After leaving the dormitory building, the weather was really cold. I was shivering even with my coat on. I held a cigarette in my mouth to keep warm. It was unprecedented for me to smoke on campus. Anyway, I had been expelled, so who was afraid of me? There were students patrolling with red armbands. When they saw someone holding a cigarette butt in their mouth, they shone their flashlights over and shouted, "Which student is smoking on campus? Get out of here!"

I really didn’t like the man’s tone, so I just said back, “Your grandfather.”

The student obviously didn't recognize me and became even angrier: "You want to be punished, right?" Someone next to him immediately pulled his sleeve: "This is Wang Hao!" The student immediately fell silent, even turned off his flashlight, crouched down and hid in the darkness, and could no longer be seen.

I suddenly understood why I had to go to Xia Xue's house at night. In front of Xia Xue, my soul was so dirty that I was afraid of the sun's gaze, and I only dared to hide in the darkness when night fell.

Arriving downstairs at Xia Xue's house, I looked up and saw that there was a light upstairs, so I went straight to the door and knocked. After a long while, there was a response from inside: "Who is it?" And it was Taozi's voice. For a moment, I wanted to turn around and leave, but I still had the courage to say: "It's me, Wang Hao." What is coming cannot be avoided, and it will be faced sooner or later.

After a long time, someone inside said, "Wang Hao, go back first. Xia Xue said she doesn't want to see you now."

My heart felt cold, knowing that Xia Xue was still angry, so I said, "I won't leave. I'll sit at the door until you open it, or you just never come out and let me starve to death or die of thirst." After saying that, I sat on the stairs next to me.

After sitting there for about 20 minutes, there was no response at all. I knew if it was just Taozi, she would have opened the door for me long ago, but Xia Xue was so cruel. I couldn't blame anyone, because I hurt her first. Another hour passed, and I finished a pack of cigarettes. I was bored, so I went downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes, and when I came back up, I found a letter on the floor.

I quickly picked it up and read it. There was only one sentence on it, and I could clearly recognize that it was Xia Xue's handwriting.

Wang Hao:

Our fate has ended, don't come to me again.

Summer Snow

I felt so distressed when I saw this, so I knocked on the door again and said, "Xia Xue, I won't leave. I'll be outside your door. If you want to see me, just open the door. Taozi, can you open the door for me? I have something to say to Xia Xue."

I am almost certain that Xia Xue must have told Tao Zi about that, otherwise Tao Zi would not cooperate with Xia Xue in not opening the door for me. Every once in a while, I would knock on the door, say a few words, and then sit down to smoke.

I kept waiting, but there was no movement from the door. I was very frustrated. These two girls always loved me and never let me suffer any pain, but now they were cruel enough to let me sit at the door, cold and hungry, and it was almost 12 o'clock in the evening.

After finishing another pack of cigarettes, I stood up and knocked on the door again. I said, "After this knock, I won't knock again. I think it's time for you to rest. I'll be sleeping on the stairs outside. If you can bear it, don't open the door."

After knocking, I sat down and dozed off against the railing. It was so cold that my whole body was shivering. After a while, I heard the door open and I jumped up. It was Taozi who opened the door. She made a "hush" gesture to me. I immediately kept silent. Taozi saw that there was no one outside the door, so she pulled me in and whispered, "Keep your voice down. Sister Xia Xue is asleep."

"You dare to open the door for me only after she falls asleep?" I shook my head and smiled bitterly.

"Yeah." Taozi nodded: "I wanted to open the door for you, but Sister Xia Xue wouldn't let me. She has been feeling bad these past few days, so I tried to go along with her. As soon as she goes in to sleep, I will open the door for you!"

I was deeply touched. I hurt Taozi like that at noon, but she was still so nice to me, so nice that I almost felt ashamed.

"It's cold outside, drink a glass of water to warm yourself up." Taozi poured me some water quietly and asked me to drink it while sitting on the sofa.

I am very familiar with this sofa. I have slept on it for more than ten days. It is also here that Xia Xue and I had many intimate moments. Suddenly, many memories flooded into my mind, making me feel bitter, sweet, sour and astringent.

Bad Youth