Shen Zhichu loved him wholeheartedly for sixteen years, yet she was asked to leave empty-handed, just to make room for the "white moonlight" in his heart.
Li Jingshen thought he would...
Chapter 592: Her sensibleness makes people feel distressed
However, before he could react, a figure walked downstairs and said softly, "Xiu Li, bring your friend in and have a seat. Don't stand outside."
Li Jingshen raised his head, his eyes narrowed slightly, and his hands hanging on the sides of his thighs clenched into fists. This was Shen Zhichu's mother.
He had seen her before, and had seen her photo on the tombstone in his previous life. Shen Zhichu looked very similar to her mother. The biggest difference was that Shen Zhichu's eyes had a stubborn and sharp look, revealing strength, while her mother was soft in nature, with watery eyes.
When Li Jingshen saw her, he had the illusion that he was in a dream. His body seemed to be acupunctured instantly, and he watched her walk down without moving.
Li Jingshen tried to numb himself with the pain. This might not be real, but his palms were scratched red and the scene in front of him did not change.
Shen Xiuli came over and pulled Li Jingshen: "Let's go..."
Li Jingshen subconsciously shook off his hand, then opened his mouth and uttered with difficulty: "Do you have a sister?"
At this time, Li Jingshen still had a lucky mentality. Perhaps his reappearance brought about a butterfly effect. Shen Zhichu, like him, had a complete family. Her mother did not die in childbirth. She had a family that loved her. She was like an ordinary child, like him, with the company and love of her parents.
He was waiting for a definite answer.
"What's wrong with you? I'm the only son of my parents, so where did my sister come from?"
Li Jingshen stumbled back two steps, his eyes suddenly red. How could this happen... Shen Xiuli doesn't have a sister? What about Shen Zhichu?
Where is Shen Zhichu? Where is Shen Zhichu?
Li Jingshen's mind was filled with the three words "Chen Zhichu". He suddenly raised his hand and slapped himself hard.
"Pa——" He must be dreaming, wake up, wake up quickly...
He raised his hand and a hand grabbed him. Li Jingshen raised his eyes and looked into Shangchen's mother's worried eyes.
Shen Xiuli, who was standing by, was stunned by Li Jingshen's crazy behavior and stood there not knowing what to do.
"Doesn't it hurt to hit yourself?"
Li Jingshen grabbed her hand tightly, as if he was grabbing a life-saving straw. The corners of his mouth twitched nervously twice, and he asked in a hoarse and choked voice: "Do you have a daughter? Do you?" Answer me, he wanted to beg the woman in front of him, as long as she told him that she had a daughter named Shen Zhichu, he would be willing to do anything.
Although Shen Xiuli was afraid, when he saw Li Jingshen being mean to his mother, he rushed over and pushed him away, then stood beside his mother: "Don't yell at my mother, you are not welcome here, go away!"
After listening to Li Jingshen's repeated questioning, Mother Shen's mind went blank for a moment. She lowered her eyes and looked at the child in front of her who looked like a trapped animal struggling in the quagmire, and her heart twisted.
She had indeed been pregnant and was supposed to have a daughter. Everyone in her family knew about it, but it had never been spread. Why did the boy in front of her know this?
Li Jingshen's eyes were bloodshot, filled with fear and panic, as he stared at her.
“Xiu Li, I’m fine.” Mother Shen placed her hand on her son’s head and touched it gently.
Shen Changnan also came down when he heard the noise and walked to his wife anxiously: "What's wrong? What happened?"
"I'm fine." Mother Shen comforted her son while also comforting her husband and telling them not to be nervous.
Li Jingshen felt more and more irritated when he saw this harmonious family of three.
Shen's mother said: "I'll go upstairs to talk to him, you wait for me downstairs."
Shen Changnan always listened to his wife. She didn't dare to stand when asked to sit, and didn't dare to go east when asked to go west. After watching his wife take the child upstairs, he asked Shen Xiuli what happened.
Shen Xiuli told everything that had just happened.
"How did he know your mother was pregnant before? Did you tell anyone?" Shen Changnan asked, pulling his ear.
Shen Xiuli couldn't dodge, holding his head and yelling: "I didn't..."
