Chapter 391 Regret

Seeing Su Mo's actions, Shen Yuexi heard a buzzing sound in her ears.

Su Mo wants to jump off a cliff and commit suicide.

At that moment, time seemed to slow down. The sound of the wind in her ears disappeared, and everything around her became blurry, except for Su Mo in front of her.

She heard her heart beating "boom", and the blood was violently pushed to her head and limbs, while every pore of her skin was tightening. The blood had nowhere to be released, and it turned into surging waves that hit her legs and pushed her towards Su Mo.

One step, two steps... fine snow foam splashed around under her feet like an explosion.

Su Mo stood on the edge of the cliff, life and death hanging by a thread. She wanted to catch her before she took that step and tell her that there were many people in this world who cared about her, that her father wanted her to live well, and that her brother and sister-in-law also wanted her to live well.

She wanted to tell her that the dead could not be resurrected and death could only bring eternal sleep.

Life is precious because we only have one. If there were an afterlife, death would be a joke.

However, Su Mo didn't wait for her. Without hesitation, she opened her arms and jumped off the edge of the cliff. She turned around and looked at her in the air. Her eyes were filled with sadness and reluctance. Two crystal tears sparkled in the air and slowly fell with their owner.

The next moment, her feet stepped into Su Mo's footprints, leaving long snow marks on the ground, and then she also slid off the edge of the cliff.

She did not consider her own situation, but stretched out her right hand towards Su Mo who was slowly falling, stretching out her fingers, hoping that her fingers could hook Su Mo's sleeve, hair, or anything that could pull her.

She didn't want Su Mo to die. Not only because Su Mo had helped her and Chen Lan before, but also because she believed from the bottom of her heart that a kind woman should never end up like this.

If there really are gods in the world, she would pray to them to let Su Mo survive.

Even if it was a fairy tale or a dream, she hoped that she could hook Su Mo's sleeve and pull her up.

Su Mo has suffered too much pain. She has experienced the pain that Mei Dai has experienced, and has also suffered the torture that Chen Lan has suffered. She watched her lover fall into the abyss, but was powerless to do anything. She endured her lover's betrayal, but had nowhere to turn.

However, the god did not respond after all. Her fingertips brushed against Su Mo's sleeve. As the latter fell into darkness, she found herself losing her balance and fell off the cliff.

"It's over!" Shen Yuexi lamented in her heart, "I went too far."

Su Mo was determined to die, but she didn't want to. She hadn't really enjoyed life yet, and her life wasn't hers alone. Her child hadn't seen the world yet.

She apologized in her heart: "Baby, Mommy is so stupid. She sacrificed herself in order to save others."

It’s all because of the damn snow, it’s too slippery.

Her mind flashed through scenes from her life in this world: from the moment she met Xiao Zhuo, when she broke open a muddy steamed bun and handed it to him. Then... Xiao Zhuo grabbed the back of her collar and pulled her back hard.

Strangely, she didn't remember Xiao Zhuo doing this.

But the next moment she realized that this was not a memory, but something that was happening in reality.

A strong force came from behind her collar, pulling her body back from the abyss. As she fell backwards, she saw a long rope thrown down the cliff from the corner of her eye.

Shen Yuexi sat down in the snow and slid back a short distance. Fortunately, she was wearing thick cotton pants and the snow didn't hurt much.

Time returned to normal, the whistling sound of the wind returned to her ears, and she felt the coldness of the wind on her face again.

She supported herself on the ground with her hands, her heart beating violently, and she gasped for breath. She looked at the dark shadow on the cliff. The shadow's hands were pulling the straight rope upwards.

Su Mo's face first appeared on the cliff, then her body. The rope wrapped around her waist, snatching her back from the clutches of death.

A huge joy filled Shen Yuexi's heart. She couldn't believe this was real, thinking it was a dream. She rubbed her eyes vigorously and pinched her face.

My face hurts. This isn't a dream. The shadow is holding Su Mo tightly in his arms. He left the cliff and stood in a safe place. Then the shadow speaks in a low and sad voice.

