Chapter 9: Fresh and delicious salmon, sperm...

Fresh and plump salmon, tender and firm Kobe beef, sizzling sukiyaki, golden tempura, and a variety of sushi, all exquisite Japanese cuisine are gorgeously displayed on the wooden table.

Chen Song didn't eat a single bite and stubbornly ate the curry beef rice he ordered.

The flavor was indeed rich and the beef was tender, but Chen Song couldn't eat it at all, and even felt nauseous after a few bites.

Chen Song thought helplessly, his life was worthless and he had no chance of enjoying it. No matter how high-end the restaurant was, it would only seem out of place to him, just like an unbridgeable chasm between him and Gu Xingjue.

Chen Song couldn't understand why people from two completely different worlds would meet and torture each other even though they knew there would be no good results.

Is there really karma and reincarnation, where debts owed in the previous life must be repaid in this life?

Chen Song couldn't think of an answer. His head ached, his stomach ached, and every part of his body was clamoring to escape. But his stubborn pride kept him calm.

If I really have to say goodbye, I want to be decent.

The meal was not harmonious. Three of the four people had gloomy faces, and only Xie Yanchen enjoyed the meal and brought up some topics from time to time.

As an elder, Yun Jingsheng showed enough respect for the younger generation. He straightened his clothes and stood up. "Xiao Song and I have almost finished eating. We have some things to do, so we'll go back first. You two can stay here and eat slowly."

Chen Song, as if he had been pardoned, stood up. His coat had slipped a little, so he reached out to tighten it, maintaining a final courtesy and nodding gently.

Even such a small action of pulling the clothes, for some reason, felt like a red-hot torture instrument, leaving a mark in Gu Xingjue's heart and causing him to feel a burning pain.

"Something?" Gu Xingjue put down his chopsticks and said in a bad tone, "It's so late and both of you have something to do. It's late at night, the teacher doesn't go home, the students don't go home, and you still have to go to the private class..."

"What does my business have to do with you?" Chen Song growled, stopping Gu Xingjue from saying the dirty words.

Before Gu Xingjue could finish his words, he was yelled back at, and was stunned for a moment.

Gu Xingjue knew that what he said was unpleasant, but he couldn't help himself when he saw Chen Song being so cold and distant.

Chen Song always spoke softly and gently, and would never blame him even if he didn't come home for a long time. He would just greet him at the door with a look of surprise and joy, and then come over to hug him with a look of grievance and tears on his face.

Chen Song would also be angry, angry that he came back covered in injuries, angry that he always raced unsafely.

But Chen Song never yelled at him, especially for such an old fox!

Gu Xingjue felt a strange feeling in his heart. He actually felt a little wronged. This irrational feeling was immediately replaced by anger, so fast that he didn't even have time to react.

When Gu Xingjue came to his senses, Chen Song had already left with Yun Jingsheng.

"Fuck!" Gu Xingjue slammed the table in anger, and the dishes and chopsticks rang out with a loud bang.

Xie Yanchen slowly picked up a piece of sushi and said in a mocking tone: "Why don't you go and get her back if you're so angry?"

"Me?" Gu Xingjue looked like he had just heard a huge joke. "Why? Who the hell is he?"

Xie Yanchen said with a fake smile: "I'm telling you, I've been willing to follow someone as hot-tempered as you for so long, why are you suddenly willing to dump a rich man like you?"

"Although Brother Jing Sheng is gentler, more considerate, and more caring than you, no matter his status or position, he can never compare to you."

"Be gentle to your mother and considerate to your father!" Gu Xingjue almost gritted his teeth as the words sprang out of his throat, full of cruelty. "Sooner or later, you'll be killed by this old fox, and you won't even know how you die."

After Xie Yanchen finished his dinner, he wiped his hands with a hot towel and raised his eyebrows, saying, "If it's money or power, he will definitely follow you."

"But," Xie Yanchen put down the towel and looked at Gu Xingjue calmly, "If I want to love someone, it must be Brother Jing Sheng."

Gu Xingjue paused, as if a piece of his heart had been dug out.

What a joke, Chen Song would fall in love with someone else...

The two of them had just had a one-night stand that Gu Xingjue had impulsively started. It was a mutually agreed-upon relationship, with no romantic interest involved. So, who Chen Song fell in love with, or who he left, didn't matter.

Gu Xing is definitely not a promiscuous person. If he loses his bed partner, he can just find another one. There are plenty of men in the world.

Even if one Chen Song disappears, there will be thousands and thousands of Chen Songs. Wasn't there someone named Chen Song at Xie Yanchen's welcoming banquet a few days ago?

Xie Yanchen saw that Gu Xingjue was silent and calmed down a lot. He didn't know what he was thinking about.

"What's the conflict?" Xie Yanchen asked, eager to watch the fun.

Gu Xingjue took a sip of red wine, slumped in the sofa, placed one hand on the wooden table, shaking the red wine glass, looking a little absent-minded.

How should I tell his story with Chen Song...

