Shen Zhichu loved him wholeheartedly for sixteen years, yet she was asked to leave empty-handed, just to make room for the "white moonlight" in his heart.
Li Jingshen thought he would...
Chapter 554: Li Jingshen is dying. Aren’t you afraid that there won’t be anyone to visit his grave during the New Year?
Li Jingshen was a man who did not believe in fate. After Shen Zhichu died, he went to a temple in Rongcheng, put in some money for incense and candles, and then went in and found a place to kneel in front of the Buddha statue. He himself didn't know why he came here.
It seemed like he was seeking comfort, or it seemed like he was just looking for a place to kneel down and torture himself.
The old monk in the temple saw him kneeling there motionless and came over to remind him that kneeling for too long would hurt his knees.
Seeing that Li Jingshen had not responded, the old monk said again: "Donor, how about I tell you a fortune?"
Li Jingshen raised his eyes to look at him and finally nodded.
After telling the name and birth date, the old monk asked, "What does it mean?"
Li Jingshen thought for a while, but couldn't figure out what he wanted to calculate or what he wanted to ask for. After Shen Zhichu's death, he seemed to have no desires or requests, and nothing seemed to have any meaning.
The old monk looked at him silently and asked him to stretch out his left hand for palm reading.
Looking at the scar on his palm, the old monk frowned, moved his lips and muttered something, and soon got a result based on the eight characters.
The old monk wrote "nothing"
He has good fortune, but is unable to enjoy it, and has no parents, no wife, and no children.
This was the first time the old monk had seen such misfortune. He shook his head and sighed several times as he looked at Li Jingshen.
He lost his parents in childhood, his son and wife in his youth, and his fate was to be lonely all his life, and there was a sign of a short life.
The only good thing about Li Jingshen's life is probably that he is not short of money.
In fact, for many things, fate has already determined them. Li Jingshen didn't believe in fate before, but after hearing what the old monk said, he had to believe it.
His life was truly ridiculous. It was like he had made a bet with the heavens. He only had one chip, Shen Zhichu, and he put all of it on the table. In the end, he lost everything and was defeated by fate.
Christmas Eve was the beginning of his relationship with Shen Zhichu. Some things... were just obsessions.
Li Jingshen had thought of everything. He wanted to spend his last Christmas Eve with Shen Zhichu, and he would end it where he started.
But unexpectedly, Li Jingshen's condition worsened and he collapsed.
In the final analysis, it was the pork kidneys fried with chili peppers by Shen Zhichu. Li Jingshen ate the entire dish without even leaving any chili peppers.
Others have their wishes fulfilled, but he is asking for trouble.
Instead of going to the hospital, he made a phone call. Li Jingshen had a dedicated medical team responsible for his physical condition.
When they heard he was in trouble, they drove over quickly and pushed the medical equipment in. They didn't say a word, but from their busy footsteps and the sound of the wheels, you could tell how worried they were.
This was not the first time that Shen Zhichu saw Li Jingshen fall to the ground, but it was the first time he felt a little frightened.
Only at this moment did she truly feel that Li Jingshen was a terminally ill person and he was really seriously ill.
Li Jingshen had a bad lung and his throat was damaged by eating too much chili pepper. He also stayed up late for the past few days. The winter in Chengdu was very cold and there was not even a ray of sunshine. He became seriously ill because of this.
He had a cold and a fever, and breathing became more and more difficult every day, but he didn't want to collapse yet. He hadn't finished what he wanted to do.
His lungs felt like they were being pricked by needles. He coughed twice and vomited a large mouthful of blood. The bright red blood flowed down his white face, a glaring red.
Li Jingshen was unwilling to undergo surgery, so he could not be taken to the hospital and could only be given first aid on the spot.
Shen Zhichu did not follow them in, but stood outside watching the busy figures of a household.
Some medical staff came over to inquire about the situation and asked who Shen Zhichu was to him.
Shen Zhichu paused. Who was it? His ex-wife, an enemy, or someone completely unrelated?
Seeing her silent, the doctor couldn't help but think of other things, such as the lover kept by a rich man. He had a normal expression, as if he was used to this kind of situation.
"How is he?" Shen Zhichu asked, his tone flat and even, without any ups and downs, and without any worry, as if he was asking an insignificant stranger.
