Chapter 49 "I have someone I like."

The night is quiet and the moon is shining brightly.

This was the best time to enjoy the moon and stars. Gu Wan was single, but before he could even start to act like a dead pig that was not afraid of boiling water, he was shocked beyond words when Xie Ci was rejected.

If I had to use one word to describe it, it would probably be "five thunders and a top of the head".

Her heart began to beat violently, and her hand subconsciously curled up. The nail of her little finger dug into the palm of her hand, causing a sharp pain. She did not feel any joy at all. Her heart seemed to suddenly fall from the top of a cliff to the bottom of the valley. She was suspended in mid-air for a moment, with her adrenaline surging. She was shocked and at a loss.

——In an instant, all the traces from before surged up, and for a moment they coincided with his current look, and all had a cause.

Gu Guan was stunned. She didn't know how to react at that moment. The half-smile on her face froze. It was April and the weather was slightly hot after the rain, but she suddenly felt cold. A chill rose from her tailbone and attacked her heart and lungs. She felt hot and cold at the same time, and she couldn't smile anymore.

——How could Xie Ci like me?

how so? !

What, exactly, went wrong?

Questions came up one after another, and Gu Guan's heart was in a mess. She opened her eyes wide and looked at Xie Ci in front of her. The shock at this moment made her feel for the first time that organizing words was a difficult thing.

Fortunately, hurried footsteps were heard outside the courtyard. Under the night sky, the face of Xie Feng, another former deputy commander of the Xie Family Guard, appeared. He and Xie Yun, one of them was in charge of the interior affairs, and the other was in charge of the exterior affairs. The younger, more resolute-looking young man rushed in and said, "Master, Xun Dalangjun is taking the Yangrong Road!"

Xie Ci turned around suddenly and couldn't help cursing, "Wan Niang," the young man's eyebrows and eyes were as poetic as he looked back at her in the night, "I have to go out for a while, you wait for me,..."

He pursed his lips and smiled, lowering his eyes. Then he raised them again, his beautiful eyes like bright shooting stars. "When you come back, I have something to tell you."

Xie Ci smiled at her and hurriedly led his men away. Under the moonlight, the already extremely tall and agile young man in black armor trotted out of the courtyard, jumped on his horse, and quickly disappeared into the gravel alley.

The sound of horse hooves passed away quickly and could no longer be heard after a moment.

The yard soon returned to silence.

The group came and went like the wind, leaving behind only a message like a thunderclap.

Gu Wan stood in the corridor in a daze. She didn't even have time to react or answer. She just forced a smile and said, "...Okay, then I'll take care of things here..."

Then I watched him turn around and smile, his back quickly disappearing behind the courtyard gate.

The night was as dark as water, and the moonlight gradually faded. It was not until several minutes after Xie Ci left that Gu Wan let out a sigh and shook her head. After a long while, she was in disbelief and sat down on the steps with a frown.

Ah, how could Xie Ci like me?

The hard granite slabs felt cold in the middle of the night. She rubbed her face vigorously. "Oh my God, how could this happen?"

Gu Guan couldn't believe it. This was how she got along with all her friends. She tried hard to recall and was very sure that she had definitely not given any wrong signals.

There was no hiding when things were tough, but she was sure that at that time, they were both pure. It was impossible for Xie Ci to still be in the mood to talk about love after his father and brother had just died.

When did that start?

Gu Guan was so worried that she almost pulled out all her hair. You know, her original plan, and her plan all along, was to be single for the rest of her life.

She had never had any feelings for Xie Ci beyond that of a family member.

From the beginning, she never intended to have any relationship with anyone.

In other words, she never thought about falling in love.

But just like a train that has been running on a predetermined track, it was suddenly discovered today that it had derailed!

…

Gu Guan sat on the steps for a long time, thinking for a long time. The oil in the lamp on the square table burned out, flickered a few times and gradually went out, and the room fell into darkness.

Gu Guan didn't know where the lamp oil was. She sat for a while, looked up at the floating clouds in the sky for a moment, then slowly got up and left the yard.

The moonlight was like a veil, dyeing the mountains and rooftops white, rising and falling, high and low, and there was an endless black silence.

Gu Guan stood on the top of the terrace and looked at the valley for a long time. She squatted down and helped a handful of wheat seedlings that were leaning on the ground. After helping the entire small wheat field, she stood up, sighed softly, walked out of the wheat field, and walked forward along the gravel road in the moonlight.

"Can't sleep?"

Gu Guan looked up and saw Qin Ying, dressed in a gray-purple shorts and holding a sword, looking at her with a smile.

"Sister Ying." Gu Wan forced a smile and called out.