On New Year’s Eve three years ago, Gu Xingjue received a phone call.

"Brother, Mom has become more awake recently. Would you like to come and see her?" The boy asked tentatively in an awkward voice, with some timidity and expectation.

Gu Xingjue's lips twitched slightly, and after a long silence, he said, "Yeah. I'll go later."

It was snowing that day, and the whole city was covered in white. At first glance, the world looked like a grand hospital.

Pale, sickly, and cold.

Gu Xingjue had just finished rock climbing, took a shower, and drove to a real hospital in the suburbs.

The light snow that had accumulated along the road left long marks under the tires of the car that was running suddenly.

The black and red motorcycle stood handsomely at the hospital entrance. Gu Xingjue took off his helmet and was led by the nurse to a private ward.

Sitting on the bed was a skinny woman, her face gaunt and pale, her eyes dull, her long black hair neatly falling in front of her. Her thin features had long lost their former softness.

The woman heard the noise at the door and suddenly turned to look with her bulging eyes, her gaze blazing with a terrifying intensity. Her mouth opened in astonishment, her thin lips moving for a long time as she kept shouting, "Gu...Gu..."

Slowly, the light in his eyes dimmed, he blinked painfully, and revealed a pale smile: "Xiao Jue is here."

Gu Mingyi, who was lying beside the bed, looked at Gu Xingjue with bright eyes and called out, "Brother."

Gu Xingjue said "hmm" lightly and sat down beside the bed: "Aunt Ye, I'm here."

Ye Ai suddenly felt heartbroken. She tilted her head to look at Gu Xingjue, and touched Gu Xingjue's face with trembling hands. She opened her mouth and sobbed for a long time before saying, "You are still blaming Mom, right?"

Gu Xingjue shook his head and touched Ye Ai's hand: "I never blamed you. Just rest and recuperate here. I'll pick you up when you're better, okay?"

His voice was low and unusually gentle, as if he was coaxing a child.

Ye Ai was not comforted. Instead, her expression began to twist and she pinched the flesh on his face fiercely: "Then why don't you let me see your father! Why! You have been taking revenge on me for so many years! Isn't it enough?!"

As she spoke, she suddenly screamed and tried to go forward and scratch Gu Xingjue.

Gu Xingjue had a bitter look on his face and didn't want to hide. Gu Mingyi on the side rushed forward and grabbed the crazy Ye Ai.

"Mom! Don't do this! Mom! Wake up! Can you please come back?"

Gu Xingjue originally thought that the numbness would stop the pain, but the suppressed sadness still ran rampant in his bones.

Gu Xingjue watched quietly as Ye Ai screamed and cursed at him, using all kinds of dirty words. Gu Mingyi hugged her tightly and cried. The nurses and doctors came in and the whole place was in chaos, and even his vision was in chaos.

On New Year's Eve, Beijing was ablaze with lights and the whole country was reunited, but he was homeless.

Gu Xingjue drove to a bar that was still open, and many people came to fawn over him. He usually had a good time, but tonight he wanted to forget everything and play drinking games with others. He lost all his clothes except for a short-sleeved shirt.

The bar was still closed at two or three in the morning.

He drank a little too much and drove dizzy, but he didn't know where to go. Before he had gone far, he and his car fell on the street. His stomach churned and he vomited a lot.

The car fell and couldn't start, so he just ignored it and continued driving aimlessly.

Vomiting while walking.

Someone took him away while he was in a daze. That was the most beautiful moment in his life.

Gu Xingjue had never seen such a handsome and heroic man. He kissed him with a passionate heart, but when he thought about what was going to happen, he fainted from the alcohol.

When he regained consciousness, he could see Chen Song clearly.

There was a hint of sadness in Chen Songqingjun's eyes, which was inexplicably attractive.

But as soon as he opened his mouth, he insisted like a fool that he was a pauper.

This was the first time in Young Master Gu's life that someone called him a beggar. He felt both angry and amused. But more than that, he felt a sense of wonder. How could someone live in such a shabby rental house that he couldn't even take care of himself, and yet pick up a beggar of unknown origin?

What's the point?

This was the first time Gu Xingjue met someone who was not after his money or power.

I even wanted to introduce him to a job, saying he was moving bricks. He looked so heroic, but how the hell did he look like someone who moved bricks?

But Chen Song's serious look was really funny, and Gu Xingjue didn't expose this farce. After all, he was just an ordinary person whom he would never meet again, so there was nothing to explain.

After that meeting, Gu Xingjue had completely forgotten about Chen Song. He had many things to do: rock climbing, racing, diving, bungee jumping, anything dangerous and exciting, and the best thing was to die.

It seemed that only when he was infinitely close to death could he truly feel that he was alive.

Extreme sports are Gu Xingjue's way of escaping reality and relieving depression. When he has tried all these sports and they can no longer satisfy him, there is another way.

That is the climax of sex.

