Chapter 15

"Oh, little brat, are you jealous? Didn't you say you didn't love him? You just want to kiss him and go to bed with him."

"So you're serious about asking me to be a 'baiter' when you don't understand? You also said you like beautiful women."

Li Miao knew something was wrong with her, but she couldn't control her anger. Of course, Lin Bei was joking, and Li Miao knew perfectly well she was being unreasonable. She knew Lin Bei didn't like Guan Shiyun, but she felt terrible and incredibly angry.

Seeing Li Miao's chest heaving violently and hearing her barbed words, Lin Bei realized that something was wrong with Li Miao. She put away her teasing intentions, sat up straight, looked into Li Miao's eyes, and spoke seriously.

"Miao, you know I could never like Guan Shiyun, right?"

Li Miao avoided eye contact to calm her anger. She knew her current thoughts were wrong, and she should ignore the voice and idea in her mind. Frustrated, she shook her arms and threw herself onto the sofa like a sack.

Seeing Li Miao's state, Lin Bei followed her to the sofa and sat down. She spoke again, saying that this issue needed to be addressed clearly.

"Just say what you want to say. If it weren't for my liking for men, I would be in deep trouble this time."

“I’m glad Guan Shiyun helped you. We agreed to make a fortune together. Of course I’m happy that you can open a shop. I don’t know what happened between you two just now, but I’m still happy to see that you’re no longer upset. We’re friends, and your dream has come true. These are things we should be happy about, right? But I just can’t help getting angry.”

Hearing Li Miao speak frankly, Lin Bei breathed a sigh of relief and then chuckled. She felt a great weight lifted from her heart. As long as it wasn't a misunderstanding, and as long as Li Miao still considered her a friend, that was fine.

"Do you hate that the moon doesn't shine on you alone, Gou Miao? You really don't like President Guan? Your eyes were practically glued to him during dinner. I don't understand why you just won't admit it."

Hearing Lin Bei's words, Li Miao looked at Lin Bei, the anger and impatience in her eyes instantly dissipating, replaced by a sense of confusion. She had always known that Guan Shiyun was gentle; she knew it from their first meeting. So, she unconsciously drew closer to this person. Did she love money? Of course.

Despite having harbored the idea of ​​marrying a rich man since childhood, she never responded to any of the sugar daddies who wanted to support her while working at the bar. She simply fished for a little money as compensation for the emotional distress caused by the disgusting interactions.

She understood the words the dean used to nag and scold her all year round when she saw those sticky and disgusting eyes, even though she felt they made no sense.

The idea that had been ingrained since childhood did not disappear as she came to understand things. She followed that idea and pursued Guan Shiyun. After that, she saw many different sides of Guan Shiyun.

She is reading, she is playing pranks, she is working, and she is in bed.

The chaotic scenes of their time together flooded her mind, forming such a vivid image of Guan Shiyun: serious, gentle, capable, at ease, cunning, shy, and helpless—all of which made her want to kiss her.

Li Miao placed her hand on her chest, feeling her heartbeat. When Guan Shiyun 'shone' that tenderness on Lin Bei, she was afraid that Lin Bei would also chase after Guan Shiyun like she did. So, influenced by the evil thoughts in her mind, she angrily questioned Lin Bei.

"Beibei, am I jealous? What were you all laughing about just now?"

This was the first time Lin Bei had seen Li Miao like this. Her eyes were unfocused, and she seemed lost in thought. She also frankly explained the change in her mindset to her friends.

"You know I'm a very indecisive person, and Ms. Guan really helped me out, so I'm very grateful to her. You're not just jealous, you're practically throwing a vat of jealousy over my head."

"How did she comfort you? I didn't notice."

Li Miao was still clutching her chest, turning to look at Lin Bei with a puzzled expression. She even wondered if her memory was playing tricks on her, since she had been there the whole time.

"So you're giving me some advice. Someone as straightforward as you wouldn't understand. If I were as great and outstanding as you, I wouldn't be so conflicted every day, you little brat."

"Then you're not as good as a little kid."

"Are you crazy? Fine, I'll let you off the hook."

Lin Bei recalled her preconceived notion of a hero saving a damsel in distress. Looking at Li Miao, who was now jealous for fear of falling in love with Guan Shiyun, she felt it was all so absurd. It was as if the rules of this world made it impossible for people to understand or imagine that a girl helping and comforting another girl was such a simple thing.

When someone offered Li Miao a helping hand, she assumed it was a heroic act of rescuing a damsel in distress, misunderstanding Guan Shiyun's gender. When Guan Shiyun comforted and reassured her, she was misunderstood as potentially developing feelings for her. She reflected on herself and came to understand Li Miao.

