Chapter 193 Can You Like Me

"But what if I don't want to cut my losses?" Yan Xing's voice was low and soothing, yet it was secretly tough: "Lu Chenyang, do you want me?"

Lu Chenyang was suddenly startled. The distance was too close. He wanted to push him away, but Yan Xing's big hand clamped him tightly, preventing him from retreating.

Lu Chenyang felt dry mouth and tongue. He could feel his breathing and heartbeat, which made him feel out of control. He didn't like this feeling.

Yan Xing forced him to look at himself: "It has nothing to do with identity, regardless of worldly matters, it's just me, Lu Chenyang, do you want me?"

Lu Chenyang understood what he meant, but he couldn't move his head. He lowered his eyes: "Yan Xing, between you and me, it can never be just us. Our identities are destined to be impossible."

Yan Xing suddenly became furious and shouted, "What's this about status and worldly views? Lu Chenyang, I only want you. As long as you nod, you don't have to worry about anything. Leave everything to me."

Lu Chenyang frowned subconsciously, his fingers unconsciously clenched together, his nails dug into his palms, causing bursts of stinging pain.

If he had met him as Lu Xueyin, there wouldn't be so many obstacles between them, but she is not like that now.

"My Lord, there are many beautiful women out there, why are you so persistent?" Lu Chenyang tried to reason with him, "We are both men, and this is unethical. What's more, I spread the rumor about gay men just to refuse marriage, I don't really like men. If you like men, I..."

"I don't like men, I like you." Yan Xing interrupted him: "If you were a woman, I would like women, but you are a man. I like you, Lu Chenyang, you as a person. Lu Chenyang, don't avoid me, don't reject me. You can not accept me, but don't doubt my feelings for you."

Lu Chenyang was stunned for a moment.

Yan Xing continued, "I know all your concerns and hesitations, and I hesitated for a long time. I've thought about it for a long time. If we were together, not only would the worldly affairs, but also our positions would become more complicated. The world is still unsettled, and there are too many obstacles between us."

Lu Chenyang didn't expect him to say that. It was obvious that he had thought it through thoroughly a long time ago.

"Since you already know, why do you still want it..." Lu Chenyang said subconsciously.

Why do you insist on being so stubborn when you know there are so many obstacles between you? A smart person would know that burying this feeling and never mentioning it again is the best option for both of you.

Yan Xing gave a bitter smile. "Because I can't help it, because I can't help it. Lu Chenyang, if I could choose, I wouldn't like you. I also want to choose someone of equal status, find a virtuous wife, and live a comfortable life without having to fight anything. But I can't help it, I still like you. After weighing the pros and cons and thinking it over again and again, I found that if I choose you, no matter how many correct answers there are, I can't convince myself."

Lu Chenyang was shocked. This was the first time he faced such straightforward feelings.

He likes him.

Even though he knew there were many difficulties, he still liked him.

Lu Chenyang suddenly didn't know what to say, he just felt his heart beating too fast.

Yan Xing looked at him stubbornly, "Lu Chenyang, I told you this after careful consideration. I've also thought that with so many difficulties, it's better to just give up. Who can I spend my life with? How can a good man indulge in love? I've tried to be with other women, but I found that it doesn't work. I really tried hard, but I can't do it anymore."

Lu Chenyang whispered, "I'm not trying too hard, am I? I just...didn't reject the two women. If there was someone better, maybe..."

Yan Xing was both amused and annoyed, but his tone was firm: "But there will never be anyone better than you." There was a glimmer of light in his eyes, because he was looking at him: "It doesn't matter if your homosexuality is fake. You can not like men, but can you like me?"

Lu Chenyang opened his mouth and met his serious eyes, but the words on the tip of his tongue could not come out.

He wanted to reject him, but he couldn't bear to hurt his sincerity. But he really couldn't agree to it.

Do you like him? Lu Chenyang didn't know either. He only knew that when he heard those words, his heart beat like a drum like never before.

Yan Xing's eyes were sincere and focused. "The Lu Chenyang I know dared to come to Lingnan alone. He was fearless and indomitable. He had the courage to go forward even if faced with thousands of enemies. He wanted to change the world. He had the ideal of peace and prosperity. You have always been brave for the world and for the people. So, can you be brave for us too? Chenyang, you have done so much and changed the fate of so many people. You have made many impossibilities possible. Being together can't be any harder than this, right? I will work with you to find a solution. I know this road is not easy, but I will always be with you."

Lu Chenyang was stunned for a moment, his tone was filled with a hint of pleading, he had never lowered his posture like this before.

He just wanted him to be brave for once for their sake and face those difficulties.

The conversation that day ended with Lu Chenyang fleeing in panic.

Lu Chenyang hadn't expected to be so cowardly. Facing the Nanyang King's army of hundreds of thousands, he had simply thought, "Just fight, no one's afraid of anyone," and hadn't even considered running away. But faced with Yan Xing's straightforward feelings, Lu Chenyang simply ran, still feeling apprehensive.

Oh, not really. The real end was when Lu Chenyang turned around and beat the guards with thirty sticks, reorganized the guard team, and asked Tan Feng to reselect the guard team.

Lu Chenyang didn't have much time and energy to worry about Yan Xing's affairs, and he soon became busy again.