Chapter 58 Chapter 58 Gu Shi even thought of a name for the child...

She lay down on the bed absentmindedly, closed her eyes and blocked all her senses.

As long as you can get through these few days, you'll be fine.

She placed her hands on her chest to comfort herself.

Of course she knew that there was still hope, that she still had a slight chance of getting the fake death drug back and keeping the appointment on time, but it was this slim chance that was tormenting her.

The waiting time is always the most painful.

If there was a rope that, by simply pulling it, could allow her to skip the long five days and get a specific verdict directly, she would pull at the rope desperately until it snapped.

"Lingchuan."

Gu Shi climbed directly onto her bed, interrupting her worries.

Lingchuan pushed him down, trying to get him away from her bed.

"Don't lie in bed in the middle of the day. You're so lazy."

"Aren't you lying down too?"

Gu Shi touched her hair and picked out a silver strand.

"Lingchuan, why do you have white hair?"

She slapped his hand away impatiently.

"I'm lying down because I'm pregnant. Are you pregnant too?"

As for that white hair, it certainly wasn't there for Gu Shi.

Gu Shi seemed to remember something. He got out of bed, took out a stack of cloth from the drawer, and spread it directly on Lingchuan's bed.

Only then did she see clearly that they were small clothes and bellybands of different colors, which seemed to be for newborn babies.

"I've already ordered the children's things to be prepared."

He looked at her secretly, as if he wanted to say something but couldn't.

Lingchuan frowned and asked:

"Why? Are you looking forward to it?"

Lingchuan only glanced at the gaudy, colorful little clothes. She always felt that these auspicious styles in the palace were a bit creepy.

"It's my child after all, so what's wrong with looking forward to it?"

He spoke in a low voice, glancing at Lingchuan out of the corner of his eye.

"oh."

Lingchuan's answer was rather perfunctory.

"Lingchuan, your mother must love you very much."

She nodded and answered decisively:

"certainly."

She never doubted that her mother loved her.

"Then can you love our child like your mother loves you?"

Lingchuan fell silent, she didn't know how to answer him.

She remembered that her parents had a very good relationship, but her mother had difficulty conceiving, and it was only after she prayed to the Goddess of Childbirth that she conceived her daughter.

She was the only daughter in the family. Her parents loved her dearly and even chose a suitable husband for her early on.

But she found that she could not love Gu Shi's child as much as her mother loved her.

After hesitating for a while, she said:

"no the same."

"What's the difference?"

Gu Shi put his arms around her neck and forced himself close to her.

"We are also husband and wife, what's the difference?"

He asked almost desperately.

Lingchuan had originally wanted to tell him that she had deliberately not taken the contraceptive soup and gotten pregnant out of revenge on him and herself. She had simply wanted to hurt him a thousand times and hurt herself eight hundred times.

She really wanted to tell him everything, how she had deceived him, plotted against him, and maliciously planned her own death to escape in order to leave him.

If possible, she really wanted to get rid of the baby in her belly immediately.

But she didn't say a word in the end. All her feelings surged into her heart, and she finally only said three words.

"I'm tired."

Although Gu Shi's flesh and blood had already melted into Lingchuan's belly, he felt so distant from Lingchuan.

He reached out to touch her cheek, and she said nothing, letting him put his hand on her face.

"Lingchuan, you know, after the baby is born, you don't have to worry about anything."

Lingchuan frowned, put his arms around his neck, and asked anxiously:

"After I give birth to the child, I will give it to you. Can you let me go?"

Gu Shi was stunned.

Her heartbeat was so loud that Lingchuan hugged her, almost putting his entire weight on him, their chests against each other, hearts touching.

She hugged him so closely, yet she said such cruel words.

Gu Shi felt his neck lighten and Lingchuan let him go.

"Forget it, just pretend I never said anything."

She closed her eyes without saying a word.

Gu Shi was silent for a while and asked:

"Do you want a boy or a girl?"

"Whatever, just let it be. Anyway, you are what you are born into, and you can't choose."

Lingchuan answered coldly.

Gu Shi really wanted to ask Lingchuan why she was so hot and cold towards him. Just a few days ago, she had tenderly expressed her love to him, but now she treated him like a piece of trash.

A hundred kinds of dissatisfaction surged in his heart, but in the end he said nothing.

He stood up and looked out the window.

"Lingchuan, the rain still hasn't stopped."

"Um."

The heavy rain chilled her heart.

Gu Shi paced around the room, and it was obvious that he was restless.

He took the pen, ink, paper and inkstone and spread them on the desk. He held the pen with an elegant posture, like a white crane.

His handwriting is smooth and vigorous, obviously he put a lot of effort into it.

