Chapter 87 I know you don’t want to hear it, but I still want to tell you…

Through the phone, Guan Xia could hear Meng Lan's heavy breathing that sounded like gasping, and she seemed to be able to foresee Meng Lan's ferocious expression that was a little excited.

Guan Xia's thoughts raced, and she also raised her tone a little, trying to calm Meng Lan down. She didn't want to have an argument. When people are in extreme emotions, they will find it difficult to control themselves and say hurtful words to others, so she prefers to talk calmly, which can really solve the problem.

Guan Xia controlled her emotions and spoke calmly, "Meng Lan, from a responsibility perspective, every parent should raise their child well after giving birth. Morally speaking, they are the two people in this world who should love their child the most. But in addition to being parents, they are also individuals first and foremost. They cannot be controlled, and we cannot control them either. So, the only thing we can control is ourselves. If they don't love us, we should love ourselves even more. We can treat ourselves as children and slowly raise ourselves well. As long as we love ourselves, then we are the people who love ourselves the most in this world, and whether others love you or not is not that important. So, Meng Lan..."

Guan Xia tried hard to make her tone sincere and genuine. She was not just saying it casually, or saying something randomly to comfort Meng Lan. She really felt that way.

The reason why she always responded to Meng Lan was not because she was kind or tolerant, but because she could understand her because she had been like that before she traveled through time.

She had envied other people's parents for being so kind and loving them so much, and that they could act spoiled and willful without restraint. At that time, she naively believed that parents were born to love their children. She had made countless attempts for this. She tried to get close to them and to please them, but nothing changed. The parents who should have loved her still looked at her indifferently, and even blamed her for bringing trouble to their new family. She should have stayed quietly in the old house, and be satisfied with the child support they transferred to her, and should not have disturbed them.

It took Guan Xia many years to accept the reality that no one in this world should love anyone except herself.

During those restless days and nights, she fell in love with painting. As her painting skills improved, she was finally able to reconcile with herself.

It is also because of this that after coming to this world, she can always move forward without distraction. She loves herself, so she is confident. She always believes that her life will only get better.

Guan Xia really wanted to share this experience with Meng Yun, but unfortunately, before she could finish, she was interrupted by Meng Lan's short laugh.

Those sounds were laughter, but more like ridicule. Meng Lan's tone became increasingly sharp as she spoke, "Guan Xia, sometimes I really envy you and feel jealous of you. Why is it that even though we're both in an orphanage, you're always so calm and keep moving forward with such determination? No matter whether others are kind or malicious towards you, it seems like nothing can affect you. Sometimes I really want to be like you, not caring about anything and just working hard for the future. But my heart and my mind are out of control. They're always full of random thoughts, always trying to find the truth, and they always give rise to so many unwilling emotions. I don't want to keep asking myself why, I don't want to cry, I don't want to feel bad, but I can't do it."

Meng Lan sniffed and gave another short laugh. "You can call me vicious or cruel, but when I helped you find your parents, I had some bad intentions. I wanted to know if you could remain calm after knowing the truth about your life experience. So I'm sorry, I know you don't want to hear it, but I still want to tell you. I know you want to beat me up, so I'm waiting for you to come."

For a moment, Guan Xia had the urge to hang up the phone. It was not because she was afraid of knowing the truth about her life experience, but because Meng Lan's condition was obviously not right. Through previous analysis, Guan Xia could feel that Meng Lan did not have any malicious intentions as she said, otherwise she would not have avoided contact with her for so long and tried not to disrupt her peaceful life. She was just worried that Meng Lan would say something contrary to her heart in this state.

But in the end, Guan Xia didn't hang up the phone. She listened to Meng Lan's mocking words on the other end: "You don't know how much you look like your sister. You have the same eyes, a very similar face shape and facial features, but her smile is much brighter than yours, and her eyes are much more stupid than yours. It's so clear that it makes people feel bored. It's funny to say that your parents tasted the forbidden fruit in high school, crying and threatening to commit suicide to give birth to you. But when they really gave birth to you, less than two months later, they felt that they couldn't afford your life and that their lives would be ruined. So they threw you into the trash can without a care in the world. What happened? A few years after graduating from college, the two of them got back together and got married. They even had another child, but they completely forgot about you, as if you had never existed in this world. They never even thought about getting you back. It's like they assumed you were dead."

Meng Lan sneered, "Aren't these two people ridiculous? Don't you feel unwilling when you hear this, Guan Xia? They decided your birth and departure in such a ridiculous and cruel way. In fact, when I was secretly following them, I wanted to reveal your existence several times. I wanted to see such a sweet family of three being destroyed, but I also felt that they were really not worthy of being your relatives. You are so good, and their existence is like a stain on you. Of course, if you want to see this family destroyed, I am happy to help you do it. How about it? Do you want to consider it? Anyway, you are successful now, just treat it as a fun thing for your life. Don't you want to see them regretting and crying and wanting to get you back?" Meng Lan asked lightly and with a bit of malice.

Guan Xia listened carefully but remained calm. She might be anxious about other things, but when it comes to the matter of her parents, ever since she reconciled with herself, she rarely had any emotional fluctuations when she heard this word.

