Chapter 208 Self-Immolation

Shen Anan lowered her eyes to look at her hands circled in front of her and pursed her lips.

"It's all over."

Speaking it out will only make both of them uncomfortable, so why bother to mention it again?

"Really?" Xiao Yuan let go of her and turned her to face him. "But I want to know."

He had that dream every night, how could it ever get over?

"You don't want to talk about it. Is it because it's in the past, or are you unwilling to open up to me?"

Shen Anan thought about it carefully and shook his head slowly.

“I just think it’s not necessary.”

Happy things should be shared by two people, while sharing unhappy things will only drain the emotions of both people.

Xiao Yuan insisted, "I want to listen."

He really wanted to know what happened in her dream.

Shen Anan suppressed the expression in her eyes, remained silent for a while, and finally said, "We first met at a palace banquet. Concubine Shen wanted to bring us together, so she asked the emperor to issue an order."

"When I first met you, I just thought you were a really good-looking man, with pure eyes and a noble temperament. Later, we got married naturally."

She seemed to be narrating someone else's story, slowly telling the story of the entanglement between the two of them in the previous life.

"You said you don't care who becomes the Fourth Prince's wife, as long as she behaves herself and doesn't cause you any trouble."

"You were so busy every day that you didn't have time to eat with me or talk to me. In the end, you didn't even have time to go back home."

"Duan Mengmeng said that after Mr. Duan passed away, you stayed with her every day..."

"I don't understand how busy you are with government affairs, and you don't understand why I keep harping on those trivial matters every day, so we often quarrel."

"I love to go crazy. Whenever there is a quarrel, I always make the house restless. I am jealous of every woman who appears around you. I am a very famous jealous woman in the capital."

"Those ladies always laugh at me and speak harshly to me, and then when they return home, I will continue to quarrel with you."

They said that she was out of favor and that in Xiao Yuan's eyes, she was not even a maid. Whenever she returned home, she would complain, complaining that he treated her badly and that she was ridiculed by others.

At this point, she lowered her eyes and smiled, "We were really a pair of resentful lovers back then."

"Everyone dislikes me. Everyone says that it would have been great if you had married Duan Mengmeng."

She is kind, gentle, well-educated, speaks softly, and is talented.

I'm sure she's a thousand times better than this crazy woman.

Xiao Yuan listened in silence, his arms around her tightening inch by inch.

"What happened in the end?" His voice was hoarse.

"at last…"

Shen Anan seemed to be lost in a long memory.

"I can't quite remember what we argued about, I just remember that you were very angry, looked at me coldly and said that from now on, you would never come back home again."

"And then, you really never came back. I searched for you in the capital like crazy, but couldn't find you. After returning home, I sat on a reclining chair in the yard and cried. As I cried, I just..."

She frowned and didn't continue talking.

She was suspicious every day like a fool, and the past few years had made her a mess.

The depression turned into illness, and it was difficult to relieve the stagnation. That day, lying in the rocking chair, she silently prayed to herself that she hoped to die quickly so that she would be free.

No one will suffer anymore! …

The calmer her tone was, the more depressed Xiao Yuan felt, as if someone was holding him tightly in the palm of his hand, pulling at his pain.

"I know that I dream of you lying in the rocking chair every night. An An, I am sorry for you."

It's normal for her to be afraid and to resist.

"That's not who you are now," she lowered her eyes and pursed her lips lightly, "It has nothing to do with who you are now."

She couldn't find any fault with him now.

But she didn't dare to love him wholeheartedly, because the fact was that she had no brains and no reason when she was in love! !

"You were not wrong at that time. The overall situation is indeed more important than love affairs. It's just that I was immersed in the backyard all day and didn't pay attention to those things at all."

Now that I have been involved, I realize how difficult it was for him at the beginning, and how cautious he was walking on thin ice.

The trajectory of the previous life was different, and she didn't know how the emperor dealt with him, as well as Chen Tian. Until the end, she had never heard a single word about this person.

Being able to say it calmly was a huge step forward for her.

In a relationship between a man and a woman, it is difficult to say who is right or wrong.

Hua Sheng liked Qi Jinping and lost his life in pursuit of him, but was Qi Jinping wrong? He even had only sporadic memories of Hua Sheng.