"Beibei, tell me, why do I want to be close to Guan Shiyun, but a thought keeps telling me that I don't love her?" She also said that Guan Shiyun would never love her, that she didn't love anyone, and that she was just putting on an act for money.

Li Miao tried hard to ignore the inexplicable thoughts about Lin Bei and Guan Shiyun in her mind, but she felt that something was really wrong about liking someone.

Again with that elusive expression and those nonsensical words, Lin Bei was puzzled and blurted out something offhand.

"He's either mentally ill or possessed by a ghost."

After returning home, Li Miao washed up and lay in bed waiting for Guan Shiyun, who hadn't come back yet. She was still thinking about all the strange things that had happened today. Lin Bei's words struck her like a chord: "She's possessed by a madman." She really felt that this was true.

Because from childhood, she has had all sorts of strange ideas in her mind, as if they were implanted into her brain by others. Although they are very unreasonable and too fantastical, she feels that they are really possible.

She feels fear, anger, jealousy, and envy, but she can't feel affection. She only feels close to Guan Shiyun and is even labeled as 'money-loving'.

She couldn't connect 'an action taken because of liking' with 'liking the thing itself'. Did she like Guan Shiyun? Did Guan Shiyun like her?

When Guan Shiyun returned home, she didn't see Li Miao waiting for her at the door. After washing up and returning to her bedroom, she saw Li Miao lying on the bed in a rather comical and cute posture. Her expression was blank, yet she seemed to be seriously pondering something, completely absorbed in her own thoughts.

What are you thinking about?

"I was thinking about dinner today. Sister, did you try to comfort Lin Bei today?"

Li Miao was still a little concerned. Although Lin Bei was fine, she wanted to know what Guan Shiyun was thinking and needed to be on guard so that she wouldn't have a chance to fall for someone else. She immediately got up and rushed into Guan Shiyun's arms, hugging her tightly and listening to the gentle person whispering in her ear.

"So that's what you were thinking about. I guess so. What's wrong? Are you unhappy?"

"Yes, I'm not happy." Li Miao expressed her dissatisfaction, tightening her grip on the other person's arm, her tone revealing her grievance.

Although Guan Shiyun couldn't see Li Miao's expression, she knew from her coquettish and willful tone that the little cat must be pouting and frowning in anger again. She gently patted the back of the person holding her, comforting her and explaining to her little by little.

“She’s your friend, and I was worried she might feel pressured about this opportunity, so I offered her some advice. I hope she can be less conflicted and seize the opportunity. I really hope there are more girls like her who can achieve their own success and prosper together with their friends. Isn’t that what you also hope for?”

Li Miao knew that Guan Shiyun was right, but it was useless; she could just do it herself.

"Hmm."

Her tongue probed into the mouth that couldn't utter the words she wanted to hear, hooking its companion inside to play and frolic with her. It was still sweet; this was the right feeling, instantly soothing the unpleasant emotions in her heart.

Noticing the person in her arms pushing against her shoulder, she decisively grabbed it, guiding the hand towards her chest. The person in her arms tensed up, and their hand stopped moving. She knew everything was under control. The warmth from the passionate kiss burned the jealous person, and she released the person in her arms to express her desire in an instant.

"I want it." And then they shared that lingering, jealous kiss again.

If she was destined never to understand what love was, Li Miao wanted to feel Guan Shiyun's longing for her. This would make her feel that she and Guan Shiyun were the same; she felt Guan Shiyun's feelings and gazed at her in that same way. She didn't want Guan Shiyun to look at others; she only wanted her to look at her, to keep her gaze fixed on her.

Guan Shiyun, who was slightly dizzy from the kiss, suddenly snapped back to her senses upon hearing this and abruptly pushed Li Miao away.

"No, I think you want to sleep in the guest room."

"I like you, is that not allowed?"

Guan Shiyun was somewhat stunned, never expecting such an answer. Had she gotten what she wanted so willingly so quickly? Did the little kitten even understand what liking someone meant? But there were other issues between them…

Li Miao didn't give Guan Shiyun time to react. She pounced on Guan Shiyun and straddled her lap. Then she quickly took off her nightgown and pulled Guan Shiyun to explore her body. She couldn't help but sigh with satisfaction. So this is what it feels like to be touched by Guan Shiyun.

Li Miao's movements were too swift and quick, and Guan Shiyun, who had been pushed down, only then realized that something was wrong with Li Miao.

"Li Miao! What are you doing?"

