Chapter 63 I'm sorry, Yan, I lost control

Lin Yan loosened her fingertips, and the light leaves fell to the ground.

She dusted her hands and said indifferently, "What if I remember? What if I don't remember? Everyone I meet in life is just a passerby, unimportant and meaningless."

"Do you remember him? What's his name? What does he look like? Do you remember?"

"I don't remember."

The four casual words blocked the words that were pressing on Xing Yu's throat.

Finally, it was swallowed up deep in his heart again.

His eyes became darker than the darkness of tonight.

He looked at the lake in the distance and remained silent.

The two of them sat quietly like this for about ten minutes, and then Lin Yan stood up from the ground.

"It's getting late, let's go home."

"Um."

On the way back to the county town, the atmosphere in the car was even more depressing than when we came.

Lin Yan wanted to talk to Xing Yu several times, but she didn't know what topic to start with.

Just keep silent.

After returning home and taking a shower, Lin Yan was packing her luggage.

Xing Yu appeared and stood at the door, looking at her silently.

Lin Yan was folding clothes, but her eyes kept glancing towards the door.

"What's up?"

"I won't see you tomorrow, so I'll take a few more glances at you."

Lin Yan zipped up the suitcase and put it aside: "What's so good about it."

Xing Yu saw that she had finished her work and walked towards her: "Friend, why don't you reward me?"

"award?"

Xing Yu lowered his head, trying to look her in the eye: "I've been so obedient this month, you won't reward me?"

"What do you mean by obedient?"

Xing Yu closed his eyes, with a hint of resentment: "If you don't want to see me, I'll stay in the hotel. You didn't let me touch you, and I restrained myself very well. You didn't let me call you wife, and I didn't yell at you. Lin Yan, am I not obedient?"

It turned out that he hadn't appeared in front of her for a month because he was afraid of making her angry...

A warm mist rose in my heart.

It rushes straight into the nose and spreads to the eye sockets.

It makes my eyes wet.

She lowered her head, avoiding his sincere gaze.

"What reward do you want?"

Xing Yu grabbed her hands and placed them on his waist: "Hold me tighter."

Lin Yan is clear-headed, but her behavior seems to be controlled by another personality within her body.

She slowly walked towards him, pressed her cheek against his chest, and tightened her hands around his waist.

Half a minute later, she let go and looked up: "The reward is over."

Xing Yu looked at her deeply, and she cast aside all distracting thoughts and met his gaze.

As their eyes met, an irrepressible ambiguity overflowed between the two.

Even the light from the ceiling lights turned into hormones between men and women.

She watched Xing Yu's head lower and lower, his facial features growing larger and larger in front of her eyes, and his hot breath slowly approaching.

But her whole body felt like it was filled with cement, so stiff that she couldn't push him away.

The soft, cold feeling finally touched her lips, and she trembled slightly...

His lips moved to his forehead, the tip of his nose, then to his neck and shoulders, until the collar slid off his shoulders.

Lin Yancai held his hand with veins bulging out.

"Xing Yu..." She panted softly, "No."

I can no longer let my body control my soul, I can no longer lose my composure...

She couldn't take off her clothes, and she couldn't let him see the horrifying scar on her back...

Xing Yu stared at the red corners of her eyes, and her chest was rising and falling with a clear curve.

His eyes seemed to be filled with a lake, and the scarlet was quickly washed away by the waves, leaving only calmness and tenderness.

"I'm sorry, Ayan..." He buried his head and kissed her lips soothingly, his voice hoarse: "I lost control..."

After he finished speaking, he fastened her scattered buttons with one hand, looked at her again, combed the hair beside her ear with his fingertips, and said.

"Wanting is a desire, not daring to have it is my bottom line. Ah Yan, I won't force you if you don't agree."

Lin Yan was immersed in his eyes: "Hmm..."

Xing Yu stood up and walked towards the bathroom.

Lin Yan sat up from the bed: "What are you doing?"

Xing Yu turned around: "Take a shower, put out the fire."

The sound of water in the bathroom disappeared after a few minutes, followed by the sound of a hair dryer.

A minute later, Xing Yu came out of the bathroom in pajamas.

Then he lifted the quilt and lay down.

Lin Yan anticipated what he was going to do and frowned, "Xing Yu, go back to your room and sleep."

Xing Yu turned sideways, resting his arm on his head: "For the last night, I want to sleep next to you."

Lin Yan knew that he would not do anything wrong, but she still felt uncomfortable.

"Xing Yu, this is not good for us."

Xing Yu raised an eyebrow: "You know it and I know it, don't tell anyone else. I will keep the fact that we slept together a secret for you."

Lin Yan: “…”

After staring at each other for a while, she finally spoke: "Xing Yu, am I very twisted?"

"Well, it's so twisted."

Lin Yan took a deep breath: "You must be very tired during this period..."

"Yeah, tired."

Lin Yan pinched the thing hidden in her hand and said with a breath, "Give me your hand."

Xing Yu obediently stretched out his hand in front of her: "What's wrong?"

Lin Yan pulled her hand out from under the quilt and placed the thing she had been holding for a long time in Xing Yu's palm.

Xing Yu looked at the small Doraemon doll in his hand, was slightly startled, then smiled and raised his eyebrows.

"Ayan, a token of love?"

"No." Lin Yan said truthfully, "I noticed that the Doraemon figurine in your car has faded from the sun. Last time I passed by a jewelry store, I bought one for you."

After Lin Yan finished speaking, she was afraid that he would misunderstand her, so she explained seriously: "I simply gave it to you as a friend, and I have no other intentions."

Lin Yan felt unconvinced and grabbed the gentian necklace around her neck. She continued, "Just like this necklace, it doesn't have any special meaning. I bought it when I saw it while passing by."

Xing Yu stared at her, squeezing the doll tightly, feeling the remaining warmth of her palm on the doll.

"Thank you. I like it very much."

Lin Yan pursed her lips, turned over and turned off the light: "Okay, go to sleep."

"friend."

"Um?"

"Will you miss me when you go to Jingbei?"

Lin Yan didn't respond.

Xing Yu leaned forward and hugged her from behind: "Will it? Hmm?"

Lin Yan replied perfunctorily: "Yes, you are my friend."

Xing Yu buried his head in the crook of her neck: "If you don't miss me, I'll go to Jingbei to settle the score with you."

"It's late. Go to bed..."

After a moment, Xing Yu's voice floated in her ears again.

"Ayan, you misunderstood that night. She did hug me, but I pushed her away."

"Ayan, I am very self-disciplined. I will only hug you..."