Chapter 45 “But I love you.”…

Shen Xiyu stood there in a daze, speechless.

"What's wrong?" Liang Qi laughed out loud when he saw the girl's reaction. "Are you scared?"

Shen Xiyu's feet slid the snow forward, revealing the ground's original appearance. She asked incoherently, "Are your hands cold?"

Liang Qi was no longer surprised by her sometimes fluctuating words and thoughts. Hearing this, he raised the corners of his lips and looked up at the circle of light of the street lamp.

Shen Xiyu didn't get an answer, nor did he react. He continued to talk to himself, "I forgot to put the heat pack on your pocket when I went out. I only remembered to put it on my own pocket."

"So selfish, you little liar."

Liang Qi was actually a little confused about what she was trying to say, but then again, such aimless conversations were nothing uncommon between them.

"How is it?" Chen Xiyu followed Liang Qi's gaze and looked at the bright circle of light. "Would you like to warm yourself in my pocket?"

Liang Qi turned his head and looked at the girl, silently asking her what she meant.

In the end, he was the first to give in. Like an elder earnestly trying to teach a child, he said, "Chen Xiyu, we can't do these things as friends."

"Then in what capacity?" Shen Xiyu followed his words, as if he were really a child who was eager to learn.

"You know."

From Liang Qi's perspective, Shen Xiyu's eyes were wet. He didn't know if it was because of the cold or for some other reason. He always felt that there was too much moisture in Shen Xiyu's eyes, her own moisture, the moisture of others, and some moisture belonging to the world.

The girl raised her head and looked at Liang Qi carefully.

"I used to be afraid all the time. I'm not as indifferent as I appear. I'm a very timid person, Liang Qi. I'm afraid of many things. I used to be afraid of my mother leaving me, afraid of my brother leaving me, and now I'm afraid of my friends leaving me. I'm even more afraid... afraid of you leaving me."

Shen Xiyu's voice was choked with uncontrollable sobs.

Liang Qi noticed her subtle change, raised his hand and put it on the back of the girl's neck and pinched it to comfort her.

Chen Xiyu forced a very forced smile, calmed himself down and continued, "I'm not used to this during this period, and I can even say it's very uncomfortable, but I don't want to admit that you have a big impact on me, and I don't want to admit that I really think you are very important. This separation after getting used to happiness is the most painful. Sometimes I think I don't even want this kind of happiness, nor do I want to endure that kind of pain."

Liang Qi's eyes dimmed a little.

"Will you hate me?" Shen Xiyu was a little flustered. "I treated you so badly. I... I said so many unpleasant things."

Liang Qi raised his head and took a deep breath, as if it took a lot of effort to say these words, "I said, Shen Xiyu, why can't you remember?"

"Wha…what?"

"I can't bear it. How can I bear to be angry with you?"

Shen Xiyu knew that he was not trying to make her happy with his sweet words, and she cried uncontrollably, no longer crying silently.

Tears streamed down Shen Xiyu's cheeks, "But...but I'm more scared today. I'm scared that if I don't have the chance to see you again in the future, I won't be able to tell you properly."

"I really, really like you, Liang Qi."

Liang Qi bent down, held her waist, and held Shen Xiyu tightly in his arms, as if he wanted to make it impossible for the two to separate in this way.

"Why are you crying all the time today? If you keep crying and your eyes get swollen, your high school fashion sense will be ruined."

It would have been fine if he hadn't said it, but once he did, Shen Xiyu couldn't stop crying.

"You, you laughed at me."

It was the first time that Liang Qi saw Shen Xiyu crying so unrestrainedly. He actually didn't find it funny at all, but rather felt like his heart was stuffed with cotton.

"Chen Xiyu, I don't blame you. You haven't done anything wrong. There are many things that are beyond your control, so what's wrong with you protecting yourself? It's me who should get closer and try harder to make you trust me more."

Shen Xiyu pushed him with her hands, struggled out of his arms, wiped her tears with a tissue, and realizing her loss of composure, she pursed her lips and didn't want to talk.

"So I did it?" Liang Qi leaned over to look at Shen Xiyu.

The girl covered his eyes with her hands to prevent him from looking at her.

Liang Qi didn't try to pull the girl's hand away. In this position, he asked again, "So did I do it?"

In response to him, he felt Shen Xiyu's approaching breath, followed by a cherished and gentle kiss on his lips.

Shen Xiyu could feel the scratching sensation of Liang Qi's eyelashes in her palm.

The next second, the person in front of him pressed forward, took the initiative, and leaned forward to intensify the kiss.

Liang Qi's kisses were always savage, aggressive, possessive, and coercive. Shen Xiyu sometimes didn't quite understand. It wasn't like she didn't want to, so why did Liang Qi always make it seem like a forced kiss?

Liang Qi pried open her teeth fiercely, entangled her tongue, and devoured everything of her without satisfaction.

Her palm had already fallen without any force and was drooping on Liang Qi's shoulder. The boy opened his eyes, and his dark pupils met Shen Xiyu's sight. The two seemed to be competing with each other, neither of them willing to close their eyes, but this kind of competition always ended with Shen Xiyu's defeat.

The tip of his tongue was numb, his head was dizzy as if he was lacking oxygen, and the back of his neck, where Liang Qi's palms were rubbing against it, felt hot and painful.