"Do it with me, I love you."

"Let go!" "Li Miao, let go of me!" "Stop! Do you hear me?"

The voice in her ear was a bit annoying. Li Miao grabbed Guan Shiyun's hand, but found that she was not cooperating. As the voice became more and more impatient, she decided to get to the point quickly. Li Miao forcefully pulled the hand down to her body. Guan Shiyun struggled strongly but could not break free. The hand that was being pulled could only be clenched into a fist.

—"Snap"

"Are you awake now?"

The slap dispelled her impatience, but it did not clear up Li Miao's confusion. Why was Guan Shiyun unwilling to be with her? She had already said she loved her. Weren't they now mutually in love, just as Guan Shiyun had said?

Why doesn't Guan Shiyun want to be close to her? She wants Guan Shiyun to only look at her, only be close to her, and only be this intimate with her.

Guan Shiyun looked at Li Miao, who was sitting on her lap and had taken off her nightgown. Her eyes were stubborn, and her lips were not pouting but pursed into a line. No matter what, she would get up first and talk to her properly later to find out what happened and what was wrong with her.

"Get down."

Guan Shiyun's tone was somewhat forceful, and Li Miao felt a little scared. The feeling of being calmly yelled at by Guan Shiyun made her purse her lips even tighter, but she didn't want to move.

"I want it."

Guan Shiyun couldn't figure out what the problem was. Was this little rascal jealous? But looking at Li Miao, who was saying "I love you," her eyes were still blank. However, she looked aggrieved at the moment, so she softened her heart and coaxed her to get up.

"Let me get up first, let's talk. What happened? What's wrong with you?"

"I won't get up. What if you run away? I want you."

"What do you want? I don't have any! Get up right now." Guan Shiyun couldn't help but get angry. This little rascal was getting more and more unruly, yet he had so much strength.

Li Miao, who had been yelled at, couldn't help but feel wronged. Why was Guan Shiyun different from her? Why didn't she want to do intimate things with her? Overwhelmed by the contradictory thoughts in her mind, Li Miao pouted and tears streamed down her face.

"I! Want! To!"

Guan Shiyun now understood the dean's pain. This kid was truly a troublemaker, a real troublemaker. She couldn't coax him, yell at him, or push him away. She closed her eyes and thought for a moment, then decided to lie to him and get him out of bed first.

"Okay, then I'll be on top, and you lie down obediently."

Upon hearing that it was okay, Li Miao wiped away her tears and got up, sitting obediently on the bed. Her eyes followed Guan Shiyun intently, waiting expectantly for her to get up and pounce on her. Then she saw Guan Shiyun pick up the nightgown and put it on her.

Realizing she had been tricked, Li Miao burst into tears. She missed the dean so much. Why didn't the dean tell Guan Shiyun the story of the boy who cried wolf? She was such a liar.

Li Miao, wearing her nightgown askew, sat on the bed and burst into tears. Guan Shiyun, watching Li Miao sobbing uncontrollably, frowned and was about to lose her composure. She really wondered what she had fallen for.

After crying, Li Miao felt much better and looked at the liar she had just let go with a pout.

"Are you done crying? What happened?"

"I don't want you to see anyone else, I only want you to see me."

Guan Shiyun really felt a headache coming on. She raised her hand to rub her forehead and thought about what had happened today. Who was she looking at? Was it Lin Bei? Was Li Miao jealous?

"I don't like Lin Bei."

Hearing Guan Shiyun say that, Li Miao felt the irritation in her heart blow away. But why wouldn't she get close to her? Why did she push her away, yell at her, and lie to her?

"You keep making me think, but what about you? Do you like me?"

Guan Shiyun looked at the kitten with tears still clinging to the corners of its eyes, staring stubbornly at her with unconcealed grievances in its eyes, as if asking her why she wouldn't hug it, was it because she didn't like kittens?

"I already answered this question on the very first day we got together, Li Miao. What about you? Was what you just said true?"

"Is it true that you would do it with me?"

"The door is over there. Go to the guest room."

—"Thump!" The kitten was lifted out and locked outside.

Li Miao felt that this bad woman was really difficult to deal with. In the end, she was seen through for lying. It wasn't that she wanted to lie, nor that she didn't like it, but that she couldn't understand it. Her feelings for Guan Shiyun were told to her by others. Lin Bei would never lie to her, and she herself believed that it was true.

But if Guan Shiyun said she liked her, why were her thoughts and actions different from her own? Didn't she want to be close to her? Looking at the closed door, Li Miao squatted on the ground, pondering this question carefully.