The Otherworld (Part 2)

28 The subconscious mind suddenly whispered, "It's not easy along the way, right?"

Bian Senlin thought about the bumpy roads and the times he had fallen, and nodded with lingering fear.

Then I became alert again. What did this guy who claimed to be 28 Subconscious mean? What did he want to do?

Bian Senlin thought so and asked: "You said this is the world of subconsciousness, and you are subconscious. So is it you who brought me here?"

"It's me and it's not me. I don't have such great abilities, but because of some small surprises, I can appear in front of you now."

Bian Senlin took it as an admission: "Then what do you want to do? What about the 28-year-old me? How is he? What about Sister Qingzhu? Where did you take her?"

Faced with Bian Senlin's series of questions, 28 subconsciously tilted his head.

After looking at the forest for a while, he asked with a rare hint of curiosity in his grave tone, "Don't you think you're pathetic? You still care about others?"

Bian Senlin, who didn't feel pathetic at all, said: "Huh?"

"Isn't it?"

28 Subconsciously, I changed my hand to support my chin:

"Your appearance was a surprise to your parents. After your younger brother was born, they left you to your grandparents."

"So what?"

"They taught you from a young age that as an older brother, you have to give in to your younger brother. Whether it's food or toys, as an older brother, you can't compete with your younger brother.

They also hope that you can help your brother in the future."

Bian Senlin was cautious and didn't respond.

“Even if you take care of your brother, you won’t get any benefits.

When you were little, you and your brother had the same pocket money. Whenever you found some delicious snacks, you would buy two, one for you and one for your brother.

Your younger brother's pocket money is saved, and when they find out that you have saved much less than your younger brother, they will scold you for being a spendthrift and not as promising as your younger brother.

Childhood memories suddenly came flooding back, slapping Bian Senlin in the face.

The little figure was arguing with the adults: "My brother can save money because I buy his snacks. I always buy two!"

"Then why doesn't your brother buy it? Then you spend it?"

Xiao Xiaobian Senlin was speechless: ...

He bought it because he wanted to eat it, and brought it to his younger brother because he was the older brother and had a younger brother at home.

Bian Senlin murmured: "After all, I am your brother..."

28 The subconscious mind sneered: "Look, you still think so. Don't you ask why? Why should the older ones give in to the younger ones?

When you were little, it was just snacks, toys, and pocket money. But what about when you grow up? What will you give?

Just because you're the older one? Just because I call you brother? Then if I call you brother, will you give me your life? "

As soon as he finished speaking, 28 subconsciously pulled at the rattling chains, as if to strangle him.

Bian Senlin was frightened and fell backwards, sitting on the ground.

28 The subconscious voice becomes extremely deceptive: "Why do you have to sacrifice all this and pay for it?"

Bian Senlin's mind was filled with a thousand thoughts at once, and many forgotten memories flooded into his mind.

The youngest child in the family is always favored. Even if the adults try their best to treat them equally in general, there will always be some bias in the details of life.

These things may have been forgotten long ago, and people might just laugh them off under normal circumstances.

But at this moment, these things were infinitely magnified and rushed to attack Bian Senlin's mind.

From childhood to adulthood, he was beaten countless times by his father for various reasons, but his father never touched his younger brother.

The only one who would beat my brother is my mother.

Once, his younger brother Bian Yan made his mother angry and was beaten so hard that he cried loudly. He couldn't bear to watch and ran to protect her, which caused his mother to beat him too.

Afterwards, the mother calmed down and ran to comfort her younger son, but perhaps because she was angry that he acted on his own, she dragged Bian Yan along and ignored him.

The key point is that Bian Yan really ignored him that day, and he couldn't figure it out for many years.

Many years later, he would still use this incident to poke at Bian Laoer's heart and accuse him of being heartless.

When he was a child, his family's financial situation was limited and everyone had to squeeze into one big bed. Because there was limited space and Bian Yan was noisy, he was arranged to curl up at the feet.

My father’s company organized a rafting trip once, and he could bring the children along. He had been excited for a long time since the night before.

But the father considered that he could not take care of two children, so he finally decided to take the second child with him.

Bian Senlin, who didn't know about the decision yet, got up excitedly early the next morning.

The only response was a bucket of cold water: "Why are you so excited? I'm not taking you there!"

Bian Senlin made a sound of "oh" and went back to sleep with the quilt covering him, feeling full of grievances.

One by one, things that I thought I had long forgotten rushed out from the depths of my memory in the border forest.

A trace of bitterness and grievance finally gathered into a pool of water as big as a swimming pool and poured down on the forest.

Along with the subconscious voice of 28, all these grievances turned into unwillingness and anger.

Yes, why?

28 Subconsciously, I saw that Bian Senlin’s eyes were gradually filled with confusion and anger, and I smiled for the first time.

With a forced smile and a desolate look, he seemed to be looking at his past self through the forest.

Just as the negative emotions in Bian Senlin were becoming more and more intense, several chains emerged from the ground, moved to his side, and wrapped around his legs.

Bian Senlin didn't notice all this, he was still immersed in his own world.

All kinds of images came to his mind in a chaotic mess, with memories of his childhood and youth mixed together.

Suddenly, a scene suddenly appeared in his mind where he and 29-year-old Bian Senlin were discussing the topic of friendship because of a childhood incident not long ago.

"Feelings are mutual, whether it's family, friendship or love." The fat man said so at the time.

The emotion is mutual!

Bian Senlin murmured: "Emotions are mutual..."

28 Subconsciously frowned: "What?"

"You...you're not right!"

Bian Senlin lowered his head and refuted with some effort, his mind was still a little confused.

He tried to sort out the chaotic thoughts in his mind: "You are wrong! You only mentioned what I paid, but didn't say what I gained..."

Another image flashed through Bian Senlin's mind.

When I was very young, my parents were too young and not as emotionally stable as they were later.

They not only quarreled, but also fought. The most severe fight even involved knives.

At that time, although it seemed that he was hugging his brother and telling him not to be afraid, he was also drawing strength from his brother to hold on.

When the family is at its most vulnerable, they support and rely on each other and heal each other.

When the big umbrella of parents is absent, they are each other's umbrella.

Once at school, someone disliked him for some reason and asked people outside the school to block him.

At that time, the short man Bian Yan stood in front of him, waving his fists at his opponents who were several times stronger than him and telling them to get out.

When he went on a long journey for the first time, the arrogant boy who was not afraid of gods and ghosts would even think of buying him a talisman.

If they don't want their parents to know something, they will discuss it with each other.

They trust each other, and this trust is in some ways stronger than that of their parents.

After going to college, Bian Yan once had an argument with his parents at home and they were at a stalemate. His parents had no choice but to call him because his younger brother was more willing to listen to him.

…

"Between us two brothers, it's never just one-way giving..."

Bian Senlin struggled to stand up. As his thoughts became clearer, his tone became more determined:

"The feelings are mutual, you think it looks like I'm taking care of him, but actually he's holding me up too.

No one suffers more or less, it's impossible to calculate...

Because from the very beginning, there was no calculation of interests or gains and losses between us!"

28 The subconscious mind sneered: "Really? You won't think so in 8 years.

The differences between you brothers will become bigger and bigger in the future, you will drift apart and no longer be close, you will feel cold and not worth it!

Don't forget, I am your truest thought in the future. He may not want to admit it, but he can't hide it from me! "

Bian Senlin felt a chill in his heart.

In the year 2023, when he knew that he and his childhood friend Yao Ge would be basically strangers nine years later, he thought he was mentally prepared.

But he didn't expect that this change would extend to family relationships.

"At least, I don't think so now!"

Bian Senlin stood up straight, his eyes fixed on 28's subconscious mind:

"Perhaps in the future, due to our different experiences, we will have different views, different behaviors and choices, and may even drift apart..."

Bian Senlin laughed, a little fiercely: "But what does this have to do with me now?"

He is a reserved person and rarely expresses his emotions so unscrupulously.

"We still care about each other from the bottom of our hearts, and this family love is still sincere..."

Pure emotions are rare and precious, and are worth protecting with care.

“Although I don’t know what my future self will experience…”

"But now, you want to use these things that haven't happened yet, your one-sided views and judgments, to make me sever the family ties we've built from supporting each other since childhood...

Heh... do you think I'm crazy?!"

The outside voices are too mixed and chaotic. Others have different standpoints and purposes and can only see one side of the matter.

Instead of floating around in the noise of the outside world, it is better to think from multiple dimensions based on your own situation, and then make judgments and choices based on your heart.

For Bian Senlin, no matter what happens in the future, at least the emotion has not deteriorated yet, so it is still worth protecting.