Chapter 42: No need for the sudden drop in temperature in Vancouver at night...

The temperature in Vancouver dropped sharply at night, and the cold wind blew away Gu Xingjue's words. When they reached Chen Song's ears, the voice was very soft. I don't know if it was Chen Song's illusion, but it seemed a little trembling.

Chen Song was silent for a moment, then he exhaled softly, his voice cold and calm. "Gu Xingjue, I'm not angry anymore. I just don't love you anymore."

Gu Xingjue stepped forward and hugged him, wishing he could melt into his bones and blood. "No, you don't love me. Stop talking, please stop talking. I can't listen to it anymore. I really can't listen to it anymore. I know it's my fault. I let you down for three years. Everyone makes mistakes. I'm not a saint. I can change."

"Three years of love, and you just say you don't want it anymore," Gu Xingjue choked up. "You're so cruel, Chen Song."

Chen Song's heart tightened, but he didn't struggle. He knew that if Gu Xingjue hadn't let go, he wouldn't have been able to break free. But no matter how much Gu Xingjue tried to keep him, he couldn't move him anymore.

His heart felt dead, no longer beating. The phone call on Christmas Eve was like a thorny bush that had pierced his heart, growing wildly and engulfing it. The slightest breath would cause blood to seep out of his heart and lungs.

So the heart is dead like a volcano, so it can no longer feel any pain.

Chen Song let him hold him, his voice cold and calm: "Yes, I don't want it anymore."

Gu Xingjue's arm passed over the back of his neck, and his broad, calloused palm stroked his cheek with pressure, domineeringly conveying the hot temperature, forcing Chen Song to look up at Gu Xingjue.

Gu Xingjue's face was covered in wounds, and his almost twisted brows and eyes were filled with unbearable emotions. He said, "No. I don't agree. You clearly love me to death. Chen Song, I apologize for my immature behavior last night. I'm almost going crazy looking for you."

"I shouldn't... I shouldn't have distrusted you, shouldn't have questioned your sincerity," Gu Xingjue explained incoherently and hurriedly, "I was too impulsive. I missed you so much that I almost went crazy. Don't tell those lies to get rid of me. I don't trust that person yesterday, Yun Jingsheng..."

He paused, his voice a little hoarse, and after a moment's silence he continued, "It's too painful for me to hear. You said I don't understand you, so how about I start from now on?"

Seeing that Chen Song remained indifferent, Gu Xingjue hurriedly pulled out the necklace from his collar. A silver ring dangled from it. "Look, I found it. This is your ring."

Gu Xingjue opened his sleeves again, the red string gleaming brightly against his fair skin. He put his five fingers together and stretched out the back of his straight hand to show Chen Song: "I found them all. The bracelet and the ring. I've put them on. I won't lose them. Really, trust me, okay. And your diary, I also... I read it too. I'm sorry I didn't come on your birthday. It was a welcoming party for Xie Yanchen to join the army, and I couldn't refuse. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I won't do it again, okay, Chen Song."

Gu Xingjue took out his last trump card, with a bright light flashing in his deep eyes, hoping that Chen Song would be moved. Just a little bit could rekindle his hope.

Chen Song's gray-black eyes were as cold and clear as a pale lake, unable to stir up any ripples. He calmly glanced at the ring on Gu Xingjue's hand, then raised his eyes to look at Gu Xingjue: "We have no future."

Gu Xingjue's expectant blood instantly froze into ice. He let go of Chen Song in disappointment, and the light in his eyes gradually dimmed.

Chen Song took a step back, stood in the wind and said, "Go home quickly, this is not the place for you."

The corners of Gu Xingjue's stiff mouth moved downwards, and he said, "I don't have a home."

After a moment of silence, he looked at Chen Song with a blurry vision and said, "Didn't you say that? I don't have a home, and neither do you. You have to give me a home, so that we both have a home."

Chen Song couldn't bear Gu Xingjue's tears, and hurriedly looked away, his thin lips trembling slightly: "But I don't want to give it to you."

"What do these mean?" Gu Xingjue growled, grabbing Chen Song's shoulders. "Bracelets, rings, the love you said in your diary, what do they mean?! I know you can't let me go, I know. If that's the case, why can't we reconcile?"

Chen Song said, "Throw all of this away. I don't want it anymore."

"Throw it away?" Gu Xingjue asked in disbelief. "What did you say?"

"People have to move on, Gu Xingjue." Chen Song said calmly, "It's better for you to throw it away early. Find someone new. There will always be someone who is more suitable for you than me."

"Let's go back. It's windy outside. I want to go back."

