Chapter 134 Life and Death Are Determined

Shen Qing was awakened by the chirping of cicadas outside the window.

He sat up suddenly, his hair on his forehead sticking to his skin wetly, and his chest still ached from crying.

The room was quiet. The sunlight shone through the gauze curtains, forming a golden net and falling on the carpet at the end of the bed.

He threw off the quilt and got out of bed, stepped barefoot on the slightly cool floor, and walked towards the living room step by step.

Yeluvis was standing in front of the window, his dark robe swaying gently in the wind, his profile looking particularly gentle in the sunlight.

Hearing the footsteps, Yeluvis turned around, and the blue flame in his right eye flickered slightly.

"woke up?"

Yeluweisi's voice is low and gentle, like a calm lake.

Shen Qingze did not answer, but walked up to him and looked out the window with empty eyes.

After a long while, he finally spoke slowly, his voice was very hoarse.

"I dreamed about him again."

"Um."

Yeluvis responded, and stretched out his hand to gently hold his shoulders.

Shen Qingze's mouth formed a bitter smile, but his eyes slowly turned red.

"He said that he wanted to learn skills from me and become someone who could protect others."

His voice became lower and lower, with a strong nasal tone.

"But I couldn't even protect him."

Tears rolled down my cheeks like beads that had broken off the string.

"He's only in his twenties, Yeluvis..."

"His life had just begun, how could it be gone like this?"

Yeluvis hugged him tightly, feeling his body trembling, and felt a sharp pain in his heart.

“It’s not your fault.”

He whispered, trying to comfort him,

"If it's not my fault, whose fault is it?"

Shen Qing suddenly raised his head, his eyes full of bloodshot.

"If I had discovered the conspiracy of that remnant soul earlier, if I had not been away for so long, if I..."

“There aren’t so many ifs.”

Yeluvis interrupted him and looked at him firmly.

"Life and death are determined, and none of us can change it."

"Definite number?"

Shen Qing smiled bitterly.

"Is this his fate? In order to save others, he ended up like this?"

His voice was filled with resentment and pain.

"I can't accept this, Yeluvis. I really can't accept this."

He leaned in Yeluvis's arms like a lost child.

"He is so good and lively, like a little sun, bringing light wherever he goes."

"But now, that little sun has gone out and will never shine again."

Yeluvis patted him on the back gently without saying anything.

He knew that any words would be pale at this moment, and he could only give Shen Qingze some comfort in this way.

After a long time, Shen Qingze's emotions gradually calmed down.

He raised his head, looked into Yeluvis' eyes, and said seriously,

"I want to see him."

Yeluweisi's heart tightened. He could sense the reluctance in Shen Qingze's words.

He reached out his hand, gently stroked Shen Qingze's hair, and whispered,

"I know."

"I want to see him again, even if it's just an illusion."

There was a hint of anticipation in Shen Qingze's voice.

Yeluvis was silent.

He looked at Shen Qingze's eyes full of desire, feeling hesitant.

He knew that doing so might bring bad consequences, but he couldn't bear to reject Shen Qingze.

"I'm sorry, Qing Ze."

Finally, Yeluvis shook his head.

"It's not good for him, and it's not good for you."

Shen Qingze's eyes darkened, as if a bucket of cold water had been poured on him.

He lowered his head and muttered to himself,

"Yeah, it's not good."

He broke free from Yeluweisi's arms and sat down on the sofa.

Picking up the empty can of Coke, his fingers unconsciously stroked the can.

"He hadn't even finished the Coke he bought, so I got it for free. Haha..."

He whispered, his voice filled with sadness,

Yeluvis walked over to him and sat down, quietly accompanying him.

The living room was silent again, with only the chirping of cicadas outside the window and the wall clock ticking tirelessly.

Shen Qing picked up the water on the table and took a sip.

The cold liquid slid down his throat, but it couldn't extinguish the pain in his heart.

He looked out the window, and seemed to see Xiao Qihao's sunny face again, waving and smiling at him.

"Qi Hao..."

He cried out softly, tears blurring his eyes again.

Yeluvis reached out and held his hand tightly.

He knew that Shen Qing needed time to slowly accept this fact.

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As Shen Qing buttoned up his shirt in front of the mirror, his fingertips were still trembling slightly.

The person in the mirror was still pale, but the redness in his eyes had faded a little.

It was just that deep fatigue, like ink dripping into clear water, smudged the entire face.

He took a deep breath and opened the door.

The cool breeze in the early morning blew into my collar, bringing with it the heat from the steamed bun shop at the end of the alley, but it couldn't blow away the heaviness in my heart.

"Let's go."

He whispered,

Without turning around, he knew that the little ghost was curled up in the shadow behind him, clutching his trouser legs with his little hands.

The iron door of the police station creaked heavily behind me.

Shen Qingze stood at the door of the hall, his brows unconsciously furrowed.

The air here was even more stagnant than his home. The fluorescent tubes above their heads were humming, making everyone's faces look pale.

Several young police officers were sitting behind the reception desk. When they saw him come in, they just raised their hands weakly.

The fatigue in his eyes was almost overflowing, and he even skipped the polite greetings.

Shen Qingze curled his fingertips in his pocket and turned to leave.

He really couldn't stand the sadness that filled the air, which was like countless fine needles pricking him and making him breathless.

"Shen Qingze?"

Hearing a hesitant voice behind him, Shen Qing turned around and saw Qin Xiyang standing at the door.

The collar of his police uniform had two buttons undone, and the purple under his eyes was darker than the bruises.

The corners of her eyes were abnormally red and swollen, obviously she had stayed up all night and cried.

"Forensic Doctor Qin."

Shen Qing nodded, his eyes lingering on his face for a moment.

Qin Xiyang was stunned for a moment, then forced a smile.

That smile was uglier than crying. He tilted his head towards Shen Qingze.

"This way, I want to tell you something."

Shen Qing followed him through the corridor. The posters on the wall were swaying gently in the wind, making a rustling sound.

Qin Xiyang stopped when he reached the detention room.

Leaning against the cold wall, his voice was hoarse as if it had been sanded.

"Ye Xiang... confessed everything."

"Um."

Shen Qingze responded and watched him take out a cigarette box from his pocket, then remembered that smoking was not allowed here, and rubbed his hair irritably.

"The God-making Project was planned by Renly from beginning to end."

Qin Xiyang's fingertips rubbed the cigarette box repeatedly.

"Ye Xiang said that Renly started preparing seven years ago, but he was not the mastermind at that time. He was just running errands for someone."

Shen Qingze's eyebrows moved.

"one person?"

"We guessed that it was Lai Yun's brother."