Emotional Disorder

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Yu Xia has a condition: he's lost the ability to fall in love with someone. When Xu An appears, he chooses to escape. So when he finally realizes that feeling of lik...

reconciliation

reconciliation

Ask for your sister’s car fare!!!

Xu An's kiss lingered on Yu Xia, feeling sour and suppressed.

After the kiss, both of them breathed heavier.

No!!

How did they kiss? ! !

Xu An rubbed Yu Xia's flushed neck with his fingers and leaned over to get closer.

"Is your fare so expensive?" Yu Xia put her palm on Xu An's chest and pushed him back.

"Yeah." Xu An sat back down, his hands unconsciously clenched. "Your mom told you to reply to the message."

Yu Xia looked at him without saying anything, opened the car door and stepped out with her right foot.

Xu An looked at Yu Xia's back as she left, his lips pursed into a straight line.

Yu Xia felt that he must have been stunned by the kiss, so much so that he stood in the elevator for several minutes without pressing the floor button.

When he realized why he had been standing there for so long without opening the door, he realized that he hadn't even pressed the floor button.

“…”

It's just a kiss, isn't it? Why are you reacting so strongly?

Yu Xia opened the chat box of Ms. Liao Shengnan.

There were a few messages he hadn't replied to and a phone call he hadn't answered, so Yu Xia tapped the screen in frustration.

X: I’m here.

Ginkgo: Okay, stop running around.

Ginkgo: I cooked porridge last night and heated it up in the pot today. See if you want to add sugar.

×: Okay.

Yu Xia felt a little strange looking at this line of words.

That is, he didn't go home all night yesterday. He was at Xu An's place.

What does Xu An’s house look like?

He remembered waking up in bed. Judging by the layout, there was a rather large desk, with Xu An typing away on his computer. It felt quite homely, like Xu An's own room...

That's the question.

Where did he sleep last night?

Yu Xia paused as he inserted the key into the keyhole.

What was I thinking? There were so many guest rooms, could he possibly sleep there?

Xiao Yu really wants to hit himself now, but is afraid of being seen by others.

The phone vibrated with another message.

Yu Xia hurriedly opened the screen, and her expression turned green again after seeing the message.

He closed the door and went to the sofa to turn on the air conditioner. The weather in Beijing was a bit cold, but he didn't like wearing thick clothes, so he just turned on the heater.

The message that popped up on the phone was a friend request.

From "Zhou".

Yu Xia thought about which of his former classmates had the surname Zhou, and approved the friend request.

Zhou: Yu Xia!!!

"..." Yu Xia suddenly felt something was wrong.

×:?

Look up and see how to add it.

Recommended contacts from Ginkgo

“…”

Ms. Liao Shengnan must have changed recently, and he couldn't figure out what she was thinking.

Zhou: You actually left without saying a word!!!

Yu Xia could guess who this person was with his eyes closed, but the sudden connection with someone from five years ago made his mind go blank for a moment.

×: …

Zhou: How are you doing lately? Where are you studying? Why can't we find any contact information for you?

Zhou: And you actually changed your card!

Zhou Yanxu probably felt that typing alone wouldn't be enough to convey his feelings, so he just sent a voice message.

Zhou: "Yu Xia, you're such a disloyal person! I tried calling you on seven phones but couldn't get through!"

×: "Aren't you an idiot? If one doesn't work, you need seven."

Zhou: "That's because Xu An doesn't believe in evil..."

Zhou Yanxu's voice became noticeably weaker, getting smaller and smaller until it was almost inaudible.

Zhou Yanxu looked at the "Typing..." column above the notes, and no message was sent.

Zhou: "How are you...doing?"

×: “Not bad.”

Zhou: "Oh, okay, okay, my mom will find me a class, I have to leave now."

×: "Well, it's a good thing you found a class."

Zhou Yanxu scolded him.

Zhou: "By the way, when your mom first sent me your WeChat, Liu Ning wanted to add you, so I pushed her away. She might come look for you later."

×: “Got it.”

The next second, a WeChat friend request popped up.

But it’s not Liu Ning’s.

Yu Xia looked at the greeting message in surprise.

〖Ning applies to add you as a friend〗

Ning: I’m Yan Jingyi.

×: I have approved your application and we can start chatting now!

Ning: How are you doing recently?

