Chapter 59: First time hearing about great loyalty and righteousness; I won’t give you the divorce letter

Xie Ci drew his sword and killed Lu Xinyi.

In the pitch-black tent, a flash of snow-white blade appeared with a "swish" sound, slashed across Lu Xinyi's neck, and disappeared in a flash.

Scarlet blood spurted out of the neck cavity. Lu Xinyi sat stiffly for a moment with his eyes wide open, then fell to the ground with a thud.

He is dead.

Xie Ci held the knife in one hand and stood motionless in front of Lu Xinyi's body. Blood splattered on his forehead and body, and the blade pointed at the ground dripped blood. What kept rolling before his eyes was Lu Xinyi's hysterical appearance and words.

He was breathing heavily, his other hand tightly grasping the blackened brass letterhead and the Yuquan paper.

Gu Wan discovered that his hands were shaking.

Lu Xinyi was dead, but no one showed any joy or emotion. Everyone was confused and couldn't believe it. The room was dark and quiet as if there was death.

"go out."

After a long while, Xie Ci said in a hoarse voice, "Everyone get out."

His voice was hoarse like gravel grinding against each other, and there was a feeling of congestion.

The people behind him retreated one after another. A ray of cold moonlight came through the gap in the tent, splitting the bloody tent into two.

Xie Ci stood motionless in the darkness.

Until he heard footsteps outside, he slowly raised his eyes and saw the curtain was lifted. A tall figure in purple boots and black armor was standing at the door against the light. It was Li Yi.

Li Yi was in charge of guarding the main account, so he was able to give Xie Cixing this convenience.

Xie Ci probably didn't know that his teeth were trembling at this moment, his eyes were bloodshot, and the moonlight reflected on the ground for a moment, making his face look miserable.

Li Yi slowly walked to his side. In the darkness, he stood quietly for a moment and said softly, "This is it."

"This world has no room for these people."

Li Yi's father, the former King of Xiaoshan Li Chun, is actually the man between Lu Jingzhao and Xie Xinzhong.

After Lu Jingzhao passed away, Xie Xinzhong, who was still young, took Lu Xinyi back to the Northern Army to work hard. At that time, it was Li Chun, the father of Li Yi, who succeeded Lu Jingzhao as the commander-in-chief of the Northern Army.

He is also a kind-hearted person who is loyal to the emperor and patriotic, and has the Li family's rule in mind.

But he died in the end.

The same thing happened. In the end, Li Chun was deprived of his military power, his property was confiscated, his royal title was taken away, and he was exiled to the northwest. Li Yi grew up in the northwest.

"Regardless of whether they have no title, merit, or are from the royal family."

Li Yi pursed his lips, tilted his head back, closed his eyes, and then opened them again: "It's all the same anyway."

In the dark tent.

Xie Ci's blood was flowing backwards. Half of his heart was filled with indignation like fire, a raging flame that almost burned everything, but the other side was like ice, cold and solidified, unable to burn. Even his blood vessels were frozen all over his body.

His head was buzzing, and the wind was whistling outside his eardrums, distant yet clear, like a strange sound, whistling and covering the sky and earth like an overwhelming force.

Xie Ci never knew that his father and brother had to deal with so many things.

While his young master was riding his horse through the streets, spending money lavishly and doing as he pleased, his father was stuck in such a quagmire.

Arrows were shot from all directions, the emperor was suspicious, powerful officials were plotting, Xie Xinzhong was loyal and steadfast all his life, but in the end he became a thorn in everyone's side.

He died from Lu Xinyi's backstab.

But he didn't just die from Lu Xinyi's backstabbing.

This tragedy was not accidental, but inevitable.

The sky was vast and the earth was boundless. There was no way for the Xie family father and son to survive in this world.

Xie Ci's loyalty and righteousness have never changed. Even though his father and brother died unjustly, he is still the iron-willed man of the Xie family.

After a bloody battle and a breakout, he faced Cheng Lizhang's bloodstained four fingers and face and said loudly: "As long as the Wei army is there, he will be there!"

