There were only Sima fan and Miao master and servant left in the meditation room.

Xie Miao tried to speak several times, but he shut up again.

I don't know how long later, Sima fan suddenly said, "just say what you want to say. Don't hesitate."

Xie Miao hesitated and spoke again.

"Your Majesty, have you ever regretted it?"

Sima looked at him wearily.

This problem has occurred more than once.

Gu Fei asked again, King Ning asked again, and now Xie Miao asked again.

At this time, if someone else asks this question, Sima fan must be suspicious, but Xie Miao is different.

Although Xie Miao was a eunuch, he had high seniority. When the former Emperor was only the prince, Xie Miao was already on duty in the palace. Later, he was assigned to the prince by mistake. When the prince ascended the throne, he was promoted to be the head of the Chamberlain.

When the former emperor died, Sima tired of inheriting the throne, and Xie Miao was still the head of the internal attendant.

He served the two princes successively, always maintaining a rigorous and meticulous style of less talking and more doing, and accumulated a deep prestige in the palace.

Even in Gu Zhengquan's special period, Xie Miao still only listened to Sima's disgust, and his loyalty was beyond doubt.

Both Sima fan and Empress Dowager Yan trust him very much.

Sima fan knew that he would not ask such a question for no reason, so he asked, "what do you mean by regret?"

Xie Miao said, "when you ordered lingchi to execute Gu Zheng, have you ever regretted it today?"

"No."

No matter how many times others ask, Sima fan will not change his answer.

He doesn't regret it.

Xie Miao stopped talking.

Sima fan saw many emotions in his eyes and couldn't help asking, "why did you suddenly ask this? Are you hiding something from me? "

Xie Miao knelt down and said, "the slave is guilty."

Seeing this, Sima fan was sure that he was hiding something from himself, so he didn't move, but waited for him to explain it clearly.

Xie Miao first knocked three heads, and then took out a letter from his sleeve.

He presented the letter with both hands.

"This is the letter Gu Zheng gave me before he died. He said that if he died one day, let me give this letter to you. Originally, this letter should have been given to you ten years ago, but I'm afraid it's Gu Zheng's trick. I haven't taken out this letter without telling him. The slave is guilty. Please punish him. "

Sima fan was surprised.

He had no idea that Gu Zheng would leave a letter for himself.

He looked at the letter in front of him. Because many years had passed, the edges and corners of the envelope had become rough.

"Have you read this letter?"

Xie Miao said no.

Sima fan reached out and took the letter.

The seal of the letter is still intact. It is obvious that it has not been opened.

There is a line of small letters on the envelope??????

Your majesty

This is indeed Gu Zheng's handwriting.

Gu Zheng is one of the three calligraphers in southern Chu.

Unfortunately, he died too early, and his ink became a masterpiece.

Sima tired of staring at the four small words for a long time, and those dusty memories of many years appeared in his mind.

When he was the prince, like many children of his age, he was very eager for father's love.

He studied hard, earnestly completed the homework assigned by the teacher, and tried his best to show his intelligence, hoping to get the attention of his father.

In exchange for the result, it was the brothers' unscrupulous ridicule and bullying.

They called him a bastard and laughed at his humble origin.

Sima fan's mother was just an ordinary palace maid. She was lucky to have a child because she happened to be lucky to be drunk by the former Emperor for one night.

His birth was just an accident. The emperor had no feelings for him or his mother.

Therefore, no matter how much he did, the emperor never looked at him more.

Even the name given to him is a disgusting word.

Don't you mean disgusting?

From the day he got the name, he was destined that no matter how hard he tried in his life, he would not be recognized by others.

Until the appearance of Gu Zheng.

He was the first person to praise Sima fan.

"The third prince's handwriting is good, and he is clever and sensible. He is a good child."

It was such a common compliment that Sima was tired of remembering until now.

It was the first time in his life that he was affirmed.

Sima fan, who was just a child at that time, was very excited. He spent a lot of time practicing calligraphy every day. Someone affirmed his achievements. He was not really good for nothing!

Since then, every time Gu Zheng entered the palace, he would help guide his homework.

Although Sima tired of having classes with other princes in the Imperial College, he was always ignored intentionally or unintentionally because of his low birth. No matter how he learned, the teachers didn't care much, which led to some places he didn't understand but couldn't ask.

With Gu Zheng's guidance, Sima was tired of those questions buried in his heart and finally found the object of consultation. He was happy for a long time.

Once, Gu Zheng entered the palace as usual. After finishing his business, he deliberately took a detour to find the third prince Sima fan.

Sima fan had just returned from the Imperial College at that time. On his way, he was beaten by two brothers. When Gu Zheng found him, he was hiding in the rockery cave in the imperial garden and crying secretly.

Gu Zheng did not comfort him, but taught him seriously.

"If you don't want to be bullied, you have to try to make yourself stronger."

Sima asked wearily with tears, "how can we become stronger?"

Gu Zheng patted him on the thin shoulder: "start practicing martial arts first. Your bones are too weak. You have to practice well."

Since then, whenever Gu Zheng was free, he would personally teach Sima fan to practice riding and shooting skills.

Sima Yan's body became stronger and stronger day by day. When he was bullied again, he finally didn't have to be beaten passively. If others beat him, he would fight back. Even if he was beaten all over, he would bite a piece of meat from the other party.

Several times, the eldest prince and the second prince knew he was not easy to provoke, so they no longer dared to provoke him easily.

This made his days much cleaner.

Later, when the former emperor died, Gu Zheng pushed Sima fan to the throne.

The first thing Sima fan did after he ascended the throne was to recognize Gu Zheng as his adoptive father.

Everyone thought it was the young emperor. Forced by the power in Gu Zheng's hand, he had to bow his head and recognize him as an adoptive father.

But only Sima fan knew that he actually sincerely regarded Gu Zheng as his father.

Thinking of this, Sima fan's heart suddenly became very heavy.

He cherished the hard won love between father and son, but Gu Zheng just wanted to use him to gain more power. In Gu Zheng's eyes, he was just a valuable puppet.

Seeing that he hadn't moved for a long time, Xie Miao asked cautiously, "do you want to see this letter? Why don't you just burn it? "

Anyway, people are dead. It doesn't matter whether you read this letter or not.

Sima fan still didn't speak.

He slowly opened the envelope and pulled out a thin rice paper.