"With cancer, mood has a huge impact on a person's condition. Maintaining an optimistic attitude is crucial. Eating habits also play a role. Mr. Li, you must have been eating something you shouldn't have been eating these past few days. Coupled with the cold weather and your lack of rest, your condition has worsened."
"Does he really have cancer?"
This time it was the doctor's turn to be surprised: "Don't you know?"
"I know. I want to ask how long he can live?"
Shen Zhichu found out that Li Jingshen had cancer the night before he and Bai Qiujing went to the amusement park. An anonymous phone call sent him the examination report that Li Jingshen had cancer. Because he was dying, he was unscrupulous in dragging the Bai family into bankruptcy. He could do it without any scruples, even killing people. Then the next day, Bai Qiujing almost had an accident on the bungee jumping machine in the amusement park.
Afterwards, Li Jingshen sent her a text message via email, asking her to go to Bancheng C to find him, otherwise Bai Qiujing would be in more than just an accident.
Shen Zhichu was scared. She had never expected that Li Jingshen had cancer and was dying.
One should not mess with a madman, let alone a dying madman.
People like Li Jingshen are very likely to develop a newspaper mentality.
"This..." The doctor hesitated. This was the patient's private matter. If the woman in front of him had nothing to do with Li Jingshen, then he couldn't say it.
What's more, they really couldn't accurately judge how long Li Jingshen had left. If he rested well, he might live longer, but if he continued like the past few days, he might be gone tomorrow.
Li Jingshen lived a relatively long life. When he was diagnosed with lung cancer, he was in the mid-to-late stage. With proper treatment, he could survive for five years. If he gave up, he could survive for at most two years.
This is Li Jingshen's third year.
Shen Zhichu kept staring at the doctor, and seeing that he remained silent, he probably understood.
If it could be cured, or if it took a long time, the doctor would have told you long ago, and if you have this kind of hesitation, you can only speak up.
Shen Zhichu was very familiar with this situation, thinking back to when she was diagnosed with stomach cancer.
The doctor was the same, with regret in his eyes and helplessness in his tone.
"I need to know more about Mr. Li's recent condition. Can you tell me about it?" Even if the case was serious, it would not have become so serious in such a short time. He kept coughing up blood and his entire lung was swollen. Li Jingshen used to have muscles and a good figure, but now he is thin and only his bones are visible when he takes off his clothes.
Shen Zhichu nodded.
The doctor asked Li Jingshen about his recent diet, such as what he had eaten.
Shen Zhichu said: “I ate a plate of chili peppers.”
Finally, the cause was found. Although the doctor had guessed this a long time ago, when he heard Shen Zhichu say it, he still couldn't believe it. He didn't believe that someone would really joke about his own life like this.
"How could he eat such spicy food? I remember he hasn't touched chili peppers in a long time. He has strict dietary requirements here. He has never coughed up so much blood before."
The doctor tried to keep his words calm, but one could still hear some complaints in his voice.
"Don't you know he has cancer? Why don't you stop him? This kind of disease doesn't last long, and Li Jingshen looks like he can't stand any hardship now."
Shen Zhichu just wanted to ask how many days Li Jingshen had left to live, but the doctor not only didn't tell him, but also kept rambling on and on about so much nonsense.
Of course she knew about the dietary restrictions regarding cancer, and she also knew that she couldn't endure any hardship. She also knew that when an attack occurred, it would be excruciatingly painful. She had experienced it, so she knew what Li Jingshen was going through.
But what does it matter?
It's better than what Li Jingshen did to her, right?
So many things happened to her, but she didn't die. But Li Jingshen ate a plate of chili peppers by himself. Is he going to die?
Shen Zhichu lowered her eyes and said nothing, making it impossible to see the emotions on her face.
The doctor thought she was blaming herself and worried about Li Jingshen, but when he saw that she was a woman, he spoke to comfort her.
"Don't worry too much. Although it's impossible to treat advanced lung cancer based on current medical standards, medical technology is developing rapidly these days. There might be a sudden turn for the better..."
The person inside shouted.
"Doctor Zhang, please come in."
The door opened, and Li Jingshen still hadn't stopped coughing. Each cough was more heartbreaking than the last, causing pain in his eardrums.
Shen Zhichu kind of hated herself now, because she was becoming more and more like the person she hated the most.
Who knows that Li Jingshen has cancer and is dying?
Such a person makes enemies everywhere, even his own aunt's family is not spared. Has he ever thought that after he dies, there will be no one to sweep his grave during the New Year?