Qin Ying walked over along the alley, hooked her arm around her shoulder and patted her, "If Xiao Si says something unpleasant, don't blame him. That's how men in the Xie family are."

Sometimes it pokes the heart, and sometimes it shines so brightly that it makes people feel sad.

Qin Ying smoothed Gu Wan's messy hair out of pity.

"No."

Gu Wan smiled and shook his head.

It really wasn't. Not only was it not unpleasant to hear, it was incredibly pleasant to hear. He even apologized. It's just...

well.

Qin Ying saw that although Gu Wan was not in a good mood, her smile was not forced, and she really didn't care. She felt relieved and patted her shoulder, "That's good. Family members don't hold grudges overnight."

Qin Ying also sighed. She was also very annoyed. "Let's go and persuade that silly girl Wenxuan. She has been crying since she came back. Her eyes are so swollen that she can hardly see the road."

Qin Ying could roughly guess what was going on, but the two sisters were quite different in age. Qin Wenxuan kept crying and refused to say anything even when she asked. Qin Ying thought that Gu Wan was of the same age and might be easier to talk to.

Following the gravel road, they came to the courtyard where the Qin sisters were temporarily staying. Qin Ying lived in the east wing and Qin Wenxuan lived in the west wing. After returning, Qin Wenxuan threw herself onto the bed, crying heartbrokenly and choking with tears.

Gu Guan pressed his nose bridge, cheered himself up and walked into the room. Qin Ying considerately closed the door.

"Wenxuan? Wenxuan?"

The light in the room was not glaring. Qin Wenxuan covered her face with her hands and sat up and looked back. Under the dim yellow light, Gu Wan was looking at her with his head slightly lowered, contrary to his usual cheerful and unrestrained appearance. His big eyes, which were always bright and lively, were tinged with a hint of sadness like water.

Qin Wenxuan was suddenly overwhelmed with grief. She threw herself on Gu Wan's shoulder, tears welling up in her eyes. She sobbed, "...Sister Gu, Sister Gu, why, why, I don't dislike him, really not,... really not...."

The red face leaves the mirror, the flowers leave the trees, and they are the things that cannot be retained in this world.

Qin Wenxuan had seen the deep affection between her parents and her brother, sister-in-law, and brother-in-law since she was a child. Although she was immature, her feelings were not superficial. She felt sorry for Xun Xiao, but she didn't think it was ugly. She had thought that people would become ugly when they got older. Xun Xiao would definitely not dislike her if she was ugly, and she would certainly not dislike him either.

She chased him, doing everything in her power to find him.

But she is also a human being. When her father and siblings were hesitant to speak, she pretended not to see it and persisted, but she would also feel tired and uncomfortable.

Xun Xiao pushed her away so hard tonight, which really made her sad.

Gu Guan sighed and patted her back gently, but she knew that Qin Wenxuan didn't need her to say anything, she just needed a shoulder and an outlet.

If you ask her to persuade someone, she doesn't know what to say.

Gu Guan gently patted Qin Wenxuan's shoulder and looked up at the ceiling. The simple patterns woven from fine cotton cloth were in circles, vaguely visible in the darkness. It was impossible to see where they came from or where they were going.

She suddenly felt melancholy and sad.

The most difficult things to overcome in this world are time and space. With these two things as obstacles, the best and most beautiful things can easily become unrecognizable.

She thought of herself and opened her mouth, but her throat was choked for no reason and she couldn't say a word. She paused her patting hands, closed her eyes for a moment, took a long silent breath, opened her eyes, and continued to pat silently.

…

Qin Wenxuan cried for a long time before she fell asleep on Gu Guan's shoulder with tears in her eyes. Gu Guan gently put her back on the pillow and covered her with a thin quilt.

I changed out of my half-soaked soft armor and cotton-padded jacket and donned a long, cyan-colored gown with tied sleeves and a slanting collar. The mountains were foggy, and a light rain fell just before dawn, but it stopped soon after.

Gu Guan said goodbye to Qin Ying and walked forward along the stream. He walked aimlessly for a long time and finally ran into Xun Xiao who was leaning against the mountain wall.

Gu Wan's horse was very understanding and followed her all the time. She took the water bag from the saddle, sat side by side with Xun Xiao, pulled out the cork and took two sips, then handed it to him, "Do you want some?"

Gu Guan's voice was also a little hoarse. It was rare to hear such a voice. Xun Xiao glanced at her lightly, took the water bag, tilted his head back to drink it all, and threw the water bag into the bottom of the canyon.

The mountain wind was howling, but there was no sunrise today. Thick clouds blocked the eastern horizon, and the clouds were rolling over the distant mountains.

