Chapter 410 Motherly Love (Part 1)

Tears kept welling up in her eyes. Xu Nian covered her eyes and picked up the bank card on the ground and ran upstairs under the strange gazes of everyone. She stopped at the eighth floor.

Her legs felt like they were injected with lead, making it difficult for her to move. She looked at the intensive care unit not far away. What should she do? How should she tell her mother that she had no money for treatment?

How would she raise the 600,000 yuan surgery fee? What would her mother do if she didn't have the surgery? She hadn't even taken her to enjoy a single day of happiness, to see the Pink Sea.

Xia Yanyue's phone call was like a slap in the face, much more painful than the two slaps from Shen Zhichu.

Evil deeds will be punished. She betrayed her friend and indirectly killed someone else's beloved thing. This day, retribution finally came to her.

Everything she did against her conscience turned out to be self-humiliating.

Not only did she not get the money to treat her mother, she also lost Shen Zhichu, who was the best to her.

When Dr. Zhang came out of the office, he saw Xu Nian standing in the corridor as if he had lost his soul.

"Has Miss Xu paid the surgery fee?"

Xu Nian bit her lower lip and shook her head: "Money... I'm out of money for the surgery... Doctor Zhang, can you give me a few days to get enough money for the surgery?"

"Didn't you say you had already collected the money for the surgery? Why is it gone?"

Doctor Zhang saw Xu Nian lowering her head and not saying a word, and guessed that something might have happened, but since she didn't say anything, she didn't ask too much. Xu Nian was a sensible and filial person, and the doctors and nurses saw her taking care of her mother day and night.

If it was a minor surgery costing 10,000 or 20,000 yuan, he could still help her, but this was a surgery costing 600,000 yuan, and there was no hope of saving her if he couldn't raise the money.

The biggest disease these days is poverty.

Doctor Zhang patted her shoulder and said, "A week at most."

Xu Nian didn't know how to face her mother. Not only did she have no money for the surgery, but the daughter she had always trusted also lied to her and did something unforgivable.

Doctor Zhang sighed inwardly, shook his head and left, leaving Xu Nian alone in the corridor. She leaned against the cold wall. The indoor temperature was obviously 27 degrees, but she felt very cold. Xu Nian hugged her arms tightly and cried silently for a long time. Her eyes were swollen like two walnuts and her legs were numb from squatting. She supported herself on the wall behind her and slowly stood up and went to the bathroom. She washed her face and looked at herself in the mirror.

Without glasses, everything was blurry, and now it was so blurry that she couldn't even see her own face.

No matter how much cold water was poured on her face, it couldn't hide her red eyes. It was obvious that she had been crying.

Xu Nian didn't want to make her mother worry, so she simply tidied herself up and returned to the ward.

Xu's mother was already on her second IV. There was a TV in the ward, but she didn't like watching it. She would only let her watch it when Xu Nian was around. When she had nothing else to do, she would sleep or stare blankly outside. Only when she was distracted could she briefly forget the pain. Even when she couldn't bear it any more, she had to grit her teeth and endure it because she still had a daughter, and she didn't want her to be worried and frightened by her illness.

The glass windows were closed tightly. Xu's mother was looking outside. When she heard the noise, she turned her head.

"Nian Nian autumn is coming."

Xu Nian paused and shifted his gaze to the window as he listened to the sound.

The osmanthus flowers outside are blooming, but the windows are closed tightly and I can't smell anything.

"Mom, we used to make osmanthus cake together. Do you want to eat it this year? I'll make it for you when you're done with the surgery and can eat, okay?"

"Of course it's okay, but you can't drink osmanthus wine anymore." In previous years, when the osmanthus flowers bloomed, Xu's mother would brew osmanthus wine and sell it, and the house would be filled with fragrance.

There was a decades-old osmanthus tree in the yard of her home. They used it to enjoy the cool air in the summer and to pick osmanthus flowers in the autumn. Xu Nian often climbed up the tree and shook it, while her mother would hold a winnowing basket and catch it from below, reminding her to be careful.

