Chapter 75 You Can't Have It All

The man admitted to the hospital was in the highest-class ward, a huge room occupying the top floor of the hospital, surrounded by his people on three layers inside and out, and with a circle of bodyguards in black guards at the door. How could there be any talk of him "going to the wrong place"?

Jiang Qingying ignored their questions and turned to leave.

As she turned around, Lu Jinyuan realized what was happening, hurriedly got out of bed, and grabbed her arm, "...Qingying."

Jiang Qingying didn't turn around or look at him. She lowered her eyes and stared at a blank spot on the floor. "You should do your check-up properly. I have something to do and need to go first."

Lu Jinyuan gripped her wrist tightly. Her skin was fair, and a light pinkish-red mark quickly formed. He noticed this and slowly loosened his grip, but he was unwilling to let go.

He was afraid that if he let go, she would run away and he would never be able to catch up with her again.

Jiang Qingying sighed, "Calm down."

It's a bit ridiculous. She was the one who was most worried at the beginning, but now she's the one who needs to persuade the injured person to calm down.

"I'm sorry." Lu Jinyuan's voice was hoarse, filled with the metallic taste of blood.

Jiang Qingying avoided his burning gaze and softly hummed in agreement, "I really have very important work this afternoon."

Lu Jinyuan stared at her pale profile, hesitated for a long time, and finally let go.

“I’ll be waiting for you at home tonight,” he said, his voice pleading.

Jiang Qingying, now freed from her restraints, strode towards the door. "Let's talk again tonight."

She walked very fast, almost running. She really couldn't stay any longer; she was afraid that if she stayed another second, she would turn into a hysterical madwoman and start questioning him.

In the adult world, there are many things to do. A qualified adult knows how to disguise their emotions. Life is realistic, and emotions are the most insignificant thing. They only occupy a small part of life and can only be dealt with when there is free time.

After the unsuccessful meeting, Jiang Qingying returned to the company to handle official business, while Lu Jinyuan stayed at the hospital to complete the remaining examinations.

On the surface, the two seemed to be doing nothing wrong. One was still working efficiently and decisively, while the other was cleaning up Lu Yichuan's mess, still ruthless and cruel.

Jiang Qingying already knew that Lu Jinyuan wanted to deal with Lu Yichuan, but since he hadn't said anything, she hadn't asked. She didn't expect that Lu Jinyuan's goal was to put Lu Yichuan in jail.

She also knew how ruthless Lu Jinyuan was; he was ruthless to others, but even more ruthless to himself.

But he was so ruthless that he was willing to gamble with his life.

She couldn't understand how his lust for power could reach such a fanatical level, turning him into a reckless gambler.

Or is it for something else?

She really couldn't see him clearly.

As night deepened, the sky was devoid of stars and moon, with only thick clouds shrouding the darkness, slowly pressing down, so heavy it was hard to breathe.

Jiang Qingying returned home through the night fog, where Lu Jinyuan was already waiting.

Hearing a rustling sound coming from the entrance hall, Lu Jinyuan reflexively got up and looked over, only to unexpectedly meet her gaze.

His thin lips moved slightly, and he said softly, "You're back?"

Jiang Qingying met his gaze, hummed in response, then bent down to change her shoes, walked to the living room and sat down, looking up at the somewhat bewildered man standing in the center.

Lu Jinyuan moved to her side, slowly squatted down, and placed his hand on her knee. "Even though you may have already guessed most of the things, I still want to tell you the whole story."

"You speak," Jiang Qingying said softly, her red lips devoid of any warmth.

Lu Jinyuan's ability to summarize and extract key points was outstanding. His voice echoed throughout the empty house, and in five minutes, he slowly recounted everything.

Including the task Lu Qicheng gave him, how he became a manipulated "assassin", how he set up the scheme, how he exploited everyone's weaknesses, Lu Yunsong's love for his wife and children, Li Wanjun's ignorance and indulgence of her son, Lu Yichuan's impulsiveness and recklessness, and his fragile psychological defenses.