×: Not bad.

Ning: I heard from Zhou Yanxu that you and Xu An have met.

Ning: You guys?

×: …

×: Go beat him up.

Yan Jingyi sent a few laughing emoticons, and then there was no news.

Yu Xia sank into the sofa, closed his eyes, and decided to go for broke.

×: How is he?

Yan Jingyi's "the other party is typing" is more difficult to wait for than Yu Xia's own.

But when the message came, Yu Xia felt that it was sent too quickly.

He almost didn't understand what it meant when he saw it.

Ning: Never seen it.

×:?

Then there was a long voice message.

Ning: "He didn't come to school until his senior year. He was recommended for admission on that exam. We haven't seen him since then, only appearing in the news."

×: “Why is there news?”

Ning: "You don't know? Ah... That's right, you're not in China. You can search online for the group under his name. The information you can find now is very comprehensive. It's called 'solution', which is the solution to the original solution we usually write."

Yan Jingyi's voice was a bit noisy for some reason. Yu Xia turned up the volume to listen.

Ning: "I don't know what he studied. But he mainly runs a business and does his own design. You can search it yourself."

×: "Thank you. What about you?"

It took Yan Jingyi a while to realize that Yu Xia was asking her how she was doing.

Ning: "That's it, it's okay anyway. Okay, I have something to tell you next time we get together."

Yu Xia walked into the room and pulled out the computer. When turning it on, Liu Ning also added him.

Yu Xia opened Baidu and started typing.

But after several seconds, he still didn't know how to search. Yan Jingyi said to search for "solution", but that was not the only thing he wanted to know.

Finally, Yu Xia typed in the input box.

Xu An

The pop-up message caused his computer to freeze for a moment.

Yu Xia supported her face with her right hand and looked at the message above.

"Xu An... founded 'Jie' at 19? Is he a human? Why is he still so sceptical... studying at Tsinghua University... what's with all that information from hundreds of years ago? He's already graduated, okay?... his appearance..."

Yu Xia frowned speechlessly as she looked at the line "Because he is too handsome, he is pursued by several men in the academy, and he has amazing strength and stunning looks."

Then he was attracted by the next line.

According to a news interview in September, Xu An, founder of the "Jie" brand, said the meaning of the word "Jie" comes from his sweetheart.

Xu An...'s sweetheart?

Below is a video. Xu An was wearing formal attire when being interviewed. For this kind of interview, answers should be prepared in advance, but the comments section clearly implied that Xu An's answers were arrogant.

Yu Xia clicked the mouse to open the video.

The interviewer was a young man. "...Mr. Xu, it hasn't been easy to get to where you are today. But many people want to know how you came up with the idea of ​​'Solution'."

This segment was obviously recorded midway.

Xu An was sitting in a very professional recording room, and there were products he endorsed next to the microphone.

Xu An's voice always gave Yu Xia the illusion of unfamiliarity. He selfishly wondered if Xu An's tone of voice was different when he was outside and when he was talking to him.

"This goes back to a long time ago when I was drawing a little picture for my sweetheart."

There was clearly a circle of screaming outside the video, but it abruptly stopped and was cut out.

Yu Xia looked unhappy and continued to scroll down.

How many years ago was a long time ago?

Looking at this interview video, it seems to be from a few years ago. So when was it before that?

In high school?

Didn’t she say she liked him? Didn’t Xu An start planning this when they were still in love?

Yu Xia moved his eyes down a few inches. It was a picture that was obviously taken at the entrance of a company owned by "Jie".

Yu Xia's eyes were always focused on the logo of the word "解".

He seemed to have seen him somewhere.

Yu Xia cleared the search bar and changed it.

〖Jie Group Logo〗

Baidu gave him several photos and even some analysis diagrams of the logo.

This symbolizes something and that comes from something.

But Yu Xia knew that they were all wrong at a glance.

Because he recognized it.

He had indeed seen this logo before, even a long time ago. Five years ago, he had seen several of them written by Xu An himself.

Finally, after the word was enlarged, perhaps it was deliberately highlighted by Xu An, he understood the word.

The word "解" is written very sloppily. The word on the left is just crossed out, and the one on the right also looks very abstract.

But at this moment, Mr. Yu felt it was very obvious.