The two sat side by side.

Xun Xiao threw the water bag into the valley and laughed hoarsely, "Xie Ci, Xie Ci! He probably needs to feel the pain again to realize how terrible this world is!"

He had regained consciousness, but his emotions clearly had not. His eyes were bloodshot, making him look extreme and somewhat scary.

"Hey," Gu Wan leaned back with his hands, took a long breath, and looked up at the sky: "That's all for the future."

Gu Guan said, "Actually, he's right. If everyone does this, then the people behind us will really have no way to survive."

Xie Ci was thinking of the Northern Army of the Guochao Dynasty, but Gu Guan first thought of the ordinary people behind him.

She thought about this problem last night, and finally she felt that in addition to the reference of the original trajectory, the more important thing was that she felt that she had to abide by the ethics according to her position. It was like in her previous life, she would take some special measures at work, but if she was in the system, she would never do so.

If she were in Xie Ci Qin Xian's position, or even just a small soldier, she would not do it.

If it gets exposed, the impact will be too bad, so professional ethics must still be maintained. As a soldier, you should not communicate with the enemy, even if it is for personal matters.

Gu Guan reflected on himself last night and finally found out the reason why he cooperated with Xun Xiao without much hesitation.

She is different from Xun Xiao and Xie Ci. Her role is a non-staff member, and she is very sure that she can grasp this degree.

But she decided that if there was a next time, she would discuss it with Xie Ci first.

This relationship that spanned thousands of miles was hard-earned. Xie Ci was such a person. Since she admired him, she should respect him even more.

Great Wei is the motherland that his Xie family has protected for generations, so she should understand his patriotic feelings even more.

After Gu Guan figured it out, he no longer cared.

This is also what Gu Guan wanted to say to Xun Xiao.

"With people like him, this family and this country have hope," she sighed.

Xun Xiao sneered, "But this dynasty and this country will only disappoint him."

Gu Wan sighed: "They all said it was a matter for the future."

It takes time to grow.

"But Xun Xiao, you passed." Gu Guan tilted his head and said to Xun Xiao seriously. Xie Ci gritted his teeth and went to finish Xun Xiao's job. Yangrong Road was the patrol area of the Lingzhou Army for the past two days. Xun Xiao did not take the mountain road, but directly took the Yangrong Road at the edge of the mountain.

Gu Guan finally understood why Xun Xiao was so quick. He was sure that Xie Ci had to finish him off for the sake of the overall situation.

"I don't think this is good."

Gu Guan said seriously that doing so was already excessive.

She and Qin Ying wanted to express their gratitude and do it for everyone, so their original intention was good, but Xun Xiao could be said to have used all means to kidnap and commit hostage-taking.

Xie Ci was right about one thing. Xun Xiao's temperament changed drastically. Apart from the deep hatred in his heart, everything else was completely different.

Xie Ci disliked Xun Xiao, but after confirming that he was alright and accepted him into his own camp, "He still treated you as his elder cousin in his heart."

Otherwise, how could there be so much trust that comes so easily?

Xun Xiao's sneer suddenly disappeared, his face became gloomy, his lips were pursed like ice, and he stopped talking.

Gu Wan stood up and took a breath. "And Wenxuan, if you really don't plan to continue your relationship with her, it's best to tell her clearly as soon as possible."

She also had something on her mind and was in no mood to keep comforting Xun Xiao. After she finished speaking, she patted her pants, turned around, led the horse, and left the edge of the valley.

…

Gu Guan was in a bad mood because she remembered some things from her previous life.

But she has always been a positive person.

She allowed herself to be down for a while, maybe until noon! But one couldn't dwell on the past forever; it was enough to just let it go. She still had matters of thanks to deal with.

She needs to adjust her mood.

She was leading the horse, walking aimlessly on the mountain path. She moved her wrist and saw a little bit of the black-brown leather edge of the sleeve arrow. It was put on her by Xie Ci himself. It was a relic of his eldest brother. He didn't even use it himself, but tied it carefully on her hand for her self-defense.

No matter how Xie Ci started or when it started, Gu Wan didn't want him to be sad.

When she first came here, it was Qin Ying's strong care that helped her cheer up quickly, but it was Xie Ci who made her experience the true joys and sorrows in this world.

At first, in Gu Wan's impression, he was a peerless hero who passed away in the Huai River and was buried in a coffin in the original book. This made her sigh and curse the author for being a cruel person.

But when she truly connected with him, she saw that gorgeous young man, prostrate on his knees, tears streaming down his face. He would weep bitterly over escaping prison and killing the prison guards, his face pale as he braced himself to help her build a fire and peel skins. Under the pouring rain, he would hand her a huge meat-filled bun while he ate the empty one himself. Under the misty spray, he earnestly said he would write her a divorce letter and help her open a tavern. He was a sincere young man.