Gu Xing was not promiscuous and had regular bed partners, who were either interested in his money or in the Gu family's power. Gu Xing had no objection, as they both got what they wanted.

After New Year's Eve, Gu Xingjue would think of Chen Song every time he ate for some reason.

Chen Song’s rental house was very simple, not even as big as the toilet in Gu Xingjue’s house.

It was in such a small house that Chen Song cooked a meal for him. The dishes were ones he had never tasted before and were indescribably delicious.

Gu Xingjue thought absurdly that this seemed to be the taste of home.

But the taste of home usually comes from the mother's hands, at least that was the case in his family.

Ye Ai can cook all kinds of delicious dishes to please him, and can also make a variety of desserts and cakes.

The cruelest thing God can do is not to deprive people of their happiness, but to take it back.

Perhaps if Gu Xingjue had not received Ye Ai's love and care, he would not feel so sad now.

Gu Xingjue didn't take the image of Chen Song cooking that occasionally appeared in his mind seriously, but one day, when he was drunk at night, he somehow found himself at Chen Song's doorstep.

Seeing Chen Song's face full of surprise and yet unable to suppress his joy, Gu Xingjue's heart felt like it was floating in cotton candy, sweet and soft. Chen Song's cold expression revealed a rare awkwardness, and Gu Xingjue wanted him.

Gu Xingjue never sleeps in one place and he is very impatient in this regard. However, Chen Song is like a magic potion that makes him extremely excited. It is the first time in his life that he has been so good-tempered in coaxing someone. Chen Song is more compatible with him than he imagined, and he can't even stop.

The two men were different from heterosexuals in this respect. They would not easily express their love, but would rely on actions to confirm their relationship. Gu Xingjue decided that Chen Song would be his new bed partner, and the two of them only needed to get along well in bed.

Chen Song was different from his previous bed partners. He would not pester him for gifts, but would always wait for him at home and serve him obediently.

Gu Xingjue thought Chen Song would always be obedient, but in the end he became like those bed partners who pestered him, except that he didn't ask for money.

Gu Xingjue had no habit of reading text messages. Chen Song often sent him some boring text messages. At first, Gu Xingjue would be moved by the "I miss you" messages and would go back to meet him immediately. Later, he became annoyed and those messages were drowned out by the harassing messages.

It turns out that Chen Song is no different.

Chen Song stopped posting messages later, and Gu Xingjue thought that the relationship between them would end there, but he would still think of Chen Song in the quiet of some late nights.

Gu Xingjue is a person who gets excited quickly and pursues novelty. The longest time they have been together in bed was no more than three months, but Chen Song has been with him for almost a year and he can't even say that he is tired of her.

In early summer of that year, Gu Xingjue returned home and didn't see Chen Song. Thinking that he was still working overtime part-time, he waited for him at home. When no one came back at four or five in the morning, Gu Xingjue couldn't resist the sleepiness and fell asleep.

Gu Xingjue had just returned from a hiking trip that day and was extremely tired. He slept until the evening. When he woke up, the room was dim and the curtains fluttering in the wind looked endlessly desolate.

Chen Song hasn't come back yet, isn't it the weekend?

Gu Xingjue was already in a bad mood when he woke up, and he became even angrier when Chen Song did not return home that night.

He rarely called Chen Song, but the anger in his body was extinguished by the sobbing sound on the other end of the phone.

When Gu Xingjue arrived, Chen Song was sitting on the floor of the hospital corridor, his hands clutching his head and pulling at his hair. His emaciated bones trembled in the summer heat, and a cold sweat covered his body. His skin was devoid of color under the incandescent light.

Gu Xing's determination suddenly tightened.

The fragile white porcelain truly shattered at this moment.

Chen Song's father died, and Chen Song said he had no home.

He doesn't have one either. If two homeless people get together, can it be considered a home?

Gu Xingjue took care of Chen Song who had a fever while helping his father deal with his funeral. He also met the woman who was called Chen Song's mother.

The woman looked exactly like Chen Song, with a cold, sharp expression, and a graceful yet unsympathetic appearance. Next to her stood a middle-aged man who was just as aloof.

The two met Gu Xingjue and asked nothing, as if the death of Chen Song's father was inevitable.

Gu Xingjue said that Chen Song was sick, but the woman looked indifferent as if she didn't hear him, and turned around and left the hospital with the man.

Gu Xingjue froze in place, watching the two leave, suppressing his emotions. After a moment of silence, he clenched his fists and chased out of the hospital. He grabbed the woman and asked in a pleading tone, as if asking something he had never had the courage to say: "He's your son too. Go see him."

The woman was slightly startled, paused for a moment, then let go of Gu Xingjue's hand and raised a polite smile: "Thank you for your care. We will cover the hospital expenses."

The woman followed the man.

Gu Xingjue finally understood where the endless sadness in Chen Song's eyes came from.

Chen Song is a special person, another homeless Gu Xingjue in the world.

For some reason, Gu Xingjue absurdly wanted to give him a home, as if that way he would also have a home.

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