The skin on the back of his neck, where Liang Qi had massaged it, was slightly painful, but this pain was accompanied by a sweetness that Chen Xiyu was reluctant to let go of. It was like a piece of melted candy, with the sugar core beginning to flow out from the inside, tightly wrapping around Chen Xiyu and making him unable to move.

One of Liang Qi's sharp teeth accidentally bit the root of Shen Xiyu's tongue. While feeling the pain, her dizzy head finally regained a bit of rationality. She pushed Liang Qi, dodged and shouted to stop, and really used all her strength to increase the distance between them.

But Liang Qi seemed to be completely deaf to her words, pressing her neck and not letting go of Shen Xiyu.

"I told you to stop." Shen Xiyu had no choice but to put his hands between the two faces.

Liang Qi probably realized that his behavior was a bit inappropriate, so he stood up, rubbed her head, and let go.

"Do you have multiple personalities?" Shen Xiyu asked sincerely.

"Are you afraid?"

Shen Xiyu cried and laughed at the same time, and felt that his face was almost frozen. "Are you afraid it's too late now?"

"It's too late." Liang Qi grabbed her hand and put it in his pocket, like a victorious general, raising his eyebrows at Shen Xiyu provocatively.

"It's not as warm as my pocket." Shen Xiyu said, but his hand stayed safely in Liang Qi's palm.

"I thought you wouldn't give in until the end." Liang Qi said suddenly.

Shen Xiyu didn't move, she knew Liang Qi hadn't finished speaking.

"I'm despicable, Shen Xiyu. I know that by using this method to make you accustomed to me, I can make you uncomfortable and reluctant to leave me." Liang Qi hesitated for a while, but still said what he had always thought in his heart.

"I see."

Liang Qi turned to look at Shen Xiyu in surprise. The girl looked indifferent, as if she didn't care.

"I see, Liang Qi. Being friends first and lovers later is really a deceptive move. That's why I haven't dared to move forward. Of course, it's also because I feel that you have a kind of... how should I put it, almost blind trust in me."

Chen Xiyu's mind flashed with various scenes of Liang Qi arguing with her and finally giving in. "You are so smart, you have always known that I am not so harmless. I am even a somewhat vicious and selfish person."

"But I love you."

The words choked Xi Yu so much that she was speechless. She was silent for a long time before she spoke.

"'Love' is too heavy a word. You shouldn't say it now."

Shen Xiyu knew that it was very disappointing to say these words now, but she didn't want Liang Qi to say this word so easily and simply.

She took the initiative to reach out and hug Liang Qi, "I am very happy to be with you like this."

Liang Qi lowered his eyes and smiled almost self-deprecatingly. He understood Shen Xiyu's subtext. Or perhaps it was not her subtext, but an evasion of a certain responsibility or commitment that she herself was not aware of.

But as Liang Qi himself said, he had no way and was reluctant to blame Shen Xiyu. He didn't want any of the injuries Shen Xiyu suffered to be caused by him.

So Liang Qi silently hugged the girl in his arms, and the two of them hugged each other without any desire, feeling the unfinished words beneath the warmth of their skin.

“Chen Xiyu, it’s okay. You don’t know how to love someone, I will teach you.”

"good."

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Liang Qi advised Shen Xiyu to rest at home for two days. Even Dai Meng called and volunteered to bring her textbooks and exercise books to Shen Xiyu's home so that she could rest at home for a few days.

However, Shen Xiyu didn't think it was a big deal. The injury was only to her left hand, which didn't affect her daily life and writing much, and she didn't feel much pain.

When she was talking to Dai Meng on the phone, Liang Qi heard this and snorted coldly, but was glared back at by Shen Xiyu. Dai Meng heard it but tactfully didn't ask any more questions.

Chen Xiyu actually had her own considerations. There is no wall that is impenetrable. In addition, the number of them skipping classes yesterday was quite large. If she did not go to school at this critical juncture, not only would it delay her review, but rumors would also inevitably arise.

"What are you going to eat tomorrow morning? I'll go with you in the morning." Liang Qi couldn't change Shen Xiyu's decision to go to school.

Shen Xiyu looked him up and down in surprise, "You still remember to go back to school."

"I'm not going anywhere. I've been staying in school recently. Please don't spit blood at me."

Shen Xiyu shrugged and said nothing.

When the two appeared in the class the next day, many classmates turned their heads frequently and looked at Shen Xiyu with gossipy eyes.

The girl frowned. She had expected that people in the school would hear about it, but this was a little too fast.

She soon found out why the news spread so quickly.

Wang Xiaoxiao was sitting in front of Shen Xiyu. After much hesitation, she turned her head and whispered to Shen Xiyu, "Xiyu, there are some rumors on the campus wall. They are spreading very widely. Do you want to contact someone to delete the post?"

Liang Qi didn't hear what the two girls said. He lowered his head and thought for a while, then stood up and said to Shen Xiyu, "I'm going out for a while."

Shen Xiyu was browsing the posts on Wang Xiaoxiao's phone under the table. He didn't pay much attention to Liang Qi and responded by waving his hand.

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The author has something to say: Together!!!

I saw others say that the readership will drop sharply after they get together, so you guys go take some medicine [burst into tears] I haven't finished half of the story yet! They were only together briefly (is this allowed? Is it considered a spoiler [let me read])

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Chapter 46 will be updated on 6.5 (I am temporarily out and will update you all on 6.7)