Chapter 33 Chapter 33 I fall in love with you.

Hearing a slight noise in the house, Mu Xi opened her eyes. There was not much light in the room, and she was not sure what time it was.

She turned over and was startled to see a figure in front of her bed.

After seeing Feng Han's face clearly, Mu Xi covered her chest and breathed a sigh of relief, "What are you doing..."

Having just woken up, her voice was unclear. Feng Han did not answer her, and without consulting her, he sat down beside her small bed, "Madam..."

Mu Xi wanted to ask what time it was, but before she could do so, she heard something wrong in his voice.

"Hmm?" she asked softly, "What's wrong with you?"

"Can I hug you?"

Mu Xi was stunned. She didn't expect the other party to make such a request at this time.

This was much more intimate than applying medicine to him before bed. Mu Xi wanted to refuse, but Feng Han seemed impatient. Or perhaps he knew she would reject him the moment she opened her mouth, so he spoke before being rejected...

Say to her, "Let me hold you, okay?"

He sounded really sad.

Not sure if it's an illusion.

Mu Xi didn't say anything and sat up silently. Before she could think of what to say, she was hugged by the other party.

A faint fragrance blew against her face, and Feng Han's cold hair touched Mu Xi's cheek. Mu Xi didn't know what was wrong with him, but it felt like he had really encountered something very sad.

Feng Han hugged Mu Xi tightly, as if he wanted to rub her blood into his own, hoping that the two of them would become one.

Mu Xi patted his back gently. She was actually having some difficulty breathing, but she felt it was not a good idea to say it out loud at this time.

"Did you have a nightmare?"

Feng Han didn't answer, and Mu Xi just took it as an answer.

Although he never shared all of his upbringing with me, just knowing those few details, I could guess that there was a lot of pain hidden in it that he couldn't express to others in detail.

Mu Xi waited quietly for him to sort out his emotions, but as she waited, she wanted to ask, wasn't this hug... a little too long?

"What's wrong?"

Mu Xi was too embarrassed to let Feng Han let her go.

I thought that at this time, after hearing this question, the other party should let her go and start to confide his inner pain to her.

But Feng Han didn't do that. He didn't play by the rules.

Mu Xi blinked, put one arm around Feng Han's waist, and hesitated whether to express her feelings directly.

She had just woken up and was actually a little hungry.

"My wife."

"Um?"

"I'm in love with you."

…

Mu Xi initially thought, "Love? What do you like to eat?" Feng Han was thinking, "Is it breakfast...lunch...or dinner?" So, he asked her what she wanted to eat.

But her eyelashes fluttered twice and she reacted, "Huh? What?" She suspected that she had heard it correctly, but in fact she had heard it wrong.

Feng Han repeated it again very patiently and calmly, "I'm in love with you."

Mu Xi suddenly realized and confirmed that she had not heard wrongly before.

Fenghan said "love" and "I am in love with you".

That's right.

Mu Xi's silence made Feng Han's heart feel like it was thrown into a frying pan, and it was tormented.

"Say something." Feng Han buried his face in Mu Xi's neck, tilted his head, and whispered softly into her ear.

"Oh..." As he wished, Mu Xi spoke——

"Falling in love now?"

Feng Han was stunned for a moment, then chuckled twice, causing Mu Xi's skin around her ears to tremble.

"Of course it was before..."

Before he finished speaking, Mu Xi was completely confused.

What was he doing? What on earth was he dreaming about?

Feng Han let her go, stared into her eyes, and helped her tidy up her hair. He asked her softly, "What would you like to eat, my lady? I'll go prepare it."

Mu Xi: “…”

Is it over? Over? Finally getting to the point?

"…Are you okay?"

Mu Xi wanted to talk about food more, but she also knew that it would be wrong to ignore Feng Han at this time.

"Much better." Feng Han smiled at her and asked her, "Next time I'm in a bad mood, can you still let me hold you like this?"

His tone sounded as if he was really fine, even with a joking tone, completely different from how he was just a while ago.

Mu Xi thought for a moment and asked him, "Besides us taking advantage of each other, are there any other benefits?"

Feng Han curled his lips and said, "If I pay you money... can I hug you?"

Mu Xi struggled for a moment, then said with some embarrassment, "If you really need it...it's not impossible."

Feng Han lowered his head and laughed, "Okay." He looked up at Mu Xi and said, "I will definitely offer a higher price than others. I'm sure you will be satisfied."

Mu Xi also smiled along with his mood, but what she was thinking in her heart was that since she could joke around, it seemed that everything was really okay.

It was already afternoon, and Mu Xi realized belatedly that she was most likely the last person to get up at Bitian Villa, but the day was almost over.

Feng Han went to prepare the meal. After Mu Xi finished washing up, she returned to her room and saw a few clothes piled on the floor next to the bed in the inner room.

