Chapter 723 Are you afraid that this life is the next life you wish for?

Have you ever heard this saying: Are you afraid that this life is the life you pray for next life?

How can people have an afterlife?

Lu Tingchuan never believed in past lives or present lives, but he often had the same dream over the years, and today's dream was clearer than the previous ones. He was like a soul floating in the air, watching everything happening in front of him. This was a dream, but he was very clear that everything he dreamed of was real and happened in his previous life.

In his previous life, Shen Qing died on his 20th birthday. He turned on the gas, took sleeping pills, and died quietly lying on the bed.

Although Shen Qing lived to the age of 22 in this life, living two years longer, these two years were more painful than in the previous life. To say that life was worse than death would be an understatement.

As for Lu Tingchuan, he also dreamed of himself dying in prison, shot to death while holding Shen Qing's handwritten diary. He was 34 years old that year.

He remembered how heart-wrenching his tears were at that time. Even having his legs sawed off did not make him cry as much. It was as if his heart was being squeezed out by pulling out his ribs.

At the moment of his death, he suddenly saw Shen Qing appear in front of him and stretched out his hand to him: "Mr. Lu, welcome home."

In her previous life, Shen Qing would come back once when he died, but not in this life, because she was hurt deeply by him in two lifetimes.

In this life, he was even more cruel to her than in his previous life. In his previous life, he just ignored her and she died under his indifferent observation.

And in this life, all the pain that Shen Qing suffered was inseparable from his hand. It was he who raised the knife and cut off the fate between him and Shen Qing bit by bit.

God saw that he had lost his beloved and gave him a chance. He had dreamed of Shen Qing's previous life many times. He clearly had the opportunity to stop all this.

He could have used a different method to get to know Shen Qing again in this life, not given her to Li Jingshen, and not done things that hurt her.

He could have knelt in front of Shen Qing and proposed to her with a ring on her eighteenth birthday.

After her 20th birthday, he took her to Malta to get married and declare his vows.

If he had known earlier about his past and present lives, and that he had loved Shen Qing so much in both of his lives, deeply in his soul and more than his freedom in life, perhaps they would have had a child long ago.

Instead of choosing to leave him early after giving birth to two children, as she did now.

Lu Tingchuan had no right to blame God for being unfair, because God had given him a chance, but he had not cherished it.

After he pushed Shen Qing to Li Jingshen as a substitute for Shen Zhichu, he sensed something. If he didn't find Shen Qing, he would lose her forever.

He did find her, but what did he do? He humiliated her severely in that rented house, and even worried that she would escape, he recorded the entire process of humiliating her on video.

He caused Shen Qing to suffer from depression a year earlier than expected. After she became pregnant, he didn't believe her and forced her to abort the baby and put it in a hospital specimen glass bottle. He pressed Shen Qing's head and forced her to look at the floating fetus.

What did Shen Qing say at that time?

She said...

Lu Tingchuan, you will regret this.

He regretted it many times, but he never repented.

Shen Qing was not born in the mud. She was the bright moon in the sky, the existence he looked up to. In a moment of greed, he dragged the moon into the mud.

But the moon is always the moon, she will always return to the sky, where there are stars to accompany her. The stars will never drag the moon into the mud underground, because she was born in the sky.

Lu Tingchuan woke up crying. In every life, he wanted to treat Shen Qing well, but in every life, he hurt her the most.

…

The doctor forced Lu Tingchuan to faint, and the police took Shen Qing's body away, made a record, and then cremated it.

When Lu Tingchuan woke up and faced the empty house, he frantically looked for someone. He searched every corner of the room but couldn't find anyone. He rushed out of the house and asked everyone he caught.

"Have you seen Shen Qing? She is my lover. She looks beautiful when she smiles, with dimples at the corners of her mouth, and her eyes turn red like a rabbit when she cries. Shen Qing, Qing means pure and innocent. I'll write this for you to see..." He grabbed the hand of the person in front of him.

Aunt Lin shrank back, looking at Lu Tingchuan's frantic appearance, her throat felt like a thorn. "Mr. Lu, Miss Chen's body has been sent for cremation."

"What corpse? What cremation? What are you talking about? Did she find me annoying and ran away? Call her and tell her not to go too far. I won't look for her. I'll wait here for her until she calms down and comes back..."

"Mr. Lu!" Aunt Lin couldn't help but interrupt his soliloquy, "Can you please face reality? Miss Chen is dead, dead in the bathtub! She doesn't want you anymore! She will never, ever come back."

Lu Tingchuan opened his mouth, and a gust of cold wind rushed into his mouth, as if it was going to freeze his internal organs. He opened his mouth to deny it, but his tongue seemed to be taken away by something.

Lu Tingchuan limped and staggered into the bedroom again, and began to retaliate against himself by self-harming, refusing to eat, drink water or sleep. He wanted to find Shen Qing, but he didn't know how to face the handful of cold ashes.

He sat on the ground, his back against the window, watching the sunrise and sunset, and the day passed.

From time to time, the sound of a child crying could be heard outside. Aunt Lin coaxed the child while looking upstairs. Finally, she was really worried about Lu Tingchuan's condition, so she asked the housekeeper to go upstairs to check the situation.

The housekeeper went upstairs and found the bedroom door was not locked. He pushed it open carefully and saw Lu Tingchuan holding a syringe and injecting blue liquid into his neck. The next moment, he was lying on the ground shaking and covered in cold sweat. This was a drug that destroyed the nerves. Under extreme pain, people would have hallucinations. Only at this time could Lu Tingchuan see Shen Qing.

The butler watched the man torturing himself like a beast that felt no pain. He quickly rushed over and kicked over the box of medicine on the ground.

"Mr. Lu, even if you torture yourself to death now, Miss Shen will never come back? You forced Miss Shen to death, do you still want the two children to follow her path? The dead cannot be resurrected, what you should do is to do the things in front of you well, instead of living in the past." No one dared to yell at Lu Tingchuan like this, and the housekeeper took the risk of being beaten and was brave enough.

"Mr. Lu, before Miss Shen died, she wanted you to take good care of the child. If you collapse now, the child will really become an orphan. Miss Shen will not be at peace in the afterlife."

Lu Tingchuan was in a trance for a moment. He stared blankly at the mixed potion on the ground. He choked up and his vision became increasingly blurry. "If she's not at ease, will she come to take pictures?"

The butler stopped talking.

Lu Tingchuan was just talking to himself. He didn't expect anyone to respond to him, but he still listened to what the housekeeper said.

He wanted to die with Shen Qing. Without Shen Qing, nothing in this world would have any meaning.

But he suddenly recalled what Shen Qing asked him that night when they were sleeping in his arms.

"If a litter of rabbits dies and the mother rabbit leaves behind her baby rabbits, will the father rabbit die as well?"

"No." Father Rabbit wanted to go with his mother, but the surviving babies were part of her. Father Rabbit loved her, and how could he bear to see her beloved children suffer in the world? Father Rabbit had to protect the babies until they grew up and became independent. Only then could he go find his mother.