Guan Xia said calmly, "I don't want to. How they live has nothing to do with me. I have never longed for their love, so I don't care whether they love me or not. There are very few things I care about, but you are one, Meng Lan. I always think that we are friends. We were in the past and we are still friends now. Because of you, we missed a few years in each other's lives. I want to make up for it, so are you willing to tell me what happened to you in the past few years after we lost contact? If you are interested, I will tell you about mine, but mine is much more boring, not much different from before. You know I have always been a homebody."

Guan Xia kept chattering away, trying to trick people into thinking more sincerely.

Meng Lan was silent for a long time before she sighed and said, "Actually, I've always had a lot to say to you, but a lot has happened so far, and it's a long story. Let's wait a few days. Let's find a chance to meet. I'll go to Yongquan City to find you. I really miss the time when I was in school there. I've always liked your school. It's so beautiful. We can sit in our old seats and chat while looking at the scenery."

Although she didn't get the answer she wanted, she was finally promised to contact him next time. Guan Xia's expression remained unchanged, but she secretly breathed a sigh of relief in her heart. She didn't want to lose this friend unless she had no other choice.

He quickly replied with an "OK", and the two agreed on a time to meet before hanging up the phone.

Guan Xia handed the phone back to Yan Fei who had consciously walked to the corner, smiled and said thank you, and then walked to Pang Le who had been looking at her worriedly at the door.

Pang Le first lowered his head and carefully observed her expression before asking in a low voice, "How is it? Did you not quarrel? I just vaguely heard you want to beat Meng Lan. What did she do to offend you? If you are sure you want to beat her, do you need my help?"

Pang Le asked seriously, as if as long as she nodded in agreement, he would really set out immediately to beat Meng Lan.

Guan Xia noticed from the corner of her eye that Xu Nian and the others were still looking at the portraits in the corridor one by one, and then she whispered, "It's not really a quarrel, it's just a little dispute. As for what you did to me..."

Guan Xia paused, hesitated for a moment, but still didn't hide it from Pang Le. She whispered, "Meng Lan did do something immoral behind my back. She found my biological parents."

Pang Le was extremely shocked and gasped for air. After a moment, he said, "She's really quite wicked. No wonder you wanted to beat her up. But your friend..."

Pang Le touched his chin and pondered his words for a while before continuing, "To be honest, it's a bit difficult for me to comment. Judging from what she's showing now, I always feel very contradictory. Logically speaking, since she went to find your biological parents without telling you, she must have wanted to tell you, but she did the opposite and simply cut off contact with you. She seems very afraid and wants to hurt you. Is she sick? Don't get me wrong, I'm not scolding her. I mean it literally. Her mental state..."

Pang Le didn't say anything else. He pointed his index finger at his head, using a suggestive gesture to complete his unfinished words.

Guan Xia recalled Meng Lan's slightly frantic state during their conversation just now, and nodded with some hesitation, "I do think there's something wrong with her. I also have a hunch that there might be something fishy about the accidental deaths of her biological parents and her brother."

Pang Le was stunned for a moment, then hesitantly said, "You mean... maybe it wasn't an accident?"

Guan Xia said, "It's hard to say right now. Her condition gave me a hunch, but it's also possible that I'm overthinking it. Anyway, she'll come to see me in a few days, so I'll try to get some information out of her. If that doesn't work, I'll ask Sister Ji to investigate quietly."

"What if it really wasn't an accident?" Pang Le suddenly asked, "I declare again that I'm really not trying to sow discord. I just want to say that you know your intuition is always accurate. If she really..."

Guan Xia was also worried about this issue. Now that Pang Le asked it bluntly, her heart sank. She did not answer directly, but said: "No matter who it is, as long as they break the law, they must be brought to justice."

After hearing this, Pang Le said nothing, but just sighed heavily and patted Guan Xia's shoulder gently to comfort her.

After leaving the training center, Guan Xia took Pang Le and the others to visit other places. Guan Xia then discovered that even the small playground used as a playground for young children had been expanded a bit and was much more interesting than before.

In addition to the regular items such as slides and sand pools, the playground has also added many small wooden horses and inflatable castles. The sun is still very strong at this time, and there are many children running in and out and having fun. Their silver bell-like laughter is very contagious. Even Guan Xia and others who passed by could not help but cast their eyes on them.

Everyone stood under the shade of the tree and watched for a while. Guan Xia felt like she had forgotten something. After thinking for a while, she remembered and couldn't help but turn to ask Pang Le, "Why don't you ask me about what Meng Lan found out about my life? Aren't you curious at all?"

Pang Le was still staring intently, without even turning his head, and said casually: "I'm curious, but it's your privacy after all, and I know you very well. If you want to say it, you will definitely tell me, so I'll just wait."

"What if I never tell you?" Guan Xia suddenly showed a bad taste in his mouth.

Pang Le then turned his head and looked at Guan Xia intently, saying with certainty, "You will definitely tell me. You even told me about Meng Lan. How could you not tell me about your background, which is completely unimportant to you?"

Pang Le said it as a matter of course. Guan Xia couldn't help laughing when she heard it. The fate between people is really wonderful. She and Meng Lan grew up together. They know each other but not that well. Pang Le has only known her for more than two years. Except for their values, they are very compatible in other aspects.

It turned out that what she had always believed was correct. People must love themselves, then more and more people who are compatible with you will love you.