She walked over, picked it up and looked at it carefully, confirming that it was Fenghan's clothes, and they were wet.

Although it is not raining now, judging from the humidity of the ground outside, it must have rained quite heavily before.

Has he been out?

Then it's not a nightmare.

Did something happen that made you so sad?

Mu Xi put the pile of wet clothes back to its place, intending to pretend that she knew nothing.

If Fenghan is willing to say...what he wants to say, he will say it on his own initiative.

He has always been eloquent and generous with his words.

Mu Xi originally wanted to eat in the yard, just like she did most of the time in Luan County, but Feng Han said it might rain again, so she had to give up the idea.

When the dishes were served, Mu Xiou turned her head and saw Mingyu's eyes, and called him directly.

"What happened to your eyes?"

Mingyu and Yingzhang were still holding their plates. Yingzhang's eyes rolled around, and Fenghan was about to put some food into Muxi's bowl with his chopsticks.

When she asked this, everyone stopped what they were doing.

Ying Zhang was torn between his conscience and his desires, thinking that if Mingyu didn't speak, he would find an excuse for him to deal with it.

Unexpectedly, Mingyu spoke up on her own.

"It's just an accidental scratch, it's nothing serious." Mingyu looked at Mu Xi and whispered, "My lady, don't worry."

Mu Xi stood up and walked closer to him to take a closer look at his wound.

Fenghan put down his chopsticks and looked in their direction, while Yingzhang also stared at Mingyu.

Indeed, Ying Zhang did not want that to happen.

But he couldn't help but wonder, if Mingyu attacked Madam Mu at this moment, what would his master do? Would he let the situation go as it came, or... kill the person who attacked Madam Mu?

"It's too close to my eyes. It's dangerous."

Mu Xi's voice interrupted Ying Zhang's inappropriate thoughts. Everyone present heard her ask Ming Yu with concern, "Have you seen Doctor Bai? She's sure to have some medicine that's very effective."

Mingyu first looked into her eyes, then lowered his head and nodded his chin, saying, "I've checked it out and applied medicine. It's okay."

Mu Xi returned to her seat and Feng Han picked up some more food for her. Only then did Mu Xi realize that her bowl was almost full.

"Madam, please eat first. Mingyu is not a child anymore. She knows how to see a doctor."

Mu Xi nodded, "You should take care of yourself and stop staring at my bowl. Eat more."

Mu Xi also picked up some food for Feng Han, and Feng Han smiled.

When she looked up, she saw Mingyu and Yingzhang seemed to be about to go out. Mu Xi immediately called them, "It's time for dinner. Where are you going?"

The two turned around, Ying Zhang smiled and said, "Let's eat somewhere else, madam and sir, enjoy your meal." After that, he pulled Mingyu away.

Mu Xi had become accustomed to not eating separately from them. This was how they had been all the way here, and she subconsciously thought that the four of them would still be eating at the same table at this time.

She turned to look at Feng Han, who was also looking at her. He said, "Let them be. There are many people at Bitian Villa, and if the master doesn't act like a master and the servant doesn't act like a servant, it will attract too much attention."

Maybe it makes sense, since Fenghan said so.

"Are we going to live here forever?"

Mu Xi asked and Feng Han looked at her.

"There are too many people here and the place is too big. I'm not used to it."

"Madam, do you not like it here?"

Mu Xi said honestly, "Of course I liked it when I first saw it, but when I thought about how many people I had to manage and take care of, and how many people there were, there would be more things to do and more things to consider, I didn't like it anymore."

Feng Han smiled and asked Mu Xi, "What if someone else manages everything, and you just sit back and enjoy everything? Don't you like it?"

The word "someone" seemed to have a hidden meaning. Mu Xi naturally thought of the "love" he said and everything related to it.

"I don't like it." Mu Xi said, "I don't like crowded places."

Especially when all those people have to listen to her arrangements and commands. Just thinking about it makes my head hurt.

Fenghan looks particularly gentle today and seems very easy to talk to.

He picked up some more food for Mu Xi and put it in her bowl, saying, "You'll have to stay here for a while."

Mu Xi pondered the answer for a moment, and it probably meant that Feng Han didn't know how long he would stay.

After a while, Feng Han asked her, "Madam, do you prefer a small place like Luan County?"

Mu Xi thought about it seriously and gave the real answer——

"I've been there since I can remember. I can't say whether I like it or not, and I've never thought about going anywhere else."

It’s neither painful nor itchy, neither good nor bad. Life is short, and this is the kind of stability we seek.

"I didn't like that place originally. It was too poor and the roads were difficult to travel." Feng Han said, "But lately, I keep thinking about it. It was there that I first met my wife, and my impression of it has improved a lot."

Mu Xi didn't say anything.

