Chapter 1140 Becoming a Father?

Fangyue has never had a child. If she wants a child in this life, then let her bring it home.

Such a big mountain, can't it even support a child?

Lord Zhao was quite surprised. "I didn't expect you to be so open-minded. If you were pregnant, how would you feel?"

“Now?” Song Chunxue smiled. “That would be an unexpected joy. The arrival of any life is a gift, whether for the child or the parents.”

"It's just that worldly views are too burdensome and will treat children as monsters. If you don't care about other people's opinions, aren't afraid of trouble, and can solve all the problems on your own, then that's a good thing."

At this point, Song Chunxue's eyes darkened, "But I wouldn't actively choose such a gift. I prefer taking care of my grandson now, not being a mother."

Lord Zhao looked at her stomach. "I was wondering if you were secretly pregnant. After all, I know you said before that you wanted to try to prevent him from forgetting you by having a child."

"It's too late, I have nothing better to do." Song Chunxue didn't intend to discuss this topic. "Have you decided how you're going? Aren't you taking your apprentice with you?"

"Hmm, no, I'll go alone and see some old friends. I'll be back in about a month. You and Zhang Chengxuan will take care of the disciples. Focus on your cultivation, things will still turn around, believe me."

Things will turn around.

But she didn't want to place her hopes on a vague future; her current busyness would make her feel less melancholy.

"Alright, don't worry, Senior Brother. I will definitely take care of several disciples. I came here in the first place for quiet cultivation, and I haven't forgotten my purpose."

Lord Zhao nodded, "Then I'm relieved."

*

The next morning, Sanwa came to call Song Chunxue to have breakfast together.

A steaming bowl of clear broth noodles, topped with a few leafy greens, is simple yet comforting.

Song Chunxue asked about everything and gave repeated instructions.

"You should dress more casually. You still need to be careful when you go out. Don't be careless."

"Don't forget how much food and water you brought."

"Have you hidden what I gave you?"

"Remember to write when you get back. If anything happens on the way, just call me anytime, and I'll come to help you, okay?"

"If you still can't let go of that person..."

“Mother, it’s not that I’m reluctant to part with her, it’s just that I was blinded before. Now that I understand the key points, I will definitely investigate when I get back. I will not let Mulan down. I was wrong before, and I will definitely apologize to her properly. Please supervise me, Mother.”

Song Chunxue nodded. "In any case, we must be careful."

Lord Zhao entered the dining hall. "I'll go down the mountain with him. Don't think too much about it. I'll make sure he's safely delivered before I get back to my business."

Song Chunxue is sure she can rest assured that her eldest brother will be going down the mountain with the third child.

"Then I'll have to trouble you, Senior Brother."

Lord Zhao lowered his voice, "Don't you want to pass on a message to Lord Xie?"

“If he has truly forgotten me, these words will only bother him and might even make him hate me. You'd better not mention me in front of him. As for our relationship, I'll keep it to myself.”

Lord Zhao sighed helplessly, "Alright then, I won't mention it."

Halfway through my noodles, Senior Sister Fangyue arrived.

She sat opposite Song Chunxue, staring at her intently without saying a word.

Song Chunxue felt uncomfortable being stared at. "Senior sister, what's wrong? Let's talk about it after we finish eating. Although breakfast wasn't very flavorful, it was delicious. There was mushroom sauce."

Fangyue ordered a bowl of noodles and wolfed it down in front of them.

Song Chunxue knew that she had something on her mind to say, but not now.

Before long, Master Zhang arrived, and he and his group escorted Sanwa and Lord Zhao down the mountain.

Watching her own son lead the donkey, chatting and laughing with Lord Zhao as they walked further and further away, Song Chunxue felt a pang of sadness.

In this life, Sanwa's fate changed, but his back remained straight, and the coarse cloth clothes he wore were much cleaner than when he was farming.

In this lifetime, he no longer needs to carry stones, nor does he need to dig for licorice roots to save money for medicine in his old age.

What more could she possibly want?

"Ah Xue, what's it like raising a child? Are you willing to separate from him?"

Suddenly, Fangyue spoke softly from the side, staring thoughtfully at Sanwa's departing figure.

Song Chunxue immediately turned her head, "Senior Sister, are you really pregnant?"

"I can't feel your pulse yet, but I've been having a lot of dreams these past two days, and I feel uncomfortable when I eat. I can't stand even the slightest fishy smell, so I came to ask you if I might be pregnant?"

Fangyue looked down at her stomach and gently stroked it. "If I'm really pregnant, it would be a terrible fate. I'm wondering whether I should keep it."

"If we stay, won't we be harming him?"

Are children without fathers looked down upon?

Song Chunxue asked, "Then will you love him, cherish him, and give him the best of everything?"

“I…I don’t know yet, but I want to keep him,” Fangyue looked at Song Chunxue. “Actually, I’ve always envied you. As a woman, I once thought about marrying a good husband, and I envied you and Xie Zheng being a perfect couple. But now, I feel that fate is playing tricks on us. But the child will always be yours.”

“Yes, if you want to stay, then give birth. With so many senior uncles, aunts, and brothers, can’t we accommodate one child?” Song Chunxue held Fangyue’s hand. “Even without a father, the child will have the care of elders and will not be any worse than others.”

Fangyue excitedly grasped her hand, "Really? Junior sister, you don't think I'm acting on emotion and treating childbirth like a game?"

“It’s just one child. I’ve had five. I’ve survived when we didn’t have enough to eat or wear. And you’re just worried about the child’s father’s love and you blame yourself. If you don’t worry, then it’s fine. Your heart is in your own belly, and no one can interfere with that.”

Fangyue murmured to herself, "No one can interfere, my heart is in my own stomach... Yes, what I think is important, what do other people's thoughts have to do with me. As long as I don't lose my composure, others are just my foils..."

“That’s right, how you live is your business. Why think so much? You’re not a pitiful daughter-in-law trapped in your husband’s family. You’re my third senior brother and sister. You’re extraordinary.”

As the descendant of a disgraced official, Fangyue's greatest desire is for her family to grow stronger and restore its former glory. She must love children more than most people do.

If she loves that man, then she has no reason not to have the child.

She was just confused.

"Thank you so much, Song Chunxue!" Fangyue hugged her tightly. "I knew it, I knew our junior brother was no ordinary person. You've enlightened me."

As she spoke, Fangyue turned to Zhang Chengxuan with delight and said, "Junior Brother, I want to have a child, I want to raise a child!"

"Okay, raise it, we'll help you."

"If he insists on having a father in the future, and you happen to not have children, I wonder if you would be willing to be his father."

"Huh?" Zhang Chengxuan's eyes widened, and he took a big step back. "Become a father?!?"