As if thinking of the past, Xu's mother couldn't help but chuckle: "When you were a child, you were like a monkey, you loved climbing trees everywhere and were not afraid of falling. I was always worried that you would fall down. When you were a child, I could catch you if you fell, but now that you have grown up, I can't catch you anymore."

Xu Nian tried hard to suppress her sadness, her heart ached. She pursed her lips and tightened her hands on her legs, her shoulders trembling from the pressure.

"Nian Nian?"

She murmured "Hmm." and didn't dare to look up to let her mother see her crying.

"You're crying." Xu's mother's voice was very gentle. "Why are you crying?"

"I was just too scared. I was afraid something would happen to you and I would never be able to taste the sweet-scented osmanthus cake you made again."

"Silly child, all osmanthus cakes taste the same. Besides, your mother taught you how to make them. I can't always be with you. One day you have to learn to make osmanthus cakes by yourself."

"Mom, the surgery has been postponed to a week later."

"Dr. Zhang said that?"

"Um."

Xu Nian didn't know that she had a habit when she lied, which was to lower her head and not dare to look at people, with a dazed look in her eyes and a low voice.

Mother Xu's eyes wandered for a moment, and she didn't ask Xu Nian any more questions: "Well, it's okay. The surgery can be delayed to give me some buffer time. In fact, I don't feel that my illness is that serious. There is no need for surgery to replace the kidney. It's too expensive, and it will take a long time to save up to pay it back."

"Mom, don't worry about the money. I'll find a way."

Xu Nian had to raise money again and it was impossible for her to stay with her mother all the time. She hired a caregiver and lied to her mother that she was going to work.

After leaving the hospital, Xu Nian called all the contacts in her phone, including classmates, friends, colleagues, relatives, neighbors... and borrowed money from them one by one.

She looked at Shen Zhichu's name on the list and slid her finger across to the next one.

When she chose to "betray" Shen Zhichu, she never thought that she could be forgiven. It was right for others to resent her for doing something wrong.

Xu Nian, who just turned 20, entered the darkest period of her life because of a wrong decision. Many people hung up the phone when they heard that she was calling to borrow money.

Xu Nian followed the address and went to borrow money humbly with Xu's mother's medical certificate in his hand, almost kneeling down. He looked through more than 100 contacts, from top to bottom, and ran from the north to the south of the city to beg from house to house.

It is easy to add icing on the cake but difficult to provide timely assistance. It is not easy to borrow 600,000 yuan for surgery. She is not even qualified to borrow from the bank.

She lost a lot of weight in just two days. Xu Nian thought of selling her kidney on the black market to make money. She was not smart enough and didn't know where to find the way. The ggs on the Internet were most likely fake and were designed to deceive people. If she went there, she would probably lose her life.

So she went to Dr. Zhang and asked tentatively, "Dr. Zhang, do you know a patient who needs a kidney transplant? I could be a match..."

Doctor Zhang was stunned and stood up to ask her, "Are you planning to sell your kidney?"

"Doctor Zhang, I know you're in a difficult situation, but I have no money. I want to save my mother, and I can't raise that much for surgery." She looked for everyone she knew, but the money she could raise was only 50,000, which was far from 600,000.

"Please help me, please help me." Xu Nian choked and cried out of breath. The legs that had run all over Chengdu finally couldn't support her anymore, and she knelt on the ground with a bent knee.

She doesn't want anything, no ambition, no humanity, no self-respect and no kindness, she just wants her mother.

"Nian Nian."

Xu Nian's kneeling figure froze, her heart felt like a stretched string connected to her brain, causing a dull pain. She turned around stiffly and slowly, and time seemed to have been secretly slowed down, passing so slowly.

She looked at her mother standing at the door, smiling at her.

"Niannian, let's go home. Mom won't treat her illness anymore."

Xu's mother has changed into her own clothes. Last night, she received a call from a neighbor saying that Xu Nian was going door to door begging for money for her medical treatment.

When she heard this, she resisted the urge to call Xu Nian. Instead, she quietly packed her clothes and asked the nurse to help her with the discharge procedures. She no longer needed to prescribe any medicine.