Feng Han continued, "If you want to choose a place to live long-term, I'd better help my wife find a nice place with beautiful mountains and rivers."

Mu Xi was stunned. After thinking it over, she asked him, "What do you mean?"

Feng Han said casually in a casual tone, "My lady, I'm afraid you'll have to change your name by then. It's better not to go back to Luan County. You should disguise your identity and find a place to start over. If you want to continue teaching, that's fine too."

Mu Xi widened her eyes slightly and asked him, "Are you saying that I can start over and return to my previous life?"

She always felt that this was a fantasy and could not help but have some concerns.

“…Will those people let me go?”

Feng Han lowered his eyes slightly and said softly, "It's not difficult to make everyone think that my wife is dead."

"Really?" Mu Xi's tone was filled with excitement.

Feng Han half-closed his eyes, hiding his true emotions. He smiled and said, "Really, as long as my lady wants, I will help you."

"Will it be difficult?" Mu Xi thought for a moment and asked him, "Will you find a substitute to die in my place? Will there really be a corpse?"

Feng Han laughed out loud, as if he thought she was thinking too much.

"Need not."

He said: "I just thought about it, I don't know how difficult it will be to actually do it, maybe it will be easy."

"I think your idea is very good." Mu Xi praised him sincerely.

"It seems that my wife really wants to find a place to live in anonymity."

Fenghan felt mixed emotions.

"What about me? Do you think I should be with you at that time, my lady?"

Mu Xi only then thought of him, and felt a little guilty when asked this question.

"You..." She hesitated and said with a wry smile, "You must have a lot of things to do, right?"

It wasn't easy for Feng Han to reach his current position. You don't need to ask for details, just guessing it must have been difficult.

Mu Xi thought that his situation was completely different from hers.

Feng Han has too many things that he cannot let go of, while Mu Xi is alone.

In the eyes of many people in the world, the original owner had already died. This was actually true, but Mu Xi couldn't explain it clearly.

Of course she could escape and find a place to hide her identity, but Fenghan couldn't.

Fenghan was born in the world of martial arts, exists in the world of martial arts, and has never left.

If he is in Mu Xi's future, wouldn't she be unable to escape this world of fighting and killing where people lose their arms and legs?

She doesn't want to.

"yes."

Feng Han smiled bitterly. Mu Xi felt that he seemed to have been sad all day and had never stopped.

She didn't quite know what to say.

Mu Xi was very open-minded. In fact, she also wanted to persuade Feng Han that if he was really sad, he could just take another route.

I really don't want to do this anymore. Then they can be neighbors.

Just like along the way, the man had many shackles, and if he needed her help, she would be happy to lend a hand.

But Mu Xi didn't want to seem too preachy. Even if she took a step back, she didn't understand other people's lives at all, so why was she trying to give them guidance?

To untangle the ball of yarn, at least you have to find the knot first.

But if they take this step, their relationship will be closer than it is now.

This is not what Mu Xi wants to see.

But she will remember Fenghan, and also his other name, for a long, long time.

"This is just an idea for now. Just keep it to yourself, my lady. Don't let anyone else know."

Mu Xi came back to her senses and asked him, "Who are you referring to?"

"Anyone." Feng Han repeated. Mu Xi looked at him and blinked. He sighed and said, "Including Mingyu and Yingzhang."

Mu Xi understood and nodded in agreement.

Separation is always sad, but on the other side is infinite hope.

While Mu Xi was looking forward to the future with joy, she was thinking that according to the information Feng Han had provided so far, except for himself, everyone including Ming Yu Ying Zhang would probably think that she was really dead.

But this is safer, and Mu Xi can completely understand it.

Fenghan put down his bowl and chopsticks, having no appetite at all.

He looked at Mu Xi, who seemed eager to leave here and leave him. There were many things he wanted to say and many things he wanted to do, but... he could do nothing and say nothing.

"Will my wife miss me?"

Mu Xi looked at him.

Feng Han guessed that Mu Xi had no idea how bright his eyes were at this moment. He was in high spirits, completely different from the state he was in when he was on the road.

Mu Xi’s likes and dislikes have always been very obvious.

"Of course." Mu Xi smiled at him, "You always say that I saved you, but if this thing can be accomplished, you are my savior, my great savior."

Feng Han thought to himself that what she said was actually right, but she just didn't know it.

Also, the time they spent together was too short.

But at least Mu Xi has forgotten even her own mother and father, and will remember and miss him.

Mu Xi seemed to have more energy to eat. After she was full, she asked Feng Han what they were going to do today.

In front of her, Fenghan asked Mingyu and Yingzhang to arrange for other servants.

Soon, they were the only two left in the room again.

Feng Han looked at her, his eyes full of reluctance.

Mu Xi saw it.

Still young.

Mu Xi thought that if Feng Han could also have a chance to travel through time and space, and live his life again from the age of eight, his own life or someone else's, his sadness about parting might be reduced a lot.