Hold your gun and mount your horse to guard the country's borders.

As long as the country exists, his thanks will be there.

Even Qin Xian, recounting his father's admonitions, echoed the same sentiment: "Behind us is our homeland. As a minister, we must be loyal. As a general, once we're in armor, we must draw our sword and mount our horse, using all our abilities to protect our country and its people. Even if we die on the battlefield, we should have no regrets."

However, today everything was turned upside down. The truth was so cold and cruel, and the world was dangerous from top to bottom.

The Wei Dynasty does not need people like them, nor can it tolerate them. Loyalty and righteousness will only lead to death!

Xie Ci was indignant and cold, as if he was standing on a vast grassland and encountering a hundred feet of ice. He didn't know where to vent his indignation, and all his beliefs were shattered in an instant.

At this moment, the world was spinning.

…

The rain stopped, the wind blew away the cumulus clouds, and a crescent moon hung in the eastern sky.

But the moonlight tonight did not illuminate the road ahead. There was no road ahead. The messy battlefield was still in ruins. Standing in it, there was nothing but the smell of blood everywhere. The bright moonlight shone quietly, unchanging and extremely cruel.

After Xie Ci came back, he soon developed a high fever.

His injuries were not as minor as he said. After such a life-or-death fight, all the survivors were covered in scars, and Xie Ci was no exception. Although his wound was not fatal, it was very deep, almost piercing his shoulder blade. He fought hard without a bandage and almost lost all his blood.

Everyone who came back that day had already developed a fever, except for Xie, who was supported by his willpower.

The breath suddenly came out and a high fever came over him in an instant.

First half of the night.

After Gu Wan came back, he was very worried about Xie Ci and did not go to bed. He lit a lamp and sat by the bed.

Suddenly, hurried footsteps were heard outside. Qin Ying rushed into the tent. Her expression changed with anxiety. "Yuan Niang! Xiao Si has a fever. It's a high fever——"

It was very high and came with great force. In just the time it took for the heat to go in and out, it burned me to the point of losing my mind.

Xie Yun crawled and rolled out, his voice changing in anxiety.

Gu Wan’s heart tightened!

She knew that this might be the biggest hurdle in Xie Ci's life.

——His eye injury had not yet healed, and he groped his way for thousands of miles, but only touched a few cold tombstones.

He sought to uncover the truth of what happened, but everything had changed and the ship was nowhere to be found. Despite his efforts, he managed to find the one or two he found, but they turned out to be the father-in-law of the current emperor. Meanwhile, the new emperor had just defied all odds to exonerate the Xie family. Gratitude and hatred, loyalty and righteousness, the country was hanging in the balance. With various forces mingling, if he persisted, this shaky edifice would crumble in an instant.

In his previous life, Xie Ci could be said to have died on this very spot. Gu Wan couldn't care less about anything else at this moment. Everything else had to be put aside. She quickly stood up and rushed towards Xie Ci's tent with Qin Ying at top speed.

A military doctor also came at the same time. Xie Yun, Xie Ping and others rushed back carrying the military doctor on their backs. Everyone rushed in one after another. Xie Ci's face was already red with fever and his body was as hot as charcoal. There was no thermometer, but the temperature was definitely over 40 degrees.

His armor and shirt had been removed, revealing layers of gauze wrapped around him, his body covered with old and new scars. The center and edges of the gauze were covered with large patches of semi-dried red, and his entire body was burning red, a shocking sight.

The military doctor was horrified and hurriedly opened the medicine box. He used acupuncture to prick the acupuncture points and unblock the meridians. He hurriedly asked someone to go to the injured camp and bring a bowl of the boiled fever-reducing medicine. He took the patient's pulse, quickly modified the prescription, and asked someone to pick it up and boil it quickly.

But Xie Ci's fever didn't go down at all, and the temperature continued to soar.

The military doctor was even forced to add a strong medicine, but when he tried to pry his teeth open again, he couldn't. The medicine could not go down his throat and flowed out again, wetting the quilt and pillow with a large brown stain.