"yx"

He zoomed in on the image, his heart pounding wildly in his chest. The seemingly sloppy, abstract character for "解" (Solution) was magnified, revealing the interweaving of its strokes, forming two intertwined letters.

He slumped in his chair, his mind blank. Xu An's words "my sweetheart" rang loudly in his ears.

Yu Xia thought of something and called herself shameless, but then she subconsciously felt that this was right.

The abbreviation of Yu Xia's name.

In addition, in that interview, Xu An talked about his "sweetheart" a few years ago.

If it really happened in high school, then it could indeed be Yu Xia. If it's just a coincidence, then this could be his initials.

Yu Xia turned off the computer helplessly.

Xu An, what are you thinking about?

Why didn't you continue attending school? Why is the interview video still online even though it was clearly taken down?

You've been looking for me for a long time.

This realization spread like wildfire, instantly burning away all his hesitation and rationality.

Yu Xia felt that it was particularly necessary for him to see him now. He sat up and ran to the door without even having time to clean up.

The cold wind from downstairs woke him up.

Yu Xia felt like he'd been back a long time, maybe even hours. But now, staring downstairs at the car he'd just ridden in, he couldn't quite come back to his senses.

You can't see inside the car because the glass is covered with anti-peeping tape.

But it was obvious that the people in the village saw him and did not close the car door when they hurriedly got out of the car.

Xu An was carrying a coat when he came over.

Yu Xia was forced to put on the coat and then walked to the back seat.

Xu An closed the driver's door and followed him to the back.

"Why did you come down?"

Yu Xia was hiding from him, and Xu An couldn't see Yu Xia's expression clearly. He only felt that his breathing was a little rapid, and the fingertips of his hands hanging by his side were trembling slightly without being noticed.

After he closed the door, he looked back and saw Yu Xia looking at him very closely this time, but he did not move away.

Xu An mistakenly felt that Yu Xia's eyes seemed a little red.

"Xu An."

He heard Yu Xia calling his name.

Just like that late autumn 5 years ago.

"I'm here, don't cry." Xu An subconsciously wanted to touch his face, but her fingertips curled back slightly just before reaching him, ultimately just lightly brushing the cold corners of his eyes. There were no tears there, just a slight damp coolness on his skin.

"I don't."

"Okay, no." Xu An agreed. "Are you...doing well?"

Yu Xia grabbed the hand Xu An had just extended with his left hand, while his right hand unconsciously grasped the edge of his coat. After a few seconds of pause, he replied, "Not good, not good at all."

These five words seemed to have drained all his energy. Xu An did not respond, and silence filled the car.

Xu An didn't seem to reply to him, and Yu Xia didn't hear any sound.

So he spoke first.

"Is 'jie' my name?"

"I just realized..." Yu Xia heard Xu An say. "My sweetheart."

"I'm sorry... You looked for me, but I didn't know... I didn't read the message, and at that time..."

His words were incoherent, his logic overwhelmed by the immense guilt and bitterness.

Just when he was about to be consumed by this emotion, a warm hand held his face, and the thumb gently wiped away the wetness that had slipped down his face without him noticing.

"I know." Xu An's voice was low and gentle, as if he was soothing a frightened cat. "I know everything."

Yu Xia raised her tearful eyes and looked at him blankly.

"So, I'm back." Xu An's forehead rested lightly against his, his breathing audible. "Xiao Yu, please don't... come up with another Xu An from now on, okay?"

"Um……"

Xu An leaned against him and kissed him densely, but Yu Xia responded patiently.

"Xiao Yu, please don't leave."

"Hmm," Yu Xia was so weak from the kiss that he didn't dare to look but wanted to keep looking. He suddenly remembered something and asked, "Why didn't you leave just now?"

"I don't dare." Yu Xia was clearly prepared, but her heart still skipped a beat when she heard it. Xu An's emotions were in turmoil, and he rarely cried. "I'm afraid that if I leave, you'll be gone. I'm so afraid that I'll lose you again."

"You won't lose it."

Yu Xia licked his lips soothingly.

"Because I like you."

Xu An, who lost everything in high school, finally found him back, and the boy was as virtual as before.

Later, Yu Xia accidentally pushed open the door of Xu An's study, which had never been guarded against him.

The gray-white walls are no longer covered with lists of goals or case analyses, but with photos.

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