"My lady, do you want to hear my sister's story?"

If we are destined to be separated, if we are destined to be forgotten, at least let her remember us longer and more.

Mu Xi was stunned. "Don't you have a sister?"

She actually still remembered it.

Feng Han smiled, "Yes, but does my wife want to listen to it? It might be a bit boring."

Mu Xi nodded, and her expression immediately became a little serious.

Fenghan's father's surname was Han, and Han's mother built the original Beiqu Pavilion. She was a very powerful woman. She suffered a lot when she was young, but she became famous all over the world at a young age.

With extraordinary martial arts skills, beautiful appearance, and a special love for one man, she has only ever loved one man in her life. Fortunately, they are in love with each other and they have lived a wonderful life together.

But unfortunately, they only had one son.

When Han grew up, he was unable to handle important responsibilities.

Moreover, at that time, the Beiqu Pavilion was no longer a one-man show, and they would not let a man become the next leader.

While they still had the ability, they found a suitable and very capable wife for their son, Feng Han's mother, Feng Xin.

The two old people passed away before Feng Han was born. He heard that his mother looked a lot like the young Pavilion Master Han and was equally powerful.

Feng Xin was deeply trusted and loved by the old Pavilion Master. After gaining her trust, the old Master not only entrusted her with his only son, but also handed over the Beiqu Pavilion that he had built to her.

Fenghan later thought that it was because his mother’s acting skills were so good that she was able to successfully deceive the family of three.

Ever since he was born, he has never had a happy day, because his mother had already taken off her disguise.

Feng Xin is under a lot of pressure because she is a concubine's wife.

Behind her, there is a family that is as ferocious as wolves and tigers and wants to take the opportunity to swallow up Beiqu Pavilion. In front of her, there are a bunch of old people left by the old Pavilion Master who are watching her and preventing her from doing anything wrong.

She needed a legitimate child to silence the gossips and put an end to the unrealistic fantasies of the other families.

This child can only come out of Han's belly.

There are so many people watching them that they can't fake it.

Fenghan was born under such circumstances. He was a son, and both Han and Fengxin were very disappointed.

None of Feng Xin's family members are easy to deal with, and they have been eyeing Beiquge covetously.

The situation was very complicated at that time and there was no time to wait for the next child to be born, so Feng Xin announced to everyone that Han had given birth to twins, a boy and a girl.

The daughter is strong and healthy, while the son is weak and frail.

Feng Xin said that the old Pavilion Master had already chosen a name for his granddaughter before he passed away.

Fenghan means the sky is about to brighten.

She also said that since God had given her another son, she should give him a name with the same pronunciation.

Fenghan, may he grow up healthily like a gurgling stream. The two children have a name with the same pronunciation, so that he can share the good fortune of his sister.

Feng Han’s presence is very weak, while Feng Han’s presence is very strong.

Feng Han has been recuperating from an illness since she was young and has never left the house. Feng Han carries the expectations of her mother and father. She has been practicing martial arts since she was young and is required to do her best in everything she does.

…

Mu Xi was stunned.

"How old are you?"

Feng Han was about to answer casually when Mu Xi slapped his forehead, as if he was helpless with himself.

"Look at my brain. You and I were married when we were young, so our ages are naturally only a few months apart."

Feng Han pursed his lips. In fact, he was one year younger than Mu Xi.

Mu Xi thought for a moment and asked Feng Han, "If we were both born girls, or both boys, would we be sisters or brothers?"

Feng Han didn't expect that after hearing so much, the issue she cared about most at this time was actually this.

After a moment of laughter, he nodded, "I think so."

"You must have suffered a lot."

Growing up, I had to be both a girl and a boy.

Fenghan's expression didn't seem to care much about the pain that had passed.

Mu Xi looked at him for a while, then asked carefully, "So why did you kill..."

"Your own mother?" Feng Han took the initiative to help her fill in the slightly difficult part. On the contrary, he spoke very confidently.

Mu Xi nodded.

Feng Han had a smile on his lips the whole time, the expression he should have when talking about his family, but the story he described was not that simple at all.

"Because between me and her, only one of us can survive," Feng Han said. "She's been thinking this way since before I was born."

Mu Xi frowned, unable to understand.

"You are not her, so of course you can't understand."

Feng Han said, "She would never let Beiqu Pavilion fall into the hands of a child with Han blood. She would publicize that my sister is her heir. But in reality, whether it's me or my sister, our birth and existence are just the most convenient tools for her to calm her suspicions."

"She wants fame and fortune."

Feng Han paused and smiled.

"She thought she could live for a very long time. At least when she was doing these things, she never thought about handing power over to others, least of all me."

"She has been poisoning me and my father. She probably wants her daughter, son, and husband to have the same fate."