Chapter 10: Digression can be skipped

There is still some time, and I am sorry to take up space to talk about something off-topic, but I want to tell you about my impressions of the concert yesterday. This was my first time to see BB's concert. I came to Shanghai alone because I am not good at finding my way. This was my first time in Shanghai. My friends around me said I was crazy. It was probably the first time they saw that I had such potential. In fact, I think it's okay. I know what I am doing. What I do for them is something I am capable of and happy to pay for them.

I think everyone should be like me. When you have pursuits, you feel that your life becomes fulfilling, even if these pursuits may seem like nothing to outsiders.

Even when I sat in the venue, it still felt a little unreal. I never thought I would be a fan. I started liking him this summer, but I felt that I only liked the boy I wrote about. I didn't expect to meet the real person so soon - I didn't think about meeting him in person. I think many people are like me. Many thoughts come up in a flash. For example, when I was reading a fan fiction, I was suddenly moved by GD, who was a supporting character in the article. Then I realized that I could like someone so far away from us.

I admit, I went to this concert specifically for GD. Of course, Taeyang, as the second-highest male idol, was also an honor to even see him. I'd say at least half the crowd was there for GD. Anyone who's been to their concert or wandered around the area would have noticed: the brochures, postcards, photo albums, matching clothing and perfume, and so on, were mostly GD's. There were also quite a few fans coming and going wearing the same clothes, shoes, and hats as G-Dragon. On the way into the Mercedes, I heard scalpers yelling, "Do you want G-Dragon?" and it made me laugh. While comparisons shouldn't be made, it's such a huge influence that it makes me strangely proud. The people sitting around me—the guy in front and the girl to my left—felt very quiet. While everyone else was screaming, they just shook their crown lights to the beat. But when G-Dragon came on stage, you could almost feel the excitement. I don't know if it's a professional hazard, but I love observing these small, subtle changes. Everyone's going crazy for him.

I'd like to digress here. Because the theme of this concert is "Stars Shine on Christmas Eve", the ticket did not clearly state the baby's information. After I went on stage, I heard a couple next to me discussing something. Well, judging by their age, they were under 85. The boy was complaining, "...Why does it feel wrong to me? I don't know anyone...And isn't it called "Stars Shine"? There are only three of us and you still have the nerve to call us "Stars..." His girlfriend also said, "I don't understand it at all." I couldn't help laughing at the time. It was so embarrassing.

: Let's continue talking about the concert. The order of appearance was Taeyang, Seungri and GD. I actually felt that the host was a bit redundant. The time was short, and she had to talk so much, which was really annoying. However, for Taeyang's personality, having a host to help out saved some trouble. As soon as Taeyang finished his performance, he seemed like a different person, like an ordinary boy next door, friendly and sincere, and a little shy. He gave people a very well-behaved feeling. He interacted when the host asked him to, and took photos with us when he asked him to. Compared with Taeyang, Seungri was like a problem student. The host didn't have any chance to interrupt. Seungri jumped up and down by himself. His Chinese was really good. He kept saying that he loved us and Shanghai, and asked us if we loved him and BB. Sometimes he forgot the lyrics halfway through, and just smiled foolishly there. Really, he laughed foolishly many times while speaking. I couldn't understand his high point, but I inexplicably laughed foolishly with him. When he was drawing lots for the audience, the whole audience was shouting "Kiyomi" together. It was obvious that he wanted to pretend not to hear, but he burst out laughing the next second. Then he pretended to be very serious, holding the Samsung mobile phone that was going to be given away and kept saying in Chinese "This is very expensive, this is really expensive". Well, this is the first time I have seen a star who is "obsessed with money" like this. He has ruined my three views. When he was having fun taking selfies, everyone started shouting "Kiyomi" again. As a result, after he finished signing, he held up his mobile phone and emphasized "This is very expensive, this is really expensive". I finally understood why he emphasized it in the beginning. Wasn't it just to say that his autographed photos were very expensive? Well, I admit that they are indeed very expensive, and I find him more and more cute. I think everyone feels this way, so silently, everyone started shouting "Kiyomi" again. Seungri finally couldn't hide it, and asked everyone to sing with him. The sentence "Big Bang's voice is really expensive" definitely made me burst out laughing. He is so self-promoting. Seungri, you can really do it!

So the one who surprised me the most this time was Seungri - it's not that GD and Taeyang's performances were disappointing, at least now I dare say that I will never be disappointed with them, but you really can't help but love that kind of Seungri, he is humorous, lively, cheerful and generous, he was trying very hard to make everyone laugh, maybe he also knew that the time was too short, so he was very proactive in interacting with everyone, it felt like the host next to him was just a decoration, well, I like him the most.

I don't want to say much about Brother Long. I don't know if I'm thinking too much, but I always felt that he was a little tired last night and didn't interact much with everyone. Of course, he is not the kind of person who jumps around like Seungri. Just sitting there with his mouth pouting was exciting enough. The pitiful look on his face when he was holding the baby off the stage was simply amazing. He is still so cute at the age of 26. He feels like a big boy who will never grow up. It's great, but it's a pity that he didn't have fun.

This concert was so short. They didn't come out until 8 o'clock. When it ended, I checked the time: 9:14 PM. Seeing them wave goodbye, I really wanted to cry. I didn't want to leave. Even if they didn't sing or dance, how about the three of them sit down on stage and chat with us? Even if I couldn't understand them, it would still be nice to hear their voices. It's a shame the three of them didn't sing a full song together; just one would be fine.

Actually, I have some complicated feelings towards Brother Long recently. I also heard that people are digging into the affair between Brother Long and that woman. It is so detailed and infuriating. No matter how they were in the past, if they are still together and doing well, if this is true, I don’t know how I should treat him. Not to mention the character of that woman, she used his fame to hype herself, and there was also the news about the m woman and g man a while ago. Although it is not up to us to say whether Kiko Mizuhara is worthy of him, they can do whatever they want. But as a Chinese, I will absolutely not accept that woman!

So recently I sometimes wonder what to do if they are true, but after thinking about it, I still feel that I can't become a black fan, but I probably won't love him anymore - suddenly I have a feeling that once you have seen the sea, you will find other waters dull -_-||| I really hope I am thinking too much.

I don't know if this will be my last Long Ge fanfic, but I certainly hope not. With any luck, I might write another after this one's finished. Actually, I really love Seungri right now. And Taeyang, you know what? I'm actually increasingly tempted to cast him as the male lead—of course, that's impossible, because he's not the male lead. That's why I felt comfortable writing him so well, because I didn't want him to be tormented by the female lead. But regardless, this is my last Long Ge tormenting fic. If I continue, it'll probably be a heartwarming and cheerful one. That's why I call this the Ultimate Male God Torture. I think I can pull it off. Really, after all this time laying the groundwork, you should know the female lead's personality. She still holds onto her principles, but soon she'll realize that nothing compares to returning home. So... of course, I can guarantee this fic will end in a happy ending. Don't worry, no matter how the plot twists, it's inevitable. That's my guiding principle when writing.

I've been getting really tortured by Brother Long lately. I couldn't sleep last night. If he dares to make me miserable in real life, I'll make him be in this story!!! (Ahem, just kidding, my friends should know that I only write happy endings)

Finally, Merry Christmas to everyone in Shanghai! Piers, this is half an extra chapter, ahem, I didn't get to bed until almost 4am yesterday, so I'm going to rest and recuperate now, as I have to catch a flight tomorrow. Muah.