The doctors and nurses all advised her to stay in the hospital and not leave.

Xu's mother just smiled and said calmly, "I can't let my daughter lose her future because of her illness."

The surgery fee of 600,000 or 700,000 yuan would almost crush the future of ordinary people like them. She didn't want her daughter to lose her ambition and be in debt in the future.

Mother Xu walked slowly, but every step was steady. She walked up to Xu Nian, touched her head first, then endured the pain, bent down, took Xu Nian's hand and pulled her up.

"Let's go home and make osmanthus cake."

Xu Nian followed behind her mother, looking at her mother's back. Her hands were not as warm as before, but they were still so strong when holding hers, always giving her support when she was most helpless.

Her mother’s hands once held her to sleep, helped her learn to walk, carried her on her back when she was sick, and wiped her tears when she was sad...

Xu Nian couldn't help but hold Xu's mother's hand tightly. When she reached the hospital gate, she suddenly came to her senses and held her hand tightly to stop moving.

"Mom, you can't be discharged from the hospital. You need treatment."

Mother Xu turned around and looked at Xu Nian. In her mother's eyes, her child would never grow up, and was still a child like she was back then. She reached out and hugged Xu Nian, "Niannian, I know my body well. It doesn't matter whether I get treatment or not. Do you remember what I told you a few days ago? A person may be poor, but their spirit is not. I don't know how you managed to get the money for the surgery, and I don't know why the money is gone. Everyone has their own destiny. If that money was obtained through improper means, then I would rather not treat this disease."

Tears suddenly welled up in her eyes, which had been so dry that no more tears could flow out. She closed her eyes, leaned against her mother's frail arms, and cried silently.

The hospital is a place where life and death cycle, and many people come here to see a doctor. Sadness and joy have become the norm. When passersby hear crying, they take a look and look away.

Crying is useless, but it is the easiest way to vent.

Xu's mother felt heartbroken and rubbed Xu Nian's hair: "Life is only a few decades long. I don't want you to do something irreparable and feel guilty for the rest of your life."

She saw Xu Nian's pain and blamed herself for being slow to notice that something was wrong with Xu Nian. "In my eyes, you are better than anyone else. Nian Nian will always be my favorite Nian Nian."

"Mom, but I want to save you. I don't want anything to happen to you. I haven't brought you happiness yet."

"I'm still alive, right? As long as we're alive, there's hope. After today, tomorrow will be a new day. As long as you're by my side, I'll always look forward to tomorrow's sun. Let's go home and make osmanthus cake."

…….

Because of chemotherapy, Xu's mother shaved her head, which made her very conspicuous in the crowd. Xu's mother had lived a hard life for decades, but what woman doesn't love beauty? She touched her head and when she passed by a store, she saw a very beautiful hat inside. She didn't know the brand, but she knew it was very expensive by looking at the decoration inside.

"Mom." Xu Nian saw Xu's mother staring inside, "Mom, do you want that hat?"

"What nonsense are you talking about? It's so fancy, it won't look good on Mom. I'd better go back and wear the hat you knitted for me."

The mother and daughter took a car back to the countryside. Xu's mother asked Xu Nian to return the borrowed money and took her to thank those who helped her.

Xu's mother needs to take medicine for this disease. The hospital has prescribed a lot of medicines, which are colorful and scary to look at.

Xu's mother looked at the osmanthus tree in the yard that was full of flowers, and asked Xu Nian to shake the osmanthus flowers and make osmanthus cakes and brew osmanthus wine with them as in previous years.

Xu's mother was busy in the kitchen, and Xu Nian was helping her.

"Do you know how to make osmanthus cake? If not, mom will teach you again."

“I feel like I’ll never learn.”

"How can you be so stupid?"

Xu Nian looked at her mother's soft profile illuminated by the light and shadow: "Mom, if you hadn't given birth to me, you would be very happy now." She was a pressure to her mother. If it weren't for her, perhaps her mother would have started a new family and had money to see a doctor.

Mother Xu paused, then looked up at her seriously: "The greatest happiness in my life is giving birth to you. Don't underestimate yourself. In my eyes, nothing is more important than you."