An apology is necessary, this time it was too much.

But I have to emphasize that, in essence, it is a writer's block, that is, I can't write anything, and I am completely broken. Of course, the game does play a role as an induction here.

In fact, I definitely played games, but I spent more time watching movies. In addition to the three seasons of "Golden Kamuy" and "Hyouka", I found that I also reviewed "The Lord of the Rings" and "The Hobbit" on Bilibili.

I forgot what I had read while reading the Collection of Essays on Commercial Taxes in the Southeast of the Song Dynasty. After reading 200 pages, I had already forgotten what I had read before.

The whole person is completely broken.

To be honest, I was a little surprised myself... I just realized that I haven't cleaned the cat poop for four days.

There was a bowl of dog meat soup that had not been touched for four days and two roujiamo in the refrigerator. Looking at the express bags, one was three days old and the other was two days old. There was garbage all over the floor. He hadn't been on Zhihu for about two days, and there were a lot of unreply WeChat messages. There were also two express deliveries at the door that I didn't know when they would arrive.

Then I thought about it for a long time and remembered that I saw someone showing off dog meat on Zhihu, so I bought a bag out of curiosity, and only ate half of it after cooking it.

It feels a bit like dog meat soup poisoning, but it's definitely not that.

As for why I am stuck in writing to this extent? I don’t know what’s wrong with other people, but for me, I feel more and more that what I wrote before is rubbish, and I just don’t have the ability to improve and write something that meets my expectations. So the more I write, the more I feel depressed, and this happens every few days… But before, they said I wrote once a month, but now it’s getting more and more frequent. This means that my personal ability and talent have reached the ceiling.

Someone also reminded me that the previous leave application caused public outrage... To be honest, I haven't read it, and I dare not read it, but I can probably understand why some people are angry. Maybe it's the tone and attitude?

But I really don’t know what attitude to take?

I always thought that I was a person with self-respect... Probably when the actor had written less than three million words, he once again asked for subscriptions at the end of a chapter, and someone dissed him in person in the group, probably saying that asking for subscriptions would affect the reading experience of the novel.

And since then, I basically haven't asked for subscriptions, nor have I asked for any monthly tickets or recommendation tickets. Rewards should be considered as asking for it once... Because during the period of "Fu Han", some book friends helped organize a Hundred Alliances event, so I am not qualified to say this.

But in essence, there is always something in my heart that can be called arrogance or stubbornness.

It’s just like the sentence at the beginning of the book… I’ll write slowly and you’ll read slowly… I don’t want to be that kind of slutty bitch.

But I still hope everyone understands that I don’t have any impatience or malice in my heart.

And this time it really went too far.

So, sincerely ask for forgiveness.

I won’t kowtow anymore. Kowtow will disgust everyone… I’ll bow and apologize… I need to take a shower and hope everything will be fine.

But now I don’t know what to do with that pot of dog meat soup.