He was not conscious and was mumbling, but I couldn't hear what he was saying. I could only hear a few vague "Dad" and "Brother". He looked like he had been fished out of the water. The gauze was completely soaked and the wound was bleeding again.

There were many people in the tent. Qin Guan carried Qin Xian on his back. Chen Luo, Chen Yan, Su Zhen, He Yuan, Su Wei and others came after hearing the news. Everyone was extremely anxious.

The military doctor said anxiously, "If the fever doesn't go away, I'm afraid it will be serious!"

Finally, it was Gu Wan who came. Gu Wan was so anxious that she tightly grasped Xie Ci's burning hand, "Xie Ci! Xie Ci! You can hear me, wake up! We are all waiting for you!"

"Didn't you say you would take me back to Zhongdu in the future? How could you go back on your word?"

"Your mother is waiting for you! And Mingming and the others are waiting for you to come home safely!"

She freed one hand and kept patting Xie Ci's face, then leaned over and called him loudly in his ear.

Finally, Xie Ci seemed to hear something. He paused in his mumbling, and his heavy and hot breathing continued for a moment. He finally managed to open his eyes a little.

Gu Guan was overjoyed. He quickly took the medicine bowl, raised his head slightly, and fed him the medicine bit by bit.

After Xie Ci took the medicine, he fell into a coma.

Fortunately, the military doctor had excellent medical skills and was very good at treating post-traumatic fever. After taking a strong dose of medicine, after half an hour, Xie Ci's fever finally began to subside.

It dropped a little, and then continued to drop slowly. This happened repeatedly, but the temperature was not so alarming. By dawn, the fever had finally subsided completely.

The whole night was thrilling.

The military doctor observed for another hour and finally breathed a sigh of relief: "It's okay, it shouldn't be serious. The wound is in good condition. Be careful not to break it again. He will be fine after heals his blood and qi."

The military doctor didn't know about Lu Xinyi's condition. He just thought it was a high fever caused by a deep wound, but he finally got through it.

The military doctor, together with Xie Yun, Xie Ping and others, helped Xie Ci up and changed his sweat-soaked clothes and bandages again. Gu Wan was wringing a handkerchief outside the tent.

After finishing, the military doctor gave a few instructions and asked the rest of the people to disperse, urging them not to gather so large, as external injuries are most vulnerable to infection by wind evil and filth. He asked them to put up a screen, lift the tent door, ventilate the room for a while, and leave one or two people to take care of it.

So Qin Xian and the others went back.

Qin Xian's condition is not good either. After being poisoned, half of his body is paralyzed and he can hardly move. He is still in the slow recovery period and it is unknown when he will be fully recovered.

Gu Guan listened to the footsteps outside the tent and the military doctor's angry nagging at Qin Xian gradually fading away.

It was already bright outside.

After a thrilling night, things finally quieted down and became peaceful. Xie Ci lay on the camp bed with a pale face. Gu Guan touched his forehead and finally breathed a sigh of relief.

…

After lifting the curtain to ventilate for half an hour and feeding Xie Ci porridge and medicine again, his condition finally stabilized completely.

Gu Guan then whispered an order, asking Xie Yun and the others to take turns to rest.

Xie Yunduan tiptoed back with the empty medicine bowl.

The huge tent was very quiet, with only the smell of wormwood burning as ordered by the military doctor for sterilization. Gu Wan also drank some porridge. After running around and staying up late for days, her eyelids were heavy, and she finally fell asleep on the large camphor wood box beside the bed.

She slept until mid-afternoon and vaguely felt someone covering her with something. She fell asleep again. When she woke up again, she quickly opened her eyes and the black cloak on her body slipped to the ground.

She turned around to look at Xie Ci, only to find that Xie Ci had already woken up.

His face was very pale, without a trace of blood. Xie Ci had lost a lot of blood, and even the burns from the wounds were bleeding very slowly, with a faint white tinge of blood loss visible in his muscles.