"Then why is he here today? It's you who brought him here, you little brat. Don't bring back such messy people next time. If you dare to open your mother's wound and provoke her again, I will break your legs." Shen Changnan let go of his hand, but seeing Shen Xiuli's cowardly look, he couldn't help but raise his hand again. Shen Xiuli was so scared that he quickly ran away. He hated Li Jingshen in his heart. It was because of him that he was beaten by his father.
On the other side, Mother Shen took Li Jingshen up to the second floor: "What's your name?"
"Li Jingshen." Li Jingshen looked around. Whether it was the decoration or the structure of the house, everything here was exactly the same as in his previous life. Even Shen Zhichu's previous room was there, but why was Shen Zhichu the only one gone?
Who can tell him? Li Jingshen wanted to find an answer, but was also afraid of getting one.
Mother Shen lowered her head and looked at the child in front of her. He seemed to be enduring something, with his head lowered and his whole body trembling.
Mother Shen took him into a room: "This was originally the room I prepared for my daughter..." She paused, as if she thought of something and felt sour in her heart. The sourness suddenly filled her nose, and even her eye sockets were sore and red.
She took a breath, walked in, sat beside the bed, looked at Li Jingshen seriously and said, "I was pregnant before. When I was three months pregnant, I went to the hospital for a check-up. The results showed that it was a girl. I even thought of a name, Shen Zhichu, Chuchu..."
Li Jingshen's ears buzzed. He listened to his own voice and asked, "Then why is she not here? Have you given up on her?"
Mother Shen shook her head. The layout and decoration of this place were all designed by her. After knowing that she was going to have a daughter, she wanted to buy all the things her daughter needed in one go. She even learned to knit a sweater. The little girl looked so beautiful in red. Unfortunately, before she finished knitting the red sweater, the little life disappeared from her belly.
Mother Shen said: "When I was pregnant with my second child, my health was not good. It was an unexpected pregnancy. The doctor and my husband asked me to abort the child, but I couldn't bear to do so. As soon as I saw the little life in my belly in the B-ultrasound, I couldn't bear to give up. I wanted to give birth to her..."
What a great obsession and stubbornness this was. Even if giving birth to this child would cost her own life, perhaps she never thought at that time that she would really sacrifice her life for her daughter.
Li Jingshen's eyes were already red: "Then why..."
Mother Shen stared into his eyes, her voice hoarse: “My husband and I have had several arguments over this child.”
When Shen Changnan heard that her pregnancy was in danger, he refused to let her keep it. To him, no one was more important than his wife. His wife was the one he had loved for most of his life and would accompany him until old age, while the child was just a "stranger" who came along halfway. Who would want their lover to die because of a "stranger"?
But Shen's mother didn't think so. The two of them had a disagreement and quarreled over the baby in her belly.
She seemed to recall a particularly unforgettable event, tears streaming down her face as she spoke in a hoarse voice, "One night I had a dream. I dreamed of my Chuchu. She said she didn't want to see me quarreling with her father. She also said that this human world was wonderful and she wanted me to experience it. She wanted me to live well, accompany her father, and take good care of her brother. She wouldn't come back to the human world..."
As soon as the words fell, Mother Shen had already burst into tears, she covered her face and choked with sobs.
Even after four years, she still remembered the appearance of the little girl in her dream, wearing a red dress, hugging her waist and calling her mother.
It was clearly a dream, but she felt as if it was real. She called her: "Zhichu."
The child in the dream responded obediently: "Mom, I am Shen Zhichu, your Chuchu. Mom, I love you, I love you very much. I can't be your daughter in this life."
Her sensibleness is so heartbreaking.
After having that dream, she had a miscarriage the next day. It was very strange. She knew that accidental miscarriage was very painful, but she didn't feel any pain at the time and her body didn't suffer much damage. After the child was gone, Shen Changnan had a vasectomy and never let her get pregnant again.
After learning about what had happened, Li Jingshen's entire body seemed to have lost consciousness, as if he was isolated from the world.
Everything in front of him seemed to have nothing to do with him. The window was open, a flock of birds flew by outside, a gust of wind blew by, the curtains rolled up slightly, and a ray of light hit Li Jingshen squarely. His face was covered with crystal tears. He couldn't control his tears and his heart was dead.