Gu Xingjue asked, "Who is the person living in your house? Is he your friend? Or your relative?"

Chen Song said, "It's none of your business who it is."

Gu Xingjue's face immediately darkened: "I'm just trying to understand you."

Chen Song took a deep breath, feeling that Gu Xingjue was a stubborn donkey. He had explained things to him so clearly several times, but he still wouldn't listen. He was like a piece of brown paper that couldn't be shaken off.

Chen Song's tone also turned cold: "No need."

After saying this, Chen Song turned around and walked towards home. There was no point in talking to Gu Xingjue anymore, it was like playing the lute to a cow. Let him pester her if he wanted to. After all, he had pestered her before. Now Gu Xingjue's humble appearance reminded him of his former self.

After Gu Xingjue's excitement died down, he naturally calmed down and went home.

Gu Xingjue followed Chen Song silently. Chen Song could feel the resentful aura emanating from his body, like an evil ghost.

Chen Song turned a blind eye.

When they turned into the open space of their home, the old lady sitting at the door called out to Chen Song, "Song, what's wrong? Is Ah Xu from inside making trouble for Sister Lu?"

"Thank you, Abu." Chen Song responded simply in dialect.

"It's a shame to be beaten to a pulp, Sister Lu." The old lady said a few words earnestly, and Chen Song responded casually and left.

Gu Xingjue was completely confused and asked, "What did you say? Is this Japanese?"

Chen Song: “…”

Perhaps Chen Song, being from Vancouver and accustomed to hearing the local dialect, never thought it resembled Japanese. But when university alumni occasionally asked him to speak a few words in the dialect, they all said it sounded like Japanese. Gu Xingjue also said so. Could it really be that they were similar?

Chen Song ignored him and walked straight home. As soon as he went up the stairs and opened the door, Lu Yuan was standing behind it.

Lu Yuan said, "What a coincidence! I saw you hadn't come back yet, so I wanted to pick you up... Why is he following me?"

Lu Yuan immediately pulled Chen Song into the house like he was protecting his child, stepped forward to block the door, and glared at Gu Xingjue: "Hey, isn't this Master Jing? Why haven't you gone back yet?"

Lu Yuan raised his chin to provoke him. He hadn't had enough fun fighting last night. Before going to bed at night, he was still reflecting on why he didn't perform well in the fight. It just so happened that this idiot came again today. If he had another fight, he would definitely be able to knock him down.

Lu Yuan was eager to try, but Gu Xingjue didn't even look at him, his eyes always fixed on the back of him. Only when Chen Song's back entered the inner room and he could no longer see him did he look away and look at Lu Yuan.

Just as Lu Yuan was about to explode, Gu Xingjue spoke first: "I'll add you on WeChat."

Lu Yuan: “???”

"Are you fucking sick?" Lu Yuan said, looking at him as if he were mentally retarded. "Yesterday, you were still yelling that we were going to team up and cheat on you. Oh, Master Jing is worthy of being Master Jing, so magnanimous. You want to play np with us?"

"I'm sorry, we southerners are not so open-minded!" Lu Yuan slammed the door and locked it immediately after he finished speaking.

Lu Yuan turned and walked to the kitchen, where Chen Song had already started preparing the food.

Lu Yuan pulled up a chair and sat down: "Is your ex-boyfriend crazy? He just said he wanted to add me on WeChat? Want to have a threesome? Are all the girls in Beijing so wild?"

"Chen Song," Lu Yuan looked at him suspiciously, "Could it be that you also..."

Chen Song picked some beans and hit him on the forehead: "Put away those dangerous thoughts of yours."

Lu Yuan laughed: "You don't have the courage to do that."

Chen Song could probably guess what Gu Xingjue meant. He had just said he wanted to understand him, so he was starting with Lu Yuan. How long could he maintain this freshness?

About an hour later, Chen Song brought out four dishes and a soup, and the two began to eat.

Lu Yuan took a bite of spicy chicken and asked him, "How long are you going to do this part-time job? You finally have a break, why don't you quit as soon as possible? Let's go out and have some fun."

Chen Song drank a mouthful of loofah soup and asked him, "Where are you going?"

"Let's go for a walk around the area, or maybe we can go to the beach." Lu Yuan suddenly became excited. "It's been a while since we went there. The last time we went there was right after we graduated from high school. Back then, you..."

Lu Yuan said this without braking for a moment, and immediately stopped eating, chewed a few mouthfuls of meat and swallowed it before saying: "Or we can go hiking."

Chen Songdao thought it was nothing, picked up a broccoli and put it in his bowl, saying, "I'll finish this week. There are only two days left, so let's go to the beach."

