like that)."

"You said I felt a little impatient. The reason I replied to you was only a small part of the reason. Because I still wanted to continue to contact you, I was very tactful in telling you, but you probably didn't understand."

"To be honest, I do have some. Because I'm probably under more pressure than you. From your attitude, I can tell that your family isn't pushing you to get married, and you yourself don't have any intention of settling down."

"But I'm different. Like I said before, due to my age, a girl's youth is really limited. My family is urging me to find a partner, so I started going on blind dates this year. That's why I registered on Qingteng after a friend recommended it. That's why I met you. And that's why you think I'm being too proactive. My parents don't know I'm dating boys. In their eyes, I'm just passively rejecting the blind dates they arranged."

"I can say that I went on blind dates despite my parents' constant persuasion, and only met boys I thought were okay. But once I felt that this okay boy was not suitable, I would give up and accept other blind dates."

"I didn't know you were chatting with several girls at once, but I wasn't. I like to be single, just like there's never a third party in my novels. So during this time, I'll only chat with you. I hope to get to know you better and faster. If it's a good fit, I can tell my parents that they don't need to urge me to go on blind dates anymore because I already have a partner. If it's not, I'll just give up and find the next one as soon as possible, hoping to find someone before the New Year to avoid a sad New Year."

"Seeing this, you may feel psychologically uncomfortable and think that I may be too purposeful and cold, but this is the reality."

"China has a total population of 1.4 billion. Minus the elderly, children, same-sex couples, and married people, there are still hundreds of millions, if not billions, of single men of the same age. I consider it fate to be able to meet someone in such a vast sea of ​​people. If possible, I still hope to find someone I like. Of course, it's difficult, but whether it's fate or not, I cherish it. It has nothing to do with whether I've been in a relationship before."

"People who blindly dwell on the past and constantly feel sorry for themselves will only drain themselves. There's nothing in this world that can't be let go; it just depends on whether you want to let go. And you don't seem to particularly want to let go. Do you know what your thoughts, words, and actions are called in novels? 'Scumbag.' Maybe you don't mean it that way, but that's how you act."

"On the road to finding a partner, only active involvement can create a story, and only a two-way effort can lead to a result. I'm here with sincerity and a desire to find a partner. I don't want to play the game of scumbag men and scumbag women, nor do I want to play the game of three-year romance and five-year long-distance running. I hate acting, regardless of gender. I'm done. There are a lot of words, and I'm sorry to have kept you waiting. If it makes you feel uncomfortable, please bear with me. After all, you've experienced it, right?"