"Momo, I don't want you to die. I'm the one who should die, not you."

It was Xiao Beiheng. It was Xiao Beiheng who grabbed her collar in time to rescue her, and then rescued Su Mo with a rope.

Shen Yuexi struggled to stand, her legs shaking, her heart filled with excitement and fear. If Xiao Beiheng had been even a step later, she and Su Mo would both have died.

All this is definitely not a coincidence. It is obvious that Xiao Beiheng has been secretly following the convoy and arrived at this critical moment.

The despair just now was as deep as the joy now. But she didn't want to disturb them. The two of them had just experienced life and death, and they must have something to say to each other.

Su Mo didn't answer, staring blankly at Xiao Beiheng in front of her, seemingly still unaware. After staring at him for a long while, she whispered, "Beiheng?"

Xiao Beiheng bent his knees and knelt in the snow. He wrapped his arms around Su Mo's legs and pressed his tear-stained cheek against hers.

"Momo, forgive me, forgive me, forgive me..."

He couldn't say anything kind, only repeating this sentence, crying as he spoke, like a child who had done something terribly wrong, tearfully begging for his parents' forgiveness.

When Shen Yuexi took Su Mo away from Bai Xiushan, he led the cavalry to chase her. At that time, he thought that Su Mo must not be used as a means for the other party to threaten him. But he did not think about why the other party could use Su Mo to threaten him.

When he fled with Su Mo after his defeat at Leshan City, he thought that he must take Su Mo with him so that he could get support when he met the Anzhou army. He never considered that if he abandoned Su Mo and fled alone, the Qiang Lin would not be able to catch up with him on his black horse.

When he was at his wit's end, he consoled himself that only by sending Su Mo away could he escape. But he didn't know why he knelt at Su Mo's feet and cried bitterly instead of kidnapping her directly.

Only later did he realize that those selfish thoughts didn't come from his heart. He loved Su Mo deeply without realizing it, and his selfishness suppressed his love, making him rude, cold, and cruel. It wasn't until he lost her that he felt the excruciating pain of tears.

Some precious things seem meaningless when possessed, only to be pierced with grief when lost. If this loss is irreparable and irreplaceable, the heartache becomes eternal. Time cannot dilute the pain, and the frost and wind cannot heal the scars, even to the end of life.

He saved Su Mo and hugged her tightly. At this moment, all his pride and reserve were no longer important.

Su Mo smiled and put her hand on his head: "Beiheng, you already know that I am willing to sacrifice everything for you. Why bother to talk about forgiveness." After saying that, she also shed two lines of tears.

Xiao Beiheng raised his tear-stained face and whispered, "Momo, promise me you will live well and don't commit suicide again."

Su Mo wiped her tears with her sleeve and said, "I promise you, I will never do such a stupid thing again."

Xiao Beiheng then stood up and walked in front of Shen Yuexi, kneeling down again.

"Sister-in-law, thank you so much for rescuing Momo from King Doma. Please accept my greeting."

Thinking of the scene just now, Shen Yuexi was still frightened and said, "Sister-in-law, isn't it your duty to save your sister-in-law? It's all thanks to you that you came just now, otherwise we would have both fallen."

Xiao Beiheng took off the Yanque sword from his waist, held it in both hands and handed it to Shen Yuexi.

He once regarded this sword as his life, but now he knew that Su Mo was the most precious treasure in his heart, and this sword was insignificant.

This sword can cut through the hardest black armor, but it cannot cut through his cold heart. It only makes his heart more hardened and cold-blooded through killing. Only Su Mo's love and sacrifice can melt his heart and awaken his long-dormant humanity.

"Sister-in-law, I know I have committed serious sins and do not seek forgiveness. I only want to be with Momo before I die. I don't want this sword anymore."

Shen Yuexi originally wanted to say, you did do a lot of bad things, but if it weren't for you, your sister-in-law and Su Mo would have fallen to their deaths long ago. What's more, it was your mother Pei Jingyun who turned you into this person. What does a child know?