"Lingchuan, take a look. If it's a boy, we'll name him Gu Fu, and if it's a girl, we'll name her Gu Jing. What do you think?"

Lingchuan glanced at him sideways.

"Can you give me a name I can understand? I don't know any of this characters. It's all pitch black."

She pointed at the word "伏" and said.

Gu Shi sighed and said:

"Fu means looking down. You understand now, don't you?"

"So what does your name mean?"

Gu Shi lowered his head. He was reluctant to mention the meaning of his name.

"Maybe it has a subtle derogatory meaning."

"I'm not educated, so I can't tell. I can only think... this child came at the perfect time."

Lingchuan yawned.

Gu Shi frowned and said:

"That's a derogatory term."

Gu Shi knew that his father had always doubted his bloodline. Not only was he tall, he also had no hidden illnesses. Even his eyesight was better than most people.

He was probably not of royal blood, and he often felt inferior because of this when he was young, but now he just felt fortunate that his mother chose a healthy body for him.

Lingchuan didn't want to see Gu Shi, but the rain was getting heavier and heavier, blocking him in her house.

"Let's do something to kill time..."

She wanted to do something so that she could temporarily escape from her depression.

"Didn't you say we can't have sex?"

"Bah! When I say I need to kill time, that's the only thing you can think of? How vulgar. Is there anything else you can do to kill time?"

"Then you can help me with my official business."

Lingchuan waved his hands quickly:

"No, no, I get dizzy when I see big characters, and I'm sleepy in no time. You do your own work, I won't work for you for nothing."

"Then I'll teach you how to play chess."

Gu Shi found the chessboard.

Lingchuan said excitedly:

"I know this. I win if I connect five chess pieces into a line. I used to play that when I was a kid."

Gu Shi gave her a meaningful look.

"Who did you play with as a child?"

Lingchuan's words were stuck in his throat, his face changed, and he could no longer laugh.

When she was a child, she did play Gobang with Qin Sizhao, and they had won and lost against each other. Now that she thought about it, she was afraid that he had let her win without leaving any trace. After all, he had a smart brain that could make him the top scorer in the imperial examination.

She didn't expect that Qin Sizhao would pay so much for the friendship they had when they played together from morning to night in childhood. He was even willing to risk his own life to take her home.

But what about her? What can she do for him now?

She was so careless that she even lost the fake death pill...

It's probably understandable that he would be disappointed in her.

If Lingchuan breaks the appointment, Qin Sizhao will definitely think that she gave up on him for Gu Shi.

He would immediately hate her. After all, who would like a woman who was indifferent to other people's kindness and didn't know what was good for her?

Gu Shi saw Lingchuan's pale face and sneered:

"Humph, I guess you and Qin Sizhao play together from morning till night every day. Why haven't I ever heard you tell me that you have a little lover back home who you spend every night with?"

Gu Shi's jealousy grew stronger and stronger.

"Tell me the truth, how far have you ever gotten? Have you ever kissed or hugged?"

Lingchuan was in no mood to deal with his weird jealousy, so he just told the truth.

"Come on, what can a thirteen or fourteen-year-old kid do? He was a year younger than me, and at that time he was half a head shorter than me. And you're still being affectionate? You're really overthinking it... We were almost robbing chickens and dogs every day... I climbed trees to steal pomegranates, and he kept watch from below."

"Thirteen or fourteen is not young...boys this age actually know everything."

Gu Shi pursed his lips and looked at her angrily.

"Why, have you tried everything when you were thirteen or fourteen?"

Lingchuan was too impatient to coax him, so he simply humiliated him a few times.

"You are slandering me again, knowing full well that I have always been a clean person."

"It's just a matter of two little naughty kids jumping around. Look how anxious you are."

Lingchuan turned his face away impatiently.

"Do you want to play chess or not?"

"Go down, you must go down, why not?"

Gu Shi was upset and started playing Go.

Lingchuan exchanged a few moves with him and found something was wrong.

"Isn't this how you play Go? I don't know how to play Go at all."

Gu Shi simply pushed all the chess pieces aside and started playing childish Go with Lingchuan again.

The two of them played chess back and forth, bickering with each other until night, and the rain didn't stop.

"If the rain doesn't stop tomorrow, will you still be able to attend court?"

"We can only pause once. The elderly minister has weak legs and the ground is slippery in the heavy rain. I'm afraid he will fall."

Gu Shi said as he looked at the heavy rain outside.

"You can't do anything in this weather."

Hearing this, Lingchuan lowered his head in melancholy.

I'm sorry... She had let him down... But that was because of bad luck, not because she was heartless and ungrateful...

She apologized to Qin Sizhao over and over again in her heart, but unfortunately he would never hear it again in this life.

They would live in separate places, becoming two people who would never meet again, but this was not what she wanted.