His first step was to dismiss Lu Yunsong from his post and seize his power and benefits; the second step was to target Li Wanjun and the Li family behind her, forcing them to leave Nanzhou. Lu Yunsong loved his wife and would not let her suffer alone in the deep mountains; the last step was Lu Yichuan, a decision he made on his own to break free from Lu Qicheng's control. He used a crazy method to constantly provoke Lu Yichuan, causing him to make mistakes and break the law.

Lu Jinyuan concluded his speech.

Jiang Qingying stared into his eyes and suddenly felt that the man in front of her was very unfamiliar. She shook her head slightly and said, "I don't understand. You already have everything you want, so why do you still do this?"

Lu Jinyuan's mouth remained open, and he didn't answer for a long time.

Why do this?

He couldn't give a definite answer either.

He was controlled in his life, studies, and work from a young age, living like a puppet. Perhaps he wanted a chance for a new life and to finally resolve everything.

Freed from control, he might be reborn.

Jiang Qingying could not hide the disappointment in her eyes. Her chest felt heavy, making it difficult for her to breathe. Her throat was sore and choked with emotion. She accused him, "You're crazy."

Lu Jinyuan lowered his eyelids, gave a self-deprecating smile, and admitted that she was right; he was indeed a madman who would stop at nothing.

"If you're going to deal with everyone, won't it eventually be my turn?"

Lu Jinyuan was shocked and vehemently denied it: "How could that be!"

"Have you ever considered my feelings? You don't care about me at all."

"...How could I not care about you?"

"You're not afraid of death... But do you know that the moment I received the news of your car accident today, I felt like I was dead? How many lives do you have to gamble with, and how many lives do I have to scare you?"

Jiang Qingying suddenly felt like she was telling a lame joke, and even she herself couldn't help but laugh and cry. "When you did these things, did you ever think of me? You wouldn't have risked your life. What would I do if you really died today? What would happen to the child in my belly? You didn't think about any of these things. You're too selfish."

"That's not how it is..." Lu Jinyuan tried his best to explain, but no matter what he said, it was all weak and hard for her to believe him.

“No, that’s exactly how it is.” Jiang Qingying kept denying him. “You only told me the answer after the story ended. You didn’t want to tell me about Chen Liqian, so I had to investigate it myself. I knew nothing about the plot against Lu Yichuan from beginning to end. You didn’t tell me about the lost ring right away either; I had to ask you to tell me.”

It's often said that women like to bring up old grievances when they argue, but that's not really true. It's just that they've been suppressing their feelings for a long time and are now venting together.

“I’ve explained all of this to you. I don’t want you to worry, and I want you to have a better life. My original intention was to protect you.”

"This isn't protecting me, it's pushing me away." As she shook her head, hot tears welled up in her reddened eyes. Jiang Qingying wiped them away with trembling hands. "Actually, our marriage was just a business arrangement. It's normal that you don't care about me."

Lu Jinyuan stared at her blankly. This was the second time he had seen her cry. The last time was when he found out she was pregnant. It seemed like he always made her cry.

He reached out to wipe away her tears, but when his fingertips were almost touching her cheek, she dodged him, leaving him feeling helpless: "It's true that our marriage was a business arrangement. I've been trying my best to be a good husband, but many times I don't understand what kind of husband you really want."

"You are very good. You take care of me in every way, so well that there is no room for criticism." Jiang Qingying murmured very closely, "I was greedy. I actually hoped that you could love me."

The living room fell into dead silence.

Jiang Qingying suddenly remembered when she first joined Jiang's Group, she thought she was capable enough, so she negotiated and executed two big projects at the same time. In the end, she lost more than she gained, and neither project achieved the expected results.

Jiang Chen said she was too greedy. He said that one should be ambitious in business, but not greedy, and not want everything.

Yes, you can't have it all.

After their marriage, Lu Jinyuan treated her very well and was very considerate; he was the epitome of an excellent husband. Therefore, she lacked nothing and began to yearn for the purest and most passionate love in the world. Because it was pure and passionate, it was a rare and precious treasure.

That's greed.

She was no longer satisfied with physical intimacy, the position of a partner, or even his affection.

She wanted his love, his unconditional love.