"Okay, okay," Lu Yuan said cheerfully. "Hey, you're right, you've really learned this skill. How about I invest in you to open a restaurant. It's guaranteed to make money. You'll just be busy for the first few months, and you can recruit a few apprentices to learn from you. After they become full-time apprentices, you won't have to work so hard cooking every day. You can just run the store."

Chen Song smiled but said nothing. Lu Yuan said, "I'm serious, okay? What are you laughing at? Now that you're back, are you going to do an internship directly next year or study for another semester? I still have to go back for another semester."

Chen Song said: "I started my internship directly."

"Have you found an internship?"

Chen Song: "Not yet, soon, I've already picked out two."

"Going to the hospital?" Lu Yuan put down his chopsticks, feeling full. "Being a doctor is so tiring. Why don't you just follow me, Brother Yuan? It's easier. I can even ask my dad's company to print out your internship certificate for you."

Chen Song also put down his chopsticks and said, "I still want to be a doctor."

Lu Yuan dragged his chin and asked, "Yeah, you wanted to be one since high school. You always got perfect scores in chemistry and biology. Why do you want to be a doctor? I want to vomit when I see all that stuff. Is it true that the brain structure of you top students is different from that of us poor students?"

Chen Song began to clear the dishes: "Like it, right? There's no reason for liking it."

Chen Song paused, thinking back to what he had said to Gu Xingjue. He said Gu Xingjue loved him even though he didn't understand anything. It seemed like there was no reason for being cute.

Just like Chen Song didn't know everything about Gu Xingjue, even though he wanted to understand but Gu Xingjue didn't tell him, he still loved him heartbrokenly and terribly.

Now, because Gu Xingjue didn't understand him, he questioned his love for him, perhaps because he was heartbroken that Gu Xingjue didn't value them enough in this relationship. For three years, he'd barely felt Gu Xingjue's love and cherishment, disappearing inexplicably, with no other topics to discuss besides sex. The two of them were completely unequal. Chen Song watched Gu Xingjue's expression and acted accordingly, fearing that any misstep would cause Gu Xingjue to disappear again.

Everything about him is so mysterious.

It was so mysterious that it seemed as if he was not from the same time and space, but a beautiful dream.

In the last two days, part-time worker Gu Xingjue's car still followed Chen Song, and he had to eat two meals a day in Chen Song's store.

Chen Song didn't embarrass him like he did the first time. No matter what Gu Xingjue said, he ignored him, as if Gu Xingjue was air, indifferent and oblivious.

Sometimes when Gu Xingjue got angry, he would not say anything, but just follow him silently.

Chen Song felt like he was a spying dog, picking him up and dropping him off at work every day. When they met, he ignored Lu Yuan's provocations and simply asked, "Can we add WeChat?" Lu Yuan called him a psychopath.

Two days later, Chen Song quit his part-time job and stayed at home for two days to recover. Every night, he could see Gu Xingjue standing under the street light, smoking.

Countless cigarette sticks were piled on the long stone steps, but they would disappear during the day.

If he continued to smoke like this, his lungs would rot sooner or later. But Chen Song simply closed the curtains and pretended he saw nothing.

After recuperating, Chen Song and Lu Yuan’s plan to go out to see the sea was also ruined.

As the year draws to a close, Vancouver is always drenched in cold rain, occasionally with hail. Those smoking under streetlights late at night disappear, only to find traces of cigarette smoke at the door the next day.

Lu Yuan looked at the rain outside the window while eating the braised pork ribs made by Chen Song. "I feel really bad now. Is this guy really infatuated with you? He hasn't left for over a week. What exactly was the reason for the two of you to break up? You still can't relent and reconcile at this point?"

"He cheated on me?"

Chen Song thought for a moment. He didn't really know. Cheng Song said he and Gu Xingjue had known each other in high school, but later separated and only reconnected recently. Chen Song didn't know when that time was.

If they hooked up after Chen Song broke up, then it wouldn't count. But Gu Xingjue treated him as a substitute for Cheng Song, so emotional infidelity would count.

Chen Song suddenly smiled bitterly, thinking that he was the third party.

Seeing Chen Song’s grim expression, Lu Yuan didn’t dare to ask any more questions.

The two continued to eat in silence, with only the gentle sound of rain outside. When they were almost done, Chen Song's phone rang.

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The author has something to say: "A Song, what's the matter? Is A Xu going to make trouble for Sister Lu?"

"A Song, who is this? Are you okay with the fight last night?"

"Thank you, Abu."

"It's okay, grandma."

"I'm sorry, Sister Lu."

"It's good that you're alright, don't fight."