There was no light in the room. He sat quietly on the bed with his knees hugged, staring at the screen in a daze, not knowing what he was thinking. He looked listless, and his beautiful eyes, as gorgeous as roses, suddenly lost all their luster.

It was as if someone had suddenly taken away his indomitable will. There was a glimmer of tears in his eyes, and a shocking sorrow.

"Am I stupid and naive?"

Xie Ci noticed that Gu Guan had woken up, and his watery eyes turned to look at her. In the dim light, Gu Guan's brows softened and he looked at him with concern.

Xie Ci was stunned. Only now did he realize that loyalty and righteousness were no longer appropriate. The Xie family had unknowingly become a stumbling block for everyone.

It was not until today, when he recalled it again, that he realized that Gu Wan would occasionally stop talking about the right things, and what he said at that time sounded like one thing, but when he recalled it again now, he realized that there was a deeper meaning.

Gu Guan was not surprised at all by what Lu Xinyi said.

She had long seen through this absurd and sad world, but was kind and gentle and unwilling to break the belief that only existed in his heart at that time.

"Who said that?"

Gu Guan shook her head: "You are a hero." She also sat on the side of the cot, put her feet on the edge of the bed and hugged her knees. She said, "I have known you for a long time. I admire you very much."

"Just like in today's battle, you saved so many Northern troops and generals. That's quite impressive."

The Northern Rong were finally driven out. Heavy troops were stationed at the northern entrance of Guixu and the Malian Road crossing to repair the passes and gates overnight, but it was inevitable that the Northern Rong would make a comeback one day.

These are all fire seeds.

Her eyes were sincere and she spoke from the heart.

"hero?"

Xie Ci smiled bitterly. The word that had once been the highest honor in his mind now sounded indescribably bitter. He stared at the dark screen for a long moment, muttering, "I dreamed of my father and my brother."

He choked a little, and his heart skipped a beat while he spoke, the pain so sharp it was suffocating.

He felt miserable and worthless for his father and brother.

No wonder, no wonder, no wonder so many people betrayed his father. Apart from Su Zhen and the other two who had to do so, there were also Yan Zongze and the other two who were the real betrayers. They were all his father's trusted generals who had been promoted by him and had been through many hardships for many years.

The father and son of the Xie family were unjustly beheaded, and throughout the whole process, so many people in the Northern Army remained silent.

It turns out that it has violated everyone's interests.

Now that things have changed, it is really rare that Qin Xian and others are still willing to follow him to death.

Xie Ci lowered his head and stroked the small copper letter tube. He had read the secret letter written on Yuquan imperial paper inside many times.

"Wan Niang, is this true or false?"

The common people were still enjoying the afterglow of prosperity, but they did not know that the imperial court above them was already deeply ill and corrupt. From top to bottom, from the middle to the border troops, Xie Ci's blood ran cold. He didn't know if it was because he had lost too much blood, but he suddenly felt very cold.

"Wan Niang, I'm a little cold." So cold.

There is no road ahead.

Lu Xinyi's words were still vivid in his mind. For the first time, Xie Ci realized so clearly that there was really no way out for being loyal to the country and the court, and serving the king and the monarch.

If he continues to follow the path of his father and brother, it will inevitably be a dead end.

It doesn’t even take long.

"But, but I can't die. I still have Qin Xian, He Yuan and the others. I also promised the soldiers who died in battle that I would take care of their families..."

But there is no way forward!

Xie Ci got angry and threw the small brass tube to the ground. He was so angry that he stared at it intently.

"Thank you!"

His head was buzzing, but at this moment, a clear shout came! Gu Wan straightened up, and she reached out solemnly to pull Xie Ci over.

Gu Wan had been waiting for a long time to say this to Xie Ci. Face to face, she said to him slowly and seriously, "There's nothing wrong with being loyal and righteous!"

She affirmed him with one word.

"But I personally think that the loyalty and righteousness you understand nowadays cannot be considered great loyalty and righteousness."

"Didn't the sages say that the people are most important, the country is second, and the king is least important?"