But then she thought again, even if she was willing to forgive, could Mei Dai forgive him, could Chen Lan forgive him, could Qiang Lin forgive him, not to mention his dead father and those innocent people.

She couldn't make the decision on this matter. She should wait for Xiao Zhuo to come and let him decide.

She reached out and took the Yanque Sword. This was the first time she touched the Yanque Sword. When her fingers brushed across the delicate patterns on the scabbard and she lifted the sword, she felt it was heavy. She couldn't hold it with one hand at all and had to hold it with both hands.

Xiao Beiheng pulled out a small yellow silk package from his bosom and handed it to Shen Yuexi, saying, "This is the imperial seal of Great Yan. Please give it to my brother. I don't want it anymore."

Shen Yuexi was stunned, thinking that both the throne and the sword were the things that Xiao Beiheng once valued most. Does he really not want them anymore?

She looked at Su Mo, and Su Mo smiled and said, "Sister-in-law, just accept it."

Shen Yuexi took the jade seal, but having nowhere to put it, she simply fastened it to her belt like a jade pendant. She thought, this is the symbol of the emperor, for whom so many people fought so hard, and to have it casually tied to her belt like this, isn't that disrespectful? She'll give it to Xiao Zhuo as soon as he arrives.

After she fastened the jade seal, Su Mo called out, "Sister-in-law, I feel so cold. Let's go down the mountain quickly."

After Su Mo reminded her, Shen Yuexi realized that her toes were numb from the cold. She had to go back to the fire and warm herself up. She held the Yanque Sword and followed Xiao Beiheng and his wife towards the camp at the foot of the mountain.

A bonfire was still burning in the camp at the foot of the mountain. The firelight illuminated the tents in the camp and the dozens of carriages lined up on the road not far away, which were particularly conspicuous in the white snow.

Since the war was over, the army was moving slowly. Mei Dai had only arranged for a hundred soldiers to escort Su Mo to Shengjing. The main army lagged behind, resting in Leshan City. Most of the carriages were carrying supplies, with only a few suitable for living.

Seeing the firelight, Shen Yuexi was delighted. She took two quick steps, walked past Xiao Beiheng and his wife, and said, "You guys follow behind. I'll go talk to Sister Mei and the others first."

"Wait, something's wrong in the camp," Xiao Beiheng called out to her, "Don't you see a lot of people lying on the ground?"

Only then did Shen Yuexi notice that next to the fire, at the exit of the tent, there seemed to be dozens of people lying on the ground, as if they were sleeping.

It was late at night, and apart from a few soldiers guarding the fire, most people were resting in their cars. How could there be so many people lying outside? Not even one of them was up and moving around, which was a bit strange.

The three of them approached cautiously, hid behind a carriage carrying tents at the end of the convoy, and looked at the camp on the side of the road.

The people lying on the ground were soldiers escorting the convoy. She had been through many battles and could tell at a glance that these soldiers were dead, but she didn't know where their injuries were.

She was shocked and looked at Xiao Beiheng. Xiao Beiheng mistakenly thought that she was doubting him, so he habitually frowned and said, "This matter has nothing to do with me."

Su Mo said, "Bei Heng, don't be rude to your sister-in-law."

Xiao Beiheng quickly changed his words and said, "Sister-in-law, this is an attack on the camp, it is definitely not my fault."

Shen Yuexi exclaimed: "What about my two sisters?"

She was worried about the safety of Mei Dai and Shen Lan, so she looked towards the carriage where Mei Dai and Shen Lan were in the middle of the convoy. She saw that the door was open and swaying slightly in the wind. There seemed to be light inside, but there sounded no movement.

She was anxious and was about to shout, but after her eyes swept over the corpses of soldiers on the ground, she stopped talking, raised the Yanque Sword in her hand towards Xiao Beiheng, and nodded forward.

Xiao Beiheng understood and took the Yanque Sword, but said, "It might be dangerous for you to stay here. Come with me to check it out."

Su Mo also said: "Sister-in-law, we two don't know martial arts, it's safer to stay with Bei Heng."

Shen Yuexi nodded, and the three of them tiptoed towards the center of the convoy.