[He Xiaobei, actually I have accumulated a lot of words to tell you, some of which are about anger, some about missing you, and some about He Chen.

But when I actually got your contact number and started sending you messages, I suddenly didn't know where to start.

But to dispel your concerns, let me start with my mother's story.

You should have guessed it, but my mother was actually very bad to me. I can’t say she was bad, but I can even say she was very bad.

She schemed to get my father to give birth to me a few years ago, but my father didn't like her.

At first she was kind to me, but as soon as my father left she left me to the nanny.

She didn't have the kindness that a mother should have, and to her I was just a tool to win my father's favor.

Later, my father started to hate her more and more because of all the stupid things he did to her, and he even rarely came home.

She started asking me to lie to trick my father into coming back, and even deliberately made me sick.

I grew up in this environment, and when I was ten years old my father took me away from her.

However, I did not receive my father's love, but was raised by his assistant. But fortunately, I no longer get beaten or suffer.

I am not telling you this to gain your sympathy. I just want to tell you that my relationship with that woman is really not good, even very bad.

Later, when I grew up, I started to take revenge on her. I arranged for the woman next to my father, and I just wanted her to watch her position being replaced by someone else.

It was also me who arranged for her brother to gamble. I just wanted her to lose everything after divorcing her father and not have a single good day in her life.

But up to this point I didn't actually hate her that much, I just wanted her to get the retribution she deserved.

But until you appeared, I began to hate her.

She tortured me when she was alive, and she can still influence me after her death.

If it weren't for her death, our relationship wouldn't be like this.

If it weren't for her death, I think you would have come closer to me sooner.

But isn’t this my retribution?

After talking about her, let me talk about us and myself.

I admit that I had a purpose when I first contacted you. I knew about you and Qi Yang, and I was even arrogant enough to think that I was better than him.

After the end of the world, the situation in S City has changed a lot. You have Professor Qing as your backer. If I marry you home, I will get great benefits.

Especially that time at the banquet at the official base of S City, the way you looked at me was so passionate that I ridiculously thought you liked me.

However, the benefits that your identity can bring are enough to make Qi Yang and I break up. At the beginning, I wanted to take it slow with you, but later you actually came to me so proactively.

I thought everything was under my control, but I didn't expect you to run away the next day.

To be honest, I started learning management from my father when I was seventeen years old, and I have never been so frustrated, whether it is a company project or dealing with people.

So I was very angry at first, and I wanted to coax you back.

But later I heard that Qi Yang had obtained the contract that my father had left behind, so I had some guesses, which were finally confirmed.

So I thought I really missed you, and I never contacted you again.

But I adopted He Chen because I thought she was a bargaining chip.

She is very well behaved and it is not a big deal to raise her.

But gradually I discovered that I was not as calm as I thought, and I always thought of you at night.

And this longing became stronger and stronger. I didn’t quite understand it, but my friend explained to me that it was love.

I'm sorry for taking advantage of you at first, but now I can say with certainty that I like you very much.

I raised He Chen because of you in the beginning, but later on I liked him more and more.

I think it will be difficult for me to have children in the future. With her around, I won’t feel so lonely.

But you don't need to feel pressured. I didn't come to the Kyoto base entirely because of you.

First, I was worried about He Chen coming here, and I wanted to be with her.

Secondly, I also want to develop in Kyoto. The natural disaster situation is getting worse and worse, and this is the best choice.

I thought that once I reached a certain level, I would be able to give you a better life, and I would do whatever you wanted to do.

But after coming here, I realized that you no longer need to rely on anyone, and you can reach heights that others cannot reach.

I'm also very sorry for being rash after hearing about you and Qin Yuan. I was the one who spread that news.

Because I felt jealous for the first time, I couldn't control myself and it had some impact on you.

But these problems were solved, and He Chen also got a good job.

We are all waiting for your return at Kyoto base.

Also, if possible, please don’t wear that blue diamond pendant anymore. It was given to another woman by my father.

I've prepared a better one for you. I'll bring it to you next time you trade supplies with Kyoto.

If possible, when we meet again, I want to give you a hug. 】