Chapter 655 You Care About Me

Tears streamed down her face, and she herself was completely bewildered.

Song Chunxue sheds tears out of guilt and heartache, but not because she is reluctant to part with Xie Zheng.

So she belatedly realized that she had the illusion that she had been forced into this situation.

If she hadn't given birth and hadn't lived two lives, she might have fallen in love with Xie Zheng long ago because of his sincere heart, and abandoned everything to stay by his side, never leaving him for a moment.

She had always known that she was easily moved and easily touched.

A person who has been lonely for too long will be drawn to anyone who treats her well, like a moth drawn to a flame, throwing herself into their arms without hesitation.

But now that she has cultivated herself, she has begun to face everything squarely, so she doesn't want to delay someone's life in a muddled and half-hearted manner.

Although she knew she could continue to play dumb and continue to enjoy Xie Zheng's kindness towards her.

Even if it means offering oneself in marriage, like a Taoist priest of the Zhengyi sect, one can still cultivate oneself while settling down and living a normal life.

However, now that she had discovered it, she wouldn't allow herself to pretend not to know.

She looked at Xie Zheng again, "Are you and your senior brother hiding something from me?"

Xie Zheng's silence only confirmed her suspicions.

Thinking back carefully, they had encountered bandits, and she was hit by a poisoned arrow, while Xie Zheng happened to be passing by.

Furthermore, they had previously gone to the vicinity of Mount Kongtong. Xie Zheng was clearly heading directly north, so why did they coincidentally run into each other?

The strangest thing is that after they met, the senior brother made up an excuse to go find his former master.

But there's a lot of suspicion that they're trying to fool her.

She could ignore it before, but now she doesn't want to.

Especially when she saw that signs of him being attracted to other women reappeared on his face.

She knew before she came to Beijing that Xie Zheng, at his age, was still a hot commodity in the eyes of many women.

His sister wants him to have another child, preferably a boy.

She shouldn't have believed his lies in the first place, letting him use the relationship of fellow disciples to delay things again and again.

Back in Jincheng, at the Wang family's banquet that night, Xie Zheng said he would leave someday.

At that moment, she blurted out those words because of a sudden pang of fear, and selfishly wanted to go to Jiangnan with her senior brother, promising to give him an answer when they returned to Jincheng.

She remembered; the memories she had deliberately avoided, all the important details.

Xie Zheng handed over the handkerchief again, and Song Chunxue took it.

She wiped away her tears and looked at him calmly.

"I'm sorry, it turns out I'm just like many women, being unreasonable and avoiding the real issues." She took a deep breath. "I'm asking you, on that night at the Wang family banquet, did you say that you might leave in the future?"

Xie Zheng lowered his head. "I can't remember. Sister Song, don't blame yourself. It's not your fault. Human love is inherently unequal. You can stay or leave. My heart is with me. It has nothing to do with you."

"..." The tears that had just been suppressed welled up in her eyes again.

Song Chunxue turned her gaze away, listening to the increasingly dense rumble of thunder, and the overwhelming raindrops pounding on the roof and in the yard.

Xie Zheng walked over and gently hugged him from behind.

Song Chunxue instinctively tried to struggle, even though she didn't reject the feeling.

“Don’t move. If you feel guilty, let me hug you,” he said in a low, sorrowful voice, gently nuzzling her ear with his chin. “Listen to the rain for a while. At least you said you wanted to try with me.”

"But……"

"I know you're somewhat attracted to me, but you have too many concerns and aren't as determined as I am. You just feel sorry for me."

She remained frozen in place.

"Moreover, the reason you're telling me all this at this time is simply because you're afraid that if things continue like this with me, we'll eventually have to be intimate, or you'll face the question of whether or not you should have my child, right?"

"..." Song Chunxue bit her lip and remained silent.

"You won't admit you're a coward. Do you even know why you're afraid of these things?"

She bit her lower lip until it bled, swallowed it, and calmly shook her head. "I don't know, and don't talk nonsense."

The thunder and rain grew louder and louder, and the entire capital city was engulfed in the sound of the torrential rain.

Her heart calmed down considerably.

"Because you have a wound in your heart that has never been healed. Over the years, raising your children alone, you must have resented and hated countless times, and you must have thought about your marriage in the first place, denied marrying the father of your third child, and even denied men. After becoming a widow, you hate men."

"..." Her face turned pale, unable to refute.

Yes, she used to hate men.

When I go to work in the fields and encounter the men from the village, I feel disgusted by their malicious gazes.

Later, when people came to climb over the wall in the middle of the night, she threatened them with a kitchen knife and confronted them with an axe. Even if the people covered their faces, she knew who they were.

She despised men to the core.

Compared to those people, Li Dazui is practically a saint.

So later she hated it when people tried to find her a husband or arrange marriages for her.

Even though her life got better and better after meeting the Taoist priest, she still felt so insignificant and unworthy of Xie Zheng in the middle of the night.

This thought is ever-present; it may be forgotten occasionally, but it will always resurface.

When Song Chunxue came to her senses, she found herself leaning against him.

Her cheeks flushed; even if she wanted to make things clear, now wasn't the time.

"You...you go ahead and get busy. I heard from Liu Chunshu that the higher-ups want you to stay. There have been a lot of people coming to deliver invitations these past two days. We'll talk about it after you're done with your work."

Her prepared explanation was completely dismantled by his few words.

She almost forgot what she was going to say.

She needs to calm down and be better prepared next time.

"Hmm," Xie Zheng patted her head, "Isn't it better to just let things take their course? Isn't it a waste of your brain to think so much?"

She wouldn't waver, saying, "Life should be lived clearly and honestly; I don't want to fool you."

"Alright, I'll get back to work now. The Emperor's affairs cannot be taken lightly. I need to write a memorial."

"Hmm." She needed to sort things out carefully so that she wouldn't be easily fooled by him next time.

"The kitchen made braised fish, it'll be delivered later. Don't get too thin after coming to the capital." He walked out of the house, turned to her and smiled, "Rain makes you sleepy, take a nap."

"Um."

Suddenly, Wuyou rushed out of the Qiankun Bag.

Her heart jumped, and she instinctively ran outside.

"Whoosh!"

"Bang!"

In a flash, she rushed outside and saw Xie Zheng lying on the ground, struck by an arrow.

Three arrows were fired in total, but Wuyou blocked the other two.

Song Chunxue's mind went blank for a moment, then she raised her hand and rushed out with Wuyou in tow.

The torrential rain pelted my face and eyelids, making it hard to open my eyes, and my clothes were instantly soaked.

She rushed to the direction from which the arrow had been shot, and out of the corner of her eye, she saw a dark figure chasing after it just like her. She then ran wildly toward another person carrying a bow and arrow!

But as she chased after him, she quickly turned back.

Saving lives is the priority; Xie Zheng cannot be allowed to get hurt!

With such heavy rain, Liu Chunshu and the others might not be able to hear anything.

"Sister Song, see? You care about me so much, you've lost your composure." Xie Zheng said with difficulty, "Don't worry, I'm fine..."

Before he could finish speaking, he tilted his head and fainted.

P.S.: I saw some people feeling sorry for Xie Zheng, and some said that this couple was being forced into a relationship. I was sad for two days. So guess, whose love tribulation is this?

You'll never guess, because I dare not say; it's a secret. So, whoever you think it belongs to, that's who it belongs to.