Hand in hand, the two of them traveled all the way from Zhongdu to Xiangzhou, to Suzhou, then to Lingzhou and Qizhou, and finally to the south of Yinshan Mountain.

He lay in the ditch of Akamatsuin, raised his head and said word by word that if she died, he would commit suicide to accompany her.

Together, the two smashed the conspiracy trap of Xun Rongbi and Xun Xiao, escaped from Yinglie Slope, rushed to Longshan Road to intercept those people, and smiled at each other after surviving the disaster.

There are many more. Xie Ci is actually very careful and considerate. He has led horses for her many times and always saved the best food for her.

All these past events and experiences left Xie Ci with unforgettable memories, and they also left a strong mark on Gu Wan.

At the beginning, she felt somewhat out of place in this world, but Xie Ci gave her a sense of reality and a sense of family.

Now when she looked at the Xie family, they were really not much different from her own family, but the most special one was Xie Ci.

Gu Wan cherishes the relationship between the two of them very much, and she doesn't want this incident to affect their relationship.

Gu Guan walked along the mountain path, crossed the stream, walked past the stone platform, passed through the mountains and forests, and sat by the mountain stream for a long time.

She finally felt that it was enough.

"Okay, let's go back!"

Gu Guan moved the stones to look for the crabs and used the stones to form a circle around the stream, so that she could catch any that ran away. Finally, she lifted the stones and let them all go, then she got on the horse, cheered herself up, and kicked the horse's belly.

The fat horse waded through the water, crossed the mountain stream, and headed back in the original direction carrying the young girl holding a sword.

…

But some things are always different from what we imagine.

Xie Ci came back in the evening. He spent the whole day repeatedly checking and filling in the gaps to ensure that everything was foolproof.

After a whole day of intense work, he galloped back to the camp on his horse in the sunset.

Xie Ping sent him a message saying that Gu Guan urged Xun Xiao to deal with everything and then went back.

The clouds hovering over the Qingshui River Valley Plain were blown away by the strong wind, the sky was blue, and the sun was shining with heat. In the evening, the sunset glow dyed the mountains and plains, covering his way with a layer of brilliant red light.

His mood was high, and his warhorse's hooves were flying as he galloped along the bright red road all the way to the main camp of the Great Wei.

He turned a corner, skillfully went around the stream, nodded to the officers and soldiers who saluted him, rushed into the gate, and galloped all the way to his tent with the sound of horse hooves.

He dismounted and quickly lifted the curtain to enter.

Gu Guan was lying beside his long table, lost in thought - if she went back to the tent, the other guards would give way. The night shift was very tiring, and she didn't want to disturb others' rest, nor was it convenient for her to wander around, so she had to stay in Xie Ci's tent.

This big tent has traces of him everywhere. Even if you close your eyes, you can smell his familiar scent, which is the clean and masculine scent of a young man with a hint of sweat.

She sighed helplessly.

In fact, both of them already knew it well, and they just needed to peel off the last layer of veil.

Xie Ci walked in through the curtains in the sunset, the hem of his black armor stirring up a gust of wind. His eyes were bright, like a pilgrim's gaze soaked in joy, and overflowing emotions poured out.

"Are you back?"

Gu Wan smiled at him.

She watched this young man grow from a boy into a mighty warrior, watched him grow from a lonely, confused and stubborn young man into a young general who can handle matters with ease and confidence.

When he appeared clearly in front of her, Gu Wan was a little moved.

Xie Ci nodded and tilted his head slightly. Xie Ping and others were very sensible and left, which made Xie Ci very satisfied.

Gu Wan: “…”

Xie Ci pursed his lips and smiled, he walked up quickly, he was smiling all the time, when Gu Wan looked up, he had to smile at him too.

Dinner was ready and served warm in a lunch box. She asked them to eat first, and he happily agreed.

Gu Wan smiled and handed him the chopsticks. "I'm hungry. I've eaten first. You eat first."

She divided the dishes on the plate in half, broke off most of one of the steamed buns, and put the remaining small half on top of another one.

Xie Ci didn't care at all. He took the chopsticks and swept away the half-plate of food in no time.

His young and vigorous body was just like his passionate emotions. After noticing it, Gu Wan realized that it was so strong that he couldn't hide it.

She suddenly couldn't laugh anymore. The psychological adjustments she had made before seemed to have lost their effect, and her mood suddenly became gloomy.

She suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, as if she was back to last night when she had just learned about this matter.