Xiao Yuan didn't say anything, closed his eyes, and put his head on her shoulder.

Every night, as soon as he fell asleep, he would repeat the scene in Wutong Garden over and over again, a cycle of pain and madness.

"I was troubled by it, but now it seems that I deserve it."

"What?" Shen Anan tilted her head and looked at him.

"Nothing." He curled his lips lightly and held her in his arms.

"An An, he was never worthy of forgiveness at that time, but I really like you."

Shen Anan's heart trembled slightly.

He knew that there must be many details that she had never said, and those grudges would be deeply buried in her heart and she would never forget them.

He needs to lighten the hideousness little by little.

"Were you afraid during those two times at the Tianshui City government office and in the back mountain?"

Shen Anan blinked, “Some.”

After all, she was a girl who was afraid of ghosts even when walking at night. How could she not be afraid after killing so many people?

But along the way, they will encounter many such things.

Xiao Yuan's eyes were calm, and he stroked her head with his big hand again and again, as if he was comforting a child.

"Just go home. I'll protect you at home."

"Master, the Crown Princess." Qingfeng's anxious voice came in.

The flickering candlelight cast a clear silhouette of the two people hugging each other on the window paper.

Shen Anan immediately withdrew from Xiao Yuan's arms.

"Speak." Xiao Yuan frowned and spoke unhappily.

"The Second Prince's mansion is in flames."

Shen Anan was slightly startled.

She turned around and opened the door.

Qingfeng didn't dare to look up, "Prince's Consort."

"Who else is in the mansion?"

"The water is flowing in the main courtyard. It is said that Concubine Duan lives there."

The emperor ordered that she must never leave the Second Prince's Mansion, and since she was a lunatic, she naturally ruled the country.

Shen Anan was silent for a few breaths before asking, "Who did this?"

"It seems to be her, but..."

"She kept screaming in there that she wanted to see the princess."

She was a useless person, and the emperor had no reason to kill her.

"Don't pay any attention to her." Xiao Yuan walked out slowly, "That woman is a lunatic."

Qingfeng whispered, "She said that she did so much to help the prince's wife, and one should not burn bridges after crossing them."

Shen Anan pulled the corner of his lips, "Prepare the carriage, I'll go take a look."

The distance from the Fourth Prince's Mansion to the Second Prince's Mansion was not far, but if the fire was too big, Duan Yingying would have been dead by the time she arrived.

Xiao Yuan, "I'll go with you."

Shen Anan nodded, lifted her skirt and walked out, asking Qingfeng, "How is the fire?"

"When I came back to report, it was still not big. Only one wing room was burned."

Shen Anan frowned, “No one put out the fire?”

"The ones left in the Second Prince's mansion are his former concubines. They are bullied by Concubine Duan every day. Who would be willing to save her?"

It's good as long as you don't step on it.

Shen Anan frowned.

"Why doesn't she come out on her own?" They only burned a side room, which is far away from the main house, so she could just run out.

Xiao Yuan, who was sitting opposite her, spoke calmly, "My father had someone put a chronic poison in her daily diet. It won't kill her, but it will cause unbearable pain."

So for her, living is worse than death.

Shen Anan was silent.

Killing people is not the right path. The emperor always does things in a sinister way.

The carriage stopped at the gate of the Second Prince's mansion. Qingfeng spoke a few words to the gatekeeper, who then opened the gate and let everyone in.

At this time, the main courtyard was already engulfed in flames. It was a dry winter day, so the fire spread quickly and was still spreading rapidly.

Shen Anan paused at the entrance of the main courtyard, and could still clearly see a blurry figure dancing in the courtyard.

"Duan Yingying."

The man paused for a moment, slowly lowered his arm and turned around.

Shen Anan's pupils suddenly shrank.

The woman in the yard was illuminated by the firelight, and the scar on her face from the corner of her eye to her chin was particularly hideous and glaring.

In just one month, how could she become like this?

Were you tortured by Zhou?

"You're finally back?" She sighed softly, "Do you know how long I've been waiting for you? Why didn't you come back earlier? If you had come earlier, you could have witnessed my achievements with your own eyes."

Shen Anan said nothing, just stared at her.

Duan Yingying continued in a hoarse voice, "In this imperial city, no one understands me or appreciates me. Only you know my cleverness and methods."