Gu Guan lowered her voice and spoke word by word. She was certainly not denying the father and son of the Xie family, but the wise monarch was gone and the dynasty was on the decline. What she hated most in her life was a tragedy like Yue Fei.

Gu Guan is a modern person, and she naturally sees through the changes of dynasties. In her eyes, the Qin, Han, Tang and Song dynasties are all the same.

"Great loyalty is loyalty to the people, loyalty to the country and the mountains and rivers; lesser loyalty is loyalty to the country and the emperor. But the country is not this country, and the country is not the emperor."

In the darkness of the night, she held his shoulders, half-knelt and raised her body, and spoke every word carefully to him.

On such a sorrowful night, if someone else said these words, Xie Ci might think that the other person was hurting him and mocking his dead father and brother.

But the person in front of him was Gu Wan.

He had no resistance at all.

He was just stunned when he heard it. "Great loyalty is loyalty to the people and loyalty to the country? Small loyalty is loyalty to the emperor of the country?"

"Can this be separated?"

This was the first time Xie Ci had ever heard of loyalty and righteousness being divided in this way. How could the nation and the people be separated? How could they be separated? This was completely different from the concepts he had known and accepted since childhood.

He felt confused and uncomfortable. He immediately replaced the image of his father with that of a little loyalty and righteousness. His heart felt like it had been hit hard by a file, causing him unbearable pain. His eye sockets and nose suddenly felt hot.

He covered his face and tried his best to bear it.

"Today I suddenly missed my father and brother very much!"

Unprecedented thoughts, knowing that they were going against the wind and it was difficult to move forward, and persisting in the quagmire, only to encounter cruel backstabbing.

"When they died, they must have felt very sad, heartbroken, desperate and indignant."

Xie Ci bent down to pick up the small mailbox twice but failed. Gu Guan leaned over, picked it up and put it in his hand, twisted his fingers and held it, asking him to hold it tightly.

Xie Ci looked up at her. In the dim light, her hair was slightly disheveled, and her face still showed a hint of haggardness and fatigue, but her eyes were as warm as spring water, just like the palm of her hand, softly wrapping around him.

Xie Ci murmured, "Wan Niang, will you always stay with me?"

This night, with no way out before his faith was shattered and withered, he mourned the death of his father and brother, was in a daze and grief, and the coldness of excessive blood loss swept over his whole body.

Looking around, he felt so cold and lonely that he was a little scared.

Hearing this question, Gu Wan let out a silent breath. She knew that once she answered this question, there would be no less trouble later. But at this moment, facing his pale face, he didn't know how weak he was now, like a drowning man with a pair of eyes full of hope. She immediately held his hands tightly and said without hesitation: "Yes, no matter what, I will be with you!"

In this way, he would not let down his original determination to commit suicide to be with her.

In an instant, Xie Ci could no longer hold back his tears, which burst out in an instant and flowed down. He closed his eyes, choking with sobs and unable to speak for a while.

He lunged forward and leaned on her shoulder. All the tears and pain burst out with the tears, soaking a large area of Gu Wan's clothes in an instant.

It’s good to cry. It’s a good thing to be able to cry.

It will be fine.

Gu Wan was also feeling a little uncomfortable. She took a deep breath and patted his shoulder gently. "Cry, it will be fine after you cry."

Xie Ci felt as if something had stabbed his heart, making him feel sore and weak that his tears suddenly flowed even more violently.

In her warm embrace and her gentle words of comfort, he could cry as much as he wanted.

Xie Ci cried bitterly at the end and hugged her tightly.

He thought that he would never be able to let go in this life, and he could not give her the divorce papers.

The author has something to say:

Gu Wan (QAQ): After all the comforting, I was the one who got hurt.

What Baby said yesterday was right. Li Yi had gritted his teeth and surrendered to Feng Kun for himself and Xie Ci, so now Xie Ci had only two choices: one was a dead end, and the other was a way to survive that would overturn all the darkness.

Whisper it quietly, we've actually been propeller-like ascending all along! (Smoking~)

I'm giving you guys a little heart~ I'll add more babies tomorrow!! (づ￣3￣)づ╭