But no matter what, she still had to say what she had to say. She couldn't delay thanking him and let him get deeper into trouble.

Gu Guan was even a little confused at this moment. Should she be transferred to another place to be nicer to Xie Ci?

While she was stunned, Xie Ci had already put down his chopsticks. He carefully took out a red silk bag from his arms.

He treasured it very much and was about to open it carefully, but at this moment, a hand rested on his hand and the red cloth bag.

Gu Wan stopped him and whispered, "Don't open it, okay?"

The afterglow of the setting sun shone on the large cowhide tent, which was a little dark and red inside. Xie Ci suddenly remembered the red tent on the day of their wedding. The sunset glowed on her profile, which was gentle and breathtakingly beautiful. Her eyebrows and eyes seemed to be imprinted on his heart.

But when she whispered this sentence, Xie Ci's heart sank sensitively, as if a big hole suddenly appeared and he fell down. In an instant, all his joy disappeared.

Xie Ci was stunned and suddenly looked up at her. At this moment, he suddenly understood the worry and sadness hidden under Gu Wan's gentleness.

He stared at Gu Wan in a daze.

Gu Guan hugged his knees and sat at the table, saying softly, "I told you before that I wanted to open a small pub, run a women's shop, and sell wine. That was because I never thought about getting married."

"I want to be alone."

Gu Wan let go of that hand and whispered to him, "I'm sorry, it's my fault."

No matter what, it's her fault.

"Wait until June and give me the divorce papers, okay?"

Xie Ci listened in a daze, his heart seemed to have suddenly plunged from the scorching sun into the freezing cold of winter.

The key point is that Gu Wan was talking to him very seriously, and every time she had this expression, she was telling the truth.

“…W-why?”

Xie Ci opened his mouth twice before he could make a sound. He looked up at her and suddenly grabbed her hand. "Can you tell me why?"

Xie Ci's voice changed. He really never thought it would be like this. He always thought that as long as he worked hard enough, Gu Wan would fall in love with him.

He really, really loves her!

Only then did Xie Ci realize what had happened and burst into tears. Two lines of tears suddenly flowed down uncontrollably.

He stood in the middle of the big tent in a daze, a large patch of red sunset shining on the tent, dazzling him so much that he felt dizzy.

His heart, full of joy and anticipation, was suddenly empty, leaving him unable to tell where he was.

Xie Ci loosened his grip, and the red silk bag fell to the ground, and a ruby ring rolled out.

——I don’t remember which time it was, but when Gu Guan was pretending, he accidentally fiddled with a ring and said, “A four-claw style is fine, a simple circle is the most beautiful.”

As smart as Xie Ci was, he actually realized from the context and expression of her words at the time, as well as her disguised identity, that she liked to have a wedding ring.

To save him, Gu Wan gave away her only red gem, the most valuable dowry left to her by her grandmother. Xie Ci secretly put in a lot of effort to get this crystal clear ruby back, a little smaller but beautiful in shape.

He thought he would find her a bigger one later.

He polished it bit by bit himself, and then carefully set it into this four-claw silver setting.

He slowly knelt on the ground, his knees on the ground, looking up at her, "Can you tell me? Can you tell me why? Please..."

Xie Ci tried his best to hold it back, but his eyes were red and his voice was choked with sobs. The beautiful ruby ring in his hand was deeply embedded in the back of her hand because he held her hand too tightly.

Gu Wan felt as if she was stung, or as if a blunt object had scratched her heart, and suddenly, tears came to her eyes.

There were some things that Gu Wan had never intended to tell anyone in her life, but at this moment, her heart felt sore and swollen, and her defenses were broken at once.

"I have someone I like."

She deliberately ignored all the things in her past life and tried to tell herself to forget them and be positive and sunny, not to let herself think about them, because these words suddenly surged up in her mind.

Gu Guan couldn't control her tears and they burst out.

She covered her face, damn it, for so long, she thought her efforts had paid off, but now she realized that it seemed not to!

The author has something to say:

The beauty leaves the mirror, the flowers leave the trees, and what cannot be retained in this world is Wang Guowei

Throw the blade lightly QAQ. In terms of growth line, this is a story of letting go of the past and embracing the future.

No matter whether it is thanks or a smile.

I have written several books about heartless or modern families without deep emotions. In this book, A Xiu wants to write about a modern heroine who has enough positive energy to grow up. Her healthy and happy past has shaped her into this kind of person. Her positivity is because she has never lacked love in her growth process.

Gu Guan is positive and full of positive energy, but she is just an ordinary person and she has a fragile side.

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Ahhh, my heart is shooting!! See you tomorrow, babies~ (づ￣3￣)づ╭