First-person perspective, based on Ah Heng's memories, in a diary-like style, written long ago and reposted, not much literary flair, it's a short story.
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Chapter 43
I dreamed about that car accident.
I don't know how things work out in this world. It's only right that people who do wrong pay the price. He ran a red light, but what about us?
Jia Nian, there should have been three people who died in that car accident, right?
I can't recall what happened after the car accident. I don't know why I have to live while you leave me. You wouldn't leave me, how could you leave me?
You were kissing me this morning, holding me as we washed up. That was just a few hours ago. I can't accept your body in the hospital. Your hands are so cold. They were warm when you held me this morning, and they were warm last night too.
I refused to let the doctor take you away. I'm sorry, I pushed a doctor away that day.
The doctor forced me to take a sedative.
Later, when I behaved, Qi Chengchen said you were in the morgue.
I came to find you in the middle of the night. It's so cold. Why are you so cold? Please look at me, Jia Nian?
Look at me, baby, okay?
Look at me, your lips are so cold, really so cold.
I'll warm you up, my darling, my Jiang Jianian.
The bed in the morgue is a bit small, how can I keep you warm?
Baby, please, I'm so sorry, Jianian, please, please, please, don't keep it so cold, please.
Your hands are all blue. Look at me. I'm Cheng Heng. Baby, baby, please don't do this, okay? I'm begging you.
Open your eyes, it'll be over in a minute, baby.
You won't leave, you know I can't live without you, baby, please don't do this, okay?
No, no, no, it can't be, no, no, no.
No, no, baby, how can I beg you to hold me? Please tell me.
No, Jia Nian, Jia Nian, I don't want to, I don't want to, you won't leave me, your body is so cold, come closer to me, I will hold you tight.
Darling, come closer to me, I can't feel you anymore.
Darling, baby, I'll sleep with you. You won't be so cold. Shall I take you home?
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Qi Chengchen slapped me; he refused to buy me a cold storage room big enough for you to lie in.
He said I was crazy, but I wasn't.
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They took you away without telling me... Jiang Jianian... No one is on my side...
Your parents are going to hold